I believe you died, and I believe you're real, but it doesn't work for me, and why spend the rest of my life preaching a lie, and I'm walking away, I'm literally turning, and out of nowhere, but as clear as if it was audible, the Lord spoke to me, and he told me, well I know that, this is clear as anything, I was almost startled, I've always known that, and instead, I mean, you're just typical of my nature at any rate, I get angry, I get upset, what do you mean, you mean you've always known this, you've really, I was talking back and forth with this, you know, since there, what do you mean you've known this, well you let me sell everything, and you let me move over the other side of the planet, listen to all this, plan to go into someone, you knew it was a lie in me, oh yes, I've always known, your flesh has always been a lie, and it always will be a lie, but I'm not a lie, I never have been, I never will be, that's why I'm alive and risen, and I live within you, I'm not a lie, just you, and you know the interest, it's funny to you, but it wasn't funny to me, but the, but the, but it hit me there all of a sudden, for the, don't I, for the first time, I mean, it's the most interesting thing about most of us as Christians, is I find is that my problems are pretty common many times, but in the sense there, the amazing thing about us, is that we will invite the finest, and the only true Christian that's ever lived, who we believe died on the cross, rose from the dead, ascended the right hand of the majesty and high, ever liveth to make intercession for us, we will allow him and invite him to come into our life, we'll ask him to come in, we'll invite him in, have a seat, be my lord and savior, and then we'll turn to him and say, now watch me be a Christian, and yeah, what an, what an absurd thing to do, here we've already got, you don't need two Christians in one body, first of all, you only need one, and why in the world, with the one that's alive and risen, there, you know, do we spend so much time trying to show off, or trying to perform, or trying to achieve, or trying to do anything, the issue that God is so often waiting for us to come to, is the day that finally I'll confess I'm alive, we'll confess I've been alive, I'm a fraud, I'm a phony, leave me to myself, and everybody's in trouble, and here the wonderful thing is, is that's what the Beatitudes are all about, that's God saying, I know that about you, I've always known that about you, you won't surprise me, some of us, sometimes we come to God as if we got something to confess to God, hold on, this is going to be a heavy one, you know, as if, whoa, we got a heavy one here, you know, or something, or we come to God as if, you know, we're going to surprise him with sin, you know, and I think someday the surprise is going to be when God says, you want to see sin, I'll show you yours, and then you'll, you'll be surprised, not me, but when we come there to where we really, truly, something happens within our heart, in our life, where we find ourselves poor in spirit, and we mourn over, and it produces a humility, a brokenness, a meekness within us, those are some of the most wonderful things that'll ever happen in a human life, when we finally despair of life as we know it under our own self -rule, and it produces a sorrow, and an emptiness, and out of that there is when something wonderful can happen, when something dies, and I'm crucified with Christ, you know, all a Christian ought to be is a dead man on furlough, but God's waiting for us to die, you know, he's waiting for something to give up, and then thereafter Jesus has stripped us down, down to the core, he's, he's, so he can really do the work of restoration, he's got the gunk out, and the, you know, the rust, and the corrosion, and the, you know, the stains, and the spots, and the blemishes, and he's just scrubbing, and cleaning, and grinding, and he gets down to the core, the human soul, to where I'm broken, and I'm honest before him, then Jesus says, oh, how happy are they that hunger and thirst after righteousness, let me tell you, one of the things that's going to happen to this person, there is, there's going to be a hungering, there is going to be a thirsting, but it first starts there with the draining, and the emptying, and the truth, you don't, all you got to do is stand before God, if you're having trouble being humble, well, then you're measuring yourself by somebody else than God, than God, if you're having trouble, you know, being poor in spirit, or mourning over your own sin, then you're standing in the wrong light, but when we find ourself truly standing before God, oh, it may hurt, and we, it will hurt, not may hurt, it will, the sorrow, the realization, I was made in the glory of God, I was made in his image, God said, let us create man after our own image, for our own likeness, it, you know, they buy that word image, it's a wonderful word, image, but it's, it's, the word essentially, it's a derived image, and to be in the image of God, though, it required, man was a derivative of God, he derived his image from God, as in a mirror, in 2nd Corinthians 3, Paul says, all we with an unveiled face continuing to behold, we reflect like mirrors, the glory of the Lord, you and I are in the image of God, we are created in the image of God, as, as you would see your image in a mirror, tomorrow morning, when you get up, you go look in that mirror, you walk in there, and after you've taken the first couple minutes in wonder, love, and praise for what you see, you know, and, and start the projects of repair, you know, or whatever else you do, but all you're going to see is your image, you're going to see you, the one that you are going to spend the next half hour, that nobody else has to see that one, you know, painting and plastering and doing whatever else you do, but, but the thing is, is you're going to, but that, they all, but it isn't you you see, it's a reflected image of you, it's a, it's a, a mirrored image of you, that's what God made when he made man, that man was somebody you could look at him, and you could see what God was like, you could see a reflection of him, you could see his love, and his character, and his nature, and his joy, and his peace, it