Our God Can Fix Anything — David Wilkerson

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God Can Restore What Is Broken

Just about everybody hearing me needs something fixed in their life. Lord, I do. Every pastor, every worker, every visitor, everyone who calls this church their home. Lord, there are things in our lives or surrounding us that need to be repaired, restored, healed.

And oh God, give us the confidence that you can restore anything, anybody, that we do not give up. Oh God, touch me. Lord, let the word come with life. Oh God, we need to hear your heart. Touch me now.

In Jesus' name, Amen. Our God can fix anything. Remember the story of the Lord appearing to Abraham. He's sitting in the heat of the day at the tent door. He has three angels with him, and he appears to Abraham.

Abraham prepares a meal and the Lord has a little bit of talk with this man, and he says, where's your wife? Where's Sarah? She said, well, she's in the tent. They were at the door of the tent, and he said, well, would you please tell her that she's going to have a child very soon?

And God, this is God, hears Sarah laugh, and he turns to Abraham and said, Why is your wife laughing? Is anything too hard for the Lord? Is anything too hard for the Lord? This is God speaking to this man.

Evidently, this is long before he learned to walk by faith, or see. It's the same question I believe God is asking all of us today. I know he's asking of me, and when I've answered it deeply in my heart, I found it changes my life, and the way I look at ministry, and the way I look at people in their needs.

And it's simply this. The question is, do you believe God can fix everything that's gone wrong in your life? Do you believe God can fix anything in your family, anything on the job, wherever it may be?

Do you believe that God can do the impossible and fix it? Luke 18 27, the things which are impossible with men are possible with God. Now folks, it's a very simple message God's given me this morning.

It's not that we haven't fed you properly over the years here. It's just that I believe that God knew exactly who would be here this morning, and who needed to hear this very simple message. It's so easy to tell others that are going through a hard time how to trust God.

We hear if somebody in trouble, somebody needs something fixed, and they come to us, and you know we say, hold on. Don't quit. Don't lose your faith. God can do the impossible. Now that's very nice. Very cozy, very comfortable to say that to somebody else, but do you believe it for your own life?

You see, God's not interested in how well or how scripturally sound I preached this morning on this subject. He's not interested in the fact that I might be able to provoke you to righteous faith. He's not concerned or impressed in any way how fluently I would be able to preach it, and you walk out of here and know a thousand people come to me on the street or backstage and say, Pastor Dave, you really provoked me.

Things that need fixed in my life and need to be restored. I heard it, and I'm going to believe God. Thank you for the word. Now folks, if I don't believe that in my next crisis, if I don't believe that concerning something in my own life, in my own home, it's to no avail to me.

It has nothing to do with what I can tell you or what you can tell others in the way of provoking them to believe God that he can fix anything. It's whether you are established in this truth and believe it with all your heart that God can do the impossible in my life and in my family.

If you had been living in Sarah's time, you were her friend, and you went to her, you know, as Nathan did and gave a parable to David. David was the man, and you knowing the promise that God had given to Sarah and Abraham, and you're a dear sister, and you go to Sarah, and you say, Sarah, I there's a couple that I know that have a promise that God would give them a child, and the problem is they're losing confidence in that dream, that promise, and the wife says she's too old because her womb is dead, and her husband is not fertile, and it's absolutely impossible humanly that she can have a child, but she's still holding on to that.

What advice should I give her? And I'll tell you, this godly woman would have said, well, please tell her she'd better hold on. Don't let her dream go. Don't let her promise go. Tell her to pray. God can do anything.

We do that. Now, don't look at me like, you've done that everywhere. Everybody's come to you. What have you told them? Hold on. God will do it. And what'd you do the first time after that you got in a crisis?

God, where are you? You don't really believe in God. You really have no God, unless you believe he's the God of the impossible. You don't have a God. If you are going to try to tell me you believe him in all the other areas in your life, but you cannot believe him in the impossible times in your life, you don't believe him at all.

That's very, very clear from the scripture. Now, I am NOT against counseling, Christian counseling. I'm not against the born-again psychologist. I'm not against that because there's been a lot of good done, but let me tell you something.

Counseling Requires Confidence in God's Power

I believe it is absolutely in vain to counsel anybody, absolutely in vain for anybody to come to me and get any help from me whatsoever, unless I, first of all, believe that every problem that's brought to me, marriage problem, family problem, child problem, whatever it is, if I don't fully believe the moment they walk in the door to sit down on a couch and face me, if I don't, if I'm not fully convinced that no matter what they tell me, no matter what their problem is, I'm fully convinced that God can fix it, that God can work it out, that nothing is impossible.

