Testimony of Om — George Verwer

Me shouting in that other room just a moment ago. I was talking to Bombay India. But I'm a gun so you see that was a massive hana here. It wasn't that in power. You'll tell the guy into Bombay I think about and a few minutes before that.

I was talking to Manchester, England. That's one thing you know what is it about the ink water Manchester the people trying to find out if the Lord has Brought in some money to pay our bills. Let us know what he owes from Manchester.

Hey Y 'all tie. Yeah, this was a funky. Would you wait? I'm gonna take a piece of shit whenever we sail away from anywhere. We usually leave many bills behind. I thought I would be kind you got to the gung-ho the whole woman.

Prayer-Supported Ministry and Answers to Prayer

She's not used to One who and one of the most unusual things about this ministry is the way God has brought in Finance in answer to prayer alone. I think that's what was trying to come to our dream. You can't come in Sunday the control to the.

Yes, I'll got a control right thing way down. This is what my. This is not the first time in history that this has happened. I'll tell you a thing was a Lady to sound pieces of botherness. Some of you know the ministry of Hudson Taylor in China and the money this man Saw come in for his work in answer to prayer.

Never thought of it. Oh, it's got a fight. That's in sight. Don't walk on door. Don't see all the floor. Thank you. Yes, I'll do. Y 'all some of you have heard the name of George Mueller. I'll tell you man.

You take out that a judge Moolah the cooler at the end of his life. By time you send the生活当中. He had 25 ,000 answers to prayer. Hi, you are One which end up from something about the top of the heart. He had this very large orphanages.

I'll tell you even father the good boy. Yes. He prayed in millions and millions of pounds sterling to feed these children and only God knew his needs. How's the cows are thinking like how about the boy?

The Suffering of Vietnam and the Need for Prayer

Sunday's one woman would forget. How do you sound be enough to get up? There are many burdens on my heart this afternoon. I shall oh, but what do you mean? You don't bother from that especially in regard to the land of Vietnam.

I'll tell you this is the one you took up yet. Not if you have many of our brothers and sisters in Vietnam are going through suffering right now. That is completely beyond words. Are you see that to let it show me?

You don't understand that. So that's what I'm all promised. Oh, so don't go to bed. You better yet, not she knows news has just come on the radio that there is now a totally new government in Saigon. I think I told her The radio talking about that place.

I said a big on you. But in the temple down here now last year the ship had a tremendous time there in the city of Saigon. I've seen and put a lot of fun. You thought that I thought he gonna be back. We had 50 ,000 visitors.

I was even warm and y 'all should go London. I like a fun one of them that's what over 30 ,000 books went out in Vietnamese. Are you fun one dog? This is a yet another foodie. Please when they should be.

Presenting the claims of Jesus. Ah, this is a fun. He's a school. So he is lucky to the human. We had a telegram 10 days ago. But yeah, yeah, we're gonna get about from the whole church in Vietnam, please come to Saigon.

Ah, come on. Yeah, man. It's always a we just up. He needs I realize that a people also come immediately to do name I can expired for the kind of like a doonan as you know to name no longer. It's free.

I'll put a doonan eating face. Fuck done. We just had news on the radio that one of the airplanes of 150 refugees has crashed and all have been killed. I'll say it's a nice way thing that the one hand what's a little girl you eat?

Yeah, we decide if I will sit it on me. You get fun. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, I believe these are days when all of us need to be praying. Definitely for Vietnam and for God's people in Vietnam and for the entire situation.

So I think I can't even make up something that's for me. If you are waiting for yet, and I'm done with it yet, and I'm the joy I told him about God. There are many other burdens on my heart. But what do they use.

He taught us a couple that I wish this was a three-day conference not a one-day conference. I was he wants it all things with the easy ways of Sunday and the place your way and I wish this ship was a little bigger.

Well, she was a little trust and then come down so we can have more people. I won't sound I couldn't order them, but one of the ways we make up for this is through the Christian book. You're in the bungalow moments.

Christian Books, Discipleship Resources, and Training

I like sort of wonderful. Just yet. Oh. She'll tell the Suji the Christian book exhibition is not yet open. I'll take a ship deal to the Suji the time and I may have I have next week. They'll be over 500 different Christian books on display.

I said, uh. There's a Sunday that's all you know. What's all about this fooling the Suji which I have in China and some of them at very very special price. Ah, thank you, Suji. You doesn't hurt. Yeah, my studio.

