Singing Hills, 1987 — Norman Grubb

They told me I've been ill these months. I haven't found out yet. I'm just having a good time, you know. But, um, uh, this is a put-up job. Because, uh, um, I'm only supposed to come here to kind of extra color, extra number.

I belong to where Paul belongs. We live in Tylemon. I, Paul, the agent. There may be one or two of you nearly my age here, I don't know. And, um, and the first, the first session's always awkward. Because we're getting to know each other, and, um, what to say, what not to say.

Then the ball begins to get rolling after that. Um, I've been able to spend my, for three months, up in my room with, uh, at least I've had my typewriter, which is just a bad, bad handwriting, but at least it does type.

Um, but, uh, I'm able to dig into a few things, which I've kind of run away from for a long time. So I'd like to get around while I can. And so I've been doing some of that. And I have a, a good go on level six to eight.

I have a long time worth of, really, uh, get Paul to say what we say. People might listen then. So I've been getting Paul to do it. And, uh, that's in, in, uh, Fred's hands now. And, uh, get it out. And I hope to get it to all my fellow, in the mission I belong to, fellow workers, about a thousand of them.

And other things. Um, uh, the whole point of the Bible to me is to see the Holy Spirit getting through the people, using the Bible for me to get the people to be people. So to get people to be people.

And the Holy Spirit's done it through the ages, in the, through the written word. So I find, I find great profit, great many years in seeing the Holy Spirit getting, getting into, into men. And expressing Himself by men through the ages.

The Holy Spirit Working Through Biblical People

Right up to Genesis upwards. And, um, I've done as good as those in due course. And surely have some of them already. But, uh, I was able to revise them a good deal. So I've spent quite a long time on, uh, Job, and Joseph, and Jacob.

Jacob's always my favorite because everybody maligns him. The only person who likes Jacob is God and me. So, so we enjoy Jacob very much. And, uh, I like to see, uh, uh, God using people He shouldn't use.

Um, Gandalf, Moses, Raja, Raja. I've had great, yes, great benefits doing those. And, um, Mary and Sam Bacon up in Louisville. They're currently retyping them and they'll come through in due course. I've done Hebrews too.

You can do Hebrews here. I had a good time on Hebrews. Pretty rich Hebrews, isn't it? So I had a great time on Hebrews and, um, it costs something. Because you, you can't likely write, you know. You can say and people forget what you say when you write, of course.

I learned that on the first book I ever wrote, Touchingly Visible, which I wrote 50 years ago. So I found something that I said there, uh, they need a little more careful saying in writing. So I learned my lesson there.

So it's a, it's a different thing to write than it is to talk. Uh, because like, like Congress, you can always forget what you talk. You can't, you can't forget what you write. And so it's a, a good tough job to write and be sure what you say as far as you see is God's taking, taking.

So I've done some of that. And, um, I want to go and do some more. So there we are. Um, the point is what's, what's best to talk about on our first session. Uh, I've never, uh, had my prepared sermons.

I can't give you five points. You get rid of it that way. Um, I really give what we've got, that's all. So I'm only saying what, uh, will be put in different forms, of course, through the weekend. What we're saying is, uh, why are we saying something unique?

What is unique? And, uh, why are we in a position that, uh, it's very, it's very, I hate to say it, it's very rare, it's very, or isn't very rare. Um, so it's a big thing to say things unique. So if I'm saying what, I'm saying it now, I hope it's what the scripture says.

Um, and then it is the same kind of thing as how you're going to come and say on these other sessions. Um, uh, you're in for conversation. Of course, the joke is, already most of us are, are, are co-confronters.

We've already, we're the old bunch together. So I'm only reminding you, as old bunches, what the old bunch says. Only a few of you here, I think, are those who have not been before. But it is unique. See, why, why do Jews fight Jesus?

It isn't because he's just Jesus. It's because he, he shakes their whole, their whole, their whole basis of life up. No, Judaism goes down the drain. Judaism went on the course. And so it shakes your very being.

So a Jew doesn't just refuse Jesus just because he is a mortal mortal in history. It's because if you believe him, you're, you're in the trouble as a Jew. You're in the explosion. And that's mortals, that's why mortals can't take Jesus into their hands.

Because they didn't just take the historic Jesus, of course. They, they, they believe in the historic Jesus. But he blows up their whole manhood. Because everything he's blown up, if you go to the Jews, it says Jesus.

And his, what, his way of being is, that's all. So that's explosion. And we are in that same explosion in the Church of Christ today. I have no evidence. I can't give you. There's any sign of the Church of Christ, on any level, taking it as a, as, as for, members of the Church of Christ, as, as groups of the Church of Christ.