I don't care what kind of bitterness I hear from them, what kind of anger. I don't care if they tell me, well, usually I get this, and any counselor will tell you the same thing. Well, you just don't know what I've been through.

You don't know how I'm hurting. You don't know the issues. You don't, if you really knew, you wouldn't be talking as you do. You wouldn't have as much hope as you seem to have. But folks, I can't help anybody that ever comes face to face with me with a problem or something overwhelming their life.

I can't help them unless two things happen. I have to be absolutely, totally convinced that I cannot give up, that I have got to fight for the marriage. I've got to fight for the victory. I've got to believe God in my heart that He can and that He will.

And furthermore, anybody that comes into my office, if you're going to go to any pastor here for counseling, if you're going to go to Pastor Rhodes and his wife, if you're going to go to any of our counselors in our office in the Annex, you're going to come to me, and you want to sit down with me.

I want to know the first thing, the first question I ask anymore. Do you really believe that God can restore? Do you really believe God can fix this? And if they hesitate, I know that I'm not going to be able to give them anything that's going to work.

They have to be convinced, first of all, that God is able, that nothing, absolutely nothing in their life is impossible with God. Nothing. And secondly, they have got to want God to do it. Oh, I meet a lot of people that bring to me their marriage problems, and it's not more than a half hour into conversation, when I know they really don't want it fixed.

They just want me to side with them. They've made a good case, and they want the pastor's approval on the direction they've already decided on. You can't be helped by any counselor anywhere, unless you are absolutely convinced by the Word of God that nothing in your life is beyond God fixing it.

And if you tell me otherwise, you really don't want it fixed. You've already made your choice, and you're going to go your direction, no matter what anybody says. Praise God. All over the nations today, I see Christians.

As I told you, we have, last count, I think we've done some cleansing, about 800 ,000 people. Between 7 ,000 and 800 ,000 people on the mailing list, and the letters pour in, sometimes 50 ,000 a month.

And it's... My wife and I are so shocked and heartbroken. The Christian marriages that are breaking up, I mean, all over this nation, folks. I've had a mailing list for 35 years, but it has never been like it's been the last two years.

It is absolutely frightening, and it's overwhelming. Many of my friends in the ministry are divorced, or in the process of getting a divorce. Calls. Friends that have my personal phone number shock us time and time again, because they say we just can't make it.

And when I talk to them, I suddenly find out they really don't believe that this can be fixed. They don't believe their marriage can be healed. They really don't honestly have this this heart conviction that no matter how bad it's got, no matter what kind of horrible things have been said, and the hurts and the wounds, that God is able to restore everything the canker worm has eaten.

That which is impossible with man is possible with God. A pastor's wife wrote this past week about her husband, who's an habitual liar. He lies in the pulpit, she said, and his lies are so outrageous, he's been caught in them, and he's been confronted with the evidence right in front of him, and still is in denial.

His children have no confidence in him. She said, I'm ashamed of him. He stands up, and he preaches a powerful message, but the man is a habitual liar. He can't tell the truth. He doesn't know the truth.

And then she says, I think I'm going to leave him. Now, here's what I wanted to hear from that woman. I wanted to hear from that pastor's wife. Yes, I know that this man needs a miracle. I know that there's shame in my heart, and my family's has areas of dysfunction now because of it, but I wanted to hear from her just something like this.

I know that my husband is a liar, and I know the church knows it, and I know he's probably going to lose his pulpit over it. But I serve a God who is able to humble that man. I serve a God who is able to fix this marriage, and to save this church.

And I wanted to hear the woman that would say, I'm going to hold on from my husband no matter what it costs. I'm going to believe that what God says is true, that nothing is impossible with God. That's what I want to hear.

The Demon-Possessed Boy and Faith in Christ

In Mark, the ninth chapter, we come against a ghastly situation, and one that seems absolutely impossible to fix. You know the story. It's found in Mark 9. I'm not going to read the text, but you remember the story.

A father brings a demon-possessed son to the disciples to be healed. Now, this was not just a dysfunctional child. This was not a child with a chemical imbalance. This was a demon-possessed boy, and this boy is probably known all over the region.

