Going on to Perfection — G.W. North

Of that nature. These are the kinds of words that are used. You presume to speak about things that you don't know by real experience. And people think perhaps because they've sort of got saved and have had an experience called the baptism in the spirit that that immediately qualifies them to make great big statements about all sorts of things.

Humility and the Limits of Experience

But one of the things we have to discover is the greatest thing of all is to walk in complete humility. I can remember the days, for instance, when I used to make great big pronouncements upon people that spoke in tongues, you see, because I had an experience of the Holy Ghost along the lines of holiness.

I've learned what a stupid man I was. I was a young man, you see, and I can remember all sorts of things like that. I thought it qualified me because I had a certain experience along a certain line, that it qualified me to speak as though I knew it all.

I wonder if you've ever suffered from that. Of course, it's worst of all if you really think you know because you've been taught by professors or lecturers, you're worse of all. Or if you've got a mind that can put two and two together in the Bible, you think you'll know everything then, you see.

But oh how God has to come and just teach you that you don't know anything and you're not qualified to speak on anything unless you have been through that precise and exact experience. You're not qualified to do so.

For instance, if you're saved, if you know you've had a tremendous conversion and the Lord Jesus Christ has changed your life, then you're qualified to say so. It doesn't make you a great pronouncer upon the second coming, for instance, which you're supposed to take up within the next breath and say, well we're all looking for Jesus to come, you see.

That's the sort of slogan. Well we are, praise God. But it doesn't qualify you to make statements about the man of sin and the ninth chapter of Daniel or something like that because you've been saved.

You've got the idea, have you? That's right. And it's a wonderful thing, beloved, to learn of the Lord Jesus Christ and to grow up into him and let him be your teacher. The Holy Ghost has come to lead you into all truth.

You understand that? And because he's come, you mustn't think you're immediately in it. He's going to lead you into all truth and I beg of you, especially you young people, or if you're an old person who got very set and very hard and dogmatic, I beg of you to let the Holy Ghost lead you into the truth.

Let him lead you. Don't read up books and then make pronouncements upon it. That's the last thing to do because the Holy Ghost isn't a book. He's a person and he has come personally to involve himself in you, in your nature, in your mentality, in everything.

Because he's made a great big basic change, you mustn't think that you've got through yet, to all these great things in which he alone is the qualified and given leader. He's come to lead you into all truth.

This has come more particularly to my mind because today I picked up a magazine and saw an article written by a certain man and I said to a dear brother of mine who was really a shining, praise God, dear brother so and so has come to the revelation.

Now I've known this dear brother for 20 years I suppose, you see, and at last you have to wait till the Lord gives you a revelation on things, you see. But what you have, rejoice in. What you have, glory in.

What you have if you know that the Lord has come and altered you when you used to be a vile tempered person and made you the sweetest person down your road or in your church, that's the thing to talk about but don't presume to think you know all about the gifts of the Spirit or something like that, you see.

This is a great fallacy among us. I don't know why in the world I'm talking like this but anyway let's go on, shall we? This is a great fallacy among us, I don't mean just us here but as a people of God, people presume to speak on things of which they have not a clue.

The Danger of Speaking Beyond What We Know

Let me give you an illustration of this. How many of you have Schofield Bibles in your hand? I'm not running down particular editions of Bibles or in your lap. Now somebody brought me a Schofield Bible, I don't know how long ago it was and I wouldn't be kind perhaps to think back.

How long would it be? I don't know whether my wife could tell me it was before we were married anyway. I won't tell you how long we've been married but we've been married quite a while. And I remember when I got this Schofield Bible, I used to get down with the Schofield Bible and I found that Dr. Schofield said some wonderful things on so many wonderful subjects and you're not surprised that because I could believe what he said for instance about redemption.

He'd give you the Greek words used for redemption. I can remember them now. This is how clearly it went in my mind, I haven't read a bunch of Schofield Bibles, I suppose it must be nearly 20 years. I can remember them now, his usages of the words and things that he said and great comments.

And he was wonderful. But when he got to speaking about the gifts of the Spirit, he talked out the back of his neck, he didn't know anything about it. But he was presuming to put footnotes in his Bible and that has a worldwide publication on these great subjects, you see.

Here's an illustration of a world-famous Bible teacher whose edition of the Bible is throughout the world but he didn't know. He knows now of course. But he didn't then. If he'd have waited he might have got let in.

