(Spirit-Filled Life) Part 4: Lay All on the Altar — Zac Poonen

Israel’s Deliverance and the Two Baptisms

What he wanted from man. Some of them we are familiar with like the Israelites being delivered from Egypt through the blood of the Lamb. It's a picture of our salvation through the blood of Christ. And it says in 1 Corinthians in chapter 10 that after they came out of Egypt they had two baptisms.

I don't know if they have noticed that. And that's something which many Christians haven't given much thought to. They had two immersions. After they put the blood on the door posts and they were saved by the blood of the Lamb.

It says in 1 Corinthians 10 and verse 2 they were all baptized into Moses in the cloud and in the sea. Now Moses is a picture of Christ who delivers us out of Egypt. Pharaoh is a picture of Satan. And the Lamb is of course a picture of Christ slain for our sins.

But what is this baptism in the sea and in the cloud? The rest of it we are familiar with. They ate the same spiritual food which is God's word. They drank the same spiritual drink which is the Holy Spirit.

Baptism when they went into the Red Sea and out. It was a picture of our water baptism. You know the whole nation of Israel went into the Red Sea and came out. That's how we are dipped in water and immersed to testify that the old man was crucified and buried and now we come out of the water.

But then when they came out of the water we read that a cloud from heaven came down upon them and they were immersed in that cloud. And that is a picture of the immersion in the Holy Spirit. It's also pictured there in the Old Testament.

And that cloud became a fire at night. And that is why the immersion in the Holy Spirit is called an immersion in fire. Baptism in the Holy Spirit and fire. But the point I want you to see is why did God send that cloud?

The Holy Spirit’s Purpose: From Experience to Victory

Was it just to give them a thrilling experience? See unfortunately a lot of people who are seeking for the power of the Holy Spirit today are seeking for an experience. They heard somebody else's testimony and they thought hey I'd like to have that experience.

It's like a child seeing somebody eat ice cream and say I'd like to eat that ice cream too. Many many people who are seeking for the power of the Holy Spirit are basing it on some testimony they heard of somebody they got some exciting thing they had some vision or physical experience or tongues or something like that and say I'd like to have that.

You know the Bible says you ask and do not receive because you ask with wrong motives. So some people don't receive because they don't ask. You don't have because you don't ask. You ask and don't receive because you ask with wrong motives.

So what was the purpose of this cloud which called here a baptism in the cloud? The purpose was to lead them step by step by step into the promised land of Canaan. And Canaan is not heaven. You know many songs we have sung a lot of our hymns have got a wrong theology.

They speak about crossing the river Jordan the river of death and entering into heaven and they picture our whole life on earth like a wilderness journey. We finish our wilderness journey and then die which is a river Jordan and come into Canaan which is heaven.

But there are no giants to be killed in heaven. So how could that be Canaan? So obviously that's wrong theology. No, the wandering in the wilderness is a picture of a life of legalism. A life under the law where you don't have victory over sin but you're very religious.

You come out of Egypt but you're wandering around in a barren land. It's not God's will for us. In fact that 40 year wandering was not God's will. Two year wandering was okay. They came after two years.

We don't come necessarily into the life of victory the day we are converted. But we read that two years after they left Egypt the Holy Spirit led them, led them, led them, led them, led them, led them.

Two years later they came to the river Jordan and the Lord said, go in and possess the land. And they sent the spies and the spies came back and said, No, the land is wonderful. This life of victory is wonderful.

But we can't. It's not for us. We can't overcome these giants of anger and lust and bitterness and jealousy and an unforgiving spirit and all these giants. They have be ruled us for so long. How will we ever overcome?

And God was so angry with them. The Holy Spirit, the picture in that cloud had led them right up to the borders of the land of victory. And they turned back. So wandering in the wilderness was a punishment.

Okay, you fellows will not walk in the victory that I call you to. Then you can live your life of religiosity and legalism for the rest of your life. And that's how a lot of Christians are living. They find a satisfaction in their religious activities.

They go to church, they read the Bible, they go through all the ritual and the family prayer and everything else. But they're living defeated. They're wandering in the wilderness. That's not God's will.

The whole purpose of that baptism in cloud was to lead them to the borders of the promised land. So remember this. That Old Testament picture is so beautiful. The Holy Spirit has come to lead us into a life of victory.

