(Apostolic Vision) the Cause of Broken Communion — Dale Heisey

This evening I do wish to greet you in Jesus' name. It is a blessing to be here. It is a blessing to be where souls are gathered together in Jesus' name, be they two or three or be they many. For several years, and I hope that this does not humble you too much when you think of what kind of person you ask to come to these meetings, but for several years, I preached to a congregation of between eight and ten people.

That is what was gathered there, where we held services on the side of a mountain there in Marseilla, in Costa Rica. And we had the services there at two o 'clock on Sunday afternoon, and that's about what our attendance was for several years.

And I'm thankful today that the Lord chose to add to that number. But two or three in Jesus' name is a precious opportunity to worship the Lord, and we want to worship Him here tonight. And so God is not impressed with numbers.

God is not impressed with numbers of persons or numbers of dollars. You cannot impress God with numbers. If you want to play with numbers, go out on a clear night and look up. If you want to be impressed with numbers, you can't impress God with numbers.

You can't impress God with speed and noise. God is not impressed with speed or noise. I'd like to ask you a question. You cannot impress God with speed or noise. Where is Adam tonight? The first man, Adam, where is he tonight?

Now, if when he died at 900 and some years of age, if he would have sped towards the third heaven at the speed of light, he would not yet be outside of our solar system. He'd have quite a journey ahead of him yet, if he intended to go much farther than that.

You can't impress God with speed and noise. You can't impress God with numbers. And so the only thing we can do is fall down and worship God. I'd like you to take your church hymnals there and turn to number 367.

Maybe we can stand together and sing this most beautiful, worshipful hymn to our Heavenly Father. And this will be a link between the message of the morning and the message tonight. Let us stand and sing this together.

Revival as a Return to God’s Word

367 in your church hymnal. Oh, for a closer walk. Revival is a return to God. Revival is separating or taking away from our lives that which separates us from God. It is understanding that something has come between us and God and doing something about it.

And maybe we can go a bit deeper and say that revival is a return to the Word of God. There is a popular group out of Nashville, Tennessee, that sings, although a cappella, they sing very beautifully.

They sing a song that says, I'll say yes, Lord, yes to thy will and to thy way. When thy Spirit speaks to me, with my whole heart I'll agree and my answer will be yes, Lord, yes. That's what they sing.

And that almost sounds right. That is almost right. But there is one mistake. What do you do when the Bible speaks to you? Then do you say yes, Lord, yes, to the will and to the way. When the Bible speaks to me, with my whole heart I'll agree and my answer will be yes, Lord, yes.

You say less yes when the Bible speaks to you. Then you say, well, we don't wear jewelry, we don't cut our hair, if we're women, and we wash feet too. We obey the Bible. But may I ask you a question? Revival meetings at Tangent, Oregon.

When is the last time... Are you listening? When is the last time you read in the Holy Bible, you read in the Word of God, you read in the Bible, and as a result of your reading in the Bible, you fell on your knees and said, Lord, it's not I.

I'm not doing it. I'm sorry. I repent. I change. I obey. I want to hear you. I'm willing to do it. I accept this as your will. I'm ready to make a change in my life. When's the last time that happened?

Or are we so up to date in understanding God's Word so well and so complete in everything that God has nothing to say to us as we read 66 books, wholly inspired by the Spirit of God, given to us for one purpose, for our exhortation and encouragement and correction and instruction in the ways of God.

This book should challenge us. This book should move us. This book should be an authority in our lives. We should be thrilled to talk about its holy message. And revival is a return to that concept of the Bible.

Repentance Through the Authority of Scripture

I had that experience. I was out in the hen barn collecting eggs. You know, sometimes the hens don't understand that they're supposed to put the eggs in the nest. They don't understand that. They haven't learned that in 3rd grade or 4th grade or whatever grade the hens learn to put eggs in the nest.

I don't know what grade it is, but they didn't learn that. And so they find a nice couple of places down on the floor in there in the shavings and the litter and in the dirt down there and there they put their eggs down there.

And down in some corner down under some box somewhere they put their eggs. And they're supposed to be up here in the nest. And so I was down under there digging out and trying to find these eggs in there in the litter.

And I found myself somewhat disgusted at these hens. And while I was down there digging around these eggs, a hen came up behind me and jumped up in the air and landed right on my head. Sat right on top of my head.