But you see once you've committed yourself to make statements that's been published it's the hardest thing in the world to reject. I remember an old elder once when I went to Bradford, some of you heard me talk about him.

People were pressing me to publish and do all sorts of things. He used to say to me, don't you be in too big a hurry to rush into print my brother. Don't you be in too big a hurry. Homer the Great, Homer, I'm going back, that's a long time before any week I saw porn.

He said it took 20 years to write a book. Some of us think we can do it in 20 minutes or at least 20 weeks somewhere in a nice quiet caravan or something like that and we could do it. You see, he said it took 20 years to write a book.

It doesn't mean to spread over 20 years, but 20 years experience of life. And oh how we do need the Lord to lead us on into all truth. Do you? Do you feel you do? Do you feel that somehow you're really only at the beginning of things?

It's great to feel there. Would it be terrible if we thought we were there and there's nothing more to go on to? We all said, oh we got it. We've all got it. Well we'll pronounce the benediction and go home.

What's the use of us coming together? It's so good being here together, beloved, if we all feel we've got it. Now we can all say we've got him. Can we? We've got him. He's going to lead us on and on and on and we're going to learn of him.

Growing Into What God Is Teaching Us

Not just store our heads up with it, but store our life. Take it in with a great eating of the inner man. And that's how it gets stored up. Food gets stored up in me, but if you cut me open, I don't suppose I've got much.

I had quite a good lunch, hadn't I, an hour or so ago, but I don't suppose I've got a lot of foo-foo stored up in me. How does it get stored up in me? Why? In tissue and muscle and, not a lot of that now, energy.

Things like this. This is how it all gets stored up. It gets transformed. It's changed across by the process of breaking down and burning up and absorption and all the kinds of actions that go on inside.

And this is how it is. We go on and you're not storing anything up, beloved, if you're not growing. You may think you are, but you're not. This is a very, very important thing for us to understand. It's stored not in cupboards or in tins or in deep freezers or anything like that.

It is stored only in the present, in the moment. It's stored now, so I can give it out in all sorts of ways. And this is what the Lord wants us to understand. Food becomes stored up and then we talk about it as power.

Is that right? Energy. It's changed its name, you see. Once it was food, now it's power. Isn't it? Perhaps you're beginning to see daylight in terms that are used in the Bible then. And how God can speak of eating food and then in other words speaks of power.

Same thing another way. Hallelujah. And so we go on with the Lord in these tremendous ways. Now we're here, beloved, to join with one another and minister to one another and build up one another. And to go on in the great things of God.

Revelation, Conversion, and Spiritual Growth

And supposing I said to you, how many of you this afternoon have ever had a real personal revelation from God? I didn't say a vision or anything like that. Or a dream, necessarily. It may come either of those ways.

But any of you have ever had a real personal revelation of God to your whole inward man? Sort of thing that makes you say, yes, I could see it. And not only just with the joy of shouting out that you could see it, that could be light, but the inward understanding of it, the impress on your whole being with the great altering power that it brings into the light.

When you get a revelation, you can't be the same anymore. A revelation changes a man. Changes him. Glory be to God. And you're to go on in this great life and let the Lord teach you. Supposing, for instance, I said to you, how many of us here this afternoon are converted?

Really, truly converted? And what would you mean? What would you understand by that? And then I said, alright then, if you're converted, how many of you know what it is to be baptized in the Holy Ghost?

Something more. And then I said to you, well, how many of you know what it is to be walking in entire sanctification of the Spirit? Well, say, aren't they synonymous terms? No, no, no. You couldn't have been baptized in the Holy Ghost and not be entirely sanctified today.

That could have happened to you ten years ago. It was a great qualifying and initiating factor. But I don't mean to say you are now. How many of you are moving in the powers and ministries of the Spirit?

How many of you are going on into all this great fullness of God in your life? And so, you see, there's a long way from conversion to that. Let's have a look in our Bibles. Let's go into 2 Timothy, for instance.

In the second letter of Paul to Timothy, now many of you with whom I have had some long acquaintance seem to have seen in these meetings or other meetings or other places, stayed in your homes or known you, you will have heard me say this many times, I'm sure.

Or at least at the odd time, if not many times, that the chapter and verse divisions of the Bible are not of God. That is, they were not inspired by the Holy Spirit at all. And the best thing you could do with them is ignore them when you are reading through a book.

