Getting Out of the Fog — George Verwer

Getting Out of the Fog: A Call to Revolutionary Christianity

In the middle of January 1971, whilst the OM motor vessel Logos was in Rotterdam undergoing work for certification of seaworthiness, George Verwer went to Cape and Ray Bible School to speak to the whole school at the invitation of Mr. L .A .T. van Dooren, the principal of the school.

This is a recording of what he said.

I don't believe it's by coincidence I'm here tonight. It's very difficult to leave the ship. I've hardly ever been away on a Thursday. I'm usually there always at least Monday through Friday. Or speaking in the Netherlands where I can get back to the ship in the morning.

So I don't believe that I'm here by coincidence and I feel that somehow God has his hands upon this school. And I like to move where I believe God is moving. Because I'm only one person and without the Lord Jesus I can do nothing.

If I go into places that aren't prepared, I can pour out my heart, I can stand on my head, nothing will happen. And I've just about done that. But when I come to a place where I believe the Lord is working, where I know there are men more spirit-filled than I, ministering the Word of God, I believe that he is going to do something.

A Turning Point Toward Revolutionary Christianity

I believe that tonight may be one of the greatest turning points in your whole life. I don't say that because I'm anything. But I say that because first of all I believe most of us need a turning point.

Most of us, I'm convinced, are drifting in the wrong direction. We may have a lot in our heads. And we may be gathering even more in these days. But somehow I believe we've missed real, New Testament, revolutionary, dynamic Christianity.

Now words don't mean much. You can take my words and you can throw them out the window. But what we have seen God do now for 14 years, a movement that most people didn't think would go more than a few weeks, is proof that these principles of the Word of God work.

Some of the people who I've been the most skeptical about O .M., many Americans I think of especially, because we don't have any big show in America. We don't have any organization in America, just two or three people.

That's why many Americans have never even heard of it. And Americans like show. They like beautiful buildings. Just go visit the Vatican of Wheaton and you'll see. And so people have become critical. And we've been accused of being fly-by-night.

I've been accused of being anti-American. And not appreciating the Nixon administration. And all kinds of other things. But some of these people who have been the most critical, somehow landed up in a meeting like this.

And ended up some of the strongest people we have in the work today. There are Americans in this work and there are British. Almost an equal number of those two nations. And they're outnumbered by the other nations.

Which is very, very encouraging to me. And they've worked together. I don't know if you've got any English-American problems here in this school. But all as I know, I don't know how 20 British can live in a Bible school in Britain in the midst of 60 Americans.

Not me. And to be a minority in your own country is an unusual situation. But maybe it'll teach you some humility. Because whether you're British or American, you can always use some of that. But I believe with all my heart that as Americans, we can work together with people from other countries.

But it will never happen unless we change our course. It will never happen unless we experience a revolution. It will never happen unless we come to grips with real, Biblical, New Testament Christianity, as opposed to American evangelicalism.

And it's not just myself who thinks this way. Many men, like Tozer, for example, have really studied this situation. Or like Leonard Ravenhill, have seen that this is true. You and I have been brainwashed.

We've been doped. We've been injected with just as much pseudo-Christianity to keep us from the real thing. And though we may be saved, most of us, when we're just reared in this environment, know very little of this kind of spiritual revolution.

And it really is a tremendous situation. It really is. It's not just true in the United States. It's true in many other countries as well. The verse I want us to think on tonight and begin our thinking on is Acts chapter 17, just one verse, verse 6.

And when they found him not, they drew Jason and certain brethren unto the rulers of the city, crying, These that have turned the world upside down are come hither also. These that have turned the world upside down.

Turning the World Upside Down as a Team

Now this was a simple description of the Apostle Paul and his team. He worked on a team. He wasn't just alone, like we so often do today. One missionary couple, just out of Bible school, boom, send them off to Bongo Longo in the middle of some country, and there they are with their Bible school notes, and they're going to shake heathendom for Jesus Christ.

And we wonder why hundreds of them bounce back with nervous breakdowns and why at least one-third of all new recruits, especially from the States, drop out after the first term on the mission. The Apostle Paul was fairly strong in the faith, but he worked on a team.

He got together and he worked with others, and they turned the world upside down. What have you turned upside down? And I believe that Christianity, real Christianity, is a revolution. It's a spiritual revolution.

