Alive Unto God — G.W. North

The Bible Reveals God’s Purpose in Christ

One of the wonderful things about studying the Bible is that you come to a real knowledge of what God means, what he's trying to get at, and in the simplest ways the Lord can open the eyes of the understanding so that we don't get at all confused or mixed up.

And I want to take the four Gospels with you, not the whole four of them right the way through, but look into each one of the four Gospels at the end of the four Gospels and want to show you, if you like, what is the culminating thing just before the Gospels close down and that we go from them into the Acts of the Apostles.

You will know that the Gospels, between them, cover the coming, the living, and the going of the Lord Jesus Christ to and in and from this earth. And the four streams, 1, 2, 3, 4, at the end, all come down onto the revelation of the cross of the Lord Jesus Christ, the resurrection of the Lord, and finally with the ascension and all that that held in view, and then they come focusing down onto these tremendous events, Calvary and Pentecost.

And then from there they open up again, the letters and so on, and how wonderfully the New Testament concludes in the book of the Revelation. What a wonderful thing the Lord had in view. And you must understand that all He did, for that reason, for the great end that He had in view, the vision of His heart, the thing that He counted so dear that He didn't think it was too great a price to lay down His life in order to achieve it.

Indeed, He knew that except He did it, it could only ever be a dream, and could never, never be real. I might say that this is why in so many people's lives all their nice revelations and things that they have are just mere dreams in the end, because they don't really do anything vital about achieving.

The thing that sounds so nice, looks so beautiful, and be described so splendidly, can cause people to go into rhapsody. But nothing ever is done, because there's no equivalent to Calvary in the life.

There's nothing that's really vital. It's just talk and books and visions and things like that. But you see, the Lord could afford to have visions and revelations and talk about them, because He was prepared to pay the price of achieving the end of the revelation.

And He could give a book full of prophecies and promises and pictures and things, because He was prepared to go through that all should be fulfilled. There must come something like this into the realization of every heart.

And I want to warn you, that unless you are prepared, it doesn't matter who you are, whether you be an elder or whether you be the youngest young one here, or anyone in between, doesn't matter who you are, including myself, unless we're really prepared to go right through, then all these things are mere sort of pipe dreams, little better than people get by taking LSD, for instance.

What a tremendous thing, then, to have the heart set, fixed, on what God wants to achieve in the life, and to go through at all costs. All right, in these four Gospels, we're going to start with the last one.

John’s Gospel and Life Through Christ’s Name

That is, the Gospel according to John. Because obviously, in the context of what I want to say, you will see that although this Gospel is written last, it has the most vital thing of all to say about this subject.

And in the end of this 20th chapter, and on into the 21st, you will know that chapter divisions are quite arbitrary, that they weren't inspired. We've said these things before. All we're doing is to draw attention to things that went on in the end.

And at the end of the 20th chapter, we have verse 31, many other signs, truly, did Jesus in the presence of his disciples, which are not written in this book. But these are written that you might believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that believing he might have life through his name.

Now, beloved, essentially, we must all understand this. The most vital thing for each one of us in this room tonight is to know that we are alive in the realm that God wants us to be alive, with the life that alone God can give us.

This is the most tremendous thing, because you will know that this book precedes the Acts of the Apostles and all the great activity that went on in the Church. And you read about this, and you have the history of it in the Acts.

You have letters written to the early Church, in the sense that they were written to churches, groups within the early Church, the one great Church. And if you and I, now listen very carefully, if you and I are going in any way in our lives to match up to this great truth that comes in the Acts of the Apostles and the evident revelation of further activity that was going on in the Churches, if we're going to come there, we must be alive with exactly the same quality of life that they had.

That's as clear as a crystal. We must be alive. Well, you'll read this in the Roman letter, for instance. You'll find it again and again. Paul talks about being alive unto God. Now, it doesn't matter whether all the rest of the people in the universe think you're alive to them.

If you're not alive to God, what does it matter? It doesn't matter whether you're alive to the philosophical society, or whether you're alive to a phagin's den of thieves, or whether you're alive to the Royal Academy of Music, or whether you're alive to the House of Commons, or whether you're alive to the House of Lords.

It doesn't matter about that. What's the use of any of that? If you're not alive to God, what's the use of it? Seventy years, we'll see it all through, and then where will you be if you're not alive to God, if you live to be 70?

