I'll give you anything, name the figure, I'll do it, just I want to get my work done, then, well Andre said, let's just talk for a while, we owe the bank all this, we didn't want to owe, we had to, farmers get in that state in Africa, we owe all this, then we've got to get other farms, where we come from, where we know we can farm, where we shouldn't have left anyway, get all the implements, everything, we have to get it, let's ask for everything, all our debt, all we'll need for the farms up there, everything, but he'll never give it to us, so he goes through and he says, this is what we want, get the lawyers, get your people, and so they go up the valley where they come from, they bought three farms out of debt, brother do you honestly think your darkest moment, God has forsaken you, but your darkest moment in the school of God is necessary, because in your darkest moment you'll ever face in life, God is doing his greatest work in you and your children, if you don't know that, you just got to keep your eyes on God, he cannot fail, he cannot fail, my son Roy, who preaches this morning, and last night, yesterday morning, said I said, Roy did something very silly, he nearly died in his final year at school, he's just like that, he decided he has to be the best, he has to get the high, he doesn't want to prove anything to anybody, just himself, he's like my daddy was that, he had to do everything perfectly and nobody could come inside the way he nearly died, daddy nearly died, just and my father climbed to the top of the business world in our country, had to throw it all away when he got saved, but Roy decided he's going to do well, he's going, and I said, Roy, you're kidding yourself, nobody can stay awake the whole night and then expect to face an exam, I mean you won't stay awake, you just sleep, he's daddy, this is my last year at school, for the rest of my life, please just let me have the right to do my best, I don't want to hold back anything, so then after he studied, now I'll go to bed, no, now I'm going to have my quiet time, I said, Roy, God doesn't expect you to spend an hour with him now, after a whole night of studying, it's two in the morning, my boy goes to sleep, you die, he looked up at me and repeated what I said to him years before, if I miss once, daddy, whatever the reason, it'll give me a reason to miss again, I don't want to miss God, daddy, even at this time of the night, and he spent his hours with God and then got up and had his quiet, and then went off to, he went through all these weeks to the degree that he nearly died, when he was finished, he had pains down his arms, pains streaking through his body and headaches, and he looked like death, I said, I warned you, look at you, now he wants to go to Glenvoe Bible College now, finished, I said, you're not going to Glenvoe, you'll die the first term, I mean, it's not easy there, you go on the farm to grandpa for six months, mummy and I've been speaking about it, you go on the farm, you love the farm, you're just like a farmer, and you just sleep late, go for walks and go with grandpa and farm, and you just go, they do nothing, no studies, no presses, no time, no, no, just get over this, we even got people spending medicines to try and get the pains all spiraling or whatever it is, I don't know, people are all worried about Roy, never going to recover, well, he went on the farm for six months before he went to Bible school and praise the dear Lord, he did very, very well in his exams, extraordinary, wish I could look back and know that I did that, but Roy did well, they offered him even Oxford, a chance to go to Oxford University, as a bursary, whatever it is, what's the word, I don't know where they, what is the word, anyone, scholarship, so we were blessed, we couldn't afford, but everything offered, because he was so achieving, but that nearly killed him to achieve, they didn't know that, he said, who do I, what do I want to go to university, what do I want to go to Oxford for, I want to be a missionary, I don't want to go to, what's, what do you, I can't waste my time, the Lord's coming back, I want to win salt, so I said, thank God, imagine stooping to go to such a place that God has called you to be missionary, well, dear Roy now goes to the farm and on the farm, granny got cancer, they tried to operate, the blood splurted into the lungs, she lost her use of her body, she was virtually paralyzed, told she couldn't walk again, she'd never be able to dress again, she'll never be able to help herself or bath again, she'd have to be helped out of bed, she couldn't do anything, she won't walk again, so Jenny hears this and she comes into her mummy and said, mummy, the doctor has told me that you'll never walk again, the mother lying in the bed said, no, the doctor's wrong, he's made a mistake, God has just said, I'm the Lord that healeth thee, well, isn't that precious, you know that lady wasn't, and I don't want to lie and be sensational and say she was healed, she had to go through therapy, but in her determination, though she was told there's no hope you'll ever walk again, or be able to clothe yourself again, or help yourself, even bathe again, you'd have to be helped, that woman walked in these therapies, these bars, when she's supposed to take a step, she took two or three until she could take four, she staggered the