It's a revolution of love, as I've titled this little book that I put into print. And I believe that somehow this is what we've missed. We've missed this whole revolution of love. What love can do when it begins to move through our lives.

What love can do when we begin to allow it to have full sway. The love of Christ. The power of Christ. Now, when I come to a school like this, and I think of all the Bible teaching you have, and I would probably agree with probably almost everything you've heard from this school.

I mean, I don't know everyone who's spoken to you. I'm sure there's somebody I'd probably disagree with. But I know the message of Ian Thomas. We've circulated his books in a multitude of languages all over the world, and Brother Vendurum's books as well.

And I know what the school stands for. I believe this message. I believe this message that you heard last night. But I'm also convinced of this. That many of us are so deep in the fog of unreality that we'll hear a thousand messages and we never will change it.

That's right. It'll take something more than saying, Yes, Lord, I want that. Something more than, Yes, this is it. Lord Jesus, I give myself to you. Lord Jesus, I believe I'm crucified with you. It's you and me.

I can't do anything. Now do it. Or any other prayer you may pray. Whether it's an OM prayer, a Caponry prayer, or whatever prayer you may be taught. It's easy to pick up the lingo. But quite another thing to pick up the light.

And I'm convinced that because many of us are trapped in the fog, we cannot understand spiritual truth. We cannot really take in spiritual truth. Also, I believe too many of us want to get everything of Jesus without letting anything go of ourselves.

Denying Self and Taking Up the Cross

Now, whether you want to accept it or not, there's plenty of emphasis in the Bible on the negative. I love to be positive. I believe it's only Christ in me who can live this life. But I also must face the reality of strong verses that say, for example, if any man come after me, let him deny himself, take up the cross, and follow me.

Or an even more difficult verse, like Luke 14, 33, except you forsake all that you have, you cannot be my disciple, even if you go to Bible school. And we're living in a day in which most Christians want all the blessing and none of the responsibility.

Does it work? We have a Christianity in the book of Acts, and in this Bible, that's hot. We read about men like Elijah standing on Mount Carmel, and when he prayed, he didn't get handed a bucket of ice cubes.

Fire fell. And in the book of Hebrews, it says, our God is a consuming fire. And when you and I become spiritual revolutionists, when we really begin to live the way this book talks about, we will be ignited, and we will become anointed, and we will become a hot, sharp, burning, revolutionary instrument in the hands of God.

And that is not the abnormal life, that's the normal life. Operation Mobilization is a very ordinary movement. I, myself, am a very ordinary person at a low IQ, had a pile of problems. I wasn't some great person before I knew Christ, nor after.

In fact, O .M. is not a one-man show. I may have the biggest mouth. Maybe that's why God's using me, I don't know. But this movement has moved because God has raised up, now, about 70 men of responsibility.

And without them, I would be nothing, and we, together, without the Lord, we would all be nothing. But so often today, we become evangelical hero-worshippers. And this often just leads us to a deeper road of frustration.

We all want to be like so-and-so. We read some biography, Oh, Lord, if I could only be like Hudson Taylor, Lord, why am I such a worm and a wretch? You'll never use me, Lord. I think a majority of the people that I have faced, they have accepted Christ in some way, but they've never accepted themselves.

They've never accepted themselves. I had quite a few write me after my meeting here last year, and they said, Thank you, George. Some of them by mistake called me Mr. Verwer, don't make the same mistake.

Thank you very much for telling me to accept myself. I realized when I was done that I never have really done that. And this is so true. Some of you know the ministry that Bill Gothard has had in America, just showing young people some of these basic issues about themselves and the Word of God, that we must accept ourselves.

We must realize that God is going to work through us as we are. He's not going to turn you into me. You can be very happy for that. He's not going to take you, a little quiet, shy girl, and sort of make you the biggest loud mouth in Caponry.

Nor is he going to take the more talkative one who you wish you could turn off and make her a little quiet, silent, whispering miss. No. He is going to take you as you are. He's going to mold you and conform you to Jesus Christ and make you a revolutionary as you are.

He'll take your loudness and He'll use it. Oh, He'll tame it. He'll break you. He'll do all kinds of things to get you to learn how to be still. But basically, your temperament will be the same. Read that book.