Faith in God Against the Giants of Sin

Why was God angry with them? Because they said the giants are stronger than God. And when you say that your anger and your lust is too strong for Almighty God to overcome with the power of the Holy Spirit, you're insulting God in exactly the same way as those Israelites did when they came to the borders of the promised land.

That means this God who delivered them from Pharaoh and the Egyptians who were the greatest military power in the world found it too difficult to overcome these Canaanites who were an inferior group of people.

So that's why faith is so important. You know a little earlier in the morning session, Phil read that verse in Hebrews 4 and verse 2 where he said, they could not enter because they lacked faith. It's referring to those Israelites who came to the borders of the promised land.

Why couldn't they enter? Not because God was not able to take them in. They didn't believe. They looked at the enemies and they looked at their muscles. No, we can't defeat them. Joshua and Caleb, they looked at their enemies.

They didn't look at their muscles. They looked at God. That's the difference. When you look at... When they looked at the Canaanites, some of them were 9 feet tall and they looked at themselves, they saw themselves as grasshoppers.

That's the expression they used in Numbers 13. We saw ourselves as grasshoppers. Joshua and Caleb looked at the giants and looked at God and saw the giants as grasshoppers. That's the difference. So you can look at the sins that have enslaved you for so many years and look at your own determination, the New Year resolutions you made, all the desire and all that.

You say, I tried, but these giants are too strong. That's exactly what those 10 spies said. And 600 ,000 people agreed with them. Do you know out of 600 ,000 men, only 2 people entered the land of victory?

I would say, among 600 ,000 believers I've met, about 2 people believe in real victory over sin. It's the same today. The rest are wandering in the wilderness satisfied when they shouldn't be satisfied.

I remember, I used to weep at night on my pillow saying, Lord, I had a dirty thought today. I was angry today. Have you ever wept on your pillow for that? Are you desperate? God is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.

Do you mourn when you slip up in your thoughts? I tell you, if you do that, you'd get into victory in 6 months. But if you allow, you say, well, it doesn't matter. It's okay. And the devil's given you so many excuses.

No, you'll always be like that. You remember the anger your dad had. You got the same genes. Well, you know, there's a lot of rubbish the devil tells us like that. There's a thing going around charismatic circles called generational curse.

Union with Christ and Freedom from Generational Sin

One of the biggest rubbish I've ever heard. Generational curse. What do you mean generational curse? There was a time when I was in a tree called Adam. I had a lot of generational curses. All the way from Adam.

Leave alone my ancestors. But one day, I was born again. The Holy Spirit cut me off and grafted me into another tree called Christ. What generational curse have I got now? I can't understand all these people who teach that your forefathers worshipped idols or forefathers did some witchcraft and all.

Let them do it. I've cut off from them. I am now in Christ. It's very important to understand our position in Christ. So if your father had anger, your grandfather had anger, you don't have to have it.

That's the good news by the way. Or any other habit they had. You don't have to have it. You don't have to be a sex slave like your ancestors were. No, I don't care what they did. I don't care how much immorality, how much divorce there was in your family.

You don't have to continue it into your generation. You're born again. You're a new person. It's a totally new creation in Christ. We're not part of that old creation. So, what is this land of Canaan?

I've tried to think, Lord, what is the land of Canaan a picture of? Where the Holy Spirit seeks to lead. You know, the baptism of the Holy Spirit, this baptism in cloud led them to Canaan. I said, what is the land of Canaan today?

And I see the land of Canaan is my human body, which is somewhat shaped like the land of Canaan, if you see it in a map. That's just incidental. But this land of Canaan has been ruled by many giants. Many, many giants have ruled this land, when this land should belong to God from Dan to Beersheba.

Or from head to foot, as they say. It's meant to be ruled by God. But who's ruling it? Many Canaanites, powerful giants, have ruled it from the day I was born. And I'm redeemed by the blood of the Lamb.

I'm baptized in water. The cloud has come upon me. But the giants are still ruling Canaan. It's so real, so true to the condition of Christendom today. Because Christians don't have the faith to say, in the name of the Lord, I'm gonna go in and slay these giants.

The Old Man and the Flesh

There's a lot of confusion in holiness teaching among many groups. Because they have not understood the difference between the old man and the flesh. I don't know how many of you know the distinction.