They are only useful for reference. That's the whole purpose of them. It isn't to say, well, this is the place where the whole thought is divided and another chapter starts. You must never, never think that when you are reading the Bible.

You might do that with somebody else's book, but not with God's book, because God didn't write it that way. So that when you read the fourth chapter, and it starts like this, I charge thee, therefore, before God and the Lord Jesus Christ, who shall judge the quick and the dead at his appearing and his kingdom, preach the word, be instant, in season, out of season.

That's right, you're always to be in season. That's what he means. The seasonal word is the instantaneous word, the spontaneous word, the thing that's moving from the life within by the Holy Ghost. You're to be in season when everybody says it's out of season.

Hallelujah. That's great. This is what the Lord Jesus said, you will remember, to the disciples when they came back in John chapter 4. He said, say not thee, there are yet four months, and then cometh the harvest.

It's not the season. He said, well, I say, look up on the day you ask, they're white already at the harvest, in season, out of season. That's the great truth. They're white already. If you wait four months, you will have lost it.

What the eye of the Lord sees, and what the Spirit of the Lord is moving to, beloved, is the thing that really counts. But I don't want at the moment to read on down to that chapter. I want to make the connection that we have in the first verse.

It says in that first verse that the Lord is going to judge the quick and the dead at his appearing and his kingdom. Now, you will know that that word quick is the old English word which means the living, those that are alive.

And it could be those that are asleep at his coming. It's the same thought as you have in Thessalonians. You know, those that are alive and remain until the coming of the Lord are those that sleep in Jesus.

In fact, it is absolutely right. That's your real reference. It isn't to do with the great white throne judgment when God is going to send those to hell that have to go and gather into his kingdom those that are going to be there.

It is to do in relationship to the great kingdom, with relationship to the Lord Jesus Christ's kingdom. And when you see this thing, you must read back at the end of the preceding chapter. It says this, verse 13, evil men and seducers shall wax worse and worse, deceiving and being deceived.

But continue thou in the things which thou hast learned, and hast been assured of, knowing of whom thou hast learned them. And that from a child thou hast known the holy scriptures, which are able to make thee wise unto salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus.

All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness, that the man of God may be perfect, truly furnished unto all good works.

And then comes the charge with the reminder that God, this blessed Lord, the Lord Jesus Christ is going to judge the living and the dead at his appearing, his kingdom. And it's in connection with this great truth that men of God should be perfect.

Going on to Perfection Through Scripture

Now you see the harm that the chapter division has done, if you don't read on. I don't know how many of us realize here this afternoon, beloved, remember what I said a little earlier about going on the truth.

You have a conversion of all tragedy of tragedies, if we only want secretly in our hearts to use Jesus Christ as an escape from hell, and not really go on to be what Jesus Christ wants us to be. It's like lying to him, even in our conversion.

It's like trying to deceive him, even whilst we're calling on him for his grace. It's like being consumed with an all selfish motive, because we don't want to suffer. Trying to use his suffering and pain and death, and yet not caring whether he does suffer anymore, about not achieving his purposes and rights, and all that he deserves in Calvary, through Calvary.

You see, the man of God, verse 17 of chapter 3, may be, praise God, may be perfect, truly furnished, absolutely equipped unto every good work. This is the way Paul brings this great Timothy, as far as here, before he leaves him.

If you look at the opening verse, for instance, of the epistle, or the opening verses, he speaks, and he says, in his mind, and by his spirit, going back to the time of Timothy's conversion. You see, going back to Timothy's mother, and Timothy's grandmother, and all that, going back to the beginnings of things, Paul knew them all very well.

But oh, beloved, the tragedy, if having preached to this man, this young man, if having taken this young man on, if having written to him, if having shown him all things, because you remember, this is the sort of thing that he says, if this young man does not go on to become the perfect man in Christ, that he can be, and ought to be.

And by God's grace, you may be. And in the final judgments, beloved, in his kingdom, when the Lord Jesus comes back, it is on such things as this that we shall be judged. Do you realise, I really love to think, that in your heart, this afternoon, and for the rest of your life, this knowledge had come, that the Lord Jesus Christ is really coming back again.

And he is going to move in his own kingdom, and among a people over whom he considers he has total rights. Now I know, that in the providential care of the whole world, and in the fact that he is God, he has rights with all men.

