Building the House of God - Trials Anger and Victory Part 1 — Phil Beach Jr.

Okay, we're ready is that on Praise the Lord. Okay last week We had a technical difficulty with our tape and we had almost almost everyone requested tapes. And unfortunately, we couldn't provide them last week because of a technical difficulty so I'm going to just very briefly cover the main faults of last week because Many have asked if it was possible and so we're going to do that but let's bow our hearts before the Lord and let's just ask his enabling and his Holy Spirit to be present as his word goes forth father.

We indeed are thankful today because once again, we sense your presence we sense your love and I Suppose both wonderfully and fearfully. We sense you're purging. We sense your desire for people. Where the heart has been purged and cleansed.

Not just a judicial standing but in experience so that our motives and the very intense of our heart have been cleansed from selfish ambition and envy and strife and from caring chiefly about ourselves and Making a transition by the power of grace where we no longer care about Ourself in a selfish way but the drive of our heart is Concerned for your name for your honor to please you.

So that you can be satisfied your kingdom can grow your name can be glorified. And we don't consider the cost that it might incur upon us. Because we see the cost that you paid and everything else seems insignificant.

Trials Reveal God's Omnipotence and Love

Father, please Take your word today write it deeply into our heart and Use it to change us and transform us. We pray in Jesus mighty name. Amen, and amen. The building of the house of God. Anger trials and victory.

Anger trials and victory. How many here can honestly say before God that You are consciously aware of being in the midst of some kind of trial or test. I Think probably every hand can go up some kind of a test before God.

Beloved listen, you have got to believe in the love of God when you're going through a trial. You've got to believe in the presence of an omnipotent God. That's a big word. Omnipotent, you know what it means, right?

It simply means Someone who is it's okay carry. No problem listen. Omnipotent means someone who is sitting on the throne of authority and has everything under control. Do you believe that now listen. Job believed that Theologically until God picked a fight With the devil and Job happened to be the subject of the fight you know, it was God who picked it and God brought Job to the place in Job 42 you don't have to turn there, but I just want to mention this because this is what God is after Job 42 and this is what the Lord is wanting to Give us this morning.

Job 42 verse number 2. This is what Job said. I know I know that thou can't do Everything now listen carefully listen carefully. When you look at what's going on in the world? You readily and I readily can say well, I know God can do anything he wants.

Right. We don't have a problem doing that doing well. God can do anything. God is all-powerful. We hear about reports of Whatever might be happening in the nations of the world. Well, praise God the Lord is omnipotent.

He can do anything but this confession that Job confessed Went way beyond a simple Acknowledgement of a man saying there is a God in heaven who can do anything. This acknowledgement that Job declared in Job 42 to Touches the very center of his heart and this is what he's really saying.

Now I know That God Can do anything He wants In me and To me we don't have a problem When God exercised his his omnipotence somewhere out there somewhere in the world but when suddenly we Find ourself in the center of a fiery Trial the very depths of our heart is tested and we realize Because of God's love that we have a real big problem With God being omnipotent when his omnipotence touches us.

Casting Our Cares Upon the Lord

This is why God wants to teach us the security of his love. Now last week we briefly mentioned that the Bible tells us in first Peter chapter 5. First Peter chapter 5 verse 7 Casting all your care upon him for he careth for you.

We learned that It is utterly essential that we learn To cast our care upon the Lord and that casting our care upon the Lord is Learning how to communicate with the Lord learning how to talk to him. Learning how to tell him about our anxieties about our fears about our joys about our sadness about our frustrations about our pain it listen if we don't communicate to the Lord and Learn to tell him What's going on on the inside?

I think as a father I have said more times to my daughters Than anything else tell me what's going on on the inside. Talk to me as we mentioned last week I heard a statistic that suggested that Those who are engaging in Violent crimes are those who have never had someone in their life that they were able to unload their anxieties on their thoughts their fears their struggles they never felt connected to someone and Consequently they went through life all bottled up all bottled up and When the Holy Spirit leads Peter to say cast all your cares upon him for he cares for you.

That is not just that's not just a theological statement that's the Holy Spirit trying to tell you and I the church that our God in heaven is a father a loving father and There's a loving father. He Invites us to come and tell him what's going on tell him Cast your care cast your burden on him.