Well, we're bringing just a few Into this meeting then so that we'll get to keep until getting us. I want to especially mention the writing of a W chosen. I want to get out of you. It's just a pause. Uh, that's what he has all the food these books are very expensive in the United States.

There's a pause of the fools is a美國是很貴的. But because these are Indian edition. They are half the price anyway, so there's a thing you do you draw the instance of much like with us a bunch up. And I have never read the strong spiritual meat as this man has in his writing.

I will have that fooling Suji limits is that you put them out there. We made a lot young. I was young for the watch either to talk and. Some of you are from the Methodist Church, I believe. Ah, what am I doing?

You're supposed to talk with you. Don't hide up. You will find this man walking in the steps of Wesley. Ah, what kind of sailor? I'm just gonna say wait silly. Oh, I thought I was a donkey and I've been reading this book this week.

I think I think he was a Japanese. But I've read every one of these other books by a W chosen is about seven of them. After the toilet each one you to do it. I will show you all that you keep up. I just do what we will be giving you as a gift.

My own book. Hunger for reality. Ah, why else don't get that guy? If I just want to do it. Oh, this is a good food. The e-cup. Yes, I'm not a very good writer. Our thing was a good one. I was a bad part of this book on the quotation from mr. Tozer's books.

I put in my book. That's what we do. Yeah, what are the three things we hold up? What is it? You know? Who's uh, uh, who's what you have to do? What a fun way to put it in and I hope you will read some of these books.

But what you see what you meant to you to wait to get here to do. There's also some very very interesting books by other writers. I have to tie. Honey. You think it is a suki. Ah, she's got the other people so she and that will be a great blessing to you.

What's up in three? You meant I truly howl in some time on yet. You're not upon to also as an expression of our fellowship with you. We will be giving you a number of outstanding books as gift. Hoping that after you read them you may give them to someone else.

Evangelism, Literature Distribution, and Global Mission

I'll say senator fellow man, but do you mean you took a food and quantity you eat? Ah, why else don't you make it so you don't even touch it? Yes, you win my business to get some get better, you know our teams work in some very interesting countries like Turkey.

Our woman's a lot on the工作有的是在这个土耳其. I mean come on if you go out in the streets of Turkey to give out a piece of literature. Look at it up. What do you think? Oh, yeah. Yeah. What about you sound of wind?

I know you'll be arrested. Maybe they call you. So it's very difficult In. But some of our teams they go out just after dark. That's a you know, I'm a 20 minute around. Hey, I'm on the floor. I'm a two-tier.

I don't give out any literature. Ah, come on, which is 2g fun. Wow, we've done tough. Thank you. Hi, so you're positive sometimes about a fun time today. We have lost over 100 ,000 pieces of literature in the land of Turkey.

How much of the Tn Tn 1 yeah. Some years ago. I was working in a closed country. What country a closed? Like a One phase of what the other to the one you put in front of the boy. Yeah, you could not openly evangelize.

I'm not a slowly book like oh my. But unfortunately I had a hole in my pocket. I kept putting New Testament into my pocket and I kept losing those. In many of these countries Thousands of people have written in after finding literature and enrolled in Bible correspondence courses and all that this is.

That was a good thing. You know, how much it seems like for you and you and Jessica. I'm so cotton truly. We have a God Who answers prayer? Oh, what's today? You're a zombie. It's a powerful woman to follow God.

Nothing is too hard for him. Ah, thanks. Don't be fine. This is okay. You know another burden on my heart. It's just to share something of what Jesus Christ has done for me I do so y 'all can that a friend.

From Materialism and Pleasure to Faith in Christ

Yeah, yes, we'll do that. What's inside? What's what's up, sir? I was not from a Christian home. What was it from that was it for me? But it was the other thing that my grandfather was from Holland. Oh, what are you?

I thought it was a whole lot of many years ago. I believe that that has control of Malaysia, I don't know whether that was good or bad. Ah, she's a what's about police? Ah Yeah. But My grandfather was an atheist.

What a fool. That's a girl. What's a pilot? My other grandfather was from Scotland. He was a drunkard. Oh, how you like a to boot up? I thought the phone that uh, uh, so cool. I like that I think it's thank you my own father left Holland and went to the United States.

