I don't want to drink the cup, are you going to do that? No, I'm going to do the father's will whatever it is, I'm just trying to clear in my mind what is the father's will, I'll do that and if it's painful it doesn't matter, I'll still do it, so you see that there was a conflict, it says he prayed for more than one hour he wasn't praying for anything else, it says he said the same words, father not my will but thine, you know it was not like that in heaven, he didn't have the flesh in heaven, in heaven for all eternity Jesus could say I do my own will because it's the same as my father's will, no conflict, my will is the same as my father's will, I do my own will, you see if you and I agree on something 100 I can do what I want to do because it's the same as what you want to do, you're agreed, Jesus could do what he wanted to because it was the same as his father's will, but the moment he came to earth in the flesh he could say no, I can't do my will anymore, I have to do my father's will, shows that there was a difference, so his self -will, he said I will not do it, I will not do my will but I'll do the father's will, that is what is the flesh and that is what the Holy Spirit is against, the Holy Spirit is against my doing my will, my self -will is another definition for the flesh and circumcision is to cut that off completely, not partially, they were very careful that in the old covenant that the circumcision had to be 360 degrees, not 90 degree circumcision or 180 degree circumcision, it had to be 360 degrees completely, otherwise it was a partial circumcision, it was not acceptable, I have no confidence in the flesh means all around I say no to my own will and that is the way to follow Jesus, there is no other way to follow Jesus, I mean there are people who try to make easier ways but they're all a deception, if you turn to Luke chapter 9 verse 23, Jesus said so clearly, if anyone wants to come after me, if anyone wishes to come after me, the rule is absolute, anyone, anyone, anyone, he must say no to his self, he must deny or crucify or put to death his self, his flesh and then take up his cross, die to himself and follow me, that is the absolute unchangeable law for anybody who wants to follow Jesus, so how is it there are so many Christians who think they are following Jesus, who do not say no to their own self -will, do you know how many times self -will is the cause of clash between husband and wife at home, what are the causes of all the clashes in husband and will, it is self -will, my will, it's two people with a strong will trying to live together, they always have clashes and the only way for them to become one is if both are willing to be crucified with Christ, there is no other way, all the marriage techniques and counseling in the world will not solve the problem but being crucified with Christ will solve it immediately and that's not a once for all event because he said Jesus said you got to do it every day, daily, in other words if I died to myself yesterday that was good enough for yesterday but not for today, I have to take up my cross daily, now these are the verses which for many years I never heard it being preached in hardly any church, how many times have you heard consistent preaching on taking up the cross every day, it's something you got to do every day, don't you think there should be a lot more emphasis on it in Christian churches, how much emphasis there is in nowadays on healthy foods, don't eat you know trans fats and don't eat too much sugar and so much emphasis and we are so careful to see the things that are harmful for our body but the things that are harmful for our spirit we don't seem to take too seriously and the only book that can tell us what's harmful for our spirit is the Bible, so its total circumcision is I am going to put my flesh to death every day and that's why we preach this so often, I remember when I was about 23 years old I was seeking God for the fullness of the Holy Spirit, I was in the Brethren Assembly, I got converted when I was 19 and a half, 1959 and the first thing I needed to learn was to take water baptism because I came from an orthodox church where I was sprinkled as a baby and so once I got a light on water baptism I took water baptism and in the Brethren Assemblies I was taught to study the scriptures, I really thank God for that but they never taught me about the baptism of the Holy Spirit, the fullness of the Holy Spirit, they said that's all happening, you don't have to ask for it or do anything, well I said okay, I was a new Christian, I was young and I accepted it but somehow there was a lack of power in my life and however much I convinced myself I got it, I got it, I got it, I didn't have power in my life, I was scared to be a witness for Christ and I didn't have power when I sought to be a witness for Christ and I saw a lot of other people around me also, a lot of people didn't seem to have the power of resurrection that Jesus spoke about, the meetings I went to were like you know the Saturday on when Jesus was buried in the grave, can you imagine how the Jesus, how the disciples met