Very doubtful, the way things are going on. You see, beloved, you and I are to realize that God, above all, in this revelation given in this book, it is that you might be alive in the way that He's alive.

If not, you're dead in the way that He's not dead, and it's a tremendous thing to know this. And then, in this same book, in the next chapter, know this, that primarily, you are alive for this reason.

Loving Christ Above Everything

Fifteen, when they dined, Jesus said to Simon, Peter, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me more than everything, that's really what he was saying, more than these things, and anything, and anybody. There was a fishing boat there, and fish, and there was the seaside, and there was the tan and smell and allurement of the old life, and there were all the other apostles, well, those other apostles that were there.

There was a lovely morning sunrise, there was food, there was a fire, there was everything. But Peter, do you love me more than these? Well, do you or don't you? Because this is the whole purpose of being alive, and you're not alive if you don't.

Now, this is the way you are to test your life. If you don't love the Lord Jesus Christ tremendously, foremost, and in this sense only, if you don't love Him, then you are not alive. For this is the great work of the Holy Ghost in giving you life, it is that you may love Jesus like He does.

The Holy Ghost loves Jesus. Amen. He loved Jesus so much that He's quite content to subject His personality and obliterate Himself so that only Jesus should be seen and known. That's it. Jesus was quite prepared to have Himself obliterated and blotted out, that Father's will may be done.

You see, this is the way it is. If you're really alive, this is what it's all, it's all for love's sake. You're only alive for love's sake, because God loved you and He brought you alive so for love's sake that you could love too.

You understand that? And if you don't, you're not alive. Now, that's a basic, tremendous thing for you to see, and He took old Peter off along the seashore to make sure that Peter loved Him. That's right.

Now, that's what Jesus wants to do tonight. He wants to make sure that you love Him. He puts His finger on the pulse of your being, and your love is your pulse. Don't you realize the blood in the veins of Jesus, that you would have got His pulse from, was all love?

Don't you understand that? It was redeeming love. He laid it down for you to buy you back, and you put the finger on your pulse of everybody there, whether they really love Jesus. Now, whatever you may think about yourself, that's the measure of your spiritual life.

That's your stature. When it talks about in Ephesians, building yourself up to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ, that's your stature. How great a lover are you? That's your stature.

You're just as big as your love. You're no bigger than your love. Amen. That's why God's so great. He's all love, perfect love. Now, this is absolutely important in view of what God has in mind for us all.

Surrendering to Christ’s Will

In this room tonight, God has in mind, perfectly planned and revealed, we'll see it in a moment, He has a certain course of life open for us, and He wants us all to be in it. Now, I'm going to ask you a question here and now.

Look up. Don't look at your Bible and don't do anything now. Look at me. Look at me in the eyes, because I'm asking the question of you. Will you do what Jesus wants you to do? And will you be what Jesus wants you to be?

And will you go the way that the Lord wants you to go? Will you? That's important. It's here, but you can't do it, and you won't do it, and it is impossible for you to do it. However much you may use phraseology and all the doctrinal buttresses that you know, you cannot do this unless you're alive, feelingly alive, unto Jesus with love.

You can't do it. You haven't got it in you, and no mysterious happening that you could wish upon yourself can project you into it. Can't be done. Do you love me, Peter? Do you love me? And when he asked that, he asked this with the whole of Peter's future in his mind.

Let's see it this way. See? Verse 19. He spoke, signifying Peter's death. He was looking forward now to the end of Peter's life, and he said, now, Peter, you're all right. You're the first of the apostles.

You'll do so-and-so, so-and-so, so-and-so, so-and-so, so-and-so, so-and-so, so-and-so, so-and-so. He said, Peter, do you love me? Then you'll be able to achieve this wonderful thing that you're going to lay down your life for me.

I've had to tell you before that you couldn't. Not so far back in John, in that the end of the 13th chapter, he told him, oh, Lord, I'll lay down my life for your sake. He said, you'll deny me three times before the cock crows.

That's what you'll do, Peter. You see? But now he's got this great confession of, he said, Lord, thou knowest all things. Thou knowest that I love thee. Then he told him, then he told him, because you just can't do it.