The old man and the flesh are not the same. Romans chapter 6 says, verse 6, Your old man was crucified with Christ. God did it. God did it before I was born. You say, how could God do it before I was born?

Well, how could Christ take my sins, which I'm committing in the 21st century, before I was born? With God, there is no past, present and future. You know that. He says, I am that I am. Not I was or I will be.

I am. He lives in the present. What's happening in the 21st century happened in God's mind millions of years ago. I was in God's mind before the angels were created. And so were you. Your name was written in the book of life then.

So, it is very easy for God to take all the sins I ever committed my whole life and put them on Christ 2000 years ago. We can understand that. In the same way, He took me and put me in Christ 2000 years ago.

And I died with Him. Now the Lord says, all you got to do is now accept it. Accept it that your old man I have condemned on the cross as useless. Don't try to repair it. Throw it away. And I accept that God killed my old man on the cross.

I reckon myself dead. I testified to it in baptism. That is the old man. And that is the picture of Pharaoh's army. Who killed Pharaoh's army? God. Where did He kill them? In the Red Sea. What is the Red Sea a picture of?

Baptism in water. So, in baptism in water, just like I am testifying that Pharaoh's army was buried, I am saying my old man was buried. It is so exact. The Old Testament. The Bible is a very simple book.

If you don't listen to the theologians, just read it yourself, you will be alright. But, when it came to Canaan, God didn't kill one Canaanite giant. Canaan's giants are a picture of the lusts of the flesh.

Who had to kill them? The Israelites had to kill them. In the power of God, of course. The God who could make the sun stand still for 24 hours, who would do anything to help His people kill the Canaanites.

So, I see a difference between Pharaoh's army, those soldiers and the Canaanite soldiers. The Pharaoh's soldiers are a picture of the old man buried. Canaanite soldiers are a picture of the flesh, which we have to kill.

Galatians 2 .20, I am crucified with Christ. That's my old man. Galatians 5 .24 says, we crucify the flesh with its lusts. That means we kill the Canaanite soldiers. Where do they live? In the land of Canaan.

I have to kill the Canaanite soldiers in the power of the Holy Spirit. So, what is the difference between the old man and the flesh? The old man is the mind that wants to sin. That's how we were when we are unconverted.

When people come to me for baptism, I don't ask them, will you sin again? Because nobody can answer that. I mean, if you ask me, will you sin again? I say, well, I don't want to, but I can't say I will never sin again.

But I ask them another question, do you want to sin again? If I were to ask all of you sitting here, do you want to sin again? And you say, no. That's the proof, you are born again. Christ has put a desire in you never to sin again.

Do you want to sin even once? No. You may fall, but you don't want to. That want to is the old man. Want to sin. That's been killed by Christ on the cross and I was born again. I bury it and I'm testifying in baptism, I don't want to sin again.

But when I come up out of the waters of baptism, the flesh is still very active. The flesh are these lusts, you know, like, to use another illustration, like a gang of robbers that wants to get into my heart.

And in the olden days, before I was converted, I had an unfaithful servant inside my heart called the old man who always opened the door. And when the thieves came and said, we've come to rob you, the old man said, come right in.

Take what you want, I want to take your purity, I want to take your joy, I want to take your peace. Come right in, take it all away. And that's how we got robbed. But now, after I'm converted, that old servant, God's got rid of that old servant, He killed him.

He put a new servant inside, called the new man. But are the robbers still hale and hearty? Oh yes, the robbers are still hale and hearty. See, that's the difference between the new man and the flesh.

The flesh is still alive. The robbers still come knocking at the door. Haven't you found that? After you got baptized, the robbers still came knocking at the door of your heart? In fact, they knock harder, right?

And more robbers come along. We get tempted. Jesus was baptized and what's the next thing that happened to Him? He was tempted. So the flesh is very active. Comes knocking, but now there's a new man inside, who does not want to open the door.

The new man's attitude is, I don't want to sin. Then how does a believer sin? If the new man doesn't eat properly, doesn't take enough exercise, he's weak, no matter how hard he tries to keep the door shut, he can't.

The robbers come right in. That's what happens. That's why we need to read God's word, we need to be filled with the Holy Spirit, we need to be strong continuously, so that we crucify the flesh with His affections and lust.

Once one by one we kill these robbers, or like the giants of Canaan, we kill them. It's a very accurate picture. Now which giant can you kill? You can only kill the giant you see. A giant comes up in front of you, in the name of Jesus, you go against that giant and kill him.