And I guess they wanted to aggravate the situation. And I felt the normal tendencies. The normal tendencies. I felt those tendencies. And about that time, a verse from the Bible came flashing through my mind.

The servant of the Lord must not strive, but be gentle to all men. Be patient. Now that word, patient, caught my attention. The servant of the Lord must be... You put a few dots there and then patient.

And I left the hen barn, left the eggs, and went into the house, got my Bible, looked that verse up in 2 Timothy 2. Read that verse several times. I got a Vines expository of New Testament words. Looked up that word patient there.

But by this time I was on my knees. The Bible was lying open on the chair in front of me. I had this Vines... Look at this word patient. And I went back to look at this verse again. The servant of the Lord must not strive.

He must not be impatient. He must be patient. And right there I repented before the Lord. Before the Word of God. Has that ever happened to you? The revival is that. That is what revival is. It's hearing what God's Word says and responding to God's Word.

And that's a real simple definition for revival. But that's a Bible understanding of revival. And wherever there's revival among God's people, there's a return to the Word of God. And I want that to happen among us here.

Abiding in Christ and the Danger of Fleshly Service

We mentioned this morning the importance of having this intimate relationship with the Lord Jesus. And we used some introductory verses to the Song of Solomon to help us understand it is God's intention for us to have unbroken fellowship with the Lord Jesus.

And as we have that beautiful story in John 15 of the vine and the branches abiding permanently together, we must walk with Jesus that way and live with Jesus that way. And we discovered this morning that anything that we do for the service of the church apart from abiding in Christ had to be done in the flesh because we had no other spiritual connection with which to do it.

It was done in the flesh. It was done abiding in Jesus. And there is this thing called momentum. You can turn the engine off at the top of the hill and the car coasts down. In fact, without the engine running, the car will actually pick up speed going down that hill.

And then it goes down to the flat at the bottom and goes a long distance. And you can say, just look what all I'm able to do here. I don't need gasoline. I don't care what the price is at the pump. I'm doing fine here without this engine even running.

Well, look how far we're going. But you're slowing down all the while and very soon this thing is going to stop and there's going to be a hill in front of you. We can do a lot in the flesh. But until we're abiding in Christ, no holy thing, no eternal thing will result.

The kingdom of God cannot be built in the power of the flesh. And so, we need to abide in Christ. But now in this evening, I want to show you that the love relationship we have with our Lord Jesus can be broken.

And there are several causes of this broken communion. And so I want to speak to you tonight on the cause of broken relationships with our Lord Jesus. The cause of broken communion. And I invite you to Song of Solomon 2.

The Bridegroom’s Call in the Song of Solomon

They had been in the banqueting house. His banner over her was love. There was wine. There were apples. These are symbols of sweet communion and fellowship. These are symbols of great delight, of great joy, of great love.

His hand was upon her. He held her. She spoke well of Him. She was with Him. They had sweet communion. But something happened to that relationship. And we like to just look at two short passages in the Song of Solomon tonight and look at some of the things that cause broken communion.

That break the relationship with our Lord Jesus. And just to give a little bit of an outline to what might happen this week and some of the preaching for those of you that might be interested in somehow becoming aware of this.

I thought that maybe starting tomorrow night we will take a look at a few doctrinal messages on the difference between pietism and biblicism. And then as we move out of those messages we will come into something a little closer to our hearts and needs and look at what the Bible teaches about brotherhood and brotherhood relationships.

And then as we come closer to the end of the week maybe look at what's going on down in the secret recesses of this heart that you and I have. And by presenting ourselves before God in that way how is my walk with the Lord.

And so with that as a little basic elementary outline to what might happen this week I'd like to begin reading this evening in chapter 2 of Song of Solomon verse 8. Again as we read I'd like you to answer the same question that I asked you to consider this morning.

Would I be satisfied if my relationship with Jesus Christ tonight was like this lady's relationship was with her beloved, with her bridegroom. Would you be satisfied if your relationship with your wife was tonight like this lady's was with her bridegroom.

Would you be satisfied tonight if your relationship with the Lord Jesus was what we have here in this portion that I'm going to read. But now verse 8. The voice of my beloved behold he cometh leaping upon the mountains skipping upon the hills.

