God’s Shepherds and God’s Promises — Zac Poonen

We are very thankful to the Lord that we've been able to have conferences regularly for more than 40 years. I think we had the first one in 1976 in our house, and then as the numbers increased, we met in different places.

And as the numbers kept increasing, we had to find bigger halls. And always, they would keep hiking up the rent for these halls. We had to pay huge amounts of money just to rent a hall. But God's always provided our need.

But we couldn't always be sure that we'd always have enough for more people who came. And I think the last hall we had before we had this place could accommodate only 700 people. And last year at the conference, we had 1 ,500 people here.

This time, we had to limit it to only 1 ,000 people. We had to tell people, please don't everybody come because we don't have place here. If we had just opened this up to anybody who wanted to come, there'd be 5 ,000 people who would come at least, and who would be even willing to pay to come.

Of course, we charge nothing. All these years, everything that we've offered in a conference is absolutely free. Accommodation is free, food is free, everything is free. All these 44 years, except for those who want to stay on their own and choose a better accommodation, but food is free for everyone.

And it's amazing how God has always provided our need without our ever taking a single offering in any conference or meeting all these 42 years. It's something we have to be thankful for because India is not a wealthy country.

It's known as a poor country, and the cost of living is going up all the time. And so it's wonderful to see how God's people when they love him, they sacrifice. And when the Lord catches a fish, real fish, not fake fish, a real disciple of Jesus, when the Lord catches a disciple of fish, there'll always be a coin in the mouth of that fish, which he gives to the Lord, like he did when he told Peter to go and catch a fish.

We don't look for the coin, we look for the fish. And we don't use the coin for ourselves. We use the coin to bless God's people in different places. That's amazing, that is God's way, and we praise the Lord for it.

And that's been a, you see, when we experience the Lord in practical terms, that proves to us that he's a living God. We don't teach that Jesus heals all sicknesses because I don't read that in scripture.

But we do believe that when a person is sick, it says the elder should pray for them, anointing them with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer of faith, where God gives faith, there'll be healing, and we have seen numerous healings.

Through the years, we don't talk about it. We've seen people healed through prayer over a telephone and saved from surgery the next day and healed. But we don't talk about these things because these are not the big things.

Even the provision of financial needs is not the big thing. The main thing we rejoice in is that people have become disciples, learned to love Jesus, more and more people have become free from sin, and God has raised up godly leaders in all of our churches.

Compassion for Sheep Without a Shepherd

That's a very important mark of God's blessing. We read that once Jesus looked out at the people, you read that in the end of Matthew 9, 36 to 38, and he saw the people like sheep without a shepherd. Please turn to that verse, Matthew 9, and verse 37.

No, sorry, 36. Matthew 9, 36, this is how Jesus saw the people then. He's the same yesterday, today, forever. And this is how he sees the people today as well. Seeing the people, he felt compassion for them.

He still feels compassion as he looks out at the multitude of people who are following false religions, trying to do all types of works, burning candles, giving money, rolling on the ground, dipping themselves in rivers in order to get their sins forgiven.

We may say, ah, those things happen, but Jesus does not say like that. We just read that in the papers and say, no, Jesus looks at them with compassion. And I always pray, Lord, please give me the same compassion there is in your heart.

It's no use saying I want to be like Jesus and spend my life trying to make money. No, if I want to be like Jesus, I want to have compassion on the people of my country and wherever God takes me. And I want to look at them the way Jesus looks at them.

I want to have the eyes of Jesus for the world and for his people. I can't reach the whole world. I can reach only a very small number, tiny number whom God puts within my circle. And if I'm faithful there, he'll keep increasing the circle.

And that'll happen to all of us. You're faithful in the small circle, God will increase that circle. But in the small circle where you are, God wants you to be a true witness for him. Nobody in your circle may get converted, nevermind, but let the light shine.

Have compassion for them. You know, all of us here sitting, every person sitting here, listen to me. There are some people you know that nobody else in the hall knows. Isn't that right? There are some people I know whom even my wife does not know, whom none of you know.

And there are some people you know, maybe five or 10 people, but there are some people you know whom nobody in this hall knows. That is a little world of your own. And God so loved that little world of people you know, that he sent you, his son, his daughter, into that world, that they should not perish, but have everlasting life.

That is John 3 .16 for you. God so loved the little world of people whom you know, so that he sent his son and daughter, you, into that world, so that none of them should perish, but have eternal life.