I'm sure, I feel confident that the disciples had heard about him. I'm sure that parents who saw the father coming with this child, hid their children, took them into the house. They didn't want this child near them.

This child was considered absolutely hopeless. The devil would throw him into fires, into waters, to try to drown him and kill him. He would, Satan would manifest. He would foam at the mouth. He would be contorted, and he was emaciated, had no appetite evidently.

The Bible said that he was, it infers that he was near death, and what a terrible thing it must have been for the father. It's a full-time job just to hold on to the boy, because you go through a neighborhood, and the nearest open cooking fire, he wants to leap into the coals.

And how many times did the father have to leap into a pond and pull him out, resuscitate him, and what kind of horrible nights and days, because this father loved this boy, or he would not have brought him to the disciples as he did.

Because you find him broken-hearted over the situation. What if this was your son? Or if you're not married, it was your little brother. To see the burn marks and the bruises on this child, and then to stand by helplessly, where nobody can help him when the devil, the demons in him are manifesting.

And this is what the disciples face now. They're looking face-to-face into a hopeless situation as far as man is concerned. Here they are being asked to heal this son, to cast the devil out of this boy.

They prayed, and nothing happened. I'm sure they prayed again. They may have prayed a long time, but the devil manifested right in front of the disciples, and the boy is contorting, and he's foaming at the mouth.

He's both deaf and he's speechless, and only guttural sounds out of his mouth, most likely. And you talk about a hopeless situation. This is, in the eyes of man, this can't be fixed. It's impossible. There's been no doctor.

There's been nobody can fix this boy. Now, this is a simple word, but I want you to see why God included this in the canon of scripture. Why would God repeat these stories? Why would he move in the hearts of godly, holy men to tell these stories?

Because what other application can it have other than to teach us? And because it's not just a history book. This is the book that's showing us who God is. And Jesus comes on the scene, and the scribes now are questioning, is this too hard for you?

Is your master able to handle every situation, but that which is under the influence, and power, and control of the devil himself? They surely knew this was the devil. They recognized it, as did the father, and all the neighborhood, and everybody else.

And Jesus comes on the scene, and what a sight this must have been. Jesus asked what's going on, and they said, well, we brought him to your disciples, and they couldn't heal him. It's a hopeless case.

And I'm sure some of them had already walked away, because nothing was done. Jesus comes on the scene, and he turns to the father. He said, father, if you can believe, all things are possible to him that believe it.

That's all he said. If you can believe, all things, he's talking about his son. This that's under the control of the devil, this harassment in your life. There's nothing impossible with God. If you can believe, it can be fixed.

Folks, all it took was a word from Jesus. All it took was a simple word, and the boy fell is dead before that congregation. And they said, he's dead, he's dying. What a fix that is. But suddenly the boy answered the cry of the master, stand up, rise.

And the boy, I'm sure, ran and embraced his father. Can you imagine the joy in that scene? God fixed it. Now, why does, why is that in the scripture, that story? It is God, it is the Lord saying to every parent listening to me now, who has a child that's gone astray, a family member that is under the manipulation of the devil himself.

He's saying, if you can believe, all things are possible. This can be fixed, this can be restored. How many mothers that are here right in this church, I know at least a dozen of you here right now that I've talked to, you get on the bus and you go upstate New York and you visit your son and your daughter in prison.

Some of you in the annex. And you know the pain of that trip. And you know the agony of sitting there and talking to a boy that was once a tender little boy that you raised and now because of drugs and because of robbery, he's in jail.

And you have prayed and the devil's trying to tell you to give up, it can't be done. Because you don't see any evidence. I'm telling you now, this is here because God's saying, if you'll keep on believing, if you'll keep trusting me, I can save that boy.

He's saying to every one of you mothers that are here, you never in your lifetime could have dreamt that your daughter could ever turn to drugs. She got in with the wrong crowd in high school. She started running these streets and she became rebellious.

Maybe she's had an illegitimate child, but you've seen the changes in her and you can't handle it anymore because she's out half the night. You've had to tell her to leave the house because you didn't want your other children to follow in her footsteps and you have been on the streets at times and you've seen her get in a car to sell her body to prostitutes to support her habit.

And you've gone home and cried a river of tears and the devil's told you this is hopeless. It can't be fixed. This daughter of yours is gone. It's finished. Folks, I'm telling you wherever you may this this video and this audio goes all over the world wherever you will be.