was awesome, in there, and, and, and as man was, that's what the glory that God made us to have, but when we sinned, we broke the mirror, essentially, we walked away, and all of a sudden, you know, there was nobody there who we reflected him any longer, but it required God's presence, just like tomorrow morning, it'll require you in the room, if you want to see your mirror, and see you in it, you got to go to the, you got to go in the room, just try it, just for the fun of it, tomorrow morning, after you go in there, smile, don't say a mirror, don't tell it what you're going to do, but just after you stand there for a moment, just as quick as anything, jump out of the room, and then peek back, and see if you're still there, if you are, I want one of those mirrors, but if you, but if you are, you, but obviously you're not, because it requires your presence, and that's, that was how God made man, in such ways that when we require his presence, when there's something that happens within us, that to live, and breathe, and move, and have our existence, it's in him, that's what God wants for man, and it's only until somehow or another, we're poor in spirit, and we're sorrowful, and we mourn, saying God, have you seen what I've seen in my life, oh yes, but would you like to see me in your life, because one of the things is, after we've been drained, and drained, and drained, it'll produce a wonderful hunger, it'll produce a hunger as well, a specific kind of a hunger, this hunger there, it'll happen, it'll produce a hunger for righteousness, rather than we realize the devastation of sinfulness, and of self, and of corruption, and of rebellion, and all these things, what they did to us, now the hunger, that's not just any hunger that's created, it's a hunger for righteousness, and that righteousness, it's not just, you know, straight dealing, fair play, morality, ethics, you know, do good, I mean, that's in part, that's a fruit of righteousness, it ought to be there, it's not just respectability, and good ethics, and righteousness, I'm going to go out into God, I'm going to be right, I'm going to live right, and do right, that all ought to be there, but here, essentially, this is a righteousness that comes because a person longs for deliverance from sin, longs, what this did to me, look what happened, look what my sin, and my rebellion's done to me, look what my self -righteousness, look what my ego, look what my pride, look what my independent spirit, that needs no God, that needs no power, that needs no mercy, needs no forgiveness, and when I find myself, God, I'm hungry, and this time, I'm hungry, I've been stripped down, and broken down, but I'm hungry, I'm starved to death, but I'm starved to be right, I'm starved for righteousness, and the wonderful thing here about the righteousness, to me, that I believe God's talking about here, is not just superficial righteousness, not just behavioral righteousness, but spiritual righteousness, which is produced only by God, produced only by the life of Christ within me, a righteousness that puts me right with God, and right with, you know, with His Son, right with His Lordship, right with the Holy Spirit, right with, with, with all that God wants to be within my life, this is a righteousness that comes because I'm before God, and saying, I want you, and I want all of you I can have, I want to be in right, you know, heart with you, right attitude, full surrender, full yieldedness, full offering, full consecration, not just superficial, sometimes, and we can be right, still be wrong, still be wrong, sometimes I find myself, I'll be talking to somebody, and I'm right, nobody else agrees, but I know enough to know I'm right, I don't need to know an awful lot to know that, I found through the years, but have you noticed, sometimes, I mean, we've heard it, we've assessed the situation, and this is right, and yet, at the same time, you're outside a real communion and fellowship with God, not filled with the Spirit, not in that right place, you may be technically right, you may be one that is ethically right, or morally right, or what you're talking about is right, and yet, at the same time, you're not spiritually right, you know, you're just kind of in that land where you're right with other people sort of a thing, in the sense of your diagnosis or evaluation of life, and this happened, and this happened, and this is right, and this is wrong, and this is terrible, and you know, and all these things are right, maybe, but that's not righteousness, righteousness is somebody that has a right relationship with God, a right life in His Spirit, a right yieldedness to the Lordship of Christ, a right desire for Him to be all that He wants to be within us, and when somebody, the person that's got a hunger for that is a person who's sick and tired of himself, he's tired of his mouth, he's tired of his arrogance, he's tired of his behavior, he's tired of what he thinks, and what he does, and why he does it, and the people that he hurts in the process, and saying, God, how I'd love to be right, this is why that Jesus says, this is a person on the road to joy like you can't believe, the person there that wants these qualities, he's going to be happy, he's going to be happy and right with God, he's going to be happy and right with himself, and he's going to be happy and right with others, because he longs for it with all of his heart, and there, when somebody hungers and thirst, you know, there, it's such a wonderful thing, God wants that within us, a healthy person is somebody there, just like if you're a healthy human being, you hunger and thirst, and then you hunger and thirst again, and then you hunger and thirst again and again, until you're filled, and then you're not hungry and thirsty for a time, maybe, but you are soon again, and this is what I believe Jesus is talking about here, is that there is a true hunger that comes within somebody after they've been emptied, but now they're hungry, they're a great hunger and a great thirst there to, for God, and to be filled with God, and the wonderful thing is, is here he tells us, he says, these people that hunger and thirst after righteousness, they shall be filled, and you might, to me, when you ask, with what?