I don't know. When the final issue comes out, whether one might take it. It exposes everything. It exposes your relationships. It exposes your, your, your cooperation, everything. So it's a very rare thing for a, for a group or a person, representative group, to, for this to be that, that they might get lost.

Now, why is this unique? Because the purpose of the Gospel Church is to have completed selves. That's the biggest thing to say. Completed selves. Even Jesus had to learn obedience, to think of himself as Jesus.

Being made perfect. That Jesus himself had to be made perfect. That's false self. To make other people perfect. And he was the, he was the standard man, wasn't he? And we, see, we have to find a relation to the, a perfect deity, who's the only person there is, the perfect, the perfect person, there are perfect persons who can re-express the perfect person.

And perfection is the problem. So to be a perfect person, you have to be an expression of the perfect person. And you can't express it yourself. You can't express the perfect person and say, let's show them what it is to be, to be an expression of the perfect person.

So you've got to be a perfect expressor. That's the difficulty. That's the difficulty. So of course we, we start with some things we all know. Well, there is only one person. I say that kind of thing, you know that.

In the beginning, he. He, he. In the end, he, all in all, says all this, you know that. But I think there's no other. So the universe is he in Paul's expression. That's obvious. What's the tree? It's the life in the sea.

And the life in the sea just takes the form of a tree. That's life, of course. It's a deity, life in the sea. You know that. So you see, there is only one person. You have to create a perfect being to be perfect.

It's got to be original something. The battle raises, kind of like another reality, that consciousness is always opposites. There's nothing clearly known except for opposites. Light can only be known by dark.

Sweet by bitter, and so on. If you take a light, no, this has opposites, and the two together make light. You utilize it as darkness to express its lightness. And heat, you use cold to express its heatness.

You understand? So the universe, of course, is what the modern day physicists know. Physicists, the problem of the duality of atoms. Why is it a particle? Why is it a wave? Why is it both? Those two make atoms.

They're two opposites. Particle jump, and a wave, and so the other two. They're part and opposites. Those two opposites make the comet. They're all physicals. So it's got to be a center being of this.

Therefore that raises the question, and we have to answer it, that you can't have a god who has a hundred opposites and put them into focus. That, of course, is why... Why do they say there's something God can't do?

Why do they say God can't lie? God can't lie. God can't lie. Because a lie is one of the opposites. The opposites of that lie are called the self, the self. So you have that problem solved in God. We have to use eternal, tensile forms of eternal theory.

We can't do more or less than that. He's from everlasting to everlasting. But there's a problem that has to be solved in it. And the problem is, he's the self. A self must be for himself. He can't be for some other one.

He must be a self-sufficient self, a lie, except not in the outward self. Let the self act as a self for self. Adversely, he can't be, because he's opposites. If he cannot be, no, except as opposites.

And the opposite of God really has to be his own father. And instead of becoming a self for self, he becomes a self for his father, and a self for others. Therefore, the heart of God is a cross. That's the value we have in the book of Alan Parker.

The cross is the heart of God. So the heart of the person is a death, a life. A person who ceases to be one kind of person becomes another kind of person. It's said there are many, what the Bible calls a fire, consuming fire.

Fire becomes life. Fire is consumed, or it becomes life. And the death takes place in the fire, and it produces life. When the helium atoms fuse, they become life. Fire and life. Fire can fuse like blessed, on the same basis.

That's God. So the heart of God is a person of a certain quality who ceases to remain that person of a certain quality. His quality is me, for me, for me. And he becomes eternally, at the beginning of his time, the fire, which was me, for me, becomes the life itself, giving love.

And all his being goes into the love of his son. And so that whole being, that combined being, is other love. It's combined with the other love. But that's a constant. And without that constant, you couldn't be conscious.

You'd only be conscious of opposites. God's only conscious, because it isn't dark. Wouldn't know it otherwise. Truth's only conscious, because it isn't bitter. And all life, during that constant, because it isn't yellow.

And then you put the two together and make something. Cooks make something out of sweet bits and make the two together and make something. And we make dark light and produce a light situation and so on.

That's because it's fundamental to our uniqueness, because there are certain ways that have been through history in which people will talk about God. I'm related to God. People have a relation to God.

All religions have a relation to God. They couldn't die on a cross. It's just a false relationship. It's good to be up on God without a cross. And it's human without a cross. And it's kind of bitter to be up without a death.