It can't be done upon good intentions. It can't be done by mustering all your moral courage. It can't be done. Only that if the blessed Holy Ghost has generated you with the life that was laid down on that cross, and now you're living and loving Jesus, and that's all you'll want to do, finally, and in everything, to love Him, and serve Him, live for Him, and die for Him if He doesn't come beforehand.

That's the whole thing. As a matter of fact, really, that's the only moral ground you can come onto. You're completely immoral, if not. You're trying to get salvation upon a false moral premise. Here it is.

Jesus Christ loved me, so loved me, laid down His life for me, but I'm not going to lay down my life for Him, but I want to go to heaven when I die. Do you see what I mean? You're on a false basis. You're not even on a basis that's moral.

Leave alone righteous. This great love of His, He calls forth this. No great pratings, no great boastings, but just this, you know I love you. Jesus knew if He got that, it was all right. Now, that's a tremendous thing, to be vibrantly, wonderfully alive and loving.

Christ’s Great Commission and the Authority to Preach

Now, if you're alive, we'll go to Luke's gospel, shall we? No, we won't. We'll go to Matthew. I think we'll start with Matthew. Most people would start anyway, but we've taken second. And in Matthew's gospel, you will know that this is what took place after Jesus rose from the dead, because that that we've just read in John's gospel took place after Jesus had risen from the dead.

It was the risen Christ that was asking for life, for love. Praise Him. And it's the risen Christ who, in the end of Matthew's gospel, talks like this. Verse 19, or we'll start at 16. The eleven disciples went away to Galilee unto a mountain where Jesus had appointed them.

And when they saw Him, they worshipped Him. But some doubted. And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth. Go ye therefore and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Ghost, teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you.

Lo, I am with you all the days, even until the end of the age. Amen. Praise God. Now, here we have a tremendous thing. The Lord, in verse 18, says this. All authority, that's His word that He's speaking about.

All authority is given unto me. Now, you go into all the world and preach the gospel. It doesn't matter what the world says, it doesn't matter what the world does. Nobody has authority on this earth to stop you preaching the gospel.

Nobody. And if anybody presumes to have it, you ought to defy them. That's what it means in the end. It doesn't matter about what men say. All authority is given to me, says the Lord Jesus Christ. Not to them.

And if they presume to take up some place of authority and say, you're not to preach the gospel here, you're not to listen to them, you're to listen to me. It's all given to me. You got that clear? Well, do you get it clear?

In the depths of your heart, Jesus Christ has given us the right and authority to preach the gospel everywhere. Amen. Mind you, it could cost you your life. It did Peter's because he did it. But he loved the Lord, see.

But we think too much of our necks. We don't do it. Let it sink in. All authority is given unto me. You go into all the world and preach the gospel. Amen. Perhaps you've never thought of it quite like that before.

But this is the tremendous thing that the Lord wants us to understand. That it is our prerogative and our duty to preach the gospel everywhere. Mind you, if you dare to do it, you'll get into trouble.

That's right. But don't worry. You mustn't worry about that. The best thing that could happen to most of us is to get into trouble with men, authorities, on this score. That's the best thing that could happen to us.

But mostly today, you've got a sort of a Christian ethic that's preaching, oh, well, you mustn't make yourself a man, you know. And here comes all the philosophy and the sophistry. Oh, well, if they don't want it, you know.

And you can find a text in scripture to say to come out and brush the dust off your feet, you see. It's quite easy to find a text to be a coward and not be obedient to the Lord. I could find you a lot more beside that.

Jesus said, all authority is given unto me. Listen, in heaven and in earth, praise God. He didn't say it was given to local governments. He says, given to me. May the Lord put this deep down into all our hearts, beloved.

If you were to go and preach this gospel and you were to make disciples of all nations, make disciples of all the nations. He said, well, if I was to preach the gospel where I am, I'd lose my job. Well, that's all right.

Lose it. That job's not worth keeping. Of course, it's not. How are you going to explain that to the Lord? Well, come on, I'd have lost my job. Now, how are you going to explain that to the Lord? Not really.

How are you going to explain that to the Lord? Because Jesus would preach the gospel. They said, shut up. Stop it. They crucified him. He'd rather be nailed on a cross than stop preaching the gospel. They said, if you keep on, we'll crucify you.

You can't do it. Not until my father's hours come. You see, this is the point. You've got to see this. Hallelujah. I know two people, not so long ago, they were with us in Exeter. They got married and went to take a job together, their first job together.