Whether they want to call themselves atheists, or Taoists, or Confucianists, or Buddhists, or Communists, or any otherists, or whatever they may be, he has right with all, for he is God. But where his kingdom is concerned, beloved, so far as we are concerned, he considers that you and me, we are so entirely his, so much his, that it is all beyond even words to express it.

You see, we are his by blood and love, we are his by nature, we are his by something entirely different. And when he moves toward us, and when he thinks upon us here, as we are gathered here this afternoon, he considers, and if he was to become talkative in our midst, in that he should silence every other voice and speak himself.

These are the sorts of things that he would say. You are mine, and so much mine, that he cannot think of us in any other ways than that because we are his, we may and ought, and if love be our motive, and our real union, then nothing in the world will be allowed to come between us, and the ambitions of Jesus in us, then we ought to be 100 the kind of man that Paul means when he says, the man of God should be perfect, truly furnished unto all good works.

Praise his wonderful name. Do you believe that? Now I'm not asking you whether you believe it's possible and that it can be that you could be thoroughly furnished unto all good works. And there's a lot of this kind of idea going about today.

You see, the needs of others are so preached and brought forward. There's the need of the heathen, there's the need of the world, there's the need of the sick, there's the need of the drug addict, there's the need of the devil possessed, there's the need of all this, and you see, there's great exhortation going on all over the place, and we're being told there is equipment and this, that and the other, and oh, it's all so tremendous and so real, but that's not what I'm asking you because this can, in the end, become a little heavy.

This can be that I can have these gifts and I can have these powers and I can have these ministers and it's so good and it's so true that we suffer from its very truth and the wrong emphasis and pushing the thing too far.

That's not exactly what I'm meaning. But what I ask, what I was really meaning is, do you believe personally that you ought to be that? And can and may be that? Or are you content to think, oh if I take this lowly place, you think that I'm going to, oh God help me, oh you see, all the rest of your life and how long dare you think you're going to live?

It's to see this great thing in the heart of Jesus. That's the great secret of it, beloved. To see and know this. Oh, well there's no strain and struggle in the kingdom of God. There's no such thing as emulation.

There's no such thing as one getting in front of another or vying for position or getting something more that my brother or my sister has. This is all foreign to God. It has no place nor part in his kingdom.

But oh beloved, there ought to be in every one of us a deep, deep urge that matches a longing of like calibre inside us. That we should be everything that my Jesus wants us to be. That's the way it should be.

Everything Lord I only want to please thee. That is all. I want to be everything that you want me to be. This is the great urge and longing that ought to be in every heart. And so, you see, this is really what's behind it all.

The Invisible Kingdom of Christ

When you read such a phrase as the first verse of the fourth chapter where it speaks of his kingdom. The kingdom of the Lord Jesus Christ. Praise the Lord. You know beloved that there is going to be a glorious appearing of that kingdom.

It's all going to appear one day. But it's what the thing is now in it's invisible sense. No less real because it's invisible. In fact, this is laid upon us by the Spirit more urgently from heaven. That is because it's invisible.

We've got to live and make it the more real. Because men cannot see it. Because at the moment it isn't in it's all it's pattern. I suppose some of you may have used the television during the week to see this investiture of the Prince.

One of the times I think television might have some proper use. But to see this investiture of the Prince. And I suppose, I don't know, I didn't even in that time even read the papers about it. Leave alone anything else.

I expect it was filled with pomp and pageantry. And I suppose all the best commentators in England were here to describe it. And all the best cameras to photograph it. And all the best. I suppose it was a marvellous occasion.

I suppose it was. I don't know about them. But you see, beloved, that's something that people can see and enter into in dimensions that they can understand. But you know, beloved, in this great kingdom of the Lord Jesus Christ, people cannot see this.

And it is not apparent to men and women. All the more then, and let God work this into the fibre of my being and make it so real in me. All the more reason then, why we who are his have got to be 100 out for the revelation and demonstration of this great kingdom of the Lord Jesus Christ.

All the more reason, beloved. I see it ever so much more clearly. The older I get, and this I will tell you young people, and I'm not the oldest one here, let them speak up and say if I'm wrong. But this you can be sure of.

As you get older and time is slipping away from you so fast, you hardly think it when you're 20 and 30. Or perhaps 40, but I won't, I'd better go too much. But there it is. You will begin to see this much more clearly.