I don't know what a fortune because of a Holland to Tell me what he was just the 20th century materialist I'll toss the earth will be the that got out of all. What's this? We love he was not against God.

Nothing. Oh, God, I'll tell people like some young I'll tell you something. Yeah, I'm very nice to the young people I'll tell me a sweet team and that's another but when you get older, it must be money I'll tell you something.

Oh, no, that's the whole us. That's something to do. Yeah, now I know this in Singapore. I don't know much about Malaysia. I've never been here except the Kuala Lumpur Airport. What do you know? Thank you, Tom.

That's what we need to go. I found it. Oh, what is it? Oh, that's all I'm gonna jump out of this yet a thing Jenna, but I lived in Thailand for a while and I lived in Singapore a very short time. How are you doing?

I think that boy is doing that type of event but I noticed in Singapore That's a lot. I got shit of the team job all the people many young people come to the meeting. You see those young men and women.

Many boys and girls come to the meeting until Sunday. First they're looking around. Come and come and come. I got you. He has the money. It's like a do it. Then you have been fine there marriage partner in the church.

Whatever that I thought you better. I'll tell them something's in the do it. But one or two years after the marriage. After a year or two of marriage, they no longer found in the church. Because money quickly becomes our god after we get married.

Money became the god in my family. In fact, when I was 11 years of age, I went into business. By 15, I had 3 businesses. And I thought with money, nothing could stop me. But somehow there was not that real satisfaction.

I then became very involved in dating. I don't know if you have that interesting system in Malaysia. In India, when we talk about dates, people are thinking this is some fruit that we are eating. But I think you seem to understand the system better than the Indians.

So every week I was with a different girl, off to the nightclubs, off to the dances, off to the flicks. The Americans call them movies, the English call them flicks, cinemas. And I thought therefore, next to money, the main thing was to have a good time and get a lot of pleasure.

And I wasn't satisfied. A dear elderly lady began to pray for me. And then she sent me a Gospel of John. And I began reading this Gospel of John. I don't know how many times you have read that. Worst book in the Bible.

But it's well worth reading. And as I read this Gospel of John, I realized something of Jesus Christ. Then a man named Billy Graham came to New York City. I live near New York City. Now I didn't understand anything about this kind of thing.

I didn't know what the word evangelism meant. Evangelism, what is this? Evangelism, what is this? But I saw that Billy Graham played sports, and I was a sports fanatic, so I thought I would go listen to this person.

I saw Billy Graham, he likes to play basketball. So I said, what does this basketball guy have to say? So I went. Also this one girl who I was rather interested in, faithfully, I thought she could use some of this religion because she had a brother.

That's such a nice wife. Now I had started to go to church. Because I discovered there's some really nice girls in the church. So I mean, once a week, looking around the church, no harm in that. And pretty soon they made me president of the youth fellowship.

And so I thought I was becoming quite a religious fellow. And what a tremendous difference there is between religion and knowing Jesus Christ personally. All the difference in the world. I began to get some religion.

But I didn't know Christ. Which meant I started to live a double life. I had the Sunday life. But on my nice spring church, I had my mother and sister in church. Such a good boy, my mother. And then I joined the Boy Scouts.

I tried to get in the Girl Scouts. And then I joined the YMCA. And I thought that, you know, I had enough good work, that if I died, my good work would balance my bad work, and I would go to heaven. A lot of people think that.

But I began living this double life. And I speak about this in my book, which I hope you will take time to read. On Saturday night, on Monday night, I was a different person. But that night in New York City, as Billy Graham spoke, and later on in the week, we'll have some of his books available.

I heard the gospel. That Jesus Christ died for me. And he pointed out from the Bible. The way of salvation. And he called on people to repent, to turn around, and to follow Christ. You see, so many people believe with their heads.

So does the devil. But to know God, we must believe with the heart, with the life. And that night, I made my commitment. And he came into my life. And he began to change my life. And what I want to share with you now, mainly this afternoon, are some of the problems I had as a young Christian of 17 years of age.

The Christian Life and the Conflict with Sin

And at 18, when I went up to university. I'm sure that many of you already know the Lord Jesus Christ. He has come into your life. He's brought that joy and that peace. You know that your sins are forgiven.

That's our privilege. As believers in Jesus Christ. But I'm sure there are some who may not have yet taken that step. You can do that even today. There are probably others who, like me, are not finding it easy.

