The Procedure

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I had just arrived at work as the hospital's lead sonographer and was looking at the patient's schedule for the day when my boss told me to go immediately to the

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OR. The surgeon was requesting ultrasound guidance. That was all the information I was given.

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I had no idea what I was walking into. I wheeled the ultrasound machine into the

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OR. The patient was already sedated on the operating table. Plugging in the machine,

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I waited for instructions from the doctor. He barked at me to place the ultrasound probe on the patient's pelvis so he wouldn't perforate her uterus.

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Still confused about the procedure, I did as he asked and realized the woman was pregnant. She was in her second trimester, so I easily determined the gender of her baby, a little girl.

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Stunned, I watched the doctor thrust a catheter into the amniotic sac. The fetus dodged the catheter and tried to hide in the top of her mother's uterus to get away.

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In horror, I watched as he inserted a forceps clamp and grabbed her tiny leg.

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She writhed around in pain trying to break free, but there was nowhere for her to go. Then the doctor pulled hard until her leg ripped away from her body.

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She recoiled and violently twisted around in pain and curled herself into a tight ball. But it was no use.

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The clamp grabbed her arm and she struggled to pull away. Her movements weakened now because she was dying.

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He pulled her arm off of her body. My vision blurred.

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My eyes filled with tears. The child again curled herself into a tight ball, but again the device grabbed her other leg and it was ripped from her body.

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By now her heartbeat had slowed significantly, but she was still alive.

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The clamp grabbed her last limb and ripped it off. She wiggled and squirmed around and then her heart finally stopped beating.

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I announced that there was no more cardiac activity. The nurse and scrub tech in the room gasped, realizing for the first time that this was happening to a fetus that was still alive.

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The remaining body parts, the head and torso, were removed. Placenta was removed and a final look with ultrasound revealed all products of conception were removed.

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I was told I could leave the room. Up until that moment I had been frozen. I silently removed the ultrasound machine from the operating room, went directly to the locker room, and threw up.

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I quit my job at that hospital shortly after. I told my boss

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I would never again participate in that type of procedure. I was having nightmares and could not escape the memory of what

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I had witnessed. I would never again assist in the murder of a child.

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It was over 20 years ago, but it's just as vivid in my mind today as the day it happened.

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The saddest part is that this procedure is still happening today. People have no idea we are murdering babies in this way.

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They think it isn't a person, that it's just a mass of tissue. I'm so sorry for what happened to this little girl, for what

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I did to her. I'm sorry, sweetheart. I'm so sorry.