(Depressed Disciples) the Manifold Testings — Willie Mullan

737, please. 737. Quiet, Lord, my full-wood heart, Make me teachable and mild, Upright, simple, free from ought, Make me as a little child From disgust and envy free. Pleased with all that pleases thee.

737, please. Chapter 4 just now. The first epistle of Peter, and we're at the fourth chapter, is the fifth. Letter, or talk, or message, whatever word you like to use, this is the fifth message, this evening, on this great matter of depression.

The Manifold Testings of Believers

And we're thinking again, of course, about depressed disciples. And I can tell you we've got a lot of work to do yet. You see, we're only going to commence tonight to talk about the manifold testings that will come to try and test every believer, it matters not who you are or where you come from, sooner or later you will be tested by the manifold, and that word manifold, just, it's an old word that's translated divers in many parts of the New Testament.

You remember a poet, God, who at sundry times and in divers means, and by divers means, it just means different testing through manifold, or different testings. And we'll all have these different testings sooner or later.

And some of these testings, like depressed, undistracted, undisturbed believers, and of course, some of the disciples of the Lord Jesus, they think, you know, that these things should never come their way.

And I can tell you that no one understood more about the testings of believers, or the trials, or the depressions, or the vexations, or the depressions that would come away. Nobody understood it better than Peter.

In fact, you see, this first letter, there are five chapters, and I'm going to show you tonight that in almost every chapter, he's doing something about this very subject. Because he understood it readily.

And we're at chapter four, just for the moment, of course, and we're reading verse twelve just now, and maybe thirteen. And he's looking at these saints for whom he is writing. They were Jews, of course, and they were scattered throughout Asia, and they were meeting many things that distressed them, and disturbed them, and depressed them.

And he says, Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial that is to find you, as though some strange thing happened unto you. We're at first Peter four, and we're at verse twelve. As though some strange thing happened unto you.

You see, the trial hasn't come to them yet, but he's sort of warning them, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to find you. And you'll find that he warned the saints, first of all, about the strange trials and the manifold test things that would come.

He says, but he does inasmuch as we are protective of Christ's sufferings. And when we get these two words together, Christ's sufferings, we must be very careful about it. Because, you know, it's like the love of Christ, the sufferings of Christ need to be understood very carefully too.

You see, when you get into the deep depths of the cross, when the darkness came, and God began to deal with Christ, and made upon him the iniquity of us all, and made his soul an offering for sin, and made him sin for us, you know, we'll never be able to partake with that.

Those are Christ's atoning sufferings. And you're outside of that. In fact, you're outside of properly understanding that, never mind partaking of it. Oh, but Christ has a lot of other sufferings, and we'll come to see some of them this evening.

And it's to this he's referring. He's referring to the sufferings when he was ill-spoken of, men falsely accused him. Some said he was mad. Some said he hath a devil. Some said he was demon-possessed.

Many other false accusations were laid against him. And you maybe have to be partaker with these sort of sufferings, because there will be folks saying things about you. But Peter's just warning them here.

Election, Sanctification, and the Believer’s Inheritance

Now, let's go to the first chapter of 1 Peter, and we'll get down to business then. I think for the sake of the young folks, we'll begin after beginning. First Peter, first chapter, first verse. And he calls himself Peter.

And that, of course, always fools me. Not the Reverend Holy Father Peter, or anything like that, or even Doctor Peter, or even Pastor Peter. He was information, just Peter. And it was he who signed it, so he ought to know.

He says Peter, and then he puts the gift behind the name, an apostle of Jesus Christ. And here too he's writing to, to the strangest, scattered throughout Pontus, Galatia, Cappadocia, Asia, Bithynia. And when you say the strange Jews scattered, you know he's writing to Jews.

Because the Jewish nation looks scattered at times. And there were many Jews scattered throughout Asia and Asia Minor. But these Jews that are scattered about are his Jews because, in verse 2, he says, elect.

They were elect according to the full knowledge of God the Father. And you should always say that all the time. Don't just talk about elect. Casual, get muggled with this. Some people just look away, beyond yonder, away to eternity before the world began, and say, I was elect, I'm one of the elect.

It's quite true, but please say elect according to the full knowledge of God. Because if God stood back yonder, you know, he could see the end from the beginning. God knew everything about you long before you appeared.