My beloved is like a roe or a young heart. Behold he standeth behind our wall. He looketh forth at the windows showing himself to the lattice. My beloved speak and said unto me rise up my love my fair one and come away for lo the winter is past and the rain is over and gone.

The flowers appear in the earth. The time of this singing of birds is come and the voice of the turtles heard in our land. The fig tree put forth her green figs and the vines with their tender grapes give a good smell.

Arise my love my fair one and come away whom I dove. Thou art in the clefts of the rock and the secret places of the stairs. Let me see thy countenance let me hear thy voice for sweet is thy voice and thy countenance is comely.

Take us the foxes little foxes that spoil the vines for our vines have tender grapes. And that was the bride speaking there. But she was speaking from verses 10 through verse 15. She was telling us what the bridegroom himself was saying.

And although it was she telling us this from the words rise up my love in verse 10 until the end of verse 15 she's telling us what he has said or what he was saying to her. And now in verse 16 she speaks.

My beloved is mine and I am his. He feedeth among the lilies until the day break and the shadow flee away turn my beloved be thou like a row or a young heart upon the mountains of Bethlehem. I might just read a little more here.

Separation Caused by Worldliness

By night upon my bed I sought him whom I so loveth. I sought him but I found him not. I will rise now and go about the city and the streets and in the broad ways I will seek him whom I so loveth. I sought him but I found him not.

The watchman that go by the city found me to whom I said saw ye him whom I so loveth. It was but a little that I passed from them but I found him whom I so loveth and I held him and would not let him go until he had brought me into his mother's house and into the chamber of her that conceived me.

I charge you daughters of Jerusalem by the rose and by the hinds of the field that she stirred not up nor awake my love till he pleased. Something has happened with this relationship between her and her beloved between her and her Savior between her and the Lord Jesus.

She is no longer with him. If you would have read the intermittent verses between what we read this morning and what we have here in verse 8 you would have found out that they were very close together.

They were sharing in sweet communion. They were blessing each other. They were in each other's presence. There was not a public relationship. It was private. They were alone. But as this verse opens he is far from her and he is moving towards her direction but the distance is great.

He comes running. He comes skipping. He's like a deer and you've seen deer do this. They come bounding with large leaps. And when they get to the fence they don't open the gate. What do they do? Just one leap they're over the top of it.

In a hurry to get to where they're going. They're anxious. They're just bounding and they're coming. And the first thing she hears about her thinks about her lover her beloved coming is just leaping over the mountains and skipping above the hills.

He's coming. But he can only come so far. And he comes to an obstacle that prevents him from coming further. Did you read in the Bible what it was? He came bounding like a heart or like a white-tailed deer.

And he came as far as to a wall and that wall stopped him. She was inside. He was outside. She was in there. And there was a window in this wall. So he comes up to the window and looks in the window. And through that window he calls to her.

Through that window he speaks to her. And something has caused this to happen. And we like to study this thing and find out why is she not with him? Why did she leave him? And why in his quest why in his desire for her did he have to spend this energy looking for her?

And you know it's always Lord Jesus who stands at the door and knocks. You don't spend any time trying to get His attention. Before you speak, He hears you. He was waiting all the time for us. I suppose we could paraphrase Isaiah 40 in this way.

They that wait upon the Lord shall find out that He was waiting for them for a long time before. And she was not with him. Something had broken that relationship. What was it? In this early part of the Song of Solomon teaches something important about the Christian life.

Something that is not very popular for me to say in a public pulpit. But there is in the Christian experience a danger. A danger of falling away. A danger of growing cold. A danger of becoming lukewarm.

A danger of losing our first love. There is a danger of letting something come between us and God. There is a danger of something very, very small beginning very, very small. Something imperceptible. Something that did not catch our attention.

You know, I visit various kinds of churches. There are Amish churches and Amish Mennonite churches. And there are Mennonite churches and there are Brethren churches. And we get into various kinds of churches.

And some churches are more conservative than others if you can use that kind of expression in an understandable way. And I was speaking in a church that for our relationships would be more of the liberal or progressive kind.

And I was speaking there. And when the service was over a lady walked up to me and said, In this service I found freedom from my red sweater. And I could not understand, of course, what she was talking about.