specialist until she could walk without any help, so she could clothe herself, of course she walks like this, that everybody knows something as terrible as happened, but she walks, I'd love to say she's perfectly, but to her faith and determination, she did something that staggered the specialist, she walks, she can clothe herself, she can help, she can cook, clean up, oh bless the Lord, but now the wonder of it is she never once complained, not one word of complaint against God, not one grievous word of murmuring, now Roy was on the phone, he said, Daddy, I watched Granny fall and hurt herself, said she tumbled and rolled, and all she does, praise God, it could have been worse, he said, Daddy, I was standing with Granny, he phones, and I forgot to hold her on this large section where the security gate was, and I just left her to open the security gate, and she fell, and she started rolling, this dignified rolling, into her body, her legs up, smashed her, and she was wounded, she was hurting, so Roy just burst into tears, goes, Dad, Granny, what have I done, I just said, did you forget your old Granny, she smiles, so Granny, please forgive me, oh, it could be worse, praise the Lord, I'm not dead, I'm worried, just help me up, you know, he said, Daddy, you can't believe it, Granny never ever has murmured, she just praises the Lord, and no matter what she's facing, since the day I arrived, I haven't heard her do one without gentleness, and joy in her eyes, and peace in her eyes, there's not one complaint, he said, Daddy, I need to tell you something, I made a mistake, I told you once, that Grandpa is the godliest person in the world, that I know, he said, not you, Daddy, Grandpa is, I didn't feel threatened, I agreed, I thought, what a wonderful testimony, that a grandson could say that of his grandfather, he said, Daddy, I made a mistake when I said that about Grandpa, Grandpa isn't the godliest person in the world, Granny is, and Daddy, I mean it, she is, not Grandpa, I told Grandpa those words, I went to him, Yanni, and I told him what Roy had said, and tears rolled up in his eyes, and he turned around, and he looked at me, and he smiled, and he said, it is so, I doubt that anyone else is more godly than Edith in this world, Roy is right, what made this man so stagger my nation as he has, what made this man so stagger his community, to towns upon towns, what made this man be so used across our land, that without any academic achievement, what made him be so loved, that people throng and preachers with great academic achievements and degrees, theological, flock to hear a farmer who has no degrees, what made this man's walk so staggered, that his own son -in -law and grandchildren look upon him, with such reverence and awe, because of his example, in all circumstances, that has changed our lives, because our consciences wouldn't allow us to ever be the same when we watched his life, what made him so different, does God not want all, I think of three things, that made God able to bring such glory to his name through one man, three things, firstly, he wasn't just saved, he had a personal Calvary, and from that day, he staggered the world the next day, his world, till this day, secondly, he never missed his quiet time, his grandchildren know it, his children know it, and anyone who knew anything of that home, know that from the day I went to that home, to this last time I went, after all these years of marriage, at four o 'clock in the morning, you hear that man walking down the passage, I've never ever been in that house, that I didn't hear this at four o 'clock in the morning, he's big, the farmers are normally big, and you hear this boom, boom, and he doesn't do it to me, he has to make that noise down the wooden passages, he goes to be with Jesus every morning at four o 'clock for two hours, and I've never, and his family, his children, have never ever known that that man at four o 'clock doesn't walk down the passage to his prayer room, to devour the word of God, and to pray to his God, and commune and intercess, in the nights, after the family devotion, which was a long occasion of him preaching, and then everyone praying, the others have all their things, but that man walks to that closet, and spends another hour with Jesus, and sometimes two, I've watched through the years, his grandchildren have watched, he never misses God, from the day I walked in that home to this, I've never known him, to not go down to be with Jesus at four o 'clock in the morning, and to not leave the company, when everything that's done of fellowship, demanded of him as the head of the home, to get along with Jesus for his hour, before he goes to sleep, he had a personal calvary, as a young Christian, despairing of all the failure and inconsistencies, where he laid his life on the altar of God, and absolutely surrendered, and trusted God for a heart made clean by blood, the theology of Hudson Taylor, John Wesley, and probably ninety percent of every name you will ever name, that was used muchly by God, different terminology, but basically that's it, including Andrew Murray, where an absolute surrender, where God filled them with the Holy Spirit, took control, and anointed that life to live, a life that gave you the right to testify to every soul, including your children, that they couldn't doubt you had the right to test.