around, a lot of the church meetings were like those Saturday meetings when Jesus was buried in the grave, all looking gloomy and what a different meeting it was on Sunday after the resurrection and I said I want that type of meeting, I want to be in that type of meeting where everybody's delighted, Jesus is risen man, he's conquered devil, he's conquered sin, he's conquered death, he's conquered everything but it wasn't like that and that can only come if you're filled with the Holy Spirit, the Holy Spirit is the one who brings the reality of these things into our life so I began to seek God for the baptism in the Holy Spirit, call it what you like, fullness of the Holy Spirit is equally good for me, fullness of the Holy Spirit and I went to a Pentecostal church because they said those are the guys who talk about this and to tell you honestly this is 1963 and that guy asked me to repeat some hallelujah a number of times and I said I'm not going to do that, that's not what the apostles did on the day of Pentecost, this is all manipulation, I will not submit it, I want a genuine endowment to the power from on high, I don't have that, I don't want anything just to, I'm not trying to get a testimony that I was filled, I want power to be a witness for Christ so I decided not to go there again and there's a lot of noise there, I wasn't interested in noise, I was interested in power so I came back to my room, I was in the naval base those days and I said Lord that's not what I want, I don't want a lot of noise, I don't want a lot of excitement, I want power in my life to be a witness for you and I began to search the scriptures in an amazing way, the Lord gave me a revelation which I've never heard before and when I looked at the baptism of Jesus when he was anointed, even he needed to be anointed, much more being, Jesus was born of the spirit the day he came to earth but he's anointed with the spirit 30 years later, something happened, he didn't become holier in his 31st year than he was in his 29th year but he had power to do things he never did for 30 years, 30 years he never cast out a demon, never healed the sick, never preached powerful sermons, now it all came, all of a sudden, it was not a gradual process, it was immediate so I saw this, there's something in this, the same thing happened with the disciples on the day of Pentecost, so when I looked at the baptism of Jesus, the Lord showed me, gave me a revelation on that, Jesus submitted to John the Baptist putting him under the water, now putting him, putting a person under the water is the way to kill somebody by the way, you know this water boarding they torture people with is actually threatening the guy, you're going to die now, so this was a permanent water boarding baptism and when you read Romans 6, that we are buried with him by baptism into death, so what Jesus, I saw that what Jesus was submitting to there was, I am willing for people to put me to death physically on the cross later but prior to that myself, you can put it to death by insulting me, by spitting on me, by calling me Beelzebub or prince of the devils or calling me a demon possessed person, they call him all types of names, you're a Samaritan, you're a demon possessed person, I'm willing to let people insult me, do anything to me, offend me, ignore me, put me to death and he would not resist John the Baptist baptizing him, that is the meaning of baptism, I submit and God allows somebody else to put me to death, I will accept it because I know God will raise me up from the dead, that's the meaning of being brought out of the water, I'm sure God will raise me up just like he raised him up from the grave, every time somebody puts me to death, I submit to it because I believe God will raise me up and I'll experience the part of his resurrection in a spiritual way and then the anointing of the Holy Spirit came upon him and what the Lord spoke to me I have never forgotten for the last 55 years, the Lord said to me, if you choose this way of death to self, my power will rest upon you always in your life, when you preach, whatever you do, but the day you decide not to go this way, my power will depart, so I learned something, the close connection between the way of the cross, death to self and the Holy Spirit and I believe this is what many people who claim to be filled with the Holy Spirit have missed, maybe they've got a fullness of the Holy Spirit but they've divorced it from the cross, from the way of the cross, what God has joined together that no man put asunder, the Holy Spirit's fullness and the way of the cross go together and I see that in the baptism of Jesus, it's when he submitted to death to self, the Holy Spirit came, so this matter of cutting off of the flesh and having no confidence in the flesh is very closely connected with being filled with the Holy Spirit, so it's very very important, that's why circumcision was so important in the Old Testament, they said if you're not circumcised you'll be cut off from my people, you will not enter into the covenant, so when you apply that to us in the new covenant, it means that if I don't take