It's bitter. So as everything, as only two opposites, which combine, and one uses the other, as I say, life, death, and so on. So that's through the universe. So it's in the personal universe. That is mainly unknown, perhaps, in the Church Of Christ.

The Church Of Christ may say, of the cross, but they won't understand why there's a cross. The cross is in God. That's why that article that Pantley was so important to which came out of the great mystic Jacob Berman.

The cross came out of God. The cross doesn't come without. The cross is the person. The other person is only the kind of person you use now that says Christ is a self-giving person because of the death being said by a loving person.

That's the truth. Father, Son, Father, Son, and the Spirit reproduces. That's the being. That's the person. That's not known in the Church Of Christ. Even though the Church Of Christ, even though the Church Of Christ preach a cross, they mean a cross.

They mean a cross Christ died for us. They don't mean a cross in which God died. That's finished. He's gone. That's the beginning of the uniqueness. Just for a long time, I said that, I read Jacob Berman, and I used that scripture, and I told you, God can't lie.

Probably God can't be there. He's got it. Why? How can't He lie? Why doesn't He lie? I told you. Because a lie is a quality of self for self. If it happens to God, He can't be self for self. He must be self for others.

How lie? How does the self for self become a self for others? As a death, yes. A repatriation. A death being one quality of self, fire, and becoming another quality of self, and fire produces life. Father, Son.

So even there we start our uniqueness. But because that's so far away from us, that we can put that away and say it's God. It's us, it's us. It's us, it's us. God has brought persons into being besides His own person.

That's the great leap of the creation. He brought persons into being like Himself. In their makeup. In their makeup. Spirits or body. Makeup. Contentment. Contentment. Makeup. Remaining in His image. Which of course means that therefore He's got something by which He can do it Himself.

Everything He's shown for us is glory. You can't see God as a tree. You see His glory in the tree. You see His glory in the light. I live in worship. I've always seen the glory in everything. Springtime is marvellous.

Marvellous. So you don't mistake the at birth of the green around us as God. It's the expression of God. You don't mistake God for the leaf. But you do mistake God for a person. That's a different thing.

That's the leap in the creation. Everything else is God in a form. A naked person is God as a person. So you see it's enormously serious. It's the question of persons is to reproduce the person is enormously serious.

It's the very heart of being. God can find a million ways to express Himself by persons. You express it by calling Him glory and all that science and physics and power and glory. In person. And that's all the process you can get.

You can't hammer out in person, in person, in person, in person. Life isn't in person. It's forms. Life's a person. And so to really express it as a person by persons. Not by in person. That's the difference.

Exactly. Because of things you only know by the opposite. You've got to meet the opposite in a person. As I say, light's only there because there's dark. And street's only there because there's visible.

So everything has to and as I say the alpha and the alpha are part of the other way. They're opposites, opposites. They have to fit in together and make their entities out of it. So everything must have its opposite.

So a person has its opposite. So God has its opposite. And that's what the cause is. Now the other great danger the first danger is we don't recognize the basic nature of God which has a cause in it. A fire which will become a light is God.

That's what the Bible tells us. A fire which disappears will become a light which will disappear. And in between the dead. That's God. That's God. That's why God exists. Therefore, of course, man man's a person.

It's the same it goes through the same process. Now here comes the other problem which we know which is equally our weakness equally our uniqueness is that there is only one person. There is only one person.

And that person expresses itself in forms forms or trees and what not. Or expresses itself person by person. There's only one person. Only one person. A person can express himself on a lower level by atomic power or color or things and you see his glory.

He expresses himself as a person by person. There's only one person. So the person can't become the person. Now that's where we lose it. Why are we losing it? Because God died to be one kind of person to become the other kind of person.

He died to be a fire self to self burning in the beginning of time because the light is self living. So we all start to fire. That's the basic thing. Everything is fire. Tactical fire. Fire, fire, fire.

Everything is fire. It's an important fire. We know that. That's why there's this mystical power going about somewhere all over the place. Fire, fire. Electricity is light. Fire. In God's sense that's a self person.

We all start that way. Now the the way we have to learn who we are exactly who we are is by a delusion and a deliverance from it. By a delusion and a deliverance from it. The delusion is that you can be a person that isn't God's person.

That's what Satan was. Satan's a form of God. He's a fire form of God. He remains a person he remains a a fire person he's a God person in fire form. He's a God he's a negative God. A God person in fire form.

There's no such thing as a person except God. So God Satan's the only person that is God's personhood in his own form. Fire form. To which God would die. So God has a cross on him. Satan wouldn't have a cross.