I'm telling you. I don't care how low your son or your daughter is gone. I don't care how far gone you think they are. They're not too far gone from God. He can fix it. I've known of fathers that asked me what to do.

I said go if my son go after him and I've had fathers just do that. They'll get in the car and they'll go down into the slum somewhere. They'll go down into the ghetto. They'll go to a burial and they'll ask around until they find some pusher who knows that boy's name and he'd go and the father once told me he went in there.

He walked into a shooting den. His son didn't even want to talk to him. His son was emaciated. And he pleaded with his son come out. Please I'll stand with you. I'll help you. We'll do anything. Give us a chance.

And to see that father come out heartbroken out of that shooting gallery because that boy has turned away and says I don't even want to talk to you get out of the place. This is my life now. And to hear that father say I lost him.

It's hopeless. That boy folks, we've got a young man in this service today. From Arizona, where are you son? Stand up. Right over here. Just turn away to the crowd say hello.

On the streets given up by society. Everybody said he was hopeless. I remember the day I met him. He was still skinny at the time.

But there was something I saw and I said son you're going to bible school and you will preach the gospel. God's gonna pick you up and change you. He's pastoring now and head of a drug program in Arizona.

Phoenix, correct? Yes, sir. Hopeless. God fixed him. Hallelujah. Oh say your husband is hopeless. You can't get him saved. You say your wife is hopeless. She goes out and parties. Oh, I know a dear man that was here last Sunday.

He prayed so long for his wife and God has finally answered the prayer, but he wouldn't give up. How many times men have told me I had to stay at home and watch my wife come home drunk. And God just told me to hold on that somehow he would make it up to me if I would believe and trust him and one day God broke through and God saved my wife.

God saved my husband. Folks don't give up on anybody. Don't give up on anything. Nothing. Nothing is impossible with God. Nothing. Let me go a step further. God can bring back to life anything you gave up for dead.

Jesus Raises Jairus’s Daughter

Yes, he can. In Mark 5, there's another story of Jairus, a ruler of the synagogue. And he comes to Jesus, fell at his feet and weeping. He said, would you come to my house and lay your hand on my 12-year-old daughter?

She's near death. And Jesus agrees to go with the ruler of the synagogue to his home to heal the child. But on the way he is stopped temporarily because a woman with a blood disease touches the hem of his garment.

And he just stops and he said, virtue is gone. And where are you? And he's ministering this woman and while he's ministering this woman, Jairus standing beside him. The messenger comes and says to Jairus, your daughter just died.

Don't bother the master anymore. It's too late. And Jesus must have seen the fear grip that man, that father who said if we could have only been there 15 minutes ago, if we could have just, it's just, oh God, just a matter of timing and we missed it on timing.

And Jesus turns to the man, he says, don't fear. Don't fear. Don't be afraid. Fear not, he said, only believe. Jesus goes with the man and he approaches his residence and there's a wailing and a weeping and a mourning of neighbors and friends and family.

And Jesus comes on the scene. Now, can you imagine weeping and wailing in the presence of almighty God? There he is in flesh. Jesus was God in flesh. Can you imagine the unbelief of weeping and what they're saying and what we say when things have gone too far, we think, beyond possibility.

What we're saying is, God, you can handle anything. It's still got a little life in it. But when it's totally dead, you don't need to call on Jesus anymore. Many of you have quit calling on Jesus now because you think your situation is beyond possibility.

You've already given up, some of you, on your family, given up on your husband, praying him through, given up on your marriage, given up on something that God told you to hold on for. And you've just given up.

And Jesus came on the scene and paraphrased. He said, what's the fuss? What's all this weeping and wailing? They said, well, she's dead. You know, if you had been here, and that's what Moses said, God, if you had just done it on time.

I believe in Holy Ghost timing. I certainly do. I believe in Holy Ghost timing, but it's not my time. We always are giving God deadlines. Lord, I believe you. I want it done in the next two weeks. Jesus goes into the room, merely speaks the word, and that little child comes to life.

You tell me your marriage is dead. I'll tell you what God has put into my heart. I am laying hold of God for all my friends that are on the verge of divorce breaking up, and I am fighting. I am laying hold of God.

They may have given up, but I have not given up, and I'm not going to give up. And that should be in you. Divorce should never be an option. Never be an option, unless your husband's a beater or if you've been beaten or something.