We have to we have to go beyond the idea that we can only come to God when we feel good as If as if the Lord is is is willing to accept us when we can come to him Talking about our victory and our faith and how well we feel we're doing and how Thankful we are that God has blessed us and everything's going well, but then when God in his sovereign Omnipotence begins to allow us to go through a fiery trial and let me tell you when you go through a fiery trial.

The wind is going to be taken out of your sails. You're going to stumble you're going to fall you're going to realize you don't have what you thought you did. Your wisdom Will fail you. Your strength will fail you.

Your understanding will fail you. Your love will fail you your friends will fail you. The thing that you look to other than God will fail you and you will find your feelings rising up within you frustration fear anger Confusion perplexity pain.

But it's then it's right in the midst of that that the Holy Spirit and the Word of God says Cast your care upon him talk to him. Oh, I can't talk to him now. I feel miserable you see we've been we've been seduced into thinking that our coming to God and our sharing our heart with him is Contingent upon being able to come and say good exciting positive things and so we tend to Close up inwardly when our life starts shaking.

Vulnerability, Accountability, and Spiritual Healing

Not only do we tend to do that with God we tend to do it with one another. Don't we some people are more Obviously prone to do this than others, but I think human nature the way it is Tends to draw away When We're subject to a fiery trial.

Please listen, please listen to the Holy Spirit if you Tend to draw away. When you're going through a difficulty you tend to clam up. You tend to draw away. You are not casting your care upon the Lord.

You're bearing it and if you bear your burden and You draw away from the Lord and draw away from the ones that God has brought into your life. You are setting yourself up To walk down a road that will spiritually hurt you and hurt others.

The Bible says cast your care upon him. The Bible says bear one another's burdens and so fulfill the law of Christ, but I don't want to Come to you when I'm down and now I only want to come to you when I feel like everything's going well.

That's the temptation within the heart. But when I'm going through a trial and I feel under the weather, I'm gonna avoid people. I'm gonna run. I'm gonna this is what Adam did. He he was subject to a test and in the midst of the test he failed.

And that's what James is talking about when he says when you're when you're being tested. Let no man say God is tempting me to sin. The The way the Bible falls together is remarkable, but that's what Adam did.

He was subject to a test and he failed. What did he do? In his failure. Did he cry out? Oh God. Oh God here. I am I'm ashamed. But I'm here God. Look at me. Look at me in my shame God. No, what did he do?

He hid himself he he hid himself and he covered himself and he and he and he withdrew and he Internalized all of his struggles. He didn't cast his care on the Lord. He ran from the Lord. And what did God do.

He initiated a conversation with Adam he said Adam, where are you Adam? What happened Adam tell me now now did God ask questions because he didn't have the answers. Of course not. God was immediately reacting to that Destructive pattern that sin brings to us.

When we sin we withdraw we close up. We hide we cover ourself and if we live in that state we commit spiritual suicide. We dry up spiritually. But we need the power of grace to break that power because without grace.

That's what every one of us will do. How many have found out that you have the tendency in your life. When you blow it to withdraw. Every one of us this should be touching us in the depths because all of us.

Maybe with the exception of the younger ones here. All of us have are old enough to know that this is. This is not only what God's Word teaches. This is what life teaches. We learn this after we live a while.

And in that state in that state We're not casting our care before the Lord. We're not rolling another place. It says in Psalm 37 Roll your burden on the Lord and he will sustain you. Now the question is this why do we do that?

Why do we do that? Why why when we fail or when we're in the midst of a trial and we don't like the way we feel and how many? Have found it when you're in the midst of the trial. Sometimes people get on your nerves.

You just don't want to deal with people. I'm going through a fire right now, and I just don't want to deal with people. The Christina doesn't have that problem. I'm glad I'm the father of five girls and two sons.

And I often joke and say someday. I'm gonna write a book and I'm gonna entitle it. I survived. I survived and It will be a bestseller. Guys And girls are different but in our differences we're all from the same mold Adam and therefore in our diversity, we're very much alike and I've tried from the very beginning with my daughters and now with my older son I've tried to help them understand the need to talk.

To communicate to share their struggle and as a father I've always tried to say talk to me tell me what's going on. Don't be afraid. Don't be ashamed but this is Generally what I get. I Don't want to talk about it.

Okay. But I want you to talk about it. But I don't want to. I don't want to talk about it and see there's that Tendency to want to internalize and keep things inside. Now the reason why that's not good is because that's what if we're doing that with one another.