And if you'd like to argue with me tonight, and say there was a place when he didn't know, then I would have to tell you then he wasn't God. Oh, he knew. And because he knew there would be a time when I would be called by an effectual call of the God, calling the power of the Holy Ghost, and I would respond.

Then I was elected according to the full knowledge of God, and there is nothing unjust about it. And the boys that are not elect are the boys that God knows will not respond. Doesn't lessen your responsibility a bit.

It's your responsibility, make no mistakes about it. Now, it says that these Jews, he's right in too, they were elect according to the full knowledge of God the Father, through sanctification of the Spirit.

Yes, you know the Spirit comes into this election too, because the Holy Ghost has to work through the Gospel on the hearts of men to separate the most from God, all that God knew all about us. What subject this man tackles in a phrase, elect according to the full knowledge of God, through sanctification of the Spirit.

Yes, and then he goes on, on to obedience and sprinkling of the blood of Jesus Christ. Oh, he's got a lot in one phrase, hasn't he? And so he says to these saints, grace on you and peace, be multiplied, blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which according to His abundant mercy hath begotten us again unto a lively hope by the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance, incorruptible first of all, and on the fire, secondly, and that saved us not away, thirdly, redoubt and heaven for you, sir.

That right now. You, one of the elect, did the Holy Ghost come upon you and separate you out from the living Son? Are you sprinkled by the blood of Jesus tonight? Then there's an inheritance reserved in heaven for you.

He's actually telling you he's going to take an office as he never connoted us. You must be bigger than God. Oh, Peter's getting down to business here. He says to an inheritance, incorruptible and on the fire, and that saved us not away, reserved in heaven for you, who are kept by the power of God, through faith unto salvation.

That's the completeness of our salvation, ready to be revealed in the last time. And then he seems to stand on his tiptoes as I do sometimes and shout, When you gratefully rejoice, and when you, if you're one of the elect and you're separated by the Spirit and you're washed in the blood and there's an inheritance reserved for you, surely you have every right to rejoice.

Well, but don't go too quick at it now, because in the same verse it says, When ye gratefully rejoice, Oh no! For our sins, and let's get that, but if need be, ye are in heaviness. How do you get rejoice and heaviness in the one verse now?

Because there's some claims going about you never see it. They talk about being happy all the time. Oh no, we rejoice, of course, in the great facts of the gospel. But God says right here, Oh no! For our sins, if need be, I want you to get that bit.

Sometimes, you know, burdens and trials and storms and tests and tears are necessary. You see, when I was chosen in Christ, just the way that all of our mission of the world enacts according to the foreknowledge of God, you know, I was chosen in Christ, predefined, if you like, to be conformed to the image of his house.

Because that's what the whole business of calling me out of the woods and making me like his house. Our God knows that there needs to come storms and burdens and tests and trials and tears to make me more like him.

I'll tell you if it was success the whole way from the day you were saved until you would get to the glory, you wouldn't be like him at all. It's necessary, he says. It needs to be. It's an absolute necessity.

And don't be thinking it's strange at all. It'll come your way, you know. Oh yes, it will come your way. You don't need to think it's strange. You see, it's just for a season, this may be. Now, the word happiness is the mighty word.

It's the word lute. L-U-T-E. It's an old Greek word. And I'll tell you this, get the Greek concordance when you go home and look up lute, and you'll get it from here. And you'll find that about twenty times in the New Testament that word is translated by the word paro.

You see, about ten times it's translated grief. So when we talk about happiness, we are talking about paro. We're talking about grief. You remember Paul saying, I have great heaviness and continual sorrow in my heart.

Yes, it'll come, you know. There'll be a fountain offered to you. And it will come through manifold such things. This may be for a season we are in heaviness through manifold such things. In manifold just different kinds of such things.

Evil Speaking and False Accusations

You see, I've outlined some of them for you in the notes, such as being evil spoken of. Now to some of us, this rolls off our backs like water of a duck. Oh, but the others told you, don't they? I shall tell you a story or two tonight about people who nearly went out of their mind because other people said things about them that were not true.

Well, it's almost as if it's about the job of a captain, you know. You know, it's the caliber of you by now, and the thing that would upset you most, is to get a girl fixed up for you. And then you see, there are sad disappointments in life.

And these are the two that we're going to look at tonight, because there are things you are depressed because of being evil spoken of, and there are things you are depressed because they're very sad disappointments.