There's a different case. You have to escape that situation. And I'm sure there are other circumstances, but why can't you take the hurt, take it to Jesus, and believe what he said? I'm God. I'm your God, and I can fix it.

Now, I want everybody hearing me now on the jumbo screens upstairs and here, wherever you are, on video or audio. I want you to listen to me now. The Holy Spirit put this in my heart again this morning before I came to this church to preach.

I'm telling you, God's fighting for your marriage. Why aren't you? God is fighting for you. God is on your side. He's trying to heal. If there's something in your heart that is hindering, ask God to take it out.

And if it's going to be healed, it's going to be you that God uses, because you're here, you're listening to it, and God's delivering the message to you. You be the one. You say, well, it takes two. Yes, it does.

But folks, marriage is not 50 -50. When marriage is about to break, it's a hundred to nothing. You get nothing out of it, but faith in God and let God do it. You don't expect anything in return. You don't expect anything in return.

You don't expect to be blessed. You don't expect to be loved. You don't expect anything but to do God's Word, obey Him, and believe. God, help us. This incredible divorce rate, even in Pentecostal churches and Baptist churches, Evangelical circles and ministry.

God, help us. But we're saying God's a liar. We're saying God's a liar. God can't fix it. Let me read it to you. He that believeth not God hath made him a liar. You can find that 1 John 5 .10. That's why the Holy Ghost included this little story in the scripture.

To show you that what you think has died is able to resurrect. Some have given up looking for a job. I've tried and I've finally given up. I got a letter yesterday from a man on my mailing list. He said, I've tried everything in this area.

There's a lot of unemployment that I can't find. He literally has given up. No, no, no, no. God can fix it. God can do it. One word from Jesus and life springs up again. I'm going to close in just a few moments, but I want to talk about money problems.

God’s Provision in Financial Need

You've got money problems? You've got financial problems? You can't pay your bills? Well, I know some of you say, oh brother Dave, give me something here now that I can lay hold of. Did you know Jesus had money problems?

Tax collector came. They didn't have the money. And Jesus sends his best fisherman Peter out to fish in the sea. And he said, tell you what Peter, you go get your fishing rod and you go down the sea where you usually fish.

And the first fish you catch open his mouth and you're going to see a coin there valuable enough to pay all our taxes. Can you see Peter who's fished all his life? He said, this I gotta see. Tax money out of a fish's mouth.

I've seen worms. I've seen hooks. I've never seen a coin, a gold coin or whatever it was. I've never. And I'm sure it was great curiosity he went fishing. There's a nibble and he wills in his first fish.

I don't know the size of it or anything else. I don't know if God created that coin or whether somebody was there a week ago and God said I'm going to need this coin and he rolls off a dock right in the fish's mouth.

God can do it naturally. He can do it supernatural any way he chooses. All I know is that this was a miracle. When Peter opens the mouth of that fish and looks at that gleaming coin, he said, well, how about that?

Isn't that something? What a miracle. What a miracle. To a fisherman this had to be a great miracle. It's a miracle when I read it. But why would God include a little fish story? Didn't Jesus, I got to think about this this past week.

Why didn't Jesus take an offering among all those disciples and teach them about giving? Because the apostle Paul did. Why didn't he send all his disciples out for day work for a day? They could have raised that in one day of day labor.

No, because you see that's all within the realm of possibility. God wanted to do it miraculously to show you and me that there are times in our life that only a miracle will answer the need. Only a miracle will answer the need.

I know what you're thinking right now. I need an angel. I need somebody sending an anonymous $50 ,000 check in the mail. I've got to have that miracle brother David. Jesus can do that to pay the taxes.

If he can get money out of a fish's mouth. If our God can feed 5 ,000 to 4 ,000 with a few fish and a few loaves of bread. If he can cause a widow to pour gallons and gallons of cooking oil out of a little pint jug.

If he can cause a barrel never to go dry and the oil never to go dry for the widow. If that's the kind of God and if God can do anything then God I need that miracle. I need a financial miracle. I have to tell you a story.

I think I may have told it years ago in this church. But it fits the story here right now. Years ago when I was a young pastor in my 20s. I got in debt for a stupid thing I did. I thought it was God. And in those days I didn't consult the Lord.

I just did it because there was a need. And it was a good project. But I just got $5 ,000 in debt. And today that's like $25 ,000 or more in today's money. And the money was due. And I was desperate. And so I started reading those scriptures with God.