It seemed that after I came to Christ, I had more problems than before. Notice, if you will, in your Bible. In the book of Galatians. These very important words. The book of Galatians. Chapter 5. Verse 17.

For the flesh lusteth against the spirit, and the spirit against the flesh. And these are contrary to one to another, so that you cannot do the things that ye would. This shows the tremendous conflict of the child of God.

I don't know how many of you read Chinese. Probably most of you read English. But if you read Chinese, and you give me your name and address on a piece of paper, I will send you one of my books that I've just found out has just been printed in Chinese.

They sent me a big pile of these. I think they're in London. I will send them to you. It's called Pseudo-Discipleship or Mr. Phony Disciple. What are some of these battles that we have? Now, some of you may not have these problems.

I don't want to project my problems on you. But you may have some problems that I don't have. But let us not think that when we come to Christ, everything becomes easy and all of our problems go. That is utter nonsense.

Down here on this crazy mixed up planet, there will always be plenty of problems. God had a very special purpose in creating this planet. I wish I had time to speak to you about why God has created this planet, why God has created you.

I had many questions about this. But over the years, as I've read God's Word and studied many other books, I've received the answers to these questions. We always have a number of books available giving intellectual reasons why we believe in Jesus Christ.

We believe that's very important. We don't believe that Christians commit intellectual suicide. We began to show you books that present the intellectual reasons why we are followers of Jesus Christ. And in our work all over the world, we have people of every type.

Atheists. People of all different religions. But their soundness is transforming power in Christ. The ship has been sailing for four years. But our work has been going for more than 17 years. This summer, we're expecting over 2 ,000 young people from all over the world to unite together in a massive campaign.

And as I've talked to many of these young people, they've also shared that they had some of these problems in their Christian life. My first problem was lack of discipline. I was a very lazy person. I used to lay on the beach all day.

Discipline, Work, and the Transformation of Daily Habits

Drinking Coca-Cola and ice cream. Watching the girls go by. My great capitalistic dream was not to work. And I thought, let the other people work. I will collect the money. And so at 15, I had other people already working for me.

And I was learning how to be more lazy. Then I read in the Bible. If a man does not work, let him not eat. I thought this is really revolutionary teaching. Now as you can see, I don't eat very much. Our brother here, he is also very thin.

I once had an interpreter. I had to stand here from his stomach. And then we read in 1 Corinthians chapter 9. The writings of Paul that we should buffet our bodies and bring it into subjection. And I found this a great fact.

I found it difficult to get up in the morning. Somebody said, you must get up, study God's Word, you must get up and have prayer. The only thing I wanted to get up for was breakfast. I used to love to sleep.

And this was a great struggle in my life. But God began to work. I took these burdens to God. I thought, God, can you ever use me? With all my problems. And God gave me His promises. Paul said, I can do all things through Christ, who has fainted me.

So many years ago, I began getting up early every morning. Now for more than 17 years, every morning, 6 o 'clock, 6 .30, get up and get in God's Word. This has become the greatest habit of my life. Usually before doing that, I go out for a one-mile run so I get woken up and my blood starts circulating, keeps me awake.

And you can come here tomorrow morning at 5 o 'clock, 5 .30, 6 o 'clock, all different exercise groups getting up, some a little later than others, to train their body and discipline their body because we believe we're in a spiritual world.

We know we're in the spirit world. So tomorrow morning at 5 .30, 6 .30, you'll see all of us on the boat. They're getting up, they're exercising. And the Word of God, God's Word, as it enters our heart, cleanses our heart.

When it enters our heart, it brings us closer. It gives us strength. Notice Psalm 119. Yes, 4 days, 149 days, verse 9 and verse 11. Psalm 119. Verse 9 and verse 11. Wherewithal shall a young man cleanse his way by taking heed thereunto according to thy words?

Verse 11. By word have I hidden my heart that I may not sin against thee. By word have I hidden my heart that I may not sin against thee. And so the Word of God began to change my life. Are you memorizing the Word of God?

Hiding verses in your heart and in your mind? That's one of the most important things to cause you to grow and become strong in Jesus Christ. Then I had the problem of my life telling the truth. As a young man I learned how to lie.