That's what this world is trying to build up as a religion without a cross. Same thing. Now this is the way which God had to teach us our basic negative has a basic positive. We've got to know. Basically we've got to know who we are as a negative and then who we are as a positive.

You see, Satan has deluded himself in his negativity. It's all negative. Positive makes him God. Fire is the negative. Light is the person. A God's fire is poured up in light with all love. Satan's the same fire not poured up but remains fire.

Self, self, self, self. But the lie that the person that the intended person has made it as if it's himself. That's his lie. As if he's a separate person as though he's a saint. He's just a negative. For us all, a God which God never has been.

God has eternal destiny. You see, we have to learn what a self is and how it functions. Now Satan says that God learned it. God learned it by having a son. God learned it. He was able to learn obediently from his son.

He had to learn by dying to be a fire God and becoming a light God in his son. Now Satan was able to do that. So he made himself a fire form and thinks he's a fire form. He doesn't say he's a fire form but God is just a self.

A fire form. Just a self. Now we have to learn the same way. So we have to learn that we have the potential of being eternal expressions of God. Perfectly natural. Perfectly natural real expressions of God.

And one day we will operate as God. That's why God says you silly people if you have faith of a grain of mustard seeds you will move mountains. We don't move a saw that's the mountain. That's only grain.

A grown tree of faith will move a universe. That's what we're going to be. People will move like God moves. We will be God. We give a little bit of grain stuff. A little bit of faith. You see if there's only a grain left even that doesn't make a difference.

It doesn't make a difference. The way we know all these people. But you see we have to learn who we are as a person. By finding out a person is only a real expression of that deity person and nothing else.

But it's the real expression of the false form of the deity person or the right form of the deity person. The false form of the deity person is Satan who acts as though he's really only a negative form of God.

That's why it's called the Godless world. In order we may learn who we are we have to be caught up back in that delusion. So we know we accept Satan as the false but we think he's made us something. He made us operate where that's alive.

He made us what we think he is, a negative operating person. He's operating God's fire nature. Self for self nature. Self destructive nature. That's God's fire nature to death peril. And Satan picking his own self putting it into us.

We think it's our self. So we don't know it's Satan as us. We think it's Satan influenced us and infuriated us and we're just sort of ourselves sort of doing sort of ourselves as a person influenced by Satan.

That's the only such thing as a self. There's only one self in the universe. There's only one operating self in the universe. All other selves are expressions of the self like a tree it's an expression of God's life form there's only a form there.

It's in itself an expression of a life form. Atomic power they now they call it part of the mind it's an expression of the inner mind you've got it. It's a form of a mind a form. Everything is that. But a person can only be an expression by an expression of God's person.

That's tremendous. The God person is an illusion it's itself it's independent and put that into us which makes us independent. So we live our lives as if we're a person related to Satan. Well now Jesus came and died and rose and Christ was lost and so we now we've moved.

We've moved. And we've moved that's been a step of course a step of conversion of sin and lost of vision and coming of Jesus and the total sacrifice of Satan and so on. We've done that and because God had done more than that people have got beans in their throats because he's really put Satan out that we don't know.

That's the body death of Christ we don't know that. We know the blood death of Christ the one that Romans 1 to 5 we don't know the body death of Christ Romans 6 to 8. So we know the blood death of Christ and because he had done the body death it could operate on us and Satan could come and take us out because really Satan's out we know that.

So because it's been done it could operate so we can be born again. Now we're born again we know we're new now that's not to get our first dawning like it's something isn't us it's becoming you isn't we know that's not us we're born of the sin.

If you're born again you know something is happening is with you you've found out something you thought the faith was more or less was you Satan pushed you you thought you were comfortable with your sins and all that which you were and you're a slave being a slave self-control but you thought you were but you recognized Satan's power but you thought you were pretty comfortable so partly Satan partly you now this here isn't you.

You've begun something that the person doing something isn't me a new nature something about me and our love and the peace isn't me. That's what I see now because I've been rooted in this false this lie of an independent self which is really negative negative in God.

It looks like the Satan negative self self control because I've been rooted there and Satan's negative with me now I think I'm the person and Christ now I'm a bit confused. If the person has Christ yes I see that a person with the Holy Spirit.

I see that it's a person with Christ. A person who has Christ is a person in Christ. It's still a person or Christ in me. It's still a person. I've picked up that person which is my problem. I may have so far asked Christ in me.

That's wonderful Holy Spirit. That isn't me. I know that there is a thing which has to be me. That's my lie because it's Satan's lie. Satan was expecting this higher self which is negative form of God as God did to us because the whole of the last radical desperation is the destruction of the very basis of our selfhood our life built on our selfhood.