What do you mean you found freedom from your red sweater? And then she explained to me the story. She said, evidently she had been somewhere or had done some, what they call these days, shopping. I don't know what it was, but she saw this red sweater.

To her it was a beautiful red sweater. And she did not have a red sweater. She had never had a red sweater. It was not a proper thing for them in that particular church evidently to wear a red sweater.

She didn't have one. And she just began to see herself with this red sweater on. She just began to imagine how this would look to have her this red sweater. Can you imagine a woman? She wanted this red sweater.

And so she began to imagine. She said to me, She said, Over there, there's a beachy church. And that church had some positions and some standards, some brotherhood agreements that they didn't have in their congregation and maybe just a bit stricter in some of their ways.

And she said, Over there, I saw a lady that had a sweater like that. And she said, I thought, if she can have a sweater like that, then I can have a sweater like that. Now this immediately, this immediately is safe.

I mean, you don't need to go any further before you're in sin. Talking like that. Why, this whole thought was pure selfishness. The whole thing. It was selfish. It might be a child about four years old that's trying to tear a toy out of someone else's hand.

And I want that sweater. And this thing became a passion for her. She wanted that sweater. And can you imagine how sweet it is to commune with Lord Jesus when this red sweater stands between me and God?

A simple red sweater. And she said, Brother Dale, tonight, I don't need that red sweater anymore. It is gone. She was so happy. She was rejoicing. She was free of a red sweater. And I don't know what this lady's problem was here.

This lover's problem. This bride's problem. But something came between her and God. And I think as I look at the story and study it as closely as I can, I think we can identify what it was. It was not a red sweater.

It may have been. But it was some form of worldliness in her life. The world had called her away. The world had offered her something. And the world had brought her away and destroyed her relationship with the Lord.

Her worldliness or the attraction of the world or what the world would have chosen to offer her got her attention and took it off the Lord Jesus. And she finds herself separated from Him by quite a distance.

And the Bible tells us that there's a wall between them. And the communion is broken. She found some temporary and some illusive fulfillment in something that this world offered and felt, listen, everything is still alright.

I am still my beloved's. He is still mine. But there is a danger in this world of falling away. And that little sweater, that little red sweater can do great damage to you. And all you need to do is teach your flesh the simple gratification of allowing yourself one little thing that you otherwise would have felt.

I am not sure this will please the Lord. Hey, go ahead and allow that in your life. Just go ahead and allow that in your life. And you'll find that the next thing that comes along is not going to be a red sweater.

It's going to be something else. Something larger. And the conscience is taught to be quiet. The conscience is taught to be silenced. And after a while, you don't have a little alarm clock in there to remind you, this does not please me.

I am grieved. I cannot have this. I cannot have this world in your life. And so she found some temporary fulfillment, some temporary satisfaction, something that was really a poor substitute for a relationship with Jesus.

Worldliness and Separation from the Father

I noticed another thing that helped me believe there was worldliness in her life. Look at verse 10. My beloved spake and said unto me, Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away. Come. Come away. You're at the wrong place.

Come away. Come out of there. You're on the other side of this wall. Come. Come out here where I am. Come out to the outside. Come out of the camp. Bear my reproach. Come out here. You're with a false love.

You have a wrong set of company here. A wrong company. Come outside. Be with me. In verse 13 he repeats the same thing. Arise, my love, my fair one, and come away. And then he talks to her as gently as he can.

He says, something has happened to our love. There are little foxes here. There are little foxes coming. Verse 15. Spoiling these vines. They're tender grapes of these vines. Our love is just beginning to flourish.

It's just beginning to become fruitful. And then the foxes will come and take all that away and destroy the whole thing and destroy your fruitfulness. There are little foxes here. The world is having its influence on you.

Look out for that. I'd like to read some verses to you from the Bible that help us understand what God's attitude is about worldliness in our lives. And I would like to emphasize this evening that your decision to follow the Lord Jesus Christ is a decision to separate yourself from this world.

And you cannot have Christ's love and the world at the same time. You must and I must make a clear decision that it's going to be all of Jesus and none of this world or we're going to have as much of this world as we want and have none of Jesus.

We cannot have Jesus and this world. They do not mix Jesus and this world. Do not mix. This world crucified our Lord Jesus. This world spit into his face. This world killed him. This world mocked him.