this seriously, this going the way of the cross and cutting off confidence in self, putting my flesh to death in the different situations when I'm provoked, when I'm tempted, when I'm tempted to pornography, watch pornography, that's the old flesh again, my old self will saying have a look at that and what to do, put it to death, run away from it, when I'm tempted to respond in the same way somebody speaks to me in anger or evil or any other way, submit like Jesus did, let that fellow bury you, let that fellow kill you, let him put you to death, there will be a resurrection, I guarantee that you'll experience because God will never allow somebody to put you into that water without pulling you out, definitely, I've experienced it again and again and again and again, when Paul said he connected these two, you know, being conformed to his death and the part of his resurrection, see Philippians in chapter 3, some of these verses come to light when you understand this, Philippians in chapter 3, he says in verse 10, this is the look to me, remember he's writing this when he's just about six, seven years before he died and he'd already served the Lord for 30 years and he says in Philippians 3 .10, my great passion in life is to know the Lord more and to know the power of his resurrection and I can know that only if I have fellowship in his sufferings and I'm conformed to his death, you see the connection there, he's not talking about being crucified, Paul was never crucified, he's talking about this death to self, this circumcision which he spoke of earlier in chapter 2, he's explaining it here, this death to myself, being conformed to his death, Jesus died for 33 and a half years to himself, otherwise he can't ask me to follow him, what does he mean when he says, take up your cross and follow me, that means he also has taken up the cross, otherwise how can I follow him, it's like he's not going to make it more difficult for me than for him, it's like you know this egg and spoon race, okay you carry an egg and run, I'm going to run without it, but you come with an egg and a spoon and follow me, how can I do that, I can't run as fast as you, I'm going to carry an egg and a spoon and you're just going to run without it, so if Jesus didn't have to take up the cross, how can he say to me, take up your cross and follow me, it's ridiculous, he did take up the cross himself every single day, that's why he says every day you can follow me and that is being conformed to his death and fellowship of his suffering, where I cut off all confidence in my flesh and I say no to myself, you can meditate on that, it's a very profitable line of meditation because the power of the Holy Spirit lies along this way, don't forget it and the second thing is a sabbath, I want to go to that now, the sabbath is another thing which is a very important law in the Old Testament, God taught them so clearly right in the wilderness by putting that fellow to death, he just went and picked up sticks, absolutely no work, zero, when I say zero, I mean zero, okay it's explained in Hebrews chapter four, you know all these things which are very important in the Old Testament are explained in the New Testament, for example the veil that was rent in the temple, in the tabernacle, explained in Hebrews 10, let's have a look at that another time but Hebrews chapter four, it says here there is a life of rest, he's speaking first of all, let's begin at chapter three, who are the ones, verse 16, Hebrews 3 .16, who are the ones who provoked God, those who came out of Egypt and how did they provoke him, by not entering Canaan, when he brought them to the borders of Canaan two years after leaving Egypt and he was angry with them for 40 years and they sinned and verse 19, they could not enter the land of Canaan because of unbelief, what is the unbelief, they believe the giants were stronger than God, believe that, that's why they didn't enter in, Joshua and Caleb were not more powerful than those giants, they just believed our God is more powerful than these giants and the others looked at the giants and said we can't conquer them, they thought they had to do it in their own strength, no Joshua and Caleb said no, God is more powerful, God is on our side, they'll be like bread for us, that's what he said, so it was unbelief that prevented them from entering Canaan and that entry into Canaan and living in Canaan is called a life of rest or a land of rest because you go on to say it's this entering, they were not able to enter, verse 19, they perished in the wilderness and the next verse says they could not enter into his rest, so Canaan is called entering into his rest, you say what connection has that got with the Sabbath, yeah it says in verse 4, chapter 4 verse 4, God rested on the seventh day from his works and this passage verse 5, they shall enter into my rest, so the land of Canaan, entering into the land of Canaan was like an entry into a life of rest and it's connected with the Sabbath in verse 4, God rested on the seventh day and then it says in verse 9, there is a Sabbath rest for the people of God as well, what is that?