But have you got rid of all the giants? No. In the hills and the rocks of Canaan, there are many other giants whom you have not seen. All of us have got a lot of unconscious sin in us. But as you occupy more and more of Canaan's territory, you will discover, God will make those giants come out of their holes, and then you'll be able to kill them.

That is spiritual progress, where we discover more and more sin, which was once unconscious for us, becoming conscious. And then we get rid of it. You know there are a lot of things which we don't consider sin, but which are still the giants of Canaan.

Progressive Sanctification and Unconscious Sin

There is an example I frequently use, which illustrates it. I was visiting a home once, of a very God-fearing family, and I spent one hour there, and we talked for one hour, and the lady of the house spoke for 54 minutes, I spoke for about 4 minutes, and the husband spoke for about 2 minutes.

Now we didn't talk sinful things, it's just that somebody dominated the conversation. We didn't gossip, we didn't speak evil, but this dear sister was so full of herself, she felt she had a lot to teach everybody, and she didn't realize that her whole attitude was un-Christ-like.

I never said anything. Years later I went to that same home, and it was completely different. You know, how did she get light on it? If you walk in the light, God gives you light. That when you sit, when you dominate a conversation so much, that you hardly give other people a chance to talk, you can't call it sin, but it could be un-Christ-like.

But it's unconscious for that person, and so he's not guilty. But if he walks in the light, he'll get light on it. This is a giant of Canaan that needs to be killed. It's just one example. There are many other things like that.

I remember once, God giving me light on something. There was a young brother who we helped a lot in our home. You know, when churches meet in our home, he used to always stay with us. But then as he grew up, and he got a job, and he went away, and he lost touch with us, and he even left our church, and went somewhere else.

I said, that's all fine. But he never, I found he never kept in touch with us, never was grateful for all the many years when we helped him. And one day I was thinking about that. This guy is so ungrateful.

And the Lord said to me, the problem was with... The Lord said, the problem was with you. I said, Lord, with me, what did I do? I mean, we helped this person. And then I got some light on myself. The Lord said, when you help this person, you should have done it as unto me, and not as unto that person.

In as much as you do it to the least of these my brothers, you've done it unto me. And so I realized that when I help a person, and I do it as unto that person, then I'm disappointed when he doesn't express his gratitude to me.

But if I do it as unto the Lord, then the Lord will say thank you to me one day. I got a little light on myself. Now, I didn't even think that it was an unchristlike attitude. Have you ever thought about it being unchristlike?

That when you do something good to some person, you expect the person to say thank you to you? I got light on it myself. It was a giant of Canaan that needed to be killed. So, I'm just giving you a couple of examples how the Holy Spirit leads us.

The Holy Spirit has come to lead us deeper and deeper and deeper. To make us from glory to glory, more and more Christ-like. That's his goal. God wants to populate heaven with people who are like Jesus.

And that's why he's working on us. And that's why he allows us to be tempted and to face all types of situations. So that you can react in a Christ-like way. You can look at somebody who treats you badly and say, Father, forgive them.

They don't know what they're doing. Now, when Jesus, when you kill a man on a cross, can you say that the man doesn't know what he's doing? How could Jesus say, Father, they don't know what they're doing when they were killing him.

What he meant was, they don't realize what a serious thing they're doing by crucifying the son of God. And many people who hurt you, harm you, speak evil about you behind your back, they don't realize that they are harming a child of God.

They're touching the apple of God's eye. They don't know it. If they knew it, they wouldn't dare to touch you. They wouldn't dare to speak against you. But they don't know it. Father, forgive them. They don't know what they're doing.

They don't know how serious it is, the crime they're committing by hurting me, harming me. You remember when Saul of Tarsus was going to Damascus. He heard this voice from heaven saying, Why are you persecuting me?

Saul looked up and said, Persecuting you? Who are you? I'm Jesus. How could I persecute you? You're in heaven. That is the day when Paul began to get light on the fact that there's a body on earth which is the body of Jesus.

And if you touch the body, the head feels it in heaven immediately. And the head says, Hey, why are you hurting me? You know, that was a new revelation. The truth of the body of Christ. Even Peter didn't get it.