This world would not have him. This world rejected him. This world refuses him. This world will never have Jesus. And you can have as much of this world as you want, but you can't have Jesus with it. And if you're going to have any of Jesus, all the world must go from your life.

And if there's anything we should learn to recognize in the Christian life, it is what the world does to us and what the world effect is upon us. And until all the world is gone, we can't be for Jesus what he wants us to be.

And he will come calling us. He will say, arise and come out. Arise and come away. Arise, my love, my fair one. Come away. 1 John chapter 2. Love not the world, verse 15. Neither the things that are in the world.

If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, the pride of life, and a red sweater is not of the Father, but is of the world.

And the world passeth away, and the lusts thereof, but he that doeth the will of God abideth forever. Now I use the illustration of a red sweater because that's what was bothering that lady. I don't think it's wrong to wear a sweater.

I don't suppose it is. I don't know that it is. And I'm not sure which color sweater should be. The problem in that lady's case was not the sweater and maybe the problem was not the color. I'm not sure.

But I know one thing. She wanted something that she was perfectly satisfied God did not want her to have and she looked for ways to justify the getting of it and used another church group down the road as an excuse to be able to buy that sweater.

And she certainly had a poor sense of values to make that kind of comparisons. And she forgot to get on her knees and ask God what he thought about it. She made a serious mistake. The love of this world, the pride of this life, that which the eyes want, the flesh wants it.

It grieves God. It cannot be. We cannot love this world and love the Father at the same time. We must decide which love we want. You drive into that car lot and you get out there and you start walking down between the automobiles and you look at the price tags and you look at the features and you look at the design and you look at the style and this thing catches your eye and you say, well listen, if I could get it past Dad, and I think if I got it past Dad, I don't think the preacher would say anything.

I think if I got it past Dad, I think I'd be alright. But you didn't get on your knees at all. You didn't pray at all. God had nothing to do with it. The will of God had nothing to do with it. If God wants you to have this car, it was not the point.

There's this car. And you will discover as you walk with God, you will discover as you live in this world that that's Satan and this world will barrage you. They will hit you. They will attack you with their stuff.

They will put on the loudspeakers. They'll make it as loud as they can. They'll blare it at you. They'll put it on the billboards. They'll scream it at you. They'll get your attention with it. They'll put it on the girls and they'll wear it.

And they'll put it on their CDs and they'll play it. And they'll keep on hitting you with this thing. And Satan is bold with his program. He brings it right out and shows it to you and tells you about it and calls your attention.

You get it? You can't miss it. And while that's happening, where is the Spirit of God and what is He doing? In the quiet, humble, retiring Spirit of the Lord is back here. And He's not blaring. He's not trumpeting.

And He's not screaming at you. And He's not putting it out on all the announcements. It's not coming out across the airwaves. You can't find it on the internet. But there's truth. And truth is waiting.

The love of God is patiently waiting for you to make your choice. Now dear brethren, if we got that picture in our minds, we would find out why we so often choose wrong. And God says here, choose whose love you want.

It's either the love of the world, or it's My love. You can not have both loves. I'd like to turn to James chapter 4. Verse 4 says, Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God?

Whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is an enemy of God. This is strong language here from the Apostle James. Ye adulterers and adulteresses. Friendship of the world. Enmity with God. Being a friend of the world is to be an enemy of God.

He says it two times to be sure that we got it. And He calls that spiritual adultery. We're the adulterer. When we love the world, more than we love God. Or we allow something in the world to take us away from God.

This is adultery. Now words that sound similar to what we read in the Song of Solomon are found in 2 Corinthians chapter 6. And I will read some of the verses there. Verse 14 says, Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers?

For what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? And what communion hath light with darkness? And what concord hath Christ with Billy? Or what part hath he that believeth with Imbedale? And what agreement hath the temple of God with idols?

For ye of the temple of the living God hath said, I will dwell in them, and walk in them. He wants a perpetual. He wants to continue abiding. He wants an unbroken relationship. He wants to be the only one, the only lover, the only interest, the only affection.

He wants to be in our lives. I will dwell in them, and walk in them, and I will be their God, and they shall be my people. Wherefore, come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean things.