You can get a copy. Write to me. I'll send you one. Spirit-filled temperament. Oh, how key that little message is. Because too many of us are running around wishing we were her, wishing we were him. And we look in the mirror and say, Oh, what happened when they gave out the faces?

And so on one hand, we're trying to serve the Lord. We're trying to be disciples. We're trying to be instruments in the Lord's hands. And yet we haven't even taken this basic step of accepting ourselves with our particular weaknesses.

Accepting Weakness and Resting in Grace

Turn with me to one of the greatest verses in the whole of the Bible. 2 Corinthians. 2 Corinthians chapter 12, verse 9 and 10. He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.

Most gladly, therefore, will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Most gladly will I glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. That's accepting yourself.

Accepting your weaknesses. Doesn't mean you don't do anything about it. But it means that basically you rest. You rest in who you are. The Bible talks in Hebrews 4 about a rest of faith. I believe this is a very real thing.

Some people enter it by crisis. Other people enter it by process. No matter what way you enter it, it's got to be a daily thing. But I believe there is a place where we as Christians operate and live our Christian life in the rest.

We have ceased from our own works. It's very clear. And I feel that many of us are uptight, as they say over in the States. Believe me, I don't know what they say anymore. I get all mixed up. I live with so many Englishmen and Americans.

I'm completely confused of who's using lifts and who's using an elevator and where's the boot and what's what. But anyway, you'll understand if it comes out wrong. But I believe that many of us are uptight and we're trying so hard, we've never really entered this place of the rest.

And one of the reasons is we aren't at rest about ourselves. I used to be so anxious about myself. Now, I was skinny. You can see that. People are always coming to me, Oh, George, why don't you eat more?

Why don't you eat more? And I'm sure I've scared many a man, especially with a big appetite away from Operation Mobilization. But I had trouble accepting myself. I remember one time looking in a magazine, I didn't know the Lord at this time, but I know Christians that have the same problem.

These problems don't all disappear. We make our little decision for Christ. And sometimes I'm afraid it is too little a decision. Instead of a revolution, it's merely some kind of a decision. And it scares me and I wonder if some people who do this really know Christ.

Anyway, I remember seeing a magazine article and there's a picture of a girl and a rather skinny chap sitting next to her on the beach. And it was advertising some muscle-building, weight-gaining apparatus that you could get for who knows how much money.

And as I saw this picture, I had a lot of interest in girls, like 99 .9 of all American boys. And so I saw this little picture and as it had the next picture next to the first one, a big, strong, football-type captain of the team comes along and he hits this little wormy type and boom, knocked him away.

And he walked away with that bird. I mean the girl. I mean the chick. Forgive me, I'm very confused. Anyway, I was really shaken up by that. So I immediately wrote in for this kit. It wasn't funny at all.

And so there I was in my living room, in my house there in New Jersey where I was born, doing my exercises and stretching these things. I could barely even move them, much less keep going back and forth.

And after months, I think I gained about a pound. And I was more frustrated than ever. And I always felt so inferior. You know, a majority of people that I count, I count a lot of people, feel inferior.

And some of us, I was outgoing then and I could put on a big show. I went to all the dances. I was the only freshman at the senior prom and all this. But I was inferior the whole time. I had not accepted myself.

I was inferior to even all these girls that I dated. And I was being torn up by this. And when I became a follower of Jesus Christ, March 5th, 1955 in Madison Square Garden, Billy Graham was preaching, I found a whole new revolutionary way of life.

I found that God loved me. I found that He accepted me. All 124 pounds, no more, no less. I found that He would use me. I found that He wasn't out to crush my temperament or to punish me or to show me up each day for the wretch I was.

But He loved me and He just wanted to work through me through His Holy Spirit. And this kind of revolutionary Christianity does work. And it will pull us free from many of our hang-ups, many of the things that are trapping us and keeping us from being effective for Jesus Christ.

This is the revolution I'm talking about. Perhaps you thought that I thought the revolution is running down the street with an armful of tracks or sailing off to Indonesia in a ship standing on the masthead with a loudspeaker preaching to the seagulls or something else.

But believe me, the real revolution must begin in your own heart. You must understand this. This is why I believe in Bible school, why I believe in training programs, anything along this line gives us time to stop, to think, to get our own lives in order.

The revolution begins here, in your own heart. You know, many, many, many people will never come into this because they're caught in the fog. Now, I just quickly want to share with you some of the fog that I've seen people trapped in.