Let me assure you, who in spirit at least wants to be thought young, if not in body. Let me assure you that you will see that you can't live another minute unless it be 100 for the Lord. You will see that.

I hear young people saying it and it thrills my heart when they say they want to be all, all, all out for Jesus. But I'll tell you this, that by the time you're getting on even as old as I am, you will see that there's nothing at all, nothing in life at all, except to fill every moment up with this.

To live for Jesus. Absolutely. Live for Him. Let's go back. Let's have a look in the Gospel according to John. In John chapter 18. You remember it's the great chapter that tells us of the Lord's trial.

And he, in this 18th chapter, you read a verse like this. Jesus is answering Pilate in verse 36. He says, my kingdom is not of this world. If my kingdom were of this world, then would my servants fight.

I don't want to overstress this, but it was on that that I became a conscientious objector in the last war. He said, if my kingdom were this world, that chap north would fight. But as it wasn't, I didn't.

That ended that. Hallelujah. Of course, I had other verses beside that, but still, that was one of the greatest things I saw in the Scripture. That my servants would fight, that I should not be delivered to the Jews.

But no, is my kingdom not from hence. There it is. Art thou a king then, says Pilate in the next verse. He said, thou sayest that I am a king. Hallelujah. Jesus listened to Pilate's heart, not to his words.

Pilate's heart was confessing that he was a king. He'd never met anybody like Jesus. He was greater than Caesar, and Pilate knew it. I'm listening to your heart, man. You're saying one thing with your mouth.

You're asking questions, appearing to want to know, but I'm listening to your heart. You're saying I'm a king. Now, my beloved, if your questions and mouth talk doesn't say what your heart's saying, see where you stand.

With Jesus. You're saying I'm a king, even whilst you're asking questions. You've done that, haven't you? When you've really known you've asked questions, and all the time you've known. Am I right or wrong?

Right. You see, we generally all go this way. Good job Jesus listens to our heart. Praise the name of the Lord. But what if he's been listening to your heart all day today? What's he heard? This is the important thing.

Glory be to the name of the Lord. Jesus says, my kingdom isn't of this world. Tis not of this world. Then, hallelujah. That's great, isn't it? His kingdom isn't here at all. And, when you think of it this way, let's go on into the Corinthian letter.

The Kingdom Delivered to the Father

Let's trace through some of these great scriptures of truth. In that wonderful resurrection chapter, the 15th, you'll find him saying, 1 Corinthians 15, Paul, he says this, verse 24, Praise God. There's going to be a time when Christ is going to deliver up the kingdom to God the Father.

Praise God. And you must understand when you read these great truths, for instance, I'm now understanding a certain magazine, I must confess, I shall have to tell my brother when I see him face to face, I haven't read his articles.

There are a series of articles going on about the kingdom of God and the kingdom of heaven. You'll have to understand, beloved, very, very clearly, that these are all aspects of one great thing, the kingdom of God being the greatest of all.

Greater than the kingdom of heaven and greater than the kingdom of Christ. Here is an exhibition of it. They're all phases of, demonstrations of, manifestations on, in certain time and in eternity, of the one great kingdom of God.

And there's going to be a time, beloved, when the Lord Jesus Christ is going to hand up the kingdom to the Father. In this meanwhile, the kingdom of God is under the dominion of the Lord Jesus Christ.

It's in His hands and it's under His authority and He is working in it. Hallelujah. When the time's alright, you can read all about it in your Bibles. That's what you've got Bibles for, so that you shouldn't become lazy people who have to depend on other people.

You should read them yourselves. Keep on reading them until you understand them. That's the way. And when the Lord is there, He'll be able to hand it right over to His Father. It's all going to be complete then.

It's going to be God that's all in all. Not, not say the Father all in all or even Jesus all in all or the Holy Ghost all in all. See, it's not a person or personality or a personal thing in the end. It's just God.

That's Father and Son and Holy Ghost, Father. It's left it all to Jesus now, see, Jesus knowing that all things were in His hands. You got that? You remember that? John chapter 13. He's going to hand it all back to the Father.

It's all going to be so wonderfully complete. He's not going to let it out of His hands until everything is finished according to the cry that He shouted on the cross. Finished! And John later in the Revelation looking on through time hears it in the 21st chapter.

