Nicky Cruz Testimony — Nicky Cruz

The Grace of Jesus Christ Transforms a Violent Life

On me slap me and said go to hell. I Remember this. I Remember stretching forth the finger to Nicky Cruz. Said Nicky God loves you and he's going to get you. This is one young man. Has the touch of God picked out of the gutter to come to Pittsburgh.

Tell you of the grace of Jesus Christ and Every time I hear Nicky tell what God has done for him. I have to sit and weep. Because I remember when he stood with a cigarette hang out of his mouth and a pistol in his pocket and hating the whole world and Jesus Manifested his grace.

Nicky and Jeff Morales is interpreter. Nicky Cruz my co-worker. I Don't know what's going to happen tonight. I will only wait upon the Holy Spirit. I trust in the Holy Spirit tonight all of the glory Is going to belong to God.

God is jealous of his glory. No one else can take this glory. Six months ago. I went to New York University Exposes the head of Calabasa any convention and there they asked me to speak about my salvation.

I'll be a psychiatrist. There were Psychiatrists. They had gathered together to see what had happened to me. Yes, I said, you know and as the meeting was progressing. It's a little bit. It's a wrap. I had a short while with them.

It doesn't say that I don't think the other then one of them stood up and then he said and asked me this. Vamos a poner el poder de Dios a un lado. Let us take the power of God and put it aside. Vamos a poner el poder de Dios a un lado al hermano David Wilkerson.

Let's take brother David Wilkerson and put him aside for a while. Vamos a ponerlo ahora a nosotros. And let us think about ourselves. Empezaron a analizar el problema. They began to analyze the problem that I had.

Está en condición que este psiquiatra me dice. And then a psychiatrist asked me. Ya que hemos puesto a Dios a un lado. Now that we have put God aside. Hemos puesto la religión a un lado. We have put religion aside.

Hemos puesto Reverendo Wilkerson a un lado. We have put Reverend Wilkerson aside. Que si yo, what if I. Paso hace o pasare por ese lugar. Went by that place where you were at. Y tu que estuviera andando Otra vez de la ganga and let's pretend that you were with the gang again.

Yo fuera donde te. If I went to you y te dijera Nikki yo te amo and said to you Nikki. I love you. Que reaccion tu tuvieras acerca de mi? What would have been your reaction and what would you have thought about me?

Y delante de la asamblea le dije. And before that assembly I said to him. La primera reacción que yo tuviera en esta noche. My first reaction at the time would have been. Que usted era un homosexual. That you would be a homosexual.

Porque tiene que ser un amor de Dios. Because the only thing that can change a man is the love of God. El amor de Dios es positivo The love of God is positive. Y por eso yo digo que esto no es cosa de hombre.

That is why I say that this is not something that belongs to man. Esto esta completamente en el bautismo del amor de Dios This rests only upon the baptism of the love of God. Que cambie, transforma That changes and transforms.

Coge el odio Takes hate. Lo bautiza con amor And baptizes it and turns it into love. Y por eso fue que se cayó el hombre. And that's why that man had no other alternative but to sit down and be quiet.

A Broken Puerto Rican Home and the Roots of Hatred

Años, muchos años atrás Many years ago. Yo vengo de un hogar puertorriqueño I was living, I come from a Spanish, a Puerto Rican home. Un hogar el cual estaba completamente destruido A home which was completely destroyed.

Donde estaba el poder del enemigo Where there was only the power of the enemy. Un hogar donde mi padre A home where my father. Como la cabeza principal de aquel hogar As the head of that home. El era un director de espiritismo Was living at the time as a director in spiritualism.

Mi padre lo que conducía era asamblea My father was the director of different assemblies. My mother was a medium And could also read the fortune in the card. She would say the person's good or bad fortune.

This was her philosophy. Que nunca le echaría la suerte de la baraja a sus propios hijos That she would never read the fortune for any one of her children. Y en ese entonces yo tenía 17 hermanos And at that time I had 17 brothers.

Y una hermana And one sister. Eso era para yo hacer otra ganga This was my gang. Y recuerdo que a la edad de 8 años I can remember at the age of 8. Recibí el primer choque I received my first shock. Cuando entré jugando con una bolita When I walked into my home Playing with a small ball in my hand.

Entonces en mi hogar había visitas And there were guests in my home. Y una señora así mismo señaló el dedo And the lady as I walked in pointed her finger. Y como yo me parecía a mi mamá And because I looked so much like my mother.