Nothing is impossible. God supply all your need. And I was reading these very stories about how angels fed Elijah with a raven. And all these miracles that God did. I said Lord I need a miracle. And in my desperation.

Folks please don't ever go into God's presence and let your mind go blank. You open yourself to every conceivable kind of deception. Don't ever do that. If you're there just worship him. But give him your thoughts.

Give him your mind. And I just went back and I heard the most beautiful voice I ever heard. David you're down Chester Street tomorrow at noon. And walk on the left side between third and fourth. And there's going to be a man come towards you with an envelope.

He's going to be an angel. And he's got $5 ,000 in his hand. And he's just going to put it in your hand. And I thought oh glory to God. My angel. God you're faithful. Next day at noon I'm walking down the street looking every direction.

Folks it's a town of 1 ,200 people. Nobody walks the streets ever. There's nobody there. Everybody's at work. And there wasn't a soul in sight. I walked it for a half hour up and down up and down. And I said Lord where is he?

And then a guy comes and he goes when I knew he wasn't smoking. An angel wouldn't smoke. And after about 40 minutes I said Lord these neighbors are going to think I'm a robber looking over and trying to check their houses out.

Finally in despair I went home. I was so downcast. Lord now what do I do? I was hurt. I was wounded. And most of all I said how could I be so deceived? But I said Lord I'm going to trust you. There's nothing I can do.

I'm just going to put it in your hands. And a day or two later a man in the church came to me and he said oh Dave I've heard about that need you have. He said I have a friend at another town near here who has a bank.

He's a Christian. He's a banker. Why don't you go there and tell him I sent you? I said okay. And I went over and I told the banker my problem. And he said I'll tell you what I'm going to give you an unsecured loan for $5 ,000.

You're going to pay it back $50 a month. Folks God met it. When I walked out God said now I could have sent you that angel. I could have put that in pocket. You'd never learn your lesson. You'd be doing this rest of your life and one day you'll be $100 ,000 in debt.

God says now you're going to work it off. You're going to pay the $50 and you're going to learn your lesson. Folks I paid that that money off. It was a miracle to get an unsecured loan at that time. God has his ways of doing it.

Don't you try to figure it out. Don't look for a 90-foot angel who's going to come around. Don't even look for a midget. Don't look for any kind of an angel. My God fixed my problem. And I'm telling you now and I'm not going to belabor this.

I'm not going to go much further. But I'm telling you that God told me to come to you this morning. Because many of you hearing me have got you're in the need of a miracle. Either in your home, your family, your marriage, your finances.

And I'm telling you if you will trust God. The Lord said of the demons this can't come out. These kind don't come out unless you fast and pray. But the fasting and prayer I think was to get the doubt and unbelief out of the disciples.

I'm here to tell you that I believe with all of my heart. And I know I'll be tested on I'm about to tell you. But I believe with all of my heart that there's nothing in my life or my family that God can't fix.

There's nothing that he can't restore. In closing I want to read. I'm telling you that God can even fix your sin problem. This is his greatest work. But we get so many like this. Here's a prisoner who writes.

God’s Power to Restore Those Bound by Sin

Pastor Dave I'm a sexual pervert. I know I wasn't born that way. But it's what I've become. I've been married three times. And I have four children. The real truth is that I like anything when it comes to perversion.

If you can think of it. I've probably tried it. He said Pastor Dave if I were to tell you everything I've done. It would take pages and probably make you so sick. Then he goes on. I want to stop and yet I don't.

I've pleaded and I've cried and I've begged God for help. I quit smoking cold turkey. That was no problem. I've even been able to stay away from pornography a little time at a time. I know I can't of my own get away with my habits.

I believe in the healing power of God. But it seems I can't find the door to escape. My desire to do the Lord's will is ever with me. And yet I've pushed them aside and I fall back in the lust of my flesh.

I've lied to God only to do it over and again. I hurt because I know that I made God sick. When I go to chapel I feel two-faced because there are men here who respect me. Because I've given them good advice and not kept it myself.

I play the piano in chapel and I sing but I don't feel right because I am not right. I am in prison for my addiction to sex. I'd rather die and go to hell than ever bother another innocent person again in my life.

I hate what I do and yet somehow I love it. I hate it enough though to want out because I want to serve God and I want his love. And I don't want to die and go to hell. I don't know what to do. Folks, I'm saying to this young man that God can fix his perverted mind.