666 The Beast From The East： Revelation 13 — Shane Idleman

The Beast From the Earth and the Unholy Trinity

The unholy trinity was last week. This week is the beast from the east. Six six six. Now it's a play on on the title because what we're going to talk about is the beast from the earth. Last week was the beast from the sea.

This is the beast from the earth. And there a lot of them are pointing to the dragon. So that's where we come up with the um unholy trinity we can see exactly how satan false prophet the one world leader how they how they work together.

And on this topic it's so important to allow for different views. Remember i've shared that before allow allow for different views. And that's one way god tests our unity. I believe if somebody ever comes up and they say i agree with everything you believe you might want to you know pray about that because there are differences.

God allows us different views. Um and and the non-essentials i should say right we can't all come together and worshiping different gods. That's not unity. True unity is unity of the faith. But then within that is.

And remember people aren't maybe where you're at spiritually or you're not maybe where they're at spiritually. Or maybe your experience is different than theirs. And when you you you read the you know we read the bible with a different interpretation sometimes of what the city looked like or the timing of this.

And and and how many of you saw that beautiful picture of the lake and the mountains. You know. And spirit lead me. And a couple of how many of you thought of skiing when you saw the snow. Or how many thought of being in a boat on the lake.

Or how many of you i mean i could keep going. I thought of being a hundred feet out there and waiters with a fly pole and nobody else there. Right. Just you know no like what. That that seems crazy. Well that's that's kind of my dna my dad raised me fly fishing taught me at 12 years old.

And that's really a connection to get away and and just that's real fishing. By the way i want to rub it in all those guys that put on bait i say you're lake strippers who can throw a power bait out there and drink a beer.

I mean that's that's not working for your fish. So sorry just offended some of the guys. I apologized. So revelation 13 11 through 12. So remember the beast came from the sea. It's not necessarily coming from the ocean.

The Second Beast and Its Deceptive Authority

It could be the sea of humanity. And that here i saw another beast now coming up out of the earth. And he had two horns like a lamb and he spoke like a dragon. And he exercises all authority of the first beast in his presence.

And he causes the earth and those who dwell in it to worship the first beast whose deadly wound was healed. Remember that from last week. So this first beast the second beast is causing people to worship the first beast.

Remind you of anything in the trinity. Because we don't worship the holy spirit. Remember that. And i hear some pentecostals kind of their language is concerning a little bit you know because they're they're worshiping the holy spirit.

The holy spirit points us to worship christ. And that. And he's. And we see actually the same thing here. Ellicott in his commentary said both wild beasts rise from beneath. When we talked about last week and this week the sea out of which the first rises represents the impulses and passions of mankind.

The earth the more fixed element of is of human thought and wisdom. The wisdom however is that which which guides the wild beast is not divine wisdom but wisdom that is earthly sensual and of the devil.

Now it's interesting i don't necessarily come away with that interpretation but i'm not sure what you do with a large beast rising out of the sea a large beast riding out of the earth and trying to put that together.

The bible uses a lot of imagery to represent what john saw. The second beast is like the third person of the unholy trinity. Less graphic description. So last week the first beast had a very graphic description.

Deception, Fear, and the Interpretation of Revelation

And it thrives on deception and violence. We're going to see in verses 13 and 14. Isn't that interesting. This next beast thrives actually on violence and being deceiving the people. And that's really as we go through life you're going to see that a lot more a lot of deception.

And in case you haven't caught it yet they use scare tactics around the world even in our nation scare tactics and fear because the more fear the more scared you are the more freedoms you'll give up. So in order to be under this one world system it's going to take a lot of fear and people giving up their their freedoms because of fear.

And that's what we saw during the um 2020 uh time period. I can't say certain words because youtube sends me an email that you've been removed. If we say so gosh hmm gotta wonder wonder what's going on there.

They're not since they're not they're not getting rid of fauci's videos and things like that. But those who talk about these things they are. So this person is given the same authority as the first beast but points to him for worship much like the holy spirit in the holy trinity.

The first beast is often called the antichrist but some say it's the second beast. To me i don't get too caught up on who is who or the language because we just don't know. Both of them appear in the temple.

Think about this when you talk when you when you look at jesus and i could give more examples when you look at jesus and whoever the the antichrist whatever beast it is both of them appear in a temple.