Entonces dijo su hijo se parece a usted She said your son looks just like you. Y mi madre allí mismo And my mother right there. Me dijo este no es mi hijo Said this is not my son. Nunca lo he aceptado como hijo He has never been my son.

Ni nunca lo he amado como hijo And I have never loved him as such. Corrí de aquel momento y me metí al cuarto I ran at that time and went into my room. Me tiré en la cama I laid down on my bed. Y allí empecé a llorar And there I began to weep.

Empecé a llorar I cried En una forma que no podía contenerme And it was so that I could not contain myself. Pasaron las horas Hours passed by. Y entonces me levanté And then I got up. Ya no era el mismo Nicky Then I was not the same Nicky.

Ya no era el hijo de mi madre I was not the son of my mother. Ya era una persona diferente I was a completely different person. Me levanté de allí con odio I got up from there with hate. Miraba a mi madre y lo que yo veía era el infierno I looked at my mother and what I saw was hell.

Y en el mismo instante allí me oí la odio There instantly I said to myself I hate her La odio I hate her. Y así se lo repetí muchas veces There I repeated to myself I hate her. Y aunque me pegaron And even after she beat me Allí todavía yo decía la odiaba I continued to yell I hate you.

Aquella fue la primera And there was the first time. Y la última vez que lloré And the last time that I wept. Hasta que vine el Señor Jesucristo Until I met the Lord Jesus Christ. Y seguía así y ya no podía contenerme There I continued on my road Being unable to contain myself.

Y miebla cubría aquel hogar Darkness covered that home. Mis hermanitos tenían miedo My brothers were afraid. Y luego que ya estaba un poquito más grande Quise venirme para Nueva York Then when I grew older I decided to come to New York.

Aunque era menor Even though I was a minor Tuve que venir así en el avión I came to New York by myself By plane. Cuando llegué a Nueva York Tan solamente estaba ahí When I arrived to New York I was completely alone I just stood there by myself.

Y entonces mi hermano fue el único que me pudo ayudar But one brother of mine Was the only one who came for me. Pero yo no podía acostumbrarme Al ambiente de mi Señor But I was not able to be with my brother.

Homelessness and Recruitment into a Gang

Entonces empecé a caminar por las calles So I began to wander again. Empecé a dormir en los parques I began to sleep in parks. En los subways En la azotea On rooftops. En los lugares donde podía yo acostarme Anywhere where I was able to lay down.

Muchas veces estaba pasando la ciudad Many times I would just wander around the city. Estaba durmiendo día y noche I would be walking day and night. Según la condición en la cual no podía estar tranquilo It was such a condition that I couldn't be alone or still.

Tenía que meterme en los restaurantes I had to go into restaurants. Y cuando estaba en los restaurantes While I was sitting there Allí mismo comía apresuradamente I would order a meal and eat quickly.

Y esperaba que estaba todo ocupado And then as soon as I saw everybody busy Salía corriendo para afuera I would run out the door without paying. Ya eso era todos los días This was happening every day.

Ya estaba visitando todos los restaurantes en Nueva York I had visited almost every restaurant in New York. En una condición And it was so En que yo estaba todo confundido That I was completely confused.

Pero una noche yo estaba One night I was standing Parado en esta esquina On a street corner. Vino este muchacho y me dice. A fellow came to me and said Esta noche lo mamó Chaplin Tonight the mamó Chaplin Toda la ganga The whole gang Se va a reunir Is going to gather Para tener un buen baile.

And we're going to have a big dance. Y este baile van a estar muchachos Y van a estar muchachos. And in this dance There's going to be a lot of girls and guys. Yo conociera que tu fueras conocer. And I would like for you to go and meet the boy And I want you to meet the leader.

I accepted the invitation. Then at about 7 .30 I began to walk. And he took me into a dark place. And as we walked I noticed that there were no lights. Then we went into a hallway. He opened the door And I thought I would see lights then.

But then it happened That all I could hear was a phonograph And footsteps. And as I walked in I began to stumble. And it was that boys and girls were laying on the floor Drunk and high. They were petting heavily on the floor.

They were smoking marijuana Yelling. All of them were completely disordered. And because I was in darkness This did not bother me at all. And I went into their gathering. They invited me to join the gang.