But will they all get converted? No. God sent his son into the world and most of the people are not converted. So the people in your world may not be converted, but God sent his son into the world and some were converted.

And where you go in your little world, God wants some, maybe one, maybe two, to turn to the Lord. I want to ask you, my brothers and sisters, would you like to live your whole life in this world and finally stand before the Lord and say, Lord, I never brought anybody to Christ.

I came, but you gave me 30 years on earth. I never brought a single soul to Christ. I never witnessed to anybody about you because I was ashamed. Ashamed? When I was in the Navy, I had a big struggle because I was a Naval officer and a lot of people respected me in the Naval base.

All the sailors had to salute me. If they passed me 10 times a day, they had to salute me 10 times a day. That's military discipline. And when I felt a burden in non-working hours, Wednesday, we had a half day, Saturday, we had a half day, Sunday, full day off.

And during my off time, I could take off my uniform and put on civilian clothes. I had a burden to stand outside the Naval base, the road, and preach the gospel. But I said, these fellows who salute me will see me standing there and they'll laugh at me.

What is this officer standing here? And preaching here like some vegetable vendor selling vegetables. And I had a great struggle. So I would never stand there. I'd go far away, five, 10 miles away where nobody knew me.

And I would preach there. And I thought I was very bold. And I said, Lord, I have to say, I'm still ashamed to let my junior sailors see me preaching about you. But I don't want to be. You were not ashamed to hang on a cross for me with just an underwear.

That's all that Jesus was wearing on the cross, an underwear. I mean, just to go out walking in the street with an underwear is a shameful thing. But Lord Jesus, you hung on a cross for me with an underwear and you were not ashamed and you did that for me.

I never want to be ashamed of you. No matter even if I'm the admiral of the Navy, I don't want to be ashamed of you. I don't want to be ashamed of you before anybody. I don't want to be ashamed to be seen praying over my food in the naval officer's mess.

And I don't want to be ashamed to be seen praying publicly. I'd never want to be ashamed of you. You're the Lord of this universe. Why should I be ashamed? And I said, Lord, I want the day to come when I will stand right outside the naval base and preach the gospel and let these people laugh at me.

But I can't do it. I don't have the power. I want you to fill me with the Holy Spirit. Because you said, you shall receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you and then you will be my witnesses.

And I said, Lord, that's what I'm lacking. I'm born again. I know I'm going to heaven. I'm baptized in water. I need to be anointed with the Holy Spirit like Jesus was. Even Jesus. You know, Jesus never went out into the ministry till he was anointed with the Holy Spirit.

And how many Christians there are who think that, yeah, I can go out to serve God without being anointed with the Holy Spirit? Really? Jesus, the son of God, who lived a perfect life for 30 years, who studied the scripture so well that he knew it at the age of 12.

Some people think if I know the Bible, I can preach. Jesus knew it at 12. Why didn't he preach for the next 18 years? One reason. He was not anointed with the Holy Spirit. And we read, I don't know whether you read this.

It says in Luke and chapter three about Jesus' baptism. Luke chapter three and verse 21. When all the people were baptized, Jesus also was baptized. And while he was praying, heaven was opened and the Holy Spirit came upon him.

Did the Holy Spirit come upon Jesus without his praying? No. Even Jesus had to pray to be anointed with the Holy Spirit. So when he was baptized, you know what he was praying? Most people when they get baptized want, make sure the water doesn't go into my nose.

That's good. But Jesus was more interested in me anointed with the Holy Spirit when he came out of the water. And he was praying when he went into the waters. Father, this is the beginning of my ministry.

Anoint me with the Holy Spirit, please. Somebody could say, Lord Jesus, you lived such a perfect life. You know the Bible so well. You can preach anywhere. Yeah, that knowledge is not enough. I have knowledge even to confound the great scholars and priests here.

But that's not what I want. I want the supernatural anointing of the Holy Spirit, which will take my words and accomplish God's purposes. He prayed and as soon as he came out, the Holy Spirit descended on him.

What was Jesus praying for? I know, because Jesus' prayers were always answered immediately. And the Holy Spirit came upon him. I know what he was praying for. He was praying that the Holy Spirit come upon him.

And so here I was in the naval base afraid to stand outside. I would stand far away where nobody knew me. But to stand outside where my senior officers will see me standing there, my junior sailors will see me standing there, my colleagues will see me, and they will really laugh and make fun of me.