Truthfulness, Integrity, and Living Without Pretence

Especially to my mother. She had so many ideas different from my ideas. She said, you must brush your teeth every day. There's nothing wrong with my teeth. And I didn't like to brush my teeth. I was only a little boy.

So I would just tell her I brush my teeth even though I didn't. I learned to tell little lies. Then she caught me. She took the toothbrush and she felt dry. So then before going out to the sports field I would throw some water on the toothbrush and then I would throw up.

And then when I was little she sent me to church. She said, now you take this money I think I have one one dollar. One dollar. Somebody gave me this this morning. She said, you put this in the collection place.

This place they pass around in the church. I don't know if they do that. So for some Sundays I put money in the collection place. And I thought, boy, all the things I could be doing with this money in this church don't need this money.

So when the collection plate went around I just kept the money and then I just bought what I wanted. What a silly thing to do for a young boy. But as I became a teenager these became habits in my life.

Now when I was converted to Christ some things went quickly. But other things were a struggle to tell the absolute truth. To be absolutely honest. To stop pretending and stop acting. Psychologists used to say we're all actors.

Especially in front of our friends. And my prayer was oh God make me real. Make me real. I don't want to pretend anymore. I don't want to pretend to be religious. I want to be real. And I saw the way of reality.

That's why I called my book Hunger for Reality. And I saw how God hates sin. When I saw how God hates sin then I wanted to be delivered more from that sin. And God can deliver us. And when we're free from these things it's a tremendous joy and freedom in our consciences and in our hearts.

Anger, Love, and the Evidence of Discipleship

Then I had a battle with my temper. Now I know very little about the Chinese people. I don't know anything about them. But when I lived in the Chinese section of Bangkok with the Chinese people I thought these are the most calm quiet loving gentle people in the whole world.

I have always felt just the opposite. So easily I lose my temper. Since little boy always getting in fights with my aunt and then Jesus now tells me I must love everybody. Eighty percent of the people I met before I was a believer in Christ I did not like.

Only certain kinds of girls would I ever take out on a date. Ninety percent of the girls in the United States yes. Could you do that again? I'd like to see. And I read in the word of God when I read when I read in when I read in the word of God the word of God how God hates the sin of anger.

My father was a very angry man. Screaming at my mother chasing her around the house. Throwing things at her. He was not a Christian. Later he came to Christ and he said Jesus Christ has saved our home from total annihilation.

My mother also would explode in anger. And I used to I used to bother my mother. One day she took my fishing worm she used worms to go fishing. And I said to my mother don't you know what you're doing?

Where are my worms? And she got angry. She grabbed a big knife and tried to put it right into my face. You know it was a wonderful day. By the way she was a Methodist. It was a wonderful day. When she came to know the Lord Jesus and it was God who calmed our house down.

Man made peace only goes so far. And I remember in Bangkok finally after some weeks the quiet Chinese people very angry with some Thai people. In Bangkok we had the Thai people Chinese people. And one of these very calm, dear man he took a big knife and he came charging down the street and he got some blood.

In fact the Thai man ran into my house and they ran all around the house. You see all people are the same. Some people just explode quicker than others. But the slower you explode the bigger the explosion at the end.

You know I've now traveled in about 50 countries and I believe with all my heart that we're all the same. Oh of course there are differences. There are many differences. But basically our hearts are the same.

We're selfish. We're proud. We want our own way. We get upset. And the only hope for the world today is God. Well I found this a great struggle as a young Christian. So many things used to upset me but God began to move me.

He began to change my life more and soon I was hardly ever losing my temper. I could always cast my burden upon the Lord. The greatest miracle of all in these past many years I have never met a man I could not love.

I cannot explain. But something has happened in my life that has given me a love and interest to all people in all. And that's what Jesus said. In John chapter 13 He says,. In this they will know you are my disciples because you love one another.

Maybe you can just look at that. Verse 35. Chapter 13. Verse 15 13, 35. By this you will all men know that you are my disciples if you have love one to another. And I hope you understand this. We have not come to Malaysia as great missionaries.

We are not missionaries. This ship is a training ship. We have different programs in different countries. Here our program has to be very educated. Most of the people on this ship are only here for two years.

Or one year. But our burden is training. That they may become strong loving disciples of Jesus Christ whether they go out eventually as a missionary or return to work in the Lord. And I hope that when I become a missionary they can continue to be a disciple.