Sometimes you're best friends. It's hard to forget all about you. Isn't it more you? Yes, and we'll get into that this evening. Then you see, we'll have other evenings, because there are poems in life.

And there are different kinds of poems too, and I go into all the kinds of poems. Why, in the world of ours, in the natural world, there are all kinds of poems. There are cyclones and hurricanes, and snow storms and hail storms and rain storms.

Oh well, it's a shame in the spiritual world that we'll take our time about it and get a whole night at it so you'll know what sort of thing you've got there. Then you see, there are people who are distressed and perplexed and upset and oppressed and depressed because of false teachings.

And we'll have to have a real go at some of these false teachings, and that might take us a moment or two. But these are all manifold false teachings. Now, recapping this one this evening is this evil spoken of.

Now, let's go to First Peter, and we're at Chapter 2. You see, this First Petition of Peter is all built around this sort of thing, going all the way down to verse 11, First Peter, Chapter 2, verse 11.

And when he's trying to get these things over you, he looks so carefully at daily beloved. Always comes across like that. Daily beloved are to teach you that strangers and pilgrims, and we must never forget that as we journey day by day through this old world of ours, that we're strangers and pilgrims.

We're not in with the clouds, you know, not the victims. We happen to be strangers and pilgrims down here. Now, he says, Our strangers and pilgrims abstain from sexual lust, which war against the soul, having your conversation honest among the Gentiles.

Leon said, Gentiles around us, that whereas they speak against you as evil do. Mind you, that's what you must expect from the world. You see, this world that we're in tonight, this is the very world that our Lord Jesus was in.

And let me say to you that people stood up on faith from faith to faith and falsely accused him, and spoke evil of him without blessing. And if they did it against him, then I can be very sure they will do it against you.

And you must get the hold of this. Let's go to chapter three. We're sort of trying to get this tidied together. Chapter three, and we're way down to verse eight. And he's looking at these saints and he's saying again, Finally, be of one mind.

Have in compassion one of another. Love of brethren. Be pitiful. Be closeless. Not rendering evil for evil, or draining for draining, but come to every wife blessing, knowing that we are thereon to call, that ye should inherit a blessing.

For he that will love life, and see good days, let him refrain his tongue from evil, and his lips that they speak no guise. Let him eschew evil, let his keep away from it, and do good. Let him seek peace and ensue it, for the eyes of the Lord are over righteous.

And as these are open unto their prayers, but the face of the Lord is against them that do evil. To receive it will harm you, if ye be followers of that which is good. God and us, did you get that bit?

Because that's very wonderfully put in. God and us we suffer, for life to be saved. You see, when you get saved, you know, the Gentiles, they won't swear you about. They don't like it. And you know they're going to say things about you, going to upset you, going to distract your mind, and make you lie awake at night.

Following Christ Instead of the Gentiles

Just to prove this out fully, let's go to chapter four now. Verse one. For as much then, he's just trying to sum things up. For as much then as Christ has suffered for us, in the flesh, arm yourselves likewise with the same mind.

You know, you'll have to go through the same thing. Look at verse three. For the time past of our life may suffice us to have lost the will of the Gentiles, when we walked in insidiousness, lust, excess of wine, dazzling, vanquishing, and abominable idolatry.

Wherein they think it strange that we run not with them to the same excess of life, picking evil music. You get that? You see, this is what Peter says. You know, he's written a whole picture about this.

You know, as you get saved, and you take your stand for the Lord, and you go to start your business up, a tiny soup. Oh, I know a lot about this, you know. You see, when I was first saved, I went to work at Dixie's Metro.

And in those days, you stamped the clock at seven o 'clock in the morning. And I got crawling out of bed and going to work, you know. And I read somewhere in this book, in those days, that I should do my work unto Christ, not as man-feeder.

I got up early and I went running. And I never was behind ten to seven in my life. Stomps the clock at ten to seven, or sometimes a quarter every morning. And I didn't do it because I loved work. And I didn't do it because I loved Dixie.

I did it because I loved the Lord. Welcome to the Lord. And I can see there's seventy men in this field. They're not kids, you know. Boozers, every class, including color. And, you know, there ain't no notion of starting at seven.