And I prayed and I tell you for nearly one year, I couldn't go. I would go far away and preach. But I prayed and prayed and God met with me and he gave me power. I said, I'll never believe that I received that power till I have the boldness to stand right outside the naval base on that road and preach the gospel.

And I was afraid of people standing and making fun of me. You know, they would stand there and make fun of me. And the Lord gave me an amazing verse which I'd never seen before as to his power. And that's in Genesis 41.

I'd never forgotten that verse. You know, in Genesis 41, it's not really, it's connected to what the Lord made clear to me that day when I was seeking, afraid of people making fun of me or pointing a finger at me or laughing at me or saying things about me.

In Genesis 41, we read about Joseph, verse 14. Pharaoh called for Joseph. And Joseph came and he interpreted the dream and Pharaoh said in verse 38, can we find a man like this in whom is a divine spirit?

And so he said in verse 40, Joseph, you're going to be over my house. And according to your command, all my people will do homage. Only in the throne, I'll be greater than you. I've set you over the land of Egypt.

And he took a signet ring from his hand and put it on Joseph's hand. To me, that was a picture of Jesus anointing me. And this is the word that came to my heart. Very strongly at that time, Pharaoh said to Joseph, amazing statement, verse 44.

Joseph, without your permission, no one will be able to raise his hand or foot in all the land of Egypt. And the Lord said to me, you go out there and preach and without my permission, no one will be able to point a finger at you or raise a tongue or speak against you.

I said, wow. So if that fellow stands there and makes fun of me, it's because my father in heaven has permitted him to make fun of me. Oh, then it's all right. And that really gave me boldness, tremendous boldness.

Scripture, Sovereignty, and Boldness in Opposition

And another similar passage I found in 2 Samuel. You know, if you guys don't study the Old Testament, you're missing out on wonderful promises. And if you don't read the Bible, sometimes you're in a difficult situation.

The answer is in the Bible, but you don't know where it is. And you live in confusion and you can waste your life. I tell you, I've been a believer now for 60 years. I was born again in 1959, July. And all these 60 years, I found in every situation, there's an answer in the word of God.

But because I studied it, I knew where it was. Even when God called me out to full-time Christian work in May 1964, it was through the scriptures. All the guidance of my life was through the scriptures.

When I was praying about my marriage, God led me through the scriptures, gave me a confirmation about the person I was to marry. All through my life, the word of God has guided me. Like the Psalmist says, thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.

That means it's like the streetlights and also it's like a torchlight. Where there are no streetlights, I've got a torchlight. The word of God is always there. Torchlight and a streetlight. I can see up to a certain distance, but I also got a torchlight for the nearby snakes and scorpions that are in the way.

Thy word, thy word have I treasured in my heart that I might never sin against you is also in Psalm 119. There's some amazing verses about promises about God's word in Psalm 119. And also Psalm one, if you meditate on the law of the Lord day and night, you know what?

If you meditate on God's word day and night, the promise in Psalm one is, listen to this, whatever you do will prosper. You want that promise from God? Whatever you do will prosper. I don't mean preaching alone.

I was working in a ship in the Navy and I said, Lord, whatever I do in the ship must prosper. It was all Naval things I had to do on that ship, but everything I did went right because I had to spend my time studying, meditating on God's word.

And at the end of one year, the commanding officer has to write an annual report about me and he would call me and say, Lieutenant Poonen, I have nothing against you. You've done your work perfectly and I recommend your job is done perfectly, but you don't play cards with the others and you don't drink with all the others.

You don't dance with all the others. You're a very unsocial person. I said, sir, I have some convictions about those things as a Christian. And I had that. And you know, one of those commanding officers, when he was dying in a hospital, somebody who met him told him, he told that man that they were thinking about me because I was the only officer who reminded him of eternity.

And when you're on your deathbed, you begin to think of eternity. And then you begin to think of those people who reminded you of eternity. Those are the only people who can help you. Don't be ashamed to be a witness for Christ.

So the other verse I got was in 2 Samuel, when David was being chased out of his house by his son, Absalom. 2 Samuel 16, you know, the king before David was Saul. And there was a relative of Saul who was very upset with David becoming king because he lost all his influence.

His name was Shimei. And we read in 2 Samuel 16, verse five, when David was being chased out by his son, a man from the family of Saul, Shimei, came and cursed him continually. He threw stones at David.

