I did not, I went to a Bible college in England for about eight months, when I got there I was totally embarrassed, I was disintegrated the first week I was there because I'd had no, I left school in the eighth grade, I hadn't been to high school, I had to take some lessons in English which I certainly didn't master and I had every disadvantage, like the Irishman said, all my advantages were against me, hmm, I just didn't have a thing to go on and you know fellows would come out, we had an exam every Friday night and the list was always put on the board and you know I was always in one important position, usually at the bottom holding all the others up and guys would come out you know with the, in England you never get a hundred percent marks, nobody ever give you that, not in university, which isn't healthy, nobody does it, if you, if you get in the 90s you're a genius, I'd be around the 40s usually, these are the guys that all that, but I determined one thing, after one day receiving a book called Bounds Power Through Prayer, I made up my mind I'd go through that book, I didn't go through the book, it went through me, but I anchored on to that truth that what Bounds says, it takes God 20 years to make a man, I said all right here I am, try it and when other boys went to do things, now we did not have any basketball, Chadwick said you've only one life, you don't have time to play a game, there were no girls there, you get too interested in girls, they're distracting, now I don't think, I, I think if I had a school I won't be as rich, I'd have basketball, I certainly wouldn't enter competition, I wouldn't waste hours running after other groups and going all over the place, I wouldn't do that, I'd do it for health sake, all the, all the recreation we had with a pair of rubber shoes and we put on shorts and a swimsuit and we ran a five mile race, on every Wednesday afternoon, you could go with a fast group or the slow group and part of it you had to go through a river that was ice cold and nearly took your legs off, you didn't know if you had any legs by the time you got through and that was the only exercise we had, see Mr. Chadwick said listen gentlemen, you do this, this one thing I do, you don't have time for trivia, now this is again where discipline comes in, they do it, let them do it, hey we're going down shopping, oh it's Christmas shopping, I don't have any money, well come with it, all right I'll come and look at the windows, why, why, now this seems nitty -gritty, no, no, no, perfection is made up of trifles, but perfection itself is no trifle, when I think of, as I've mentioned before, the last time I went to the Bible School of Wales, Mrs. Howell said come upstairs and talk it, we went and stood on the veranda and as we looked over the ocean, over the sea there, then she turned around and said, you see that room, Daddy, meaning the husband, went in that room at six o 'clock in the morning and he didn't come out till six o 'clock at night, he did that every day for 11 months, with the exception of the one day that his mother died, now do you know how many people, we talk about ability and we need stick ability, could you stay 12 hours a day in a room for 11 months, what was he doing, he was building himself up in his faith, you don't fly, you don't leap from here to there in faith, you build yourself up in the Word of God, you get to the place where you're absolutely sure, again, that the secret is in Hebrews 11, 6, that God is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him, but God has to do some refining, some correcting, if I'm going to have perpetual fire in my life, God can do a lot of stirring, what does Paul say to Timothy, stir up the gift of God that is in thee, well, there's another meaning to that word there, it is actually, it's the same as saying keep yourself in revival, it doesn't say God will stir you up, it says you stir up yourself in your most holy faith, or stir up the gift of God which is in thee by the laying on of my hands, now again, I do not believe that my Christian, my love toward God needs to ebb and flow, I don't believe my faith in God needs to ebb and flow, but my emotions will change, David said of an occasion, my heart is fixed, now do you know that's about the only thing that is fixed, sure in a world like this, the world could blow up tomorrow, we're sitting on a powder keg, we don't know what in the world's going to happen through this Ayatollah Khomeini, we could have third world war, world war three on our hands before very long, we could have the first and the most awesome atomic war in history, we could have a holocaust that would supersede all other holocaust, we don't know what, but we know our heart, my heart is fixed David said, his emotions weren't fixed, he had a son trying to pull a throne from underneath him and steal a crown off his head, his social life wasn't fixed, he didn't know where his enemies were, everything else is fluid, but he says my heart is fixed, but if my heart is fixed, God cleanses my heart through the blood, he corrects my head with a rod, and whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth, now we don't, we say because we love our children, well I won't spank you this time, well you don't love him that's why, you'll have to love him, you'll have to spank him twice as hard up the road for the ones you miss now, because children don't understand love like that, there is correction with love, you don't beat the daylights out of him, but you correct him, and Proverbs again says if you correct him you won't kill him, now God has promised so much to Abraham, sure he's going to have children like the sands by the seashore, but when he's made his sacrifice he has to beat the birds off, in a school like this or anywhere else, your eyes so very often turn sideways, what's she doing, what's he doing, now God's making you, he isn't making Agathe, he is in one sense, but he isn't in another sense, he's making you, he's maturing you, he's bringing you to maturity, he's bringing you to the place where he can strengthen you, he's bringing you to the place where he just takes Peter and James and John, maybe out of this class God got three select persons that he's going to lead to eventually to leadership somewhere in the world that you don't dream of even now, I remember when I went to Bethany in 1950 I went first and then we went to live there in 58 as a family and I'd been many times in between, I remember one night a young man came out I think in 1950, 50, 50, I got a 50 or 51 and he came to the altar, he was a nice clean -cut Lutheran, he had been saved through Ted Agri's ministry, he came out that night wanting to be filled with the Holy Ghost and as soon as he hit the bench there he let out a roar that they said you could hear you know a mile away, just a groaning in his spirit for God, oh God he said cleanse me and fill me with the Holy Ghost and the joy of the Lord came on him, he's one of the best leaders they have in the world today, he's gone to a certain country and built a staff around him and he's seen a measure of revival, I think of other kids that I looked at that didn't seem to have much potential, I remember when we went to Cliff College Mr. Chadwick said, I looked at the first day he said gentlemen, there were only men there you know, gentlemen are you sure God called you, are you sure, if you are nod your head, we all nodded our heads, he said it's a good thing he did, he said I never would have called one of you by the look of you, you know that's a nice way to set off isn't it, I mean you know all the confidence the school has in you kind of thing, but but but God is going to do his probing, he's going to do his correcting and he says you made your sacrifice, you'll have to fight the birds off, if God leaves you alone the devil won't, and sometimes he uses the devil because you remember Jesus said that Satan has desired the, so who was it to, Peter again, Peter's going to be one of the, Peter is going to be the man that stands up at Pentecost, it wasn't John that stood up, it was Peter the problem boy that God has purged and empowered, it's Peter that ran away when a girl put a finger up, well Elijah did the same thing so it's in the apostolic succession, but he put his finger up, she put a finger up, he ran, but then you find him in in in acts pointing his finger to whole nations, he ran away from one woman, he stands up and he says you crucify the Lord of glory, but look at his ups and his downs and his ins and his outs as it were, Peter talked to Jesus not only more than any other disciple, he talked to Jesus more than all the disciples put together, and conversely Jesus not only spoke to Peter more than any other individual, he spoke to Peter more than all the disciples put together, we don't like to see the weaknesses in him, and going down the road Jesus says when you get around the corner Satan's going to try and ambush you, he's going to clobber you, but cheer up I've prayed for you, well how many people have said that to you and you've thought, phew, you know you can't pray for yourself, what are you praying for me for kind of thing, but Jesus didn't say Peter I saw Satan down the road there and I said what are you doing here, he said I'm waiting for Peter, I'm going to beat him up, and I said Satan you go back to hell and leave my little boy Peter alone, I love him and I'll take care of him, the Lord didn't say anything to Satan, he said to Peter I've prayed for thee, because what your faith needs, it needs a shaking, it needs a testing, it needs a purging, it needs a strengthening, and the only way you can get it is combat, it's one thing you know to put a lot of sketches on a board and put guys in combat uniform, and then say you know when you meet the enemy they don't all have blue eyes, and they don't all have white faces, some are yellow and some are this, that don't do you a hill of beans good, five minutes of combat and boy you you know you can't say mother you know, they said when some of the troops, American troops came to England then got in combat in Europe and got into some wretched situations, that at the end of the day some of the mass where the showers were, the others said where what?