And because they dared to preach the gospel to the men where they were, and these were men that had just come out of prison. It was a Langley House Trust place. They lost their job and their home. They'd only just got married.

Taken this job and the home and the security. When they said, you mustn't do this, they left. Next day. Didn't even stop to work their notice out. His Hebrew. And they were prepared to lose it. All honor to them.

I honor them more than other people who cling to their job above all things and don't care at what cost. Now, beloved, this is the tremendous thing because we're living in days when in certain magazines and in certain circles, this word authority is being talked about a lot.

You know, you see it in the heads of articles, authority. Well, now, my beloved brothers and sisters, you can only get authority from Jesus Christ. And if you won't take your first authority, which is general in scripture, don't you look for a special one?

I know lots of people like this. You find this in all sorts of things. People come to me. I don't know whether you've heard me say this before. I say, Mr. North, what I want to find out is God's will for my life.

And they're on some particular thing about God's will. And I say to them, have you ever really searched the New Testament to find out what is God's will for you? Oh, no. So I say, well, the best thing you can do is to start in Matthew and read right through your New Testament and have a pencil and a paper and write down what it plainly says in the scripture is God's will for your life.

See you get that right. That's everybody's told to do. Then you've got a right to come to God and ask for special guidance. How can you ask God for special guidance when you've ignored what's plainly written in the scripture?

How can you? Tell me how. You must read that New Testament. You understand? How can you go to God for special authorizing in this sort of power realm? We'll come to that in a moment. When you haven't done, you haven't taken your first author authority.

Go and preach the gospel. You need not look beyond the place where you work, I strongly suspect, for a start. I'll live. You see? How cockeyed and topsy-turvy can we get? Because they're going to all the world.

So some says, I've got to catch the first boat to China. You see? You needn't. Just talk to the first person you meet on Monday morning about the Lord. Preach the gospel to them. You needn't bother about anybody else.

I couldn't do that because, well, there you are, you see. Oh, but it's not done. There you are. But Jesus said the authority is given to me, not to him. No matter what he likes or not. The authority is given to me and I'm commanding you.

Are you willing to be commanded? When you talk about authority, there's command. We talk about Jesus being raised above every dominion and power and authority. That's what we say. But nobody's got the slightest intention of going through with it.

Have we? Oh, but I thought you had to sort of pray about it. You say, yes, I suppose you've prayed so long you've spoken to nobody yet. That's the trouble. Go and preach the gospel. Oh dear. Teach all the nations.

Blessed be the name of the Lord. And don't go and teach them denominationalism. I .e., if you're Church of England, don't go and teach them to be members of the Church of England. And if you're Baptist, don't go and teach them to be Baptists.

And if you're Pentecostals, don't go and teach them to be Pentecostals. That's right. You're not to teach the nations to accept westernized ideas of Christianity. You're to teach all nations and make disciples of them.

Make disciples of them all unto Jesus. That's right. Hallelujah. Baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Ghost. Glory. Amen. Into the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Ghost.

That's the Greek of it. That's Amen. And teach them to observe everything that I've commanded you. And lo, I'm with you right to the end of the age. Amen. Oh, now there's your authority. There's your authority, beloved.

That we're to do this. But now we'll go to Luke's Gospel. And in Luke's Gospel, we'll see something further. In this great 24th chapter of Luke, which you will know, is the wonderful chapter of the story of the two on the road to Emmaus and so on.

Very, very wonderful story it is too. He does all kinds of things. He comes and appears to them again when they've got back. And they've been talking about their hearts burning inside them in verse 32.

They said, oh, our hearts burned within us while he talked with us by the way and while he opened to us the scriptures. That's the trouble. Somebody have got lots of people got burning this and burning that while something's going on.

But when it's not going on, it's as cold as ice. You see, marvellous time in the meetings and heart burn all response. You see, this is what the Lord Jesus has come to do away with all that sort of nonsense, spasmodic heart burnings or spasmodic, uh, while there's some good preaching going on, anointed ministries and all this business, the Lord's come to do away with all that.

That they weren't baptised in the spirit. He said, well, I've come to do is to baptise you in the Holy Ghost and fire complete. That's right. Absolutely. Oh, and this takes this, this is a marvellous thing when it happens.