This is the king. But because he was checked out, this Shimei was so happy. And Shimei said in verse seven, get out, get out, you man of bloodshed, worthless fellow. He was so bold now because he was so happy that David was kicked out.

And one of David's generals, verse nine, said to, he said to the king, why should this dead dog curse my lord, the king? Let me go now and cut off his head with my sword and see what he says. Listen to this.

The king says, what have I got to do with you, O son of Zeruiah? I won't let you do it. See, Zeruiah was David's sister. And Abishai was his sister's son. He was trying to protect his uncle. And David said, if he curses, it's because the Lord has told him, curse David.

Then how can I say, why are you doing that? Do you have that faith that when somebody curses you, I mean, David put it, the Lord told him, I would say the Lord permitted him. That's more accurate. In the Old Testament, some of these things, they didn't have light.

But the Lord has permitted him to curse you, brother, sister. If the Lord has permitted him, why are you getting upset about it? If the Lord permitted somebody to send a stinking letter to you, don't get upset about it.

Forgive him. Don't have any grudge against him. Don't have any, do you believe in the sovereign control of God? Look what Pharaoh said, nobody can lift a hand or a foot without your permission, Joseph.

And without the permission of Jesus, I saw in that naval base, nobody could lift a hand or a foot against me. So I got boldness to stand right outside the naval base regularly for over a year, every week to stand outside in the streets and preach the gospel and people would make fun of me and call me the devil.

And I got some wonderful privileges there to be part of the family of God, because Jesus said, if they call the head of the house, Prince of devils, how much more they will call the members of his family.

I remember once when I was seeking to sing a chorus and share something in the church, I was in small church. The Lord said to me, it's easy to sing here. Everybody will admire you starting a chorus. Are you willing to stand on the street and sing the same thing where people will make fun of you?

I said, sure, Lord, I will never say something in a church which I'm not willing to say on the street where people make fun of me. In the church, people will admire me. Oh, what a great preacher. I'm willing to sing in the street.

I'm willing to say the same thing out on the streets where people make fun of me. I decided that when I was 24 years old, and I'm thankful that the Lord kept me that way, that I would never be ashamed to proclaim the truth of God, even where I'm made fun of, laughed at.

And that's what helped me when we started CFC. And a lot of people called us the devil and all types of names. And we never hated any one of them. We loved them, no matter what they did to us, they cursed us, they troubled us, or they wrote articles against us or took us to court.

It makes absolutely no difference. We said, Lord, we're gonna love them. You have permitted, you have permitted them to raise their hand against me. You have permitted them to speak against me. You have permitted them to take me to court.

You have permitted them to write articles against me. Who am I to say, why do they do it? I will not say that. You know where I learned that from? The Bible. Genesis 41, 2 Samuel 16. Look how your life can be changed just by a few little examples like this.

Can you do that in the days to come? That's how Jesus was. When they crucified him on the cross, or when they called him, in 2 Samuel 12, when they called him Beelzebul. You know what he said that tremendously blessed me that?

He knew that without the father's permission, they could not call him Beelzebul. Nobody can call me the devil without the father's permission. Matthew chapter 12, it says, when Jesus healed a sick person, all the people admired it, but the Pharisees were jealous.

And they said in Matthew 12, 24, this man is casting out demons by the ruler of demons, Beelzebul. And Jesus could read their thoughts and what they were saying among themselves. What would you do if somebody turned around and said, you're a son of the devil?

You're doing your work in the devil's power. Have you ever been called the devil? I've been called devil, son of a devil, spiritual terrorists, and all types of names. And I believe it's an honor to be part of Jesus' family.

They called the head of the family Beelzebul. What bad names have they called you? Have they only called you good names as Christians? Maybe you're ashamed to proclaim Christ where he's unpopular. That's why you proclaim Christ only where he's popular.

So everybody admires you. I want to proclaim Christ where he's unpopular. And what you saw yesterday in the birthday celebration is one part of it. A little bit of appreciation. But a lot of my life has been opposition, criticism, and many other things.

And I've accepted that just as happily as I accepted yesterday. It's just the same to me. I prayed years ago. I said, Lord, I want to come to the place in my life where whether a person appreciates me or criticize me, it's the same.

It'll be like water off a duck's back. It comes and flows off. Somebody appreciates, somebody criticizes. Jesus was like that. You could say, oh, this is the son of David. Oh, this is the devil. It was the same to him.