Repentance and the Fog of a Double Life

I believe that to know victory, repentance is involved. Repentance is involved. And I believe there's too little emphasis today on repentance. I'm really turning from sin, turning from the things that we know are not right.

So many young people are living a double life. Again, because they're trapped in the fog. You wouldn't believe this. But I've had Bible school students, one from a big Bible school in America, come to me and tell me that all his years in Bible school he was with prostitutes and immoral people every weekend.

You may say, well, that's not a very nice thing to say here at a Bible school. Well, I doubt if that kind of thing is happening up here. But anything can happen. Anything can happen. And the double life is no respect of persons.

And I have met people. I knew a young man in Bible school in Britain who every weekend or every other weekend hitchhiked into London and lived and dwelled in the bottom of the worst pit that you can find in the Soho and continued as a leader in his Bible school.

This is where we as young people, if I can consider myself still somewhat near your age bracket, are very, very clever. We can fool our parents. We can fool our teachers. We can fool our very roommates.

We can have porno stashed away in Bible school. No one will ever know it. We can be feeding our minds on things that we know are taboo and keep everybody deceived. The double life. I would not say that tonight if I hadn't known dozens, dozens who've come to me and told me that they were gripped with the double life while they were at Bible school.

And it was tearing them apart. And when they got home on the weekends or they got away from the Christian environment and the Christian pressures, the truth they had in their hearts and their heads didn't hold up.

And it all went down. It happens on OM. I know people who've come back from OM and the moment they stepped back to England they went back into sin in one form or the other. Now you don't need to go to the Soho.

You don't need to do some vile thing to be living the double life. The greatest cause perhaps of the double life is pride. And we can just sort of sophisticate our sin. Where before we gossip, now we share prayer requests rather freely about other people.

And there's a way of bringing sort of an evangelical aroma to our own flesh, to our own irritabilities and pride and envy, all the envy that gets around us as Christians. The jealousy of others who may be being used to the Lord more than we are.

Someone else is asked to testify and you're left out and resentment or envy comes into the heart. One psychiatrist, a Christian psychiatrist in India, wrote me. He said, I believe, George, 80 of people's problems come from bitterness and resentment in their heart.

How true this is. I wonder if there's some of us here. If we searched our heart, we know we've got bitterness or resentment against someone. Many today have it against their parents. Maybe you're here because of some subtle form of resentment or bitterness against your parents.

You've never forgiven them for something. Maybe you're from a broken home and you've never forgiven your father, or you've never forgiven your mother, or you've never forgiven a brother, or you've never forgiven another Christian.

And though you've got the words and the talk, deep down there's a gangrene of resentment and bitterness that'll eat you apart the rest of your life if you don't let the blood of Christ and the love of Christ and the forgiveness of Christ cleanse it and free you from it.

This is revolutionary. But this is where the revolution must begin. Some people don't like you to speak about sin. I don't know how you can read the Bible and not speak about sin. On almost every page in the Bible, sin is spoken about, and it's described, it's compared with leprosy.

And I believe that too many of us are playing around with various forms of sin. And one of the very reasons we can't come free from it is we don't hate it enough. We don't hate it enough. And we get trapped in what I call the evangelical fog.

The Fog of Materialism

What is some of this fog? You know, we have a lot of fog in England today. Planes aren't landing. In fact, my plane was canceled this morning because of fog in South End, so I flew across into Gatwick.

But there's a lot of fog in our own lives. Let me quickly give you some of the fog that I've seen people trapped in, so trapped in that all the sermons in the world and all the messages couldn't bring them out.

First of all, there's this fog of materialism. We refuse today to pay attention to the teachings of Jesus about material things. We're almost totally blind to this. And we just don't want to face up to the fact that we have been blinded by our love for material things.

And we have surrounded ourselves and we are living in the most cushy society. And believe me, this love for material things will not go out easily. It will take a tremendous struggle. Tozer said this, There can be no doubt that the possessive clinging to things is one of the most harmful habits in life.

Because it is so natural, it is rarely recognized for the evil that it is. But its outworkings are tragic. This ancient curse will not go out painlessly. The tough old miser within us will not lie down and die obedient to our command.