The leader said we need one more fellow. Would you like to be in the gang? I said give me three days to think about it. In those three days I will be able to tell you if I'm going to be in the gang or not.

So I began to think. Three days later I remember I walked into this place. When I walked in the leader said to me welcome. Then he said to me if you're going to join you're going to have to go through one of two initiations.

You're going to have to accept one of these two initiations. The first one he said. The leader himself said these words. I'm going to take a switchblade into my hand. And you're going to have to stand up against the wall.

You can't move in any direction. So I would have to stand there with my hands at my side stiffly awaiting. He would face me directly And walk away from me twenty paces. As he counted from nineteen to twenty.

He would throw the knife at me. The knife pierced my body. Automatically. I would be a member of the gang. If not I would still be a member of the gang. But the idea was to go through this terrible ordeal.

The second initiation. Five of the strongest fellows. Once again put me up against the wall. And there they would beat me. Until I fell to the floor unconscious. I decided to accept the second initiation.

They put me up against the wall. They began to beat me left and right. The impact of the fists on my face was hard. I could feel the impact upon my chest. I was on my feet only for about five minutes.

I wasn't able to take it anymore. I was bleeding from my nose and my mouth. I was weak. I lost my breath. I fell to the floor. And there I lay unconscious. They picked me up. Put me into a car Dropped me off in a dark alley.

The next morning I awoke. My body was aching Black and blue all over. And then a committee came and said to me. Now you're a member of the gang. And they gave me a welcome A reception. So because I was a beginner I thought that this would be something That I would have to give everything to.

Gang Violence, Crime, and a Heart Filled With Evil

The first time I went for a hold up. We got all mixed up. It was a detective. And we surrounded him. He fell to the floor unconscious. We began to search his pocket. We stumbled upon his badge. It was a detective.

The gun which he had Was a .38 caliber. This was the weapon that I kept. And I thought that this was something very easy. Many times we would run into other gangs. Sometimes 200, sometimes 150. We would begin to do everything.

You could see Nicky running around Shooting his revolver left and right. I thought I was a cowboy. And I began to get into all of these acts completely. I began to see a lot of violence. I began to join into the violence.

I began to join into torture. Already my heart had become completely Filled with evil Filled with hate. I hated the police. In the year 1957 We declared war against the police department. We began to shoot at them with our weapons.

We began to throw garbage cans at them. We would wait for them to be alone. We would throw stones at them. All of these things because we hated the police. And I can remember once. Two months later I became the vice president of this gang.

My name was becoming popular. I began to go in and out of jail. In jail I would say to myself I want to change. But this is something that when Satan introduces himself In such a profound way into a person's heart There is no human mind.

There is no medicine upon this earth That can heal the sickness of the heart. Because the heart is the most foolish of all things. And I can remember that this began to bring about repercussions. I saw blood.

Many times I joined in that. Many times very sadly I had to say tonight. We would take boys. Put them up against the wall. And someone would hold his head. About five of us. We would hold just the end of the blade.

And we would slowly drive it into the bar Pull it in and out very slowly. The eyes of that boy were wide and big. He was completely horrified. And it was so that we would do this. If it was a necessity.

It seemed to be a satisfaction. It seemed to be a thrill. And then as we were doing this We would take him. We would take him into a dark spot. In the cellar maybe. There we would tie him. We would start smoking.

We would take the lit cigarettes in our hands. We would burn the eyebrows. So we would begin to burn the body. And all these things And many more Began to have an effect In me so that it was a horrible conflict.

It seemed like I was in a shut world. A world which I hated And in which there was no way out for me. I remember one night With five other boys We went and got drunk. I hardly ever drank. It was so that whenever I went to a fight I was completely sober and conscious.

Because this was not my philosophy. Getting drunk so that later I would get beat. I went there to fight. And I lived every minute that passed. So I wasn't able to walk. New York in peace. I was always on guard looking everywhere.

I was afraid that someone would stab me in my back. I was afraid that someone would shoot at me. But I can remember that as we were walking We met this gang. So it turned out that I was already too drunk And it was hard for me to see.

And one boy began to fight. Then the whole gang joined in And there was only five of us. There was a pipe beside me. So I grabbed it and I began to beat left and right. Everyone I could see and hit. I would grab garbage cans to protect myself.

And there I was in the midst of the battle. But then I decided that I wanted to get out. I began to walk towards the boy That was coming to me with a knife in his hand. But then I fell to the floor. When I fell to the floor.