I said, Lord, I want to be like you. You put me on a throne or you put me in a criminal court, it is the same, not the slightest difference. Because without my father's permission, nobody can raise a hand or a foot or speak a word against me.

My dear brothers and sisters, we're gonna face difficult times in this country in the days to come. A lot of anti-Christian forces coming up. Believe this, that nobody can put you in prison for the Lord's sake without his permission.

Nobody can take advantage of you. In government offices, perhaps some of those anti-Christian people may make life difficult for you or a boss in your factory or office may make life difficult for you because you're a Christian.

Without the father's permission, it cannot happen. If you are committed to the Lord, and if you're scared, do what I did. Pray for the power of the Holy Spirit. When you're filled with the Holy Spirit, you'll be bold.

Anyway, when these people called Jesus the devil, you know what he said? Have you read this carefully? Read the Bible slowly and exactly. Matthew 12, 32. Whoever speaks a word against the Son of Man, it'll be forgiven.

Did you read it carefully? What does it say? He didn't tell the Pharisees, you're forgiven. They were forgiven, of course. But he said, whoever, not only you Pharisees, whoever not spoke, speaks, that is for the next 2 ,000 years.

If anybody speaks a word against Jesus, I have forgiven you right now. There, 2 ,000 years ago, Jesus forgave all the people who spoke against him for the next 2 ,000 years. And that taught me something.

I said, Lord, I have to have a thing called future forgiveness. Somebody's gonna speak against me next year, it's already forgiven, brother. Forgiven. You cannot move me from a position of forgiven. Why?

Because I have been forgiven so much. I've been forgiven so much in my life. I should have been in hell today. I am not exaggerating. I should have been in hell. Sometimes I see myself in the days of my sinning and backsliding like a person rolling down a cliff.

There's a picture I saw in my mind, rolling down a hill, and there's a steep cliff there. And I'm rolling, rolling, rolling, and defeated, defeated, frustrated, backslidden. And just before I reached the edge of that cliff, the Lord caught me.

That's why I'm here today. And I said, Lord, while you've been so merciful to me, you've prevented me from going over the cliff into an eternal hell, how shall I treat other people who treat me badly?

Forgiven, brother. Forgiven, sister. Forgiven, forgiven, forgiven. Whatever you may call me, whatever you may do against me, did you pick my pocket and take my money? Forgiven. Did you break into my house and take something you couldn't find anything, but whatever you took, forgiven, you broke down the doors, forgiven.

There is not a thing you can do against me, anybody in the world, that I will not forgive you. It's forgiven already. Whoever speaks against the Son of Man in the next 2 ,000 years is forgiven already.

Whoever speaks against Zacmune until the end of his life is forgiven already. And whoever spoke against Zacmune in the past is forgiven. Can you say that? Many of you say, I want to follow Jesus. Follow him here.

This is how we endure in love until the end. One of the major parts of love is forgiveness. So don't just read that verse about enduring until the end in love, until you begin with forgiveness. Forgiveness is the ABC.

I want to forgive, I want to forgive, I want to keep on forgiving. You know, we say, the Bible says in Ephesians 5, 1, I think, be imitators of God. Be imitators of God. We like to imitate God in doing miracles.

No, I have no desire to do miracles. But I'll tell you where I want to be an imitator of God. I know God can do miracles, but that's not where I want to imitate him. The Bible says in Ephesians 5, 1, be imitators of God.

Have you read that? Read the Bible slowly, exactly, and you will discover things which, you don't have to get it from me, you'll get it from the Holy Spirit. What does it say there? Read slowly, not be imitators of God.

What does it say? Read it. Therefore, and there's a little statement I'll say, whenever you see the word therefore in a sentence, see what it is there for, got it? Whenever you see therefore in a sentence, see what it is there for.

That means go back to the previous verse. Where should I imitate God? Forgive one another as God as Christ has forgiven you. Therefore, be imitators of God. So where do I have to imitate God? In doing miracles?

No. In preaching sermons? No. In forgiving. How does God forgive? Now just imagine, for example, if you could go to heaven right now and see what God is doing. I'll tell you. Somewhere in Bangalore, somebody's committed a sin, God-fearing person saying, Lord, please forgive me, and the Lord's saying, forgiven.

In another corner of Bangalore, somebody else, some other believer is saying, I'm slipped up, Lord, forgive me, God's saying, forgiven. Some other part of Bombay, Delhi, different people are saying, Father, forgive me, and the Lord's saying, forgiven.