Oh, no, there ain't. The poor man was afraid of them. They'd put him in the drain if he looked wrong. He had to shout away at the far end of the field and talk to himself or something. And these fellas played cards.

And these boys played football. And the believers, oh, God help us. The believers. Baptists and brethren. They had their Bibles. They'd call them. It wasn't at the end of those times in England. They'd say, well, of course.

Hypocrites were what they were. Hypocrites. I didn't feel that I could do this. So I went up and started at seven. When the clock took seven, I put the stage in the ground. And the big tough fella, he came up the road, and he says, you don't start here at seven.

I said, would you like to have a go at stopping there? Because I had the stage in my hand, after all. And I wasn't just in awe to get a very long conversation, you know. And he thought he knew what I meant.

He left me alone. I started every morning at seven. Hypocrites said everything in the world about me. They'd speak evil of you if you do that. Oh, they'd say he's mad. There's a slip-off, a roost-off, and everything and all the rest of it.

And they'd say worse things than that sometimes. Oh, well, you know. That's what they did with the Lord Jesus. And all who will live godly. So, such a persecution, you know. But it just affects people, you know.

Let me do this bit for you. Let's go back to 1 Peter chapter 2. I'm just trailing you about a bit, because I want to sort the pieces together for you. And it says here, verse 19. We're at 1 Peter chapter 2, verse 19.

So this is thank-worthy, if a man for conscience toward God endures grief, suffering wrongfully. Oh, there's a phrase for you. You should get it painted and hang on the wall. That's not marching for your civil rights.

Suffering wrongfully. That's what that is. And that's what pleases God sometimes, when you just take it, you say, and when you're brought up like I was brought up, it's just a cause of death. Learn. See this, verse 21.

For even here on to where you called, because Christ also suffered for us, leaving us an example, that we should follow in His steps. You know, we're not talking about His atoning suffering. You could never follow there.

You couldn't go into the depths of the cross. Oh, but man's fucking faith, you know. And man had another cane, and man did a thousand things to Him. And He never, He never opened His mouth. He's like an alarm before He sits.

Now watch what it says. Verse 23. The day I learned this properly was a big day for me. Who? When He was reviled. Reviled not again. When He suffered, in this sense, He threatened not, but committed Himself.

Did you get that? To Him that God just likes to flip. You know, the Lord Jesus just committed His case all the time to God. You see, He's talking about suffering as He suffered. Now let's go back to chapter 4.

I know that I'm killing you, God, but you'll work it out all right. Verse 19. You see, the last verse of chapter 4. Wherefore let them that suffer according to the will of God. God may allow this, you know.

It may be necessary for me. Yes, God may allow it. Let them that suffer according to the will of God commit the keeping of their souls to Him in well-doing, as unto a faithful Creator. You just commit the whole thing to God.

You hear a thousand things. And you know, unless you get into the place where you just leave everything with the Lord and say, all right, you know all about it, you know you'll never get victory. You see, when I started out just teaching in this land of ours, I had a trio singing with me every night.

And I don't think I would be overemphasizing the thing when I say that perhaps they were the best singers in the land. And I think they were. I think everybody agreed to that. Mr. Maclean was the tenor, and Mr. Scott was sort of in between, and Mr. Donaldson was the bass.

And these fellows could really sing. We ran the meetings so that Mr. Maclean would lead the meetings, and then the three boys would sing once or twice or maybe three times or four times as they took the notion.

And we never introduced more body or said nothing. And when they had got through what they wanted to get through, they'd sit down and I'd get up and preach. And we were having mighty glad things. People were saved continually.

It was wonderful. And we went through England and Scotland, through all the big cities. And I think I can truthfully say that we preached and sang in every town in Ulster, and maybe some of the villages too.

But one morning the pastor of the church at home, he came to me and said, he's come, Scott, to sing with you. Well, he was at a dance last night. A lot of half-naked women at the dance. He said he told me that, Pastor.

He said, the bread man told me this morning. I knew the bread man. Well, I said, Pastor, you just leave your car at the door and get into this one. Oh, I said, I haven't got time for that. I've got time to run a break often, so you'll have to do a bit more of that.

So I bumped him into the car, and it wasn't too easy, you know. But we had a hunk around the corner for the bread man. I just didn't know where he was at that moment. We were in one street and out of another, and into another, and here he is, Stan Crockett, being all dirty at the door.