Well, why should I continue to tell you I had a lot of hair then. So that's why you see I have such little bit hair So I won't look the same. They grabbed me by my hair. They dragged me for about a block distance.

They kicked me so badly That my face was completely swollen. They beat me with sticks And did everything they could to me. And only one fellow Got into the thing With a pistol. So they ran and he picked me up from the floor.

And this boy's name was Israel. There he took me And unconscious as I was They took me to my house. I want to tell you that when I awoke I was not able to walk. I took a stick And I used it as a cane.

Revenge and the Public Attack

I got to the project. I said to the gang Tonight we are going to fight. Tonight we are going to take vengeance. They all accepted. Another gang joined us. The hell burners. This gang got together. And I said to one of their fellows You take me on a bicycle.

I can't run. I'm going to go into the block. And when I get into the block The first one we see we are going to beat. We began to walk into the neighborhood two by two. About 150 boys were there with me.

We began to walk in two by two. We surrounded the whole block completely. I had my pistol in my possession. I said to one of the boys You walk with me. I began to walk. I was looking up to the rooftop All around me because I was afraid That someone might shoot at me.

Then a fellow began to walk towards me. And as he walked towards me I want to say That when he got real close to me I struck him. He fell to the floor. And then all of the gangs Began to yell out their names.

They began to strike everyone in that area. Boys and girls, everybody. A policeman was standing in a corner And he began to run. And so the fight was on. They began to fire their revolvers. This fellow that I had struck And was laying on the floor.

About 20 or 25 Gathered around him And began to kick him. He was already unconscious But still they continued to beat him. His eyes were bulging out of his head. He was in a puddle of blood. You know what was my satisfaction?

It was a diabolical satisfaction. I took blood from the puddle And I began to rub it upon my shirt. I began to laugh Strongly. I think that I was possessed by demons. And this is how the story began. Fight here Fight there.

We would break into cars and steal them. We would drive with them into the area That we were going to fight in. There as soon as we walked out of the car We began to shoot our revolvers. And as we went past The shots that we fired No one knew what was the effect that they caused.

Later in the newspapers You could see it in the headlines. I remember one night I was away from my home. It wasn't my home. It was a small furnished room And the gang was looking for me. Then two cars came With members of this other gang.

And they sat waiting for me From eight o 'clock in the morning With three rifles in the car. They were waiting for me To walk out of that building To stick my head out of the window. But I wasn't home that night.

And that's why I believe that God protected me. Because I always left there at the same time. And I want to say that As all these things were going on The problem kept on getting bigger and bigger. The suffering was much greater.

I thought that the word love did not exist. I thought that love was my hurting other. This was my satisfaction. And even my own brother I tried to kill him three times. One time I stole a car. My brother accused me before the police.

They put me in jail. There in jail I began to plan. These plans were how I was going to come home And take care of my brother. I wanted to kill him. I can remember at about three o 'clock In the morning They set me free.

All that was in my mind was diabolical. I had everything planned for my brother. As I started to walk in the door I took my shoes off. I tiptoed into the kitchen. I took a knife And I came close to where my brother was at.

I pulled the sheet off of his body. I put my hands over his mouth And as I raised up the knife My brother awoke And he grabbed me. And I thought he was going to fight me. But no, he did not want to fight me.

And he was hugging me. And I said, what's the matter with you? What's the matter with you? Why are you this way? What has the world done to you? Then I began to beat my head against the wall. I began to yell horribly.

It was so menacing That I almost destroyed myself. And there I lay unconscious in peace. A peace which was only temporary. And I wasn't able to call peace. It dawned. And then I was again back in the same old state.

I couldn't even sleep in peace. Because I would have nightmares. And all of these things kept on adding up And creating a tremendous conflict within me. When brother David Wilkerson Came from the country.

David Wilkerson Brings the Message of God's Love

He didn't know my language. He didn't know the way we conducted ourselves. I don't know, but I think he came from a very small place in the country. He wasn't like David, the son of. But he came from the country.

But the first impression Was when he went to court. And he was thrown out. No one knew the mystery behind this And what it caused. Except the gangs themselves. Because the gangs hated the police. And I remember when I looked at the paper and I saw him.

On the first page I was there weeping. But I never in my life imagined That this same man would come to me personally And present to me the love of God. When he walked into the police station There he asked for permission.