Somebody in Africa is saying, Lord, forgive me, it's forgiven. Somebody on the other side of the world, America, Pacific Islands, and Australia saying, Lord, forgive me. You know what God is doing 24 hours a day, every second?

Millions of Christians, others praying to him, forgive me, he's saying, forgiven, forgiven, forgiven, forgiven, forgiven. Yeah, forgiven, forgiven, forgiven. Yeah, forgiven there. Be imitators of God.

I wanna be like that. I never want to stop. I never want to stop. That is to be like Jesus. Whoever speaks a word against, put your name there, is already forgiven. Sometimes I hear, somebody tells me, Brother Zach, somebody wrote something against you.

Somebody said something against you. Somebody spoke against you there. Somebody is trying, scheming something against you. I said, I don't know, I don't even know his name, but he's forgiven. What is the result of that?

First of all, it makes me a very happy man. Those who don't forgive are miserable. They don't sleep properly at night. They have bitterness in their heart against somebody who did something wrong to them.

That guy has already ruined your life by doing something wrong against you. And now he's ruining your life even more by preventing you from sleeping, making you think about him. What a fantastic work he has done.

He has done a double job. The devil has killed two birds with one stone. With one stone, he hit that fellow. Speak against him. And then he hits you by keeping a bitterness against him and you don't sleep properly at night.

And you keep on thinking, what shall I do? What shall I do with that fellow? He did so much to me. Two birds with one stone. What a clever fellow. Make a fool of the devil and say, you're not gonna fool me anymore.

I'll tell you, in my stupid younger days, because I never had a spiritual father to guide me, I also got knocked down by the devil when somebody did something against me, but never again. Since many years now, I can honestly say before God, I've got zero bitterness in my heart against anyone who's done anything against me.

All the people who have done things against me, I have named them and said, Lord, I pray you will bless them. I pray you will bless their families. I pray you will prosper them. I pray it'll go well with them.

And I've even said this, Lord, if you will give me the opportunity to do some good to them, give me that opportunity. I'll go and do some good to them who have harmed me so that they will know that I have forgiven them.

That's why I sleep peacefully at night. I'll tell you, believe me, my sleep is never disturbed by thinking of a single human being who has harmed me or hurt me or who can possibly hurt me. You get disturbed by sleep like that?

Some brother-in-law who cheated you of your property? Can you imagine believers being worried about that? Some brother-in-law cheated you of the, some share should have come to your wife, it never came.

Praise the Lord. God can make up for it. Let me give you another verse. Wonderful things from the Old Testament. If you know where to find it, you find it just because I show it to you. Some of them you can find out by yourself if you read the scriptures.

This is in 2 Chronicles. Chapter 25. You know, some of you wonder why I ask your name so many times. I don't have a very good memory. They say, Brother Zak, I've already met you 10 times. I say, fine, I may ask you another 10 times because I'm getting old and the doctors say, this is the truth, the doctors say that so many hundreds of brain cells die every day, yours and mine.

After the age of 25, brain cells start dying and I'm 80. And the memory is like a hard disk. You know what a hard disk is in the computer? Where all the memories, all the data is stored? Now the brain is like a hard disk with a lot of data about somebody tells me his name, it stays there.

Some other thing happens, it stays there. But then the hard disk gets full. Then what do you do? So the hard disk has to push out certain unimportant information and the hard disk is getting smaller because the cells are dying.

So what I prayed is, Lord, just keep scripture in the hard disk. I don't care if somebody gets offended that I asked his name 10 times. That's okay, it's not serious. But don't let me forget scripture.

Even if I sometimes forget a reference. At least let me know whether it's on the left side of the page that verse comes or the right side of the Bible. And it's easy, at least I can find it. Sometimes I can't know a reference but I know it's somewhere.

It's in just chapters 23, 24, or 25 but I know it's on the left side of the page. Okay, I find it. So I purposely prayed, Lord, all the evil that has done to me, all that must be removed from my hard disk.

Secondly, all the good that I have done to other people, that also please wipe out from the hard disk, it's not important. The evil that other people have done and the good that I have done must all be wiped out from the hard disk.

The good that other people have done, let me remember it. And the evil that I have done, please let me remember that also so that I can humble myself. And especially scripture. So I'm thankful that the Lord is answering my prayer.