I said, listen, you, you tell the pastor Stan Crockett that I danced last night. He said, I did. He told you. He said, the manager of the briefcase, John Hennings, I called. I said, shut that door up there and get into this one.

Well, he said, I've a day's work to do. I said, so have I. It's a day's work with you I'm doing. You get in the car, unless I have to put you in there, and that'll not be as easy as you think. So I got him in the car, and he knew he was not meant for it.

Anyway, we went to the briefcase manager, and the white coat was robbed about like the whole year of where I once lived. He told the veteran this morning that Stan Crockett was like a damn slut. He did.

He told me. There was a woman lying on the bed. I was beginning to think I'd need a box before this was over. So I said, go and get her. So anyway, he went, and the physician was called in, and he was a great fellow, and he returned.

They went, but after a long time, Margaret said this. I said, I told her you were here, and you were speaking about this. This is quite a crime situation. It's a lie. I mean, they don't... Oh yes, it was a lie.

But do you know that it nearly took Tom Scott off his rocker, even though he knew that I had proved it was a lie? Do you know that Richard Baxter was the best evangelist in Britain at one time? And God knew this man mightily.

And if there was a holy man of God, it was this man. A Roman Catholic girl was going to have a baby. And she went to the priest and confessed that she was having the baby. And he said, blame it on Richard Baxter.

I'm not saying that every Roman Catholic priest is like that, because I don't think they are. But this was this one. And she blamed it on Richard Baxter. Richard Baxter was the man who was brought up in a nice family and didn't know scorns like this at all.

Can you see? It broke him. And actually he died of a broken heart. It shouldn't have done so. Or he did. And it did. The old devil will be after you. And if he thinks that he can accept you by saying things about you, unless you know how to take it to God, you have to take your faith to God and say, all right, there it's there.

And you know what's right and what's wrong and who's right and who's not right. And he did that. The old pastor came to me once and said, and then put out a rejection. It's not true. A woman accused him of coming into the house and tattling her.

And when she came before the assembly, she walked up the aisle and put her hand on the Bible and said, in God's name he did it. And the old soul's hand was trembling as he put it on the page. He said, before Christ died, never touched it.

Six months later, she was dying with cancer and called the elders of the church and told them that she didn't like the pastor and she had told lies. And the devil will be after you. Speak evil of your pastor.

Speak evil of your master. Don't speak evil of me. You need to learn to commit it to the Lord. You need to learn how to gird up the loins of your mind. You know, this is very tremendous. If you go to 1 Peter, the first chapter, you see, we've been in this book all night tonight.

Girding Up the Mind with Truth

You're beginning to see how much he really came to me. And in verse 13, he said, gird up the loins of your mind. A lot of praise to you. First chapter, verse 13, gird up the loins of your mind. Also in 10, he said to me, what are the loins of your mind?

I said, look, it's a figure of speech. That's what it is. Charles, I know your mind has no loins. It's a figure of speech. It's the same as when Paul's talking about going to war and he says, let your loins be girded about with truth.

The only way you can gird up the loins of your mind is to get to know the truth. That's why we're doing these subjects. So that you'll be able to go and stand before God and present your case and you'll be steadfast and unmovable and the devil will not be able to do it.

The Lord said, I will keep him in prophet so that his mind is stayed on it. Now, we've got to move on tonight because we're not only looking at that testing that comes out of the manifold testing. I want to look at some of these disappointments.

Joseph and the Pain of Forgotten Friends

You know what Jeffrey was reading him Sunday morning? Well, it was Genesis chapter 40. Now let me put a bit to it and let me say how well he did on Sunday morning. I think that everybody in the meeting was blessed and helped.

The lady who didn't know him said, didn't that wee fellow do well this morning? I said, if you knew his age you would stop the wee fellow. Well, it was chapter 40 he was reading, Genesis 40, verse 1. And it came to pass after these things that the butler of the king of Egypt and his baker had offended their lord between the regions.

And Pharaoh was wroth against two of his officers, against the chief of the butlers and against the chief of the bakers. And he put them in wards in the house of the captain of the guard into the prison, the place where Joseph was.

And you see, when they were in there they had dreams. And Joseph, of course, was able to interpret the dreams. You see, this is verse 12. And Joseph said unto him, and this is the butler, this is the interpretation of it, that is the dream.