They told him, you can't go into that territory. No one can control that gang. They're going to kill you. We can't be responsible for anything. You go, you're going to go at your own risk. Whatever happens, you look for it.

Let me tell you, everything had been planned by the power of God. Because when he came and stood on that corner There was only another man with him. He played the trumpet. And David sang David, forgive me, but he couldn't sing too good.

But still he attracted a congregation. And so they gathered. In the beginning I stood there for about five minutes. I said, this is not for me. I don't believe in this kind of stuff. And so I went someplace else.

And there I was with the rest of the boys. And we were talking and carrying on. But then David walked in. And when he walked in, he wanted to meet Israel and me. Israel was very polite. He's always believed that you have to use diplomacy.

And so when David approached me to shake my hand I struck him, I spit at him. I said, I don't want to know anything about God. Go to hell. And there, angry I began to walk away from him. And there he pointed at me.

He said, Nicky Jesus loves you. And it ended. Then as I walked out of the door angry Was when the Holy Spirit took over. Then those words began to spin around in my mind. Jesus loves you. Jesus loves you.

I wasn't able to sleep. I couldn't even take a round. Still I would like one cigarette after the other. Time passed by. It was gone already and here comes David with Israel In a car. And the first thing I think Jesus loves you.

I couldn't conceive in my heart. How can God love me. How can these things change me. There was a conflict in my mind. And this was. How can this man expect That I change in a minute. Then I would look at myself in my own imagination.

And I would look at myself and say Nicky changed into an angel. Nicky is very still. Nicky doesn't do anything. Nicky is a nice boy. I couldn't conceive this. I couldn't realize this. I couldn't understand How I was going to be an angel Without a tool.

And I said to him I don't believe that God can change me. I remember the many problems I had. And the psychiatrist that took care of me. The court assigned the psychiatrist. He was going to take care of me and examine me Before sentencing.

Because I had been to the judge for three times Prior to this. He ordered the psychiatrist to examine me. This psychiatrist was driving me crazy. It was so that I couldn't even understand him. At eight o 'clock in the morning He took me to Bear Mountain.

There he said I'm going to psychoanalyze you. And I'm going to know what's your problem. This problem we're going to take to court To see if you're sane or not. And he gave me a piece of paper. He gave me a pencil.

Then he said to me Draw what I'm going to tell you to draw. He said draw a tree. So I drew a tree. So he'd be happy. I even drew a bird on it. Then he said Draw a house. So I drew a house. Then he said draw a woman.

I just sat there and looked at her. What do you think. I don't like women. So I'm going to draw a woman for you. And I drew the woman. Then he took the paper and the pencil from me. And he just looked at me.

He said Something has to be going on here. Either you're crazy or I'm crazy. I don't think there's anything wrong with you. This man had me tired already. Maybe because of my records in jail. He was able to know my life.

Maybe he knew all I was. Maybe he knew everything about me. But he couldn't give me an answer. And that answer was for the biggest illness in me. That I was a sinner. That I needed something more powerful.

That my need was spiritual. Then he took me back to his office. He said I'm going to see if you love your country. Or it is that there is a racial conflict. That there's something wrong with you. And you have a racial conflict.

I'm going to take you out to sea. And pretend that I'm with you. And there all around you there's water. Then the ship begins to sink. So that boat is saved. And all these nationalities are saved. And for this ship not to sink.

And all these nationalities within the ship. Not to drown. One has to jump into the water. First came the Mexican. He said I'm going to do this for Mexico. For the bull fight. I said don't tell me any stories.

Let me take over and say it. I'm going to talk about a Peruvian. So the Peruvian says I'm going to die for Peru. He jumped into the water. Then I said even a Uruguayan. He jumped into the water too. So he died for Uruguay.

He said well what about you. Everybody's jumping off but you. I said just wait a minute. And I raised my hands up. I said Puerto Rico. The land which I love. The island of enchantment. You that are so beautiful.

And compared for the rock that you are. I'm going to compare you with a pearl. For you I'm going to take this psychiatrist Who's got me sick. And I'm going to dump him into the sea. I said this is no problem.

You don't have to analyze my life. He said get out of here. Get out of here. Then when David spoke to me about the love of God This really had an effect in my mind. The first invitation he gave me for the St. Nicholas Arena I accepted and I took the boys with me.