It keeps on all night when you're asleep. It's all right next morning. Keeps on all day. Keeps on all evening. Keeps on. See, not just while, not just while praise the Lord. You see, hearts do not readily accept this and yet somehow we sort of know inside that this is how it ought to be.

Of course it ought. Well, they come back, you see, and they're speaking and Jesus comes and stands in the midst of them in verse 36 and he says, peace be unto you. And they were terrified, terrified. They weren't expecting Jesus to come into their meeting.

That's right. Well, how were they? They've got the locked doors locked to keep everybody out. They weren't expecting Jesus to come into their meeting. And two of them that had burning hearts whilst he, along the way, they, two of them had a marvellous time when he was opening the scriptures to them.

They weren't expecting him. You see, beloved, don't you? The complete impossibility of mankind. Impossible. God's got to do something tremendous with this condition. Let's go on, shall we? They supposedly, they'd seen a spirit.

He said unto them, why are you troubled? And why do thoughts arise in your heart? Behold, my hands and my feet, that it is I myself. Handle me and see. For a spirit hath not flesh and bones as ye see me have.

When he had thus spoken, he showed them his head and his feet. And while they yet believed not, while they yet believed not, for joy, it's surprising the things that can stop you believing, joy. You can have a marvellous enjoyment and still not believe.

Do you see that? That's what your Bible says. Oh, we had a great time. We sung, we banged our tambourines. We had a tremendous time. That's not it. It doesn't matter if you have a fearful time or a joyous time, beloved.

Well, what can I do next? Oh, he says to them, have you got any meat? It's amazing what unbelief will make Jesus do. Jesus never ought to have done this, never ought to have had to have done it. Should have believed.

He only did this because they didn't believe. And he says, got any meat? They gave him a piece of a broiled fish. And he came and he took it and he did eat. And he said unto them, these are the words which I spake unto you while I was yet with you, that all things must be fulfilled, which were written in the law of Moses and in the prophets and in the Psalms concerning me.

Then opened he their understanding that they might understand the scriptures. And said unto them, thus it is written and thus it behoves Christ to suffer and to rise from the dead the third day. And that repentance and remission of sin should be preached in his name among all nations, beginning at Jerusalem.

And you are witnesses of these things. And behold, I send the promise of my father upon you, but tarry ye in the city of Jerusalem until you be endued with power from on high. Now, we're getting a buildup here.

The Enduement of Power from on High

Life, love, authority. But that's not enough until you've had the enduement with power. You've got to have this great enduement of power from on high. That word enduement is simply the Greek word clothing.

All this life, see, and all this love, and all this authority, it's all got to be clothed. The basic life has got to have its clothes on. If you're alive and you're a great lover to do this great work of the Lord and go, then beloved, you must have your enduement, your clothing with power from on high.

And you are not to go until you've got it. That's what he says. Tarry ye, tarry ye. Now, I found that I attempted to do lots of going, lots of preaching, lots of I don't know what, before I had my clothes on.

And virtually, that's what's the trouble. People out in the world naked. It's right. In this great spiritual realm, beloved, the church virtually is found naked. And the devil does this and does that and does the other.

Have I told you this story before? It's come to my mind, so I won't apologize if I repeat it. I had a church, I was at a church in Bradford at one period of my life, and I knew this particular great, big church in the center of Bradford, which isn't pulled down now, though they're pulling down and rebuilding a lot of things in there.

And I knew this instant, but I came up across it, I came across it in London. I was down in London. Some of you will have heard the place at Turner's Hall, heard of the place. And I went there, and there I met quite a few people.

They'd been brought in, they were drug addicts, ex now, by the time they were brought in, drug addicts, and they'd been reached in London. You see, when the full gospel businessmen's international from America came over and took up the Hilton Hotel.

I don't know what else they did. They had some great big meetings in London, and this young man was among a half a dozen that had been reached, and they were centered on Turner's Hall. And I went down at the request of the gentleman that's running the place, and I was talking to these young men, and you know, we're just exchanging things in between a while, and it turned out that they found out I come from Bradford.

So one young man said to me, Bradford? Do you know Bradford? I said, yeah, I know Bradford. So he said, well, I come from Bradford. I said, do you really? Don't ever remember seeing you there, and I've been there for 12 years or more.

He said, yeah, I know. I used to go to this place, this big church in the center of the town, you see. I said, really? He said, yes, and I live at so-and-so told me, the suburb of Bradford where he lived, you see.