God gave that revelation to Paul. So, there are little, little areas like this where God, the Holy Spirit gives us light. So, I want to ask you, many of you want to be filled with the Holy Spirit. I want to ask you, why do you want to be filled with the Holy Spirit?

Bringing Every Thought Under Christ’s Rule

Do you want to get more and more light on the many areas in your life which are unchrist-like? Do you want God to bring out those giants from the holes of Canaan so that you can slay them, so that Christ can rule?

I mean, God's will is, this is my longing, that from head to foot, Christ will rule every thought. The Bible speaks about bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ in 2 Corinthians 10.

That means bringing every giant under Christ. There's a time we read Joshua got the kings and told the Israelite leaders to put their feet on the neck of these kings. To bring every thought down and put our foot on them and say, hey, you're going to obey Christ from now on.

Your thoughts wandering around my mind, you're going to be under the rule of Christ. This is the purpose of the Holy Spirit giving us. It's a wonderful journey. There's a lovely translation of Proverbs 14 .14 in the Living Bible which says, the godly man's life is exciting.

I can honestly say that. As I say, I'm not trying to sell anything. I'm not a salesperson. I'm not trying to sell Christ. I'm not trying to get you to respond to this gospel even. I'm just telling you the truth that my life is really exciting.

Ever since I discovered that the Holy Spirit has come to show me all the areas in my life which are un-Christ like. And to make it like Christ. He shows me and then He makes it. It's like a surgeon who says, here's the x-ray, here's the scan.

You got a cancer, that's not the end of the news. I'm going to remove it. And removes it. And makes me healthy. Isn't that wonderful? And as we discover more and more areas in our life, then our whole life becomes more and more Christ-like.

We become more gracious. We become more humble. We become more loving. We become more pure. And as a by-product, as a by-product, we become healthier. We sleep better at night. We are physically fit.

So many by-products of holiness. It's a wonderful life. We can stay free from debt. We don't have financial worries. We may not become millionaires, but we have enough to eat and drink. And our children grow up in the same way.

And seek to live godly lives. What more do you want? God desires the very best for His children. He's a loving father. One of the great truths that Jesus tried to emphasize to His disciples continuously was God is a loving father.

Asking the Heavenly Father for the Holy Spirit

And everything He wants to give you is for your good. Every commandment He's given in scripture is for your good. And He said in connection with that, in Luke 11, 13, If you, being evil fathers, know how to give good gifts to your children, I want you to listen to this verse.

If you've got a Bible, just look at it. Because there's something interesting here. If you, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly father... Now the point I want you to notice here is He is your heavenly father already.

Now if He had said How much more will God give the Holy Spirit? Then of course we can say He's talking to unbelievers there. He's talking to God's children. How much more will your heavenly father, that means you're already a child of God, give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him?

Now, are you all confused in your theology? You need to be. So we can get out of this rut of theology and terminology and say Lord I don't understand this but you're my father, I want the Holy Spirit.

I tell you, I've never been able to work out the theology of the Holy Spirit in all these years. I don't attempt it. I don't try to lock Him up in a little theological box and say you gotta sit there.

No. Jesus said the Holy Spirit is like the wind. It blows where it lists, where it wants, you can hear it but you can't sort of control it. Have you tried putting the wind inside a box? No, you can't.

So I don't try to understand this. And I say Lord I know that when I'm born again it's through the operation of the Holy Spirit and I'm not trying to figure out have I received His in me and all this type of theological stuff.

I know I need the power of the Holy Spirit. So I'm seeking you Lord. You're my father. How much more? How much more? You fathers and mothers, let me ask you. You who are fathers and mothers. If your children came to you and asked you for something desperately which they needed.

Dad, I'm hungry. Can you give me a little bread? Or I'm thirsty dad. Can you please give me a glass of water? How many of you would turn them away? Or I'm sick dad. Can you give me some medicine? How many of you would turn your son or daughter away?

Not one. Are you trying to say that you're a better father than God? A better mother than God? That's blasphemy. Jesus said, when He said you being evil. He didn't say some of you are evil. Why did He say we are all evil fathers?

Are you an evil father? I don't think so. Are you an evil mother? Do you know but compared to God the best of us are evil. Jesus said, only God is good. It's something like saying, the light of the stars is so dim from earth that it disappears in the light of the sun.