Both of them claim to be god and both of them make a covenant with israel and both of them rise from the dead. Jesus and this false prophet this antichrist isn't. The similarities are amazing. You might say well what what covenant did jesus make with israel.

The most important covenant there is the i give to you a new covenant. It was a shedding of blood and the remission of sin. And that's the covenant and this false prophet so you can see them working in parallel revelation 13 13 through 14.

By the way just so you know there are a group of people um that i respect but have already have already i don't know if they come a lot can come here but they've already they're already checked out in their mind about what i'm saying because it's a view called preterism and they believe that the book of revelation has already been fulfilled the whole book.

And if you read how they come to these conclusions they're you know i give them credit. There's really good points but there are some like i don't that's kind of hard for me on this area in this area in this area in this area it doesn't appear that everything was fulfilled now.

Well i don't want to jump ahead but the reason is there are some have you heard of the word anti-type. Or you know god will sometimes do something here that actually he's going to do again later and it can have dual fulfillment for for example what i don't remember the exact chapter um many of you i'm sure know but in ezekiel where he's talking about the king of tyre and he's actually pronouncing judgments against babylon the philistines and this king of tyre is definitely a king a little legitimate real king.

But as he keeps going this king switches to language that is not that can't be an earthly king that has to be. And that's where they a lot of people come up with now this is satan. Oh morning star how you've fallen and and you're deceiving the nations and are they going to say is this the great deceiver.

And it's like well that's that can't be a king. But this first part definitely is a king. So lord i don't know what to do with that. Could it be dual fulfillment. Could it be that. And and you do see without a shadow of a doubt that that nero anybody heard of nero burning christians at the stake blame the burning of rome on christians.

You can definitely see how a lot of what john was writing about could fit into nero's persona and what he did. But for me not everything there's things there that that i can't i can't make that that that leap.

But you you can see how people believe that. And my whole point is this i was taught that those type of people were like like heretical that they weren't even christians but i didn't go to happen to read and study like okay i can see where they draw this conclusion.

And there's different views partial preterism want to get real confusing. They partially believe that some of the book of revelation has been fulfilled. And uh they do a lot of work with the old testament bringing imagery in.

And then there's all millennialism where the millennial kingdom isn't really literal it's it's figurative. And so we i just think it's important to give grace in these areas because no one knows i can say that without a shadow of a doubt with it out is it without even a hint of hesitancy that nobody knows exactly how this is all going to unfold.

It would be impossible. Oh yeah here and here and here now somebody might get get it right if they're you know just happen to to just get it right. But overall there's different views for different reasons on when these things will occur that that's why the key is always throughout scripture.

Readiness, Perseverance, and the Purpose of Prophecy

There's nothing we have to worry about because it the whole point is are you ready. Are you ready. Are you prepared. Here's what could go down. And it's preparing the church. It's preparing the saints.

And also it could be a wonderful revelation could be a wonderful letter for unbelievers to read in the future. They go oh wow how do we miss it. You know many could come to the faith by reading revelation in the future when they see these things unfolding.

And so this person performs great signs so that he even makes fire come down from heaven on earth. How has that been fulfilled already in the sight of men. And he deceives those who dwell on the earth by those signs which he was granted to do in the sight of the beast telling those who dwell on the earth to make an image to the beast.

Beast who has wounded that we talked about last week. And he was wounded by the sword and he lived. So again he's pointing to that first beast. He's deceiving those who dwell on the earth. How is he deceiving them.

You guys see that by signs. By signs which he was granted to do. So the question does come up. Who who granted him those that power. Some say well the anti or the the satan did. And possibly. But again god allows things.

Nothing's gonna happen outside of god sovereignty. All right. That's how i go to bed every night not worrying about anything i don't know about you. But that's how i go to bed at night at night. I don't.

That's god sovereignty is my sanity. There's no other way around it. So obviously god granted him. But could it be that the devil. We don't know all we know that now he's doing signs. And that is probably one of the best ways to deceive people.

Correct. That's why all these you know if if there's a sign that happens and i don't quite understand how the magicians were able to do it when moses did it with pharaoh. Some of that can be explained.

Some of that was just maybe supernatural signs. Could it be all this weird stuff we're hearing about ufos. Could that be demonic and aliens. That's probably the only answer. I mean honestly if you think it through that's probably the only answer people seeing things are these happening.