That's what we're doing with the Lord. We need to learn to communicate. And so I've tried to help them see the need to communicate the need to Talk to share with their mom their dad the things they're going through their struggles their fears their their anxieties their confusions and and and whatever it is and we can lay it out on the table and and you don't have to bear that Burden alone and then we can begin to pray about it and go to God's Word and God will begin to speak to us.

And he'll begin to give us peace. We might not get all the answers. We might not figure everything out, but at least you can get peace in the midst of what you're going through. See that's that's the depths of this whole idea of cast your care upon the Lord.

This isn't this is a very necessary foundation. When when God entrusts you with a trial and you haven't learned to cast your burden on the Lord. You are going to be in big trouble. You're gonna be in big trouble.

Because when you are subject to a trial and subject to a test and You don't have someone besides the Lord to share your burden to cast your burden on to to Communicate your feelings of what you're going through my god.

It's going to be hard and So God is teaching us through his word the need to cast our care before the Lord. Now listen carefully, all right, that's essentially One of the one of the truths that we dealt with last week.

Casting your care upon the Lord Simply means you go to dad you go to daddy in heaven and you tell him how you feel if you don't. You're going to get angry. You're going to get bitter. You're going to get confused and you're going to do stupid things that you're going to regret.

Okay. Now, here's the next question. I'd like to ask. All right, listen carefully. All right, listen carefully. Most of us here acknowledged that we're in the midst of some kind of trial. Okay now Being in the midst of some kind of trial how many here would acknowledge that because of this trial there is some kind of pain or Or Irritation that is on the inside of your heart and Spirit and No matter what you do where you go.

It's there and you feel it and you can't escape from it. The pain is there because of the trial you're in. How many can attest to that something's there, you know, it's there. Okay. There's good news for you and I.

Pain, Anger, and the Formation of Spiritual Pearls

You said well, I don't know how in the world to deal with this pain. I can't escape. Listen some of you I'm quite confident 99 sure if you were given an opportunity now to talk about your pain in a couple minutes.

You'd be bawling. Because it really hurts you've learned how to deal with it. You've learned how to cope. You've learned how to function. You've said well my god, I've got to keep moving on. I mean, I can't just break down but if you were able to talk about it.

And you and you were and you were willing to be vulnerable with with those of us who are here. You would begin to cry. You would begin to weep. You might even begin to say I'm so angry. I'm so upset. I'm so confused I don't understand you.

Oh my. If you just let it out. Would that be wrong, of course not. Of course not. That's why you need to do that before the Lord and Someone that's close to you. Don't be afraid to do it. You say well, it doesn't sound spiritual.

Oh forget about all that hogwash. Forget about all that hogwash that doesn't sound spiritual. You ever read through the book of Psalms a Man that God says he loved whose heart was after him. Almost every emotion known to man is in the book of Psalms.

David was so free to tell God how he felt all his feelings and emotions. He didn't bottle anything up. Forget about that. Forget about oh, I don't know if I could say this. Can I really say that? I'm angry at God.

I'm mad at God. I'm confused and that I'm bitter. Of course, you can tell him that he knows anyway. Well, he'd love you less. Of course, he won't. His love isn't based on your works or your actions. He doesn't accept you because you line up to a standard of righteousness in yourself.

He accepts you because by faith you've claimed the righteousness of his son. He Who knew no sin became sin that we what? Might become the righteousness of God in Christ. Our acceptance is based on who we believe in not what we are in ourself.

So you could tell God without the slightest bit of fear that he's going to reject you or kick you out. Or or say oh you are a second-class citizen. Oh my my aren't you? He loves you. He loves you period.

Getting back to this pain this irritation, do you know that a Pearl is found inside an oyster. Okay, but just very briefly. I'd like to mention How a pearl is formed. Now listen close closely the word pearl in the Bible significant pearl is part of what the city the heavenly city is made of when it comes down from heaven see remember the building of the house of God and It's okay.

Do you believe that someday there's going to be a literal city? I'm not here to refute that but I'll tell you right now the city that God's building now is made of living stones. And the fact that part of that city is called pearl means that God has a word to speak to us.

Right in the midst listen closely right in the midst of our pain right in the midst of our irritation. Listen carefully now look. You're in a trial. You're you're feeling pain you're feeling irritation it's inside your heart it's inside your spirit.