He must be torn out, torn out of our heart like a plant from the soil. He must be extracted in agony and blood like a tooth from the jaw. He must be expelled from our soul by violence as Christ expelled the money changers from the temple.

I want to tell you to come free from the love of material things will take a revolution. The rich young ruler was faced with this revolution. He had scored very high on many other points and Jesus said, Go and sell all that you have.

We Americans and many British and Europeans as well represent the rich young rulers of the world. Whether you know it or not, the poverty age or the poverty bracket in America $3 ,000 when you get over that puts you in the rich young ruler class as far as the rest of the world is concerned.

And the things we take as necessities in America are considered luxury, total luxuries in 80 of the rest of the world. And this is why in many cases American missionaries some Europeans as well have been totally ineffective.

They could not understand why this national didn't get on with them. They could not understand the tension and the problems. One little look and anybody with half a screw would know what's wrong. But somehow we won't learn.

And materialism has just overwhelmed us. John comes along and he says, Love not the world neither the things that are in the world. If any man loves the world the love of the Father is not in him. What do we do with that verse?

And what about 1 John 3 .16? Oh, we love John 3 .16. That's our favorite verse, isn't it? We all know that one. Sure, we want to get to heaven. What about 1 John 3 .16? In this we perceive the love of God in that he laid down his life for us so we ought to lay down our lives for the brethren.

And then verse 17, He that has this world's goods and see's his brother in need we've seen some tonight and opens not his heart of compassion how dwelleth the love of God in him. I want to tell you this is so revolutionary so hot it makes a Marxist look like he's going backward on a conveyor belt.

Right? And I have seen communists when I presented this revolutionary gospel just admit that this was more revolutionary. And yet, somehow most of us are found drifting in our own materialistic society.

Most of us in this room will be happy to settle down somewhere, someday in America in a nice home with a nice car several cars now you're poverty stricken if you don't have more than one car and all the other things.

And that's only a minor part of it because you know it's not the things around you and I never judge people for the things they have because God looks at the heart. God looks at the heart. And you may be very poor.

You may be very, very poor. You may be living in a shack in the middle of Arizona. But, uh... I hope there's no one from Arizona tonight. It's a great state, actually. But, uh... You can have just as much love for material things.

Many of our Indian brothers find this the greatest battle in their life. They have nothing. Have nothing. And yet, this is the number one battle in their life. And I believe many of us are trapped in this fog.

And this is why evangelical Christianity becomes totally hypocritical. And I say this. American Christians and British Christians we can go and hear messages about the deeper life and we can hear wonderful truths and we can say we believe them but until those truths hit us and turn us upside down in our relationship to the material world and begin to make us unselfish and loving and sacrificial then we only say by our lives that in reality communism is more dynamic.

In reality, the false cults without the Holy Spirit have more power. So, we're saying ultimately the devil's more powerful than Jesus which I can't believe. We see right now 20 ,000 Mormons on the march in Europe.

Most Christians don't even like to talk about this subject. 20 ,000 Mormons on a two-year program. More of them in Europe than all the missionary societies of all of North America put together. And they now want 100 ,000 people in Britain.

These Mormons sweeping across Britain. 100 ,000 converts. They preach perhaps the toughest message you can declare in this country. You've got to forsake tea drinking. You become a Mormon. You want to preach that in Britain?

I don't know how they do it. Perseverance. Discipline. Dedication. And some kind of phony love that they copied off Dale Carnegie or Joseph Smith. Oh may God open our eyes. We cannot continue as we are.

The little trickle that's coming out of our churches to the mission people. Eric Fife, one of the leaders of Urbana three years ago said we have a greater missionary interest than ever before and less candidates per number of Christians.

And the missionary situation in Britain is becoming more hopeless by the month. Many can't even get their support even though it's only a small amount each month. It's incredible. And I believe this demands a revolution.

I believe we've got to come out of this fog of materialism. Secondly, many of us are caught in the fog of impurity. I wish I could speak all night on this. This is the big hook. Billy Graham says of our country that we have become a generation of sex glutts.

Stronger than anything I ever did or say. But it's true. And a high percentage of us know that this is the big battle. And so many Christians for ten minutes of pleasure have thrown away a lifetime of spiritual reality.

And it would be worth coming here tonight if the only thing you get into your heart is the desire to stay pure by the power of God. And you can. I, as most Americans, had to some degree a problem in this area.