And I will receive you, and will be a father unto you, and you shall be my sons and daughters, saith the Lord Almighty. And that is the only way that he can do it. That is the only way he will be our father.

That's the only way Christ will be our Lord. That's the only way he can be our Savior. That's the only way we can have a relationship with him, is if we come out of these things and be separate from that, and don't touch it, and don't long for it.

Let that power be broken in your life, of a desire for the world. In the last book of the Bible, Revelation chapter 18, we have similar words in verse 4. And I heard another voice from heaven saying, Come out of her, my people.

Come away. Arise, my love, my fair one, and come away. Come out of her, my people, that she may not partakers of her sins, that she receive not of her plagues. And this lady, this bride, allowed somebody to come into her life there.

And the fruit was being destroyed, and the foxes were eating it. Little children, keep yourselves from idols, it says in the last verse of the first epistle of John. My little children. And something happened with this bride's attitude.

Grieving the Holy Spirit Through Disobedience

I want to show you something in Ephesians chapter 4. Something that we should be very sensitive to tonight. And this would be worthy of a week of preaching, this 30th verse. And grieve not the Holy Spirit of God, whereby you are sealed unto the day of redemption.

Grieve not the Holy Spirit of God. Do not grieve the Holy Spirit. Do not be guilty of bringing grief to the Holy Spirit of God, whose temple you are. You're the temple of the Holy Spirit. Well, that's the only divine life you have.

That's the only relationship you have with God. It's through His Holy Spirit that He's given to you. And we grieve the Holy Spirit. And yet we're going to be use of the Holy Spirit. We're going to be worshiping God in the Spirit.

We're going to be praying in the Spirit. But we've grieved that Spirit of God. Now, how are we going to live? And where's the power coming from? And how are we going to minister to God's people? And how are we going to raise these children for God?

How are we going to minister to those customers that come to the shop, to the store, to the business? How are we going to be able to teach the Christian day school, those beautiful children sitting there in front of us?

And we've grieved the Holy Spirit of God. And how are we going to make wise decisions? And how are we going to have His anointing upon our life when we've grieved the Holy Spirit of God? And this lady grieved the Holy Spirit of God.

And she did something worse. Did you read it in your Bible? In chapter 2 of Solomon? Song of Solomon. He said, Come. Come away. Come with me. Come to the other side of this wall. Don't let a wall between us.

Don't let a world of this build up its mortar and its blocks and stone and divide us. Don't let it do it. Come over here. Come out of that. Come with me. And she chose to disobey. She consoled herself with this feeling that, well, I'm my beloved and He feeds among the lowly and I know what He's doing and He's just fine.

And then she said something else. Did you see it in verse 17? Well, I might consider it, but not now. If I do choose to go, it won't be until the day breaks. And the shadows flee away. And then I'll see what I can do then.

And so she chose to hold on to this wilderness a while longer and just see how it goes. And she made a grave mistake when she made that decision. And that whole day went by and she did nothing. That whole day went past and she did not go to her Lord.

She did not leave her wilderness and leave her silly decision and leave her, in this case of the illustration, her red sweater. She didn't go to find her Lord. And now night time came again. Now it's time to go to bed.

And she began to get lonely. She began to think, I've lived all day without God. I've lived all day without testimony about my life. I've lived all day without His blessing. I've lived all day without one holy thought going through my mind.

I've lived all day without one word of testimony for the lost people that I've met. I've lived all day. I didn't have one solitary word to say for Jesus. I've lived all day. I didn't have an opportunity to serve God.

I've lived all day. I was cross here, entertained there, proud over there, impatient over there. I've lived all day. I've raised my voice to my children over here and sassed off. I heard her over there.

I've lived all day without God's blessing. I talked to some employees. I had to fire one, hire two more. I've lived all day in the flesh. And then I came. And now she saw Him and found Him not. We can grieve God.

We can grieve God. We can say, listen, God, I'll do it in my terms. I'm coming when I'm ready. A little more time, God. A little more time for myself, Lord. I love this thing I've got here, Lord. I kind of want to hold this a little bit longer, Lord.

And when she saw Him, she found Him not. She rose up, and now she went out. And now it's night. Now she went out to find Him. And verse 2 says, once again, she found Him not. And I'm thankful she finally discovered Him who's her soul love.