It is done! That's right. It's all done. Glory. And everything in time, beloved, is going to be brought into line with this tremendous thing. Jesus is going to hand it all over to the Father. But before that, this that we read of in Timothy will have taken place according to the standard of perfect manhood and complete ability and equipment to tackle every good work that God wants done.

This is the standard of judgment. According to, of course, for those of us who have been born again long enough to have got to this place. If you've only been born again last night and the Lord's coming tonight, that's all right.

It's according to the measure of light, revelation, grace, power and ministry that you've received. Amen. That's always the standard. Blessed be His name. He's very, very fair as well as very, very loving and very, very glorious.

Imitating God and Living in Righteousness

Let's go on again. Let's understand this. Ephesians. We'll look in here, in the fifth chapter of Ephesians. And the first verse, for instance, gives you a clue. It says, Be a follower of God. If you are a dear child, are you a dear child?

Eh? You're really a dear child, are you? That is, that if I could really see you in your spiritual life and size and shape and looks, I would want to cover you and say, You're a dear child. Glory. I know you're a child, but don't come and kick me.

Don't, don't, don't. You see? Are you a dear child? Now, according to the price that was paid for you, you're very dear. Most expensive. According to the agony that was suffered to bring you forth to life in the Spirit, you're a dear, dear child.

For who can measure in these realms? And who can keep the account of God's expenses and expenditure along this line? Who can? Praise Him that He writes and calls me a dear child. Hallelujah. Of course, what we like to do, assuming that everybody likes to do the same things that we do, we like to take a verse like that and just start preaching about it as dear children.

You see? But if you go back, you'll see what God, what He calls a dear child. You look in verse 17 of chapter 3, Christ dwelling in your hearts by faith. You, absolutely rooted and grounded in love, able to comprehend with all the saints what the length and breadth and depth and height of a dear child.

That's the one to cuddle to my bosom. Oh, this one that understands. Rooted and grounded in love with Christ dear there. Rooted and grounded in the inward Christ, the man of love, the manifestation of utter perfection.

Grounded in, not grounded in the things out there, not rooted in the world. Not got its roots back in some awful thing of past heredity and nasty tempers and old ways of going on and selfishnesses. Rooted and grounded in Him who's come to be the inward life and absolutely moving on in this one way.

What a dear child. Glory be to God. And you ought to follow Him. You see? And you get, let's go on then. In the fifth chapter, in the fifth verse, you know this, that no whoremonger, nor unclean person, nor covetous man, who is an idolater, hath any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and of God.

Now let no man deceive you. Words can be very vain, my beloved. There can be a lot of empty pratings about this. But you must not be deceived. Nobody that lives like this, nobody who has all this basic inward nature unchanged within them, that loves to run after an idol and make an idol of this or of that or of the other.

I met a lady the other day, a dear lady. I'd never seen her before and I don't know whether I shall ever see her since. She was in terrible distress. Yes, she told me she'd been a former Baptist and how God had met her and she'd been baptized in the Spirit under the ministry of a precious brother with whom I was talking to her at that moment and things were going on.

And she was the sweetest soul you could ever imagine. And I'm not at all being funny. This is absolutely right. She was the sweetest soul. She was gentle in everything. When I got down to the root of her trouble, she had a complete breakdown.

She'd got an idol. I'll tell you what her idol was. She wasn't mine. She'll hear this tape sometime probably. Somebody had said, you're getting old my dear. You ought to save up for your old age a little bit.

That was her idol. She'd come off Jesus. She'd come off him. She got that put right. She let it go and glory, she was transformed on her own setting. But she was having lip reams. You see? You wouldn't have thought saving up for your old age was covetousness, would you?

That's prudence, surely, especially if you're a Scot. That's being canny. What's old age? Have I got any? I'm getting on for 60. I'm a few years off yet, but still, never mind. I mean, when does old age start now?

When you're a hundred? When does it start, old age? Some people would think it had started middle fifties, wouldn't they? Or ought to get ready for it. I mean, it's this myth, you see. Alright, never mind.

What I'm trying to say is this. Or what God wants us to understand, my beloved. And this is the tragedy. If you have been deeply in love with Jesus, if you have been baptised and integrated and brought into this wonderful life with him, if you shift off, if you're one of these wonderful, sweet, close lovers and you shift off on the nth degree, you'll be in trouble.