Now listen carefully all right a Pearl in order for a pearl to be formed inside an oyster something has to happen and that is this a Grain of sand Has to get inside the oyster but in addition to that a Grain of sand listen.

This is very careful this is very important. Now the grain of sand has to become a point of irritation a point of irritation to the oyster in Order for a pearl to be formed an oyster has to experience pain and irritation on the inside so figuratively speaking God in his wisdom says I'm going to create an oyster, and I'm going to subject that oyster to trial.

The trial is he lives in a place where there's all kinds of grands of sand and God says in his wisdom I'm gonna I'm gonna Allow I'm gonna allow that oyster to get pieces of sand inside to cause pain and irritation.

And I'm going to create that oyster with the power While it is being irritated and while it is feeling pain to secrete a fluid from within called pearl. That's right the oyster secretes fluid called pearl and what this pearl does.

When there's pain and irritation in the oyster is it's secreted and it's slowly begins to Envelop the grain of sand. Now mind you the oyster doesn't have the power to somehow Expel thank you This grain of sand out of its body.

See that's not the way God did it. You know it's not like the whale that swallowed Jonah where after he? Gets tired of Jonah he swims up to the shore and and Vomits Jonah out and there goes the problem.

No the oyster doesn't have the power to expel it but excretes pearl. Right here this pearl envelops The grain of sand. Now listen the bigger the grain The more the irritation and the more pearl is Excreted now.

What would you consider? To be Asked this question last week ladies. What would be more enticing to a little teeny teeny pearl or a sizable pearl that can be seen across the room? Some might say teeny others might say a larger one, and then here's another question well, which one would be more valuable.

Well, there's no question about that the larger pearl. Okay. So guess how guess how long? The excretion process occurs it keeps going and going and going and going until the pain and Irritation is totally removed not by expelling but by Enveloping the source of pain with pearl now.

Naaman, God's Purposes, and Surrendering the “I Thought”

Beloved this is building the house of God anger trial and victory. We just saw our need To talk to the Lord. We just saw our need to cast our care upon the Lord now. We're learning What do we do with that pain?

That won't go away. Now in second Kings chapter 5 we won't turn there. We learned that Naaman Was a leper and he found out there was a prophet in Israel who could heal him. He went to Israel. He listened.

He was in the midst of a trial. He went to Israel, but things didn't work out the way he planned. You remember he expected Elijah to come out and Say Oh Thou mighty man of valor Gather all the armies of Syria together.

I'm about to lay my hand upon you and all Israel will see and all Syria will see and all the nations will see How the Lord has honored you and how the Lord has bestowed great mercy upon you. And no, it didn't work out that way at all matter of fact when Elisha went to the door or when Naaman went to the door and knocked Instead of the great prophet answer in the door.

He sent his servant and His servant had a message for him that he didn't like. The the prophet says this go dunk yourself seven times in the River Jordan, which was a filthy filthy River and the Bible says that immediately Naaman said to himself I thought oh God give us ears to hear.

Listen, listen, you know the biggest stumbling block while you're going through a trial and a tribulation. The biggest stumbling block is when you're in the midst of the trial and you've got the pain and the irritation on the inside you think things should work out a certain way and they don't.

The Bible says that Naaman Became angry Was enraged and left in a fit of rage, I thought God I thought let me say this listen carefully as long as we are holding on to the I Thought things should have happened like this God and they didn't listen as long as we're holding on to that the pain and Irritation inside of us is not being enveloped with pearl but rather Anger and rage and bitterness and resentment and spiritual Decline is happening.

You're turning from a juicy grape Into a Raisin all try it up inside. Now listen, listen Listen, we we we're gonna miss the pearl when the pain and irritation is present in our life because of a trial if we don't deal with by the power of God's Word and confessing to God the great stumbling block of I Thought if you take What you think into the dealings of God in your life, you're going to stumble and fall but on the other hand if You go into a trial and The I thought is revealed you come before God and say Oh God Forgive me.

I give you my I thought mentality Lord, I am your servant. I Am in the midst of a trial fulfill listen your Intended and Fulfill your purpose in this trial. I Thought surely this would happen. I thought surely this is what you would do.

But Lord I've hit a brick wall with that time after time After time Lord God, I can't I can't bear that anymore. It's killing me Lord. It's killing my family. It's killing my friends. I can't bear with it anymore Lord.