And we praise God. That from Operation Mobilization the work of our name of our work worldwide people are now serving Christ all over the world. It's a revolution of love. But there was another thing that was a great struggle in my life.

Sexual Purity, Marriage, and Victory over Temptation

I hesitate to speak about this. In some countries they say to me I want to speak about sex. Not here in our church. We don't speak about that in our church. They're all very young people. They must not hear their dainty ears these things.

But you know the best thing. But there was another thing that was a great struggle in my life. I hesitate to speak about this. In some countries they say to me I want to speak about sex. Not here in our church.

We don't speak about that in our church. They're all very young people. They must not hear their dainty ears these things. But you know the Bible has over 300 verses on the subject of sex. I don't know about your Bible.

The Chinese Bible. Or whatever English Bible you have. It does not say in my Bible this to be only read by people over 21 years of age. This section not to be read when girls are present. This section for ladies only.

Every subject about sex is discussed in this book. Many times I'm speaking in universities. Often they write to me and they say please speak to us on the subject of sex in the Bible. And I find more Christians confused on this subject than any other subject I've spoken of.

Something that sex is doing. And the Bible teaches just the opposite. Just look at one verse. One of the 300 verses. In the book of Hebrews I think it's chapter 13. Book of Hebrews 13 verse 4. Marriage is honorable and all and the bed is undefiled but for dictators and adulterers God will judge.

In other words sex and everything that goes with sex within marriage is a beautiful wonderful God-given thing. But outside of marriage or with any other woman other than our wife it is fornication it is adultery it shall be judged by God.

Now as a young man I didn't get involved in deep sex affairs because I was afraid and I didn't have the opportunity. But I did everything in my mind CinemaScope Technicolor High Fidelity. And in the Sermon on the Mount Jesus said this is a sin against God.

And then I started to get involved with magazines very destructive magazines. As you may know we have a much greater problem with this in the Western world than most parts of the East. But now out of Japan and out of other countries are coming this landslide of pornographic and mind-destroying literature.

And the greater problem is doing these things brought tremendous guilt which brought other psychological problems. And believe me many Christians are having emotional and psychological problems because they don't know how to handle guilt in their lives.

And then I saw in God's Word there is victory in Jesus Christ. He can give us the strength over temptation and just as thrilling as that when we do fall flat on our face so to speak God still loves us.

He doesn't leave us and He picks us up. God has been picking me up for many many years. And I'm only here this afternoon and I'm going to close now because of God's love. Many people have a very legalistic Christianity.

Don't do this. Don't do that. Don't go here. Don't say this. Don't, don't, don't. Don't stop. And we all do these things sometimes in secret and then we feel a little guilty. And this guilt within us causes all kinds of insecurity problems and other struggles.

All the devil is very happy when he gets us that way. And I would ask of you this afternoon to breathe in the mercy of God to breathe in the forgiveness of God. If there is any sin in your heart confess it to God.

Turn from it and it will be cleansed and then it's gone. If it happens again as far as God is concerned that's the first time in history it ever happened. You say how can that be? That's due to the grace of God the forgiveness of God.

That's what the Bible is all about. We can't live without the grace of God. The harder we try the more we fail. I used to try to be good. I want to be a good boy. I used to swear all the time. I had so many filthy words out of my mouth.

And I said I'm not going to swear anymore. And I'm going to put some money in this bank. Every time I swear I'm going to put some money in this bank. Discipline. I couldn't do it. Every day I put money in this bank.

And as soon as I needed the money broke the bank. In our own power. We cannot clean our minds. We cannot clean our eyes. We cannot clean our tongues. There are many other sins of the tongue. We even find them in the church.

Grace, Obedience, and Becoming Doers of the Word

The sin of gossip. The sin of criticism. The sin of negativism. Sometimes before we were religious. This is gossip. But now in the church We're just sharing prayer requests. But the word of God says speak evil of no one.

My dear friends I propose a revolution. A revolution of life. Become a true disciple of Jesus Christ. In the book of James It says be not hearers of the word only but doers. We have heard many messages today.

But as we go from here What will it be? Another message. A nice meeting. We can make comments on the speaker. Big, tall, giant from India and this little skinny peanut from the United States. These interesting fellows.

Or will we go from here? Lord, what will you have me do? What will I do with my life? Will I be among those many? Who in their teenage years carries a little Jesus banner down the street. But when they get married And the problems come.