So could it be possible that signs are going to follow this person. And then if somebody oh if they see a sign that must be legitimate. Not necessarily not necessarily this. Remember when it comes to signs wonders what's going on.

Does it line up with scripture. Does it lead you in a deeper relationship with god or farther away. You start to question god. That's why i encourage especially young adults don't watch all these youtube videos on conspiracy theories.

Then people you can just make a video and it does. How do you know if it's true. How am i going to check all this. How am i going to say nasa did this. They did this. I don't. I can't check it. I can't references or or this happened about the earth's shape and the it's really flat and like how how were you.

Well he said oh how do you know what he said is right. And see we start to be to see. And i've seen a lot of christians now pastoring 14 years who will get way out there in the crazy land by watching all these things and not staying grounded in scripture.

I can't tell you how many times i've seen it. And they get mad at me. You're just not open. No i don't think the earth is flat. Can i send you a video that proves why it doesn't all these 20 scientific facts.

No i've already made up my mind. Don't confuse me with the facts. I mean just the this and just getting into people. I've talked to him about george bush plan 9 -11 like where'd all these airplane passengers go.

Oh they're hiding them somewhere. Can't you see this explosion. How this. And and you talk to engineers. I've talked it's like guys you're getting off track and arrogant and deceived. Let's just say hypothetically speaking let's just say something like that is true.

Okay. Why do you need to be focused on it all the time and argue with people about it. What's the point. What's the point. You're being argumentative and we can be very very deceived by these things. And i know sometimes i say things that people don't like.

And that's why i pray lord would you. Is this me or you. But god gives us different callings for what he wants to accomplish in our lives. I have to tell you this is really funny. But there's pastors in town and they're friends of mine.

Different Callings Within the Church

We you know i've been to every church here by the way. I've been to highlands. I've been to vineyard. I've been to grace chapel. I know chris. Well i've been to hope chapel. I know sean. Well i've been to calvary chapel.

I know pastor my pastor mike was my pastor. I know i've been to all these churches. So i know i and i and that's why i don't really put people down. Because i there's different callings. They're not going to preach like me.

They're not called to preach like me. And i can't do what they do these they're incredible. But we laugh sometimes because hey shane people are at our church because you're too hard. I'm like people are at our church from you because you're too soft.

What isn't that funny. I mean you have to just laugh. Oh yeah i just met this couple. They say you're just too hard too convicting and too like what. I just met another family last week that says you're going woke and you don't talk about the issues and you're like you're this compromising pastor.

And you're so and you you don't. You don't shake them up. What is it. I just have to laugh. It's like because you have to be comfortable what god's called you to do. And i just god has a sense of humor.

I think because every one of them that tell me that i can tell them a family who's come to our church because of what they lack in. Oh there's an industry and i and i do be careful anytime i hear that i tell morgana they'll be gone six months because if you bring that spirit of offense into this church and you bring this baggage into this church and you bring your issues here and you've got bitterness.

It's a matter of time. That's a spiritual problem and i'm going to tick you off eventually. And if you don't deal with it now how are you going to deal with it. How are you going to grow in those areas.

And i tell people go back to your church apologize and just grow if that's where you're getting fed. I sent people recently to grace chapel or calvary chapel if they like through the bible verse by verse expository preaching or lancaster baptist.

I talked to pastor paul sometimes coming on my podcast. We've got we're all on the same team. Once you realize we're all on the same team. The church had just planted in courtsill. I talked to him every week.

Do you need anything. How are things going. Well some of your people here i don't care. It might be they're not my people. They're not. They're god's people. And sometimes people need to shift to get it to get into.

Okay shane's a little hard. I just need a breather for a few months. Okay i got it i got it. That's fine. Go get a breather. It's okay. But i love later years later people got you know what i hated what you had to say.

But you were right. My marriage fall apart. I'm hooked to porn. I'm back into alcohol. If i would have just listened and not ran from that conviction. I can't tell you how many times i've heard that. I can't tell you.

I saw a family six months ago was sitting right there. I probably convicted him again but um he said i just didn't want to come because i was addicted to these things and and i didn't want to hear it.

And so see i have to be comfortable in that. Now do i say things perfectly. No absolutely not i i just we're we're a work in progress. Sometimes my own thoughts come in. You know how. If you if you knew how many times i said nope not gonna say that not gonna say that.