I said, oh yeah, I know this very well. Well, I said, and you, a drug addict? He said, yes. So I'll tell you the story. He said, we opened a coffee bar down in the cellar of the church, and I was put in charge of it, and they used to come in, and they came in, and they brought in their drugs, and they peddled their drugs, and he said, I was converted to drugs, who was supposed to be converting them to Christ.

Why? He never knew anything about the endurement of power. He was there without his clothes on. Naked he was. He hadn't any defenses. None at all. None at all. He hadn't even got his clothes on, leave alone armor, and the Bible speaks of what a terrible thing.

He said, do not, do not do anything. Keep your hands off my work until you've been endued with power from me. He says, go in one breath, and then the next he says, wait. Oh, don't wait all your life. It was, they didn't have to wait very long, just a few days.

That's all. God meant it. Christ was in this business. Body, soul, and spirit, nerve, tissue, blood, everything. He was in it. Just tarry, and if you haven't got your powers because you are not in it, he was in it.

In order to clothe you with power from on high, he took your mortal flesh, died your terrible death, bore your damning sins. He was in it utterly in order that you might be able to come to this place and take his place in the world, for he'd come to preach the gospel in one nation.

He said, you ought to go out and preach him in every nation to take his place. You can't do it without his clothing, without your clothing. You've got to be endued with power from on high, and you will know that Acts 1 .8 takes this story out that the Lord stood and said, you shall be baptized in the Holy Ghost not many days hence, and you shall receive the power of the Holy Ghost coming upon you.

That's right. That's what he says, Acts 1 .5 and 8. And they had to wait. Glory be to God, I wish I'd waited. I wouldn't have made such a hash of much of the preaching, testifying, singing, track distributing, preaching at street corners, that I wouldn't have made such a hash.

I hadn't got my clothing. I was told I was saved to serve, and that's it. I wasn't told I was saved to get clothed with power and be head over heels in love with Jesus. I wasn't never told that. I was told of his great love to me.

It was wonderful. No wonder he did love me. No wonder he still does, but he does. He's that kind of Jesus. That's who he is. But beloved, it's a wonderful thing that you can be clothed with this power from on high.

Ascension, Gospel Power, and Costly Obedience

Amen. He led them out as far as Bethany, and he raised his hands with blessing. And the last thing they saw of him, he was caught up with his hands outstretched in blessing. And some people think because they get this blessing, that's all right.

They get one blessing, and they get another blessing. They talk about a second blessing, and a third blessing, and I don't know what. But that wasn't their endowment with power. Just because you get blessed by the Lord, the risen, ascended Lord doesn't mean to say that you've got your clothes on.

Understand it well. He just loves to bless. How can he do anything else but bless people? That is nature. Because you get blessed doesn't mean to say that you're in the right position. That's how he keeps on drawing you in.

And when you get blessing from the Lord, you should say, I'm going to have more. You need more than blessing, brother and sister. You need power. Power from on high. This gospel preaching has got to be with power.

Listen to one of the mighty preachers. I'm not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, he says. It's the power of God. I'm the salvation. That's the gospel. The gospel's the power. And if you haven't got the power, you haven't got the gospel, and if you haven't got the power in you, you've never preached it yet.

Never. The gospel's the power. Amen. You should be endued with power. Gospel power. Preaching power. Going power. You just don't go because all authority is given unto Jesus in heaven and earth. You can only go because under that authority, he tells you, do you've got to have power from on high.

Amen. Then you can go, glory be to the name of the Lord. Then he can let you go north pole or south pole. Doesn't matter where you go. Doesn't matter, he might even let you go to Russia and live in a labor camp and die there.

Would you like to do that for him? You see, what we want is to go where we can. Yeah, we do, don't we? You see? I must confess too, I've had an invitation to go to India. If they'd said come to Siberia and live in a labor camp, I reckon I'd have given it a lot deeper thought.

I hope I would have been found worthy. See, this is the tremendous thing, beloved. These people loved not their life unto the death. But if you love his life and you've got his life and you're loving him, you see, and you're listening to him and he says all authority is given to me, not communism.

And you go and you go there and you finish up. It's not a very comfortable position. Instead of a nice comfortable house like Rora or 23 Belmont Road, 25. You see, this is the tremendous thing. I know a young lady, you know her.