The Gospel Invitation and the Battle Before Conversion

And I want to tell you that as soon as we walked in I felt nothing. During the service I felt nothing. So I said to him very clearly I don't feel anything. I can't believe in this. This is too fast. But I want to tell you that days passed by.

I didn't go back to the service. To the rally that he was holding Was going to end on a Saturday. That Saturday we were supposed to go for a fight. We were going to fight the strongest gang in Brooklyn.

We had been fighting this gang already for about 15 years. What we were thinking of was either destroying them. Or they would destroy us. That Saturday we were going to go there at 7 o 'clock. Everything was ready and the gang was going to wait for us there.

And then when we would get to this place The fight would begin. We had all kinds of weapons. We had rifles. We had shotguns. We had hand-made zip guns. We had switchblades. We had clubs with snails protruding.

We had garrison belts. We had all kinds of weapons. Swords, bayonets Kerosene bombs. Everything. And I want to tell you that at about 6 .30 I got all nervous. I was so nervous that I wasn't able to resist this nervousness.

Then in my mind came the thought Tonight I'll die. Tonight someone is going to kill you. Tonight is your last night. My soul shook. Then I was restless. I said to a fellow Tonight is going to be the last night for me.

Tonight something is going to happen. I'm afraid that tonight someone is going to kill me. Then the fellow said to me I feel the same way. So then I said Why don't we go and listen to this new skinny preacher.

See what's going to happen. So he had sent some buses. We went. This is the night that I want to describe to your heart. I'm praying that the Lord will inspire me at this time To see if I can make this as realistically as possible.

How it was this night. When we walked into this place we were smoking. The girls were already cursing Blaspheming. They began to mess around. They were wearing their shorts. They began to bother everybody.

We walked in. They sat us right up in front. When they sat us down The songs I noticed were tremendous. Something was moving me. I want to tell you that when this began It was so precious. Then they told me to collect the offering.

Then they said take five of the boys. Then I got up and went right up to the front. There was an exit to the side. The people were coming up to bring their money. The temptation was great. I saw that door and it looked beautiful.

And all I had to do was run right out of it. I want to say that while they were bringing up the money We had to go around the back So that we could give David the offering. Then one of the boys While he was alone Took his hand Into the basket and took some of the money Before he was able to put it into his pocket.

He didn't know that I was right behind him. I grabbed his hand And put that money back in there. This is going to be your cemetery right here. Then he put the money right back into the basket And said let me see how much you've got in your pocket.

And I remember he had about 23 dollars in his pocket And a few cents. And said put that money in there too And give it for the offering. Then I sat down. And it was so That as the message began It began to have an impact within me.

The message was about the love of God. It was about John 3 .16. And then as he began to say the verse Inspired by the power of the word Was when I came to a conclusion. There were two ways for me there.

I would have to choose one of the two. So I was afraid. There a battle began. That battle was strong and great. And there was conceit And in my mind The devil was putting thought Don't go up there. You've got a lot of enemies.

Your gang is going to turn their back on you. They're not going to back you up anymore. You're real good in with them. You do what they say. You give them order. Then it was a tremendous battle. But then the Holy Spirit was there also.

Jesus loves you. Jesus loves you. I wasn't able to resist it. So I walked up to the altar. While I was kneeling there at the altar I didn't know how to pray. I didn't even know how to talk. And there while I was kneeling I was looking up towards the ceiling.

I said there is no hope. I don't think I can change. I can't believe that a miracle is going to happen. But I'm going to tell you That when Brother David Wilkerson came downstairs And he began to pray with me.

Then like a picture I could see My life from the age of about eight. The condition in my home. The things that happened to me in the gang. The crimes that had happened. My friends dying in my own arms.

The Holy Spirit Gives a New Heart and a New Life

I want to tell you that right there The boys were around me. It was a shame for me to weep. I couldn't resist myself. My chest was wide as nails. I wasn't able to breathe. I knew something was happening.

I wanted to control myself. I didn't want to shed tears I didn't want to weep. But I want to say That the burden was so heavy And sin was so heavy That I wasn't able to do anything else But to weep and cry out to God And say God If you are love If it's true that what this creature is saying That you are love and that you are God Let me feel you right now within me.

Then right there I felt the Holy Spirit of God That came within my body Into my weak body Gave me strength. And it was so strong That even within my belly And within my heart I felt something. And it was the revolution Cleaning and making me new.