Nope not gonna go there. I don't know if that's you lord and and and just my mind i don't say it right. But so we have that struggle. Where does your flesh come in. Where does your anger come in. Where does your but where does your.

Also that boldness and that tenaciousness and that faith come in. And motivating men and and motivating people to come to the altar. Where does that come from. That's just an interesting side note. Is it not.

Is that that just cracks us up. We pastors laugh and people don't even know they think i got shane he's too convicted. I'm gonna go to different church. Well as soon as you're leaving somebody else is coming for the very same reason that you're leaving it just it make you'll go insane if you don't understand different callings and you hit people where they're at in different lives.

Right. I mean different not different lives. Buddhist. But you know where they're at. Some people need some people need this type of conviction these types of services other people's other people don't they say hey our kids are really growing our youth are they're on fire for the lord at faith community.

And i talked to caleb i'm like well go there stay there let them grow in the faith once you once i got over this point of competition years ago it life is so much easier. It's so full i don't care. Don't send me the stats.

How many people are coming. I i don't know. And now if they leave because of me and there's an issue we need to resolve then. Yes please. But once it's leaders we realize it's not about competition because we are on the same page we're on the same team.

It's there's so much joy there's so much joy and peace. And churches though that are ran like a ceo and a business they get upset when they lose numbers. They they do sermons based on numbers. They they don't want to offend that.

That's a very um very dangerous place to be. Because now you're offending god because you're worried about the applause of men and the approval of men woe be to those who look to the approval of men look to the approval of god.

And so i i actually have no clue what that has to do with revelation 13 but i'm sure it'll fit in there somewhere. I think i started on why. There's different views and it's good to respect different views.

Knowing Scripture to Resist Deception

But he will deceive through signs. He will deceive through signs. Why. Knowing god's word now is so important for the future isn't it. You guys know mahomes and purdy stats that pronounces right. And the stock exchange numbers and taylor swift's lyrics.

But do you know the life giving word life giving word. It's amazing. It's amazing. I do have to say when i i never watch a football game except for the super bowl i did i know people are going to say how can you watch.

But i turned off the commercials. Okay. How's that. But um that guy i didn't know he's mr irrelevant purdy like last in the draft pick last and now you're the the the uh quarterback in the super bowl.

And he's a believer. I don't know god might have had a he might have played a role in that somehow i mean that's amazing to me. That is a true that's a true underdog. I mean that is like so you kind of know who i was rooting for but it was it was.

You know it's just amazing. And pastor ed who spoke yesterday talked about how god healed his knee and said i want you to be in the nfl. I want you to be a linebacker. And i want you to mean joe green is who he would go up against if you guys remember him.

And so god will put us in strategic positions to make a difference as long as that doesn't become an idol an idol in your life. So anyway they are deceived by signs. And that's why knowing god's word now.

Knowing god's word now is now. I don't know i put that i missed i didn't spell check probably. So that's a good encouragement for you. If you don't want to be deceived later what does god's word say. Just be in it just be buried.

You understand signs and wonders. And what does jesus t. And so if you if you see these false prophets it's not going to be hard to spot for a true spiritual believer who knows god's word. You're not going to be like oh man i don't know flip the that gosh.

They're both pretty right. They're both guys that they're both saying the same thing. They're both. I don't lord i don't know who to choose. It's it's for somebody in his word with the spirit of god. It's going to be night and day because a perfect a person's filled with the holy spirit even though they're not perfect they're in god's word.

They're meditating god they're it's it's like ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding. Right. The the the bells just go off you know. And i'm always fascinated by that drink the kool-aid guy like a thousand people drank the kool-aid.

In this part of i remember jim jones and and i just just the documentary like like i as god's my witness the first sentence he spoke in his demeanor i'm like oh man false prophet that guy i have not have a good feeling for that guy whatsoever.

But how are all these people deceived because you're not in god's word or they're not believers as well and they're tossed back and forth by every wind of doctrine. And you'll see even in the christian church anytime somebody is is kind of getting off course and they're like but shane i don't know what about this illuminati stuff or what about this.

You know this and and now the the have you heard of the abrahamic house that i don't know if it's dubai but somewhere in the middle east we're off they they have a something for muslims jews and christians all in the same temple.