I lived for dates. I lived for this way. And though I never committed immorality because by the mercy of God I was saved at 17, it wouldn't have been very long. It was all in my mind so it might as well have been there in some ways, in any case, because the standard of Jesus is very clear.

And yet, because this revolutionary Christianity became a part of my life through the word, through the prayers of others, through denying self, taking up the cross and following Him, through a whole host of truths.

It's not any one truth. Why is it that so often in the church we get one little favorite set of truths and we ride it and ride it and ride it until we fall off the horse and then discover that there are a few other truths in the Bible?

Really, there's so much truth in this book that no one person has ever gotten a corner on all. And this is why I believe we can learn so much from each other. This is why I like to read a complete cross-section of books and get under the ministry of a cross-section of people because God has so many wonderful truths to teach us, so many revolutionary truths.

But I believe with all my heart we neglect God's teaching about sex. I speak to many evangelical young people who believe sex is dirty. Where do we get this idea that sex is dirty? And yet so many are hung up and having problems and I can tell you you just have no idea what happens on the mission field.

You have no idea the amount of homosexuality and lesbianism there is on the mission field. Of course it's just a few, but it's there. And it's there because we refuse to face issues in our training program.

I had a young man launch out to his mission field in Asia and every woman on the field of the first four were all proven to be lesbians and had to be thrown out. What kind of ungodliness can we ever dream of on the mission field?

Why? Because most girls when they were young and when they were in Bible school never were even taught anything about this. Maybe had a slight problem, completely repressed it, made it worse. When if they had shared it and got some counsel they could have been completely free and I've seen people come free from every sex problem there is.

And the same of course is true in other areas whether it's perversion or just lust or whatever it is. And so many are caught in this fire and they're being torn apart and they'll never serve Christ effectively and they'll end up bringing disgrace to the work of God as is constantly, constantly happening.

Now is the hour to get desperate about this. Not when you're 40. If you don't get concerned now about getting out of this fog you probably won't win many battles when you're 40. Roy Hesschen once told me when I was talking to him about this problem he said, George if you think it's a problem among young people he said in my counseling all over the world I've discovered it's a greater problem among those who are married and who are in their 40s.

So many foolish young people think that if they get married they'll solve this problem. They get married and they get into it worse because the devil has no border and the marriage border doesn't stop him either.

The answer to this problem is the revolution of love a revolution of discipline. The answer to this problem is the cross and repentance. It's living in the light with one another. I know people who've been delivered from these problems simply through opening their heart linking up with one other person of their own sex and praying together that the Lord will take them through.

Many of you know you'll never get through alone. If you're honest man you know it. You team up with someone else you pray together you share in battles together pray for one another as it says after you confess your fault in James and you'll go through.

And I would get out of Operation Mobilization if it wasn't for the victories I've seen in a majority of almost all the people when they've been with us and when they've been moving out in this one. God can take you out of that fog of impurity and he can keep you out.

If you do fall he can pull you out again. That's the wonderful thing. If you're finding a lot of battles in this area or any other area you may not come out without a few falls in the process. But if you understand the grace of God the forgiveness of God the love of Christ and realize that when you fall you don't swim in the puddle you get up and get clean.

Then you will soon find that that grace heals the wound. You know we're all wounded. Don't be amazed when you see inconsistencies in others. Be astonished when you see inconsistencies. We're all wounded.

The devil has marred the whole earth and he's marred you and I. And people don't get out of all this the day they're born again. Watchman Nee in his book Release of the Spirit which I recommend you read I think it's on that table says it takes 5, 10, 15, 20 years for God to bring a man even to in a sense some degree of spiritual maturity.

It's not going to happen 7 months at Caponry nor 2 years on O .F. It's a lifetime of yielding your members unto righteousness. Of reckoning yourselves as dead realizing yeah you are dead. But you know unless you face the issue you have trouble taking it to the cross.

Many of us try to go to the cross and go to the Lord and experience a new degree of reality without first facing up to the areas where the devil has control. We love to repent over sin vaguely. Oh Lord I'm a sinner.

But oh to confess anything even to one other person specifically is very difficult. Oh may God bring some of us out of this fog of impurity. And I just testify personally in thanks to the Lord Jesus for delivering me from the lust of the flesh for 15, 16 years 5 of it single.