I've got to cast my burden on see I've got to cast my burden on you Lord. I got to tell you how I feel. I don't want it anymore Take it from me God. Oh God all heaven rejoices when a soul is brought to that measure of brokenness.

But then not only not only did is God pleased but something begins to happen. The moment God gets that kind of brokenness in our heart watch Suddenly pearl pearl which represents grace and character of the Sun pearl Starts getting released by the presence of the Holy Spirit inside of us and the very pain the very irritation that the trial is bringing suddenly Begins to slowly be enveloped by grace and slowly enveloped by the work of God's Spirit and and and We begin to to sense that even though we can't Get rid of this pain.

Something is happening in the midst of that pain. It's being enveloped with a divine touch a divine touch from God. It's being developed or being enveloped by grace multiplied grace and the pain is resulting in an enlargement of the stature and likeness of Jesus Christ in our life.

The very thing that we thought was going to destroy us is the means by which God is building us the very thing that we thought was gonna kill us becomes the place the place where pearl begins to envelop itself.

Got the irritation. We've got the pearl. We've got the pearl. It's growing. It's growing. It's growing. The irritation is still there. The pain is still there but out from that pain out from that pain is Is the growing and the developing of the beauty and likeness of Jesus Christ and suddenly We realize God.

Now I know What Job came to know? You can do anything You want in me in me Lord. You are master. I am servant. You are Potter. I am clay. The clay doesn't have a right To say to the Potter. Why have you done this?

Who do you think you are? I don't like the way you made me. I don't like what. Okay, you tell God that. But the bottom line is that God says Shall the thing formed Say to the one that formed it. No, you can't do this.

See God is trying to establish the creator creature relationship once again with his new creation the father-son. Relationship father you do all things. Well, and even though you That you don't love me, but you're producing pearl in my life.

How are you doing with that pain? How are you? Say Phil it hurts so bad. I Know but more importantly. Then me saying I know father knows. Father knows just how deeply that pain hurts and some of you young folks don't understand this completely.

That's all right. You will someday you will someday. Is that pain hurt? Just think of this. Father is setting you up to become a pearl of great price. Costly to him. Possibly never known by the world.

John said the world what knoweth us not the world has no clue what God is doing in our lives. Sometimes we don't have any clue Is doing in our life. But that doesn't cancel the truth that God knows what he's doing and that's all that counts.

God knows what he's doing. And this is a little bit of wisdom from God's Word. To encourage us this morning. Because this whole issue of trials and tests is something that we cannot Avoid we can't avoid it.

Let's just look into the word and read some beautiful Portions of Scripture now that have to do with testing and trials, you know some Christians. They don't even like to be told they're going to be subject to a trial or a test.

They don't even like to hear it. But you know when we have this light We can approach the testings of life in a whole new Different light. Can't we whole new different light? Let's go to Psalm 39. Oh What is what is David say in Psalm 119.

Oh How I love thy word it is my meditation day and Night. Oh Let me not wander from my commandments. Thy word have I hid in my heart that I might not sin against thee. Psalm 39 watch this. These are some scriptures that we can look at and they simply identify Some of the different dynamics that are going on in the midst of a trial, but no matter what's going on.

Remember this truth. Remember the pain and irritation When we get rid of the. I thought when we allow God to just take that and break it. Pearl Begins to form. Watch this Psalm 39 verse 7. And now Lord What way I for my hope is in thee?

Deliver me from all my transgressions. Make me not the reproach of the foolish. I was dumb. I Opened not my mouth because thou Did it? You see what David's coming to realize? David's coming to realize the sovereign hand of God in what he's going through.

He's not looking at man anymore. He's not blaming. He's not looking at at second causes. He's going right to the top. You did this Lord. Lord you're sitting on the throne. Lord this couldn't have happened to me unless you allowed it to happen.

Oh, that's a great breakthrough. David's coming into the realization that he is one of God's sheep and as one of God's Little lambs there was a shepherd who's looking after him. The shepherd lays his life down for the sheep.

The shepherd won't allow any harm to come to the sheep. The shepherd is protecting the sheep and if something does happen to the sheep. The shepherd is careful to be sure that it that it produces pearl.

I was dumb. I opened not my mouth because you did it remove thy stroke away from me. I Am consumed by the blow of thy hand when you. With rebuke the word rebuke there means child training. It means chastening.