And i know christians like well what's wrong with that. You know like okay where do we start. Where where where do we start. And so see but every single time i can't think of one person that there's an exception they do not know god's word.

They they they don't know god's word. They they just kind of like well yeah i have a five minute devotional i read john. Sometimes i mean no you get the whole council of god's word listen to solid teachers get grounded in and that's the only way to not be deceived.

I mean if somebody came up and they're like shane you know god sent me here and he just makes a snake right here. I'm not gonna bow. Absolutely not. Because it will be crystal clear. Now i have to tell you this i wasn't going to and i put this one thing i prayed about but i i like a lot of old commentaries.

Any of you like old commentaries. I like new ones too. I use macarthur's commentary uh systematic theology. I use wangrudem systematic theology. Um the christian cbn bible. I don't know christian uh something so i look at different commentaries but this one i this is just was really ironic.

So many of the old commentaries link this to rome and the papacy let that sink in ellicott benson. Uh most commentaries in the 1800s link this to the papacy. Now i'm not going to do that. But there is if you look there's a lot of parallels and that's why i bring these things up.

If somebody happens to listen and they are part of and they follow and they agree with rome's teaching roman catholicism. It is definitely in air. It's way off base. It's not even close to scripture. There's i was an altar boy.

Critique of Roman Catholic Doctrines

I can break it down from. The pope is not peter. Did you know that they teach epistolic succession. Did you know that they think the pope is part of peter's line because of on this profession of faith on this rock i will build my church for anybody to think the church is built on a man is already left the building jesus the gates will hell will not prevail against my church.

So there's no successive authority. Because here's the problem with that. Now i'm i'm in the succession of peter. I'm pope whoever. Now i'm the final authority. And they won't say this but all you have to do is go look at their doctrines.

They would say that that is actually equal or above scripture the final word of the papacy the pep the papal directions. And and it's just it's a very destructive thing. And i and people are like oh why do you talk about.

You're causing division. No i'm trying to tell people hey you don't have to go to a priest to confess your sin all the time you that's not biblical actually for a priest to not marry is not biblical to worship mary is not biblical.

To worship the saints is not biblical. Immaculate conception is heretical. And there's so many doctrines of and you look at rome with these billions of dollars and and they sit on this power this this place of authority.

And that's why a lot of people in 1800s would make this connection. They saw just how wicked and evil this had become. So benson said this in the 1850s. Now miracles visions and revelations are the mighty boasts of the church of rome.

Even fire is pretended to come down from heaven as in the case of saint anthony's fire back in the 1800s. And solemn excommunications which are called the thunders of the church and are they they are performed with ceremony of casting down burning torches from on high as symbols and emblems of fire from heaven.

They are indeed so far from being any proof of the true church that they are rather a proof of a false one. And as we see the distinguishing mark of anti-christ so am i saying that the pope will be the anti-christ.

No i have no clue who the one world leader will be. Absolutely no clue at all. Now are there a lot of similarities in this. And when i grew up in that i don't know if you remember but they would and we we got all caught up and they would send out pamphlets or where they would see uh like a tree bleeding this image of mary and they would go.

People would travel travel hundreds of miles and they would weep at this tree that the face looked just like mary and it had actual blood. I can't explain some of the things that happen. You know it's not god.

And they would worship this tree and worship mary. They'd have. How is that not. How is that not totally off base. So when people get upset at me i have to tell you explain that to me. Please explain that to me.

Our neighbor her bumper sticker said um something like um looking for jesus pray to mary. That to me if i say nothing i'm a coward because i don't want people get upset. If you research it it is it's a false system.

Can there be christians or catholic. Absolutely. Of course many of them though if you talk to they'll tell me shane they don't believe that. Go read your own material from read the papal decrees of the 1800s and 1600s 70.

Read what they they actually you'll find in there that mary is co-redemptive co-redeemer mary's co-redeemer jesus. Most them pray. You ever see that picture of mary. They're all worshiping. And she's holding a little baby jesus.

That's not biblical. That's heretical. That's deceptive. And unless you break out of those shackles you will be and could be worshiping a false god revelation 13 15 through 17. He was granted power. All right.

The Mark of the Beast and False Security

I'll tell you this too. I'm trying to kind of ignore it because i've talked about before but a very large church uh catholic church off of mcbean or something. I'm not sure where it's at down there but this lady set up um she wanted me and the priest to to debate or meet and just everything he did.