And when the sun rises in the sky it looks as if there are no stars at all. That's the meaning of this verse. You being evil. You got no light at all compared to the love of the heavenly father. God's love is so great that the best earthly father and mother in the world is evil compared to God.

How much Jesus tried to emphasize that God is such a good father He cannot refuse you what He knows you need. How much more will your heavenly father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him? When your little child comes to you He is not trying to analyze the physiology of how does my body get hungry?

He is not interested in that. That's like theology. How does a body get hungry? He is hungry. He is thirsty. And He wants something to satisfy. Come to God like that. Say, Lord, I can't analyze all this.

I don't understand it all but I want you. I want all of you in my life. I want the Holy Spirit to come and fill me from head to foot. I want this body to be the temple of the Holy Spirit. This land of Canaan is to be ruled by God from head to foot.

It's not to be ruled by any giant of Canaan. From head to foot is to be ruled by God. I want God to take over this body that was created for Him. It wasn't created for the giants of Canaan. It wasn't created for lust.

It was not created for the devil. It was created for God. Adam handed it over to the devil. And so we are born of that race. But now we can come back and give our bodies back to the one who it was created for.

Presenting the Body as a Living Sacrifice

I remember hearing a story about... He was an American doctor. It's a true story. I think he lived in the end of the 19th century in the time of D .L. Moody and all. You know, in those days there was a lot of preaching about the baptism in the Holy Spirit in relation to power.

And this doctor's name was Walter Wilson. He's written a book called The Romance of a Doctor's Visits. A God-fearing man. He once went to a meeting where he heard the preachers preach on Romans 12 verse 1.

I beseech you therefore brethren by the mercies of God. In other words, in view of all that God has done for you. See, the beautiful gospel is described in chapters 1 to 11. And then he says, Now, in view of this wonderful gospel, what are you gonna do?

In view of the mercies of God, I beseech you brethren, present your body, a living sacrifice to God. Holy and acceptable in His sight, which is your reasonable service. Just by the way, let me digress a bit here.

In the Old Testament, there were many offerings described in Leviticus. Some of them are sin offerings, where a man brought a lamb or a bird as an offering for his sin. And the blood was shed. But there was another offering in those offerings which had nothing to do with sin.

It's described in the first chapter of Leviticus and it's called a burnt offering. Now, some of you may not have read Leviticus much. But that burnt offering is very interesting about the burnt offering.

They brought a bullock and you could not lay the whole bullock on the altar. You had to cut it. First of all, the priest had to check that it was without blemish. And then it had to be cut piece by piece by piece by piece by piece and placed on the altar in pieces.

And when all the pieces of the burnt offering were put on the altar, the fire would fall. A picture of the fire of the Holy Spirit. But what is this cutting the bullock and putting it piece by piece? Present your body a living sacrifice.

In other words, don't say to God, Lord, here is my body. Cut it up. Lord, here is my tongue. I want it to be used entirely for you from now on. Here are my eyes. I want this to be used entirely for you.

Here are my hands. Here is my mind. Here is my piece by piece. It's all yours, Lord. Anyway, coming back to the story. Walter Wilson was listening to this preacher and this preacher was preaching on Romans chapter 12.

I beseech you, brethren, present your bodies a living sacrifice to God. And the preacher said, God is a trinity. Father, Son and Holy Spirit. The Father is in heaven. The Son, Jesus Christ, has already got a body.

He doesn't need yours. Which person of the Trinity is on earth today? It's the Holy Spirit. He needs a body. And that's your body. So he said, Romans 12 .1 is asking you to present your body so that the Holy Spirit can have your body.

Just like the second person of the Trinity came in a human body, now the third person of the Trinity can come and fill your body. And this gripped Walter Wilson. He realized that because of Christ's sacrifice on the cross, his body had been purchased by the blood of Christ.

You know, it's like if somebody has bought your house, paid the money fully, you have no right to go back to that house anymore. You have no right to tell him what color to paint it. Supposing he decides to paint it all black, you can't go and question him.

He bought it. And in the same way, he realized, Dr. Wilson realized that God, Jesus had bought his body. He went back from that meeting and he lay down on the floor and he said, Lord, I don't remember his exact words, but his eyes were opened.

And he said, Lord, I present my body to you. You can take my eyes, you can blind them if you like, do whatever you like. It's your body from now on. And he went like that piece by piece. Take this body and afflict it with cancer or send it as a missionary to Tibet.