It means scourging. It means education. It means when God subjects us to a trial in order to educate us in order to train us as Children with the intent to produce spiritual adulthood spiritual maturity in our life.

When you subject us to the kinds of trials that result in our being chastening. And you correct us the word correct. Is there the same word which means to educate? For iniquity the word iniquity there is Something that's crooked.

Listen, every time God allows us to go through a trial or a tribulation. It is so that we can see more clearly How crooked we are in ourself, but how straight he is and how he by his power can change us.

This is what father wants to do. Watch what happens. Watch what happens in the midst of the trial. Thou makest his beauty or his desirableness. To consume away like a moth. Surely every man is vanity one of the results of going through a Fiery trial and we'll see in a moment that trials are called fiery because of The qualities of fire.

What does fire do? Well, we can learn a few of those qualities and see that's just what trials do. But let's stay here for a second. Remember we got the foundation laid. You can't get ahead now. We're casting our care on the Lord.

Casting your care on the Lord the devil's gonna come and hurt you and and just play havoc with you. You cast your care on the Lord. You identify pain and irritation. You realize that in the midst of the pain and irritation.

You've got the I thought syndrome. Rising up rising up rising up you go to God you confess. You let the grace of God and the Word of God and keep praying until you realize God is dealing a blow a death blow to that I thought syndrome and you're coming into a heart posture where you're saying father.

I Give it to you. You are master. I am servant. You are father. I am child you can do what you want in my life Lord. Just so you make sure get what you want. Not what I want. Not what I want not what's beneficial to me.

What is beneficial to you? Oh. That's a hard thing. That's a hard thing. Okay. Now we've got this and God's working it in us and we have to stay close to him to keep this working. But now what's happening in the midst of it?

Our beauty is fading. What does that mean? That means that God begins to show us. That the things that we think are so beautiful and so desirable in our life. You know our wisdom that we think is so great.

Huh? How smart we think we are. You think you're a little better than someone don't you? Because of your bank account or your education or your job or Your success you think you're a little better than someone huh?

Guess what happens when God throws you in a fiery trial? Oh your beauty fades and you realize. You have no beauty. Apart from the beauty of what God is doing in you through his grace. No beauty. You say oh, I don't have that in my heart.

Phil. I don't oh God have mercy on us. We don't know what's in our heart. You see you can look at a piece of metal and not know all the filth that's in it until it's thrown where. In the fire and then all of a sudden.

Oh my that's not as that's not as pure as I thought it was. Now Beloved hear the Spirit of God what do you do when suddenly you're thrown into a fire and your whole life gets thrown upside down and Everything around you is shaking and you feel like you're just gonna lose it.

What do you do? Cast your care on the Lord. What's the song tell it to Jesus he is a friend that's well known. There's no other. Such a friend or brother.

Tell it to Jesus alone, oh.

What taps the Lord takes? To comfort us in the midst of our trials doesn't he? You know, this is a comforting word because the house of God is going to be built in the midst of fire. Now watch this. Watch this.

Trials as Fire: Purification and Enlightenment

Saw our first Peter. We're familiar with these passages, but I tell you brothers and sisters taking this light with you today will bring an influx of pearl into your life right at that point of pain and I'm believing God that God is going to deal with anger and bitterness and Possibly some of you have been Internalizing your pain and you've been closing yourself off Emotionally to people how many knows that when you go through a deep trial and it starts hurt.

You don't want to become vulnerable anymore to people emotionally. You don't want to. You don't want to you close up and then not only do you hurt yourself, but you hurt who the one you're closing up to.

But I'm asking the Holy Spirit By the power of his word today to begin to heal you from that pattern in your life. So that when you're going through pain Instead of closing up you'll be what are those three words we learned several months ago.

We have to have when we're walking together with one another accountability. Vulnerability and Very good. Transparency. Do we have a prize? That is a Excellent. That was that was like, um, I was six months ago eight months ago.

But you know what Pam does she takes meticulous notes and reads them. She studies. She studies. I mean she showed me some of the notes she takes and I say, where did you get this from? I I couldn't have said that.

I mean she really really takes good notes. And that's that's just a little word. To everyone. Okay. Okay. Now listen listen. But the one thing you are going to hate when you're going through a trial Until God works in your life is the thought of having to be accountable.