We just did. It was like not good because everything i just told you they have this defense. I'm like that makes no sense. That's mary worship because they have a why. You have a statue of mary out front.

That's 14 feet high. So anyway we got to purgatory and i said if jesus paid it all we look to tell us it is finished paid in full. We go directly to be with christ. We are forgiven of our sin. What is the point of purgatory.

Do you guys know what that is. It's a teaching. It's a teaching that says you have even a christian. You have to go be punished for your sins. And that's how they built st peter's cathedral. Whenever a coin in the coffer sings a soul from purgatory springs.

So you could actually pay to get your family members out of purgatory. Why is nobody denouncing that as completely heretical and destructive. So i said please explain to me purgatory as a believer. And he looked on there forget he kind of he said shane how do you deal with your shame and guilt if you there's not a purgatory.

Oh this now i i believe i i personally believe that many of these priests are not even saved absolutely without a shadow of a doubt. And i just say that in love. Who in the world is going to say how am i going to go.

Hey guys rick laurie evette how do you guys deal with shame and guilt. There has to be a purgatory to cleanse us. Because see they haven't experienced the cleansing work of christ. And as a result they have to go and get cleansed in purgatory.

How long are you there. Depends how much sin you have. That is. So that is so blatantly false. That is blasphemy at the highest level. Christ finished work on the cross was not enough. So now i have to go to purgatory.

And i know people i can always they get upset. But listen i have to go home and deal with god. I don't have to go home and deal with you. I have to drive home and say boy i sure was a coward today. But i didn't upset anybody.

So this person was granted power to give breath to the image of the beast. And that image of the beast should both speak and cause. As many as would not worship here we go would not worship the image of the beast to be killed.

So this is what many people are wondering about and worried about. Okay as a believer i want to be careful here. I don't think it's okay to worry and have fear. But um most of us deal with. Uh i hope i'm out of here.

Right. I don't want to deal with this is terrible. This is terrible times. And that's why we sometimes you know we'll read into scripture things. Or we'll um maybe i i don't know i just know. This is going to be the time whenever it happens that whoever does not worship the image of the beast will be killed.

That's why i said last week be encouraged. It will not be a sneak attack. You're not gonna do something. And then one day go. Oh did i i knew i shouldn't have got that tattoo. Right. Or i knew i shouldn't got that mark.

Or i knew no. When when when the jab was out. Remember the jab. I said 22 gauge. But it's probably a probably an 18 gauge if it's water-based because we can have a smaller anyway. Um so what was that did i open the door to that.

No no no no. You're that. Yeah there's christians have different views now. Could these things lead to lead to it. If you don't have this mark i mean i even heard language. I wish i would have saved it.

I'm sure many of you did. You're not going to be able to travel unless you have this certain passport. Restaurants in la were not serving. You call me conspiracy theorist. Isn't it funny all those people that call me conspiracy theorist.

How much of that's true. Now it's just unbelievable if you if you hold the line what god will reveal. So take inventory now. Who are you and what are you worshiping. Who and what are you worshiping. Because i run to people and they'll say you know she and i understand that.

But man i'm having fun now when the time comes i'll bow my tea to jesus. Oh no you you play like you practice. When that time comes you might go further into the deception. If you will not live for him now you will not die for him later.

It just goes together. So are you truly ready. Take that inventory now. Because when he comes on the scene those not worshiping god will flow automatically to the antichrist or this one world leader. You'll just flow that way.

And and sometimes we think have you ever thought you know i just kind of man i'm just kind of neutral right now maybe when you weren't following god there's i know i'm not living like heaven but i'm not living like hell.

I'm kind of neutral. Well if you don't do anything to press into christ and build that relationship like throwing a piece of wood into a river you will go right to that decided deception because you're already conditioned for it.

You're already being deceived. So now let's talk about this for a minute. Questions of reflection. Are you standing on god's word with a humble broken repentant heart. And i we you know let me let me just throw this out there.

Spiritual Hunger and Understanding Scripture

Let us pray with you this morning next door because this comes in a lot. Um email people tell me i just don't understand the bible. The bible is boring. I just have a hard time with it. And i understand that i understand that was my life for 20 my first 29 years of life until the holy spirit came radically upon me and filled me and tremendous joy.