That's why radical before we're saved. Of course it's built on selfhood. I'll be the best I can I'll do what I want. Satan admittedly is me. I won't get saved because I've got a me. I want to preserve my me.

There's a Satan in it and I preserve that's my condition. Now we've got God there but we still think it's a me who's a lost sinner and become a saved saint. I'm still preserving a me and don't understand my good self means a bad my bad self because all self is self fulfilled.

The good self is better than the bad self. There was seven when I would do good even the seven. Now that's what caught the church off and the whole church thinks yes I have Christ's self. I say they talk about saving churches.

I'm not even talking about the many precious people who aren't even saved in churches. They thank God there are millions who are saved in churches but see Christ and me. I have Christ as a me and of course now I was devoted to Satan.

Now I'm devoted to Christ. Of course I didn't know I was Satan. I didn't know I expressed Satan. I was devoted to Satan Christ. So I reversed my devotiveness to Christ and there's a me and all I had was to be a better kind of me expressing Christ.

So I'm a self conscious me not just Christ conscious me. I'm not just a Christ conscious me a me expression. I'm a self consciousness me and Christ. Me in Christ. Christ in me me and it isn't a me as.

A me as means it isn't me as he. A me in means there's me as he. Him in me means he in me. Me as means he in me. I don't say that. That's the last part. I don't say that. So I don't. That's why one John says every year so are you every walk you walk.

John had the ad. One John had the ad. Now this is the point. And we built up community. We built our churches our societies and the whole way it goes when this goes because your way is relating yourself to a society which possesses Christ.

So you're in the prayer meetings and you know it's good and all that. They're all part of the strategy. It's a me expressing Christ. In the old days it was a me expressing faith. And you got out of that one anyhow and you come to Jesus and got saved.

Now it's a me expressing Christ. All you have is that this is the death of death. You die at your church. You die at your pastor. You die at your people. And hardly any pastor will take this because it'll destroy the congregation.

The congregation won't take it. So if there's one come up on me and pray more and do more. It's me and Christ. It's this Christ. It's me and Christ. It's Christ. Because that's me I've got to express preserving me preserving Christ perhaps unless my church is built on that unless my church is built on that it destroys churches.

That's why Jesus couldn't just destroy law. He destroyed Judaism destroyed the whole system of priesthood sacrifices destroyed the whole being destroyed. It's no wonder they crucified him. Obviously that's a question of true law.

So using existing being we're saying you know now that's the whole tragedy of the Holocaust. Why the Holocaust tragedy. Because nobody went crazy. Holocaust is a tragedy. They burned. It's good to burn but they didn't know.

They burned Jesus because they didn't know him. Let them burn us. We'll burn Jesus. We have a great Holocaust. We have a great. We'll go to gas chain and prison. So they couldn't do it because they don't know Jesus.

They went crying ja ja ja. So they say pity them. You shouldn't have to pity them if they knew Jesus you shouldn't praise them being burned for Jesus isn't it. So why is it so important. They don't know Jesus.

Because the whole Jewish race don't know Jesus. Show up show up. Not one I don't know one person went crazy in the gas chain so we would didn't go crazy in the gas chain we would. It's great if you talk about Jesus they don't know him because they hold him as a Christian and that's the problem is that it destroys the humanism.

Jesus is radical and destroys your christ life that's your problem even if you remain in the church you know you are uncomfortable and they are too you know it God bless you you may even can be a lover you may even can but you're uncomfortable and they are uncomfortable you are not part of them.

Pray more, work more, do more, you know it, and the pastor knows it. I tell you what, I'm an uncomfortable Christian, it's obvious, it's obvious. You guide your church. Don't do that, you'll hurt it. Church is Christ's church, save as you can, bless as you can, bless it.

But you have to do it before they hurt on you. I have to do my own mission. My own mission goes far, far beyond mostly. My mission is to follow the Son of God. Only hardly anything. I'm sold out now. Don't even ask the people.

Lord, let me be the only living being. I'm out. They can't take. It's not a bunch of people serving you. You're serving yourself in our form. They can't take that. They can't die out to be missionaries.

They can't do it. I tell you it's a desperate feeling. It's such a cold way of being. I love my way of being. I love them. They're great stuff, they're for Jesus. I'm not going to leave them until they finally kick the ass altogether.

I'd win them. But I'd win them with a sore heart. Because they don't. The probability they don't know. And when I walk in, they'll never ask me about me. They'll ask me about big conventions. And I talk about Japan or Africa or Colombia.

And they love to talk. They'll never say, what about you? They have a prayer