The three branches are three days, yet within three days shall Pharaoh lift up thine head and restore thee unto thy place and thou shalt deliver Pharaoh's cup into his hand after the former manner when thou wast his butler.

But think on me when it shall be well with him. That was the plea that Joseph was made. And it says, way down at the end of the chapter, verse 21, and he became restored the chief butler unto his butlership again.

Verse 23, yet did not the chief butler remember Joseph, but forgot him. You see, this is what I call a forgetfulness of friends. You know, you go out of your way and you do this and you do that and you do the other thing.

And yet, you know, they come to this place of holiness or tightness at times. They don't know you anymore. I have led folks to the Lord, and I've gone down to the weeds rather than meet him and give the old dagger there a going forth so that he would let them in and look after them and God change them and bring them up as children of God.

And he and I had a row for about five hours one day until at last he cried. He said, I'm wrong, I'm wrong. Then he said to me, I will restore established now and restore tight that he wouldn't let me in.

Well, don't forget about it. I led them to the Lord. I fought the battle for them. I did a thousand things for them. Some of them don't know whether I'm saved yet or not. Oh, it's a wonderful world. Great to be blessed with a thought of mine that I have because I don't get too hip about them.

I don't lie awake about it. I'll tell you this, there are people who are destructive because I'm strong. And friends forget them. And friends forget them too. You know, when Paul was standing up in the court, he said, no, man stood with me.

Oh, there was Luke then. Luke was always with him. But good Lord's precision put him not that morning. Oh, no, Nero was on the bench that morning. And they weren't crawling into that court because they might get captured in there.

Oh, no. Oh, sometimes the people that you want to stand beside you, they protect you, you know. You'll have to learn that. And sometimes they fear us, you know. Yes, you can see Judas walking about with the Lord and you know he's going to stab the Lord in the back just in a minute, isn't he?

Yes, the friend that the Lord had. He was bitter in the booth with him. He knew he would fail him, all right. Yes, and sometimes, you know, lovers fail each other. I don't want to go into this too much.

Whether the man goes on with the woman or not is not really my business. Sometimes you need to go a year or two with one another to get to know one another. And that's not just my business. But I have seen a few things in my female.

Disappointment, Marriage, and God’s Mercy

Say, a lovely American evangelist came to me one evening and the beautiful girl at his side said, look, well, we want to get married. I'm taking her home to America and we want you to do it. And I was pleased and proud to do it.

And everything was gone through and this wonderful morning was set and great Victoria Street back to church. And I was there looking my very best and I saw the bride just took the gold and was ready to come up.

So I went down the aisle and said, look, just get him. This man's not here yet. Just wait a minute till we get him up here first. He just turned and I thought that the car was held up in the road. But I waited for half an hour and he didn't come.

Now I'm beginning to sense the danger now. I walked up the aisle again and got nobody on and I said, come on down on the side and go into a little rest and sit down and rest. I'll come for you when he comes.

And we waited another half hour and he wasn't there and we waited another half hour and we waited another, and that's two hours. You've got to go the whole distance. You wouldn't know what was wrong. If it was appendix, if it was an accident, if it was some sort of a seizure, I've got to go easy and I've got to sit there and wonder whether I like it or not.

I wandered up the aisle and went on out to the gate and had a look. The big fella standing out from the footpath and he looked like he meant for me. And I watched him and he watched me. I said, you ain't got to say to me.

He said, he's away to America on the first train this morning. Oh I see, you said I've not got to come in and tell me before this. No, I've got to go into the trips now and there's about a hundred guests, maybe two hundred.

I said, you folks kindly take yourself away home. And I mean take yourself home. I don't mean just get out and stand and get out there. Just go home. It's the kindest thing you can do. Now I've got to go in and there's a wee laugh in there and my mother's in there and my father's in there.

I said, dear, this man will come in. There's a big fellow out there, says he's away on the first train to America this morning. He just came in. No wonder he did. And then we get water and we bring her round.

And I said, listen dear, come and kneel beside me. Get on your knees. Give us a bit of a squeeze of my arms. Now, would you thank God for your mercy? Just thank God for your mercy. But that's the thought that goes through the ear.

Thank God you never got them. Because he's not worth getting. And she told me, and she has told me many times since now, that is my life. Because every day I awoke, I thanked God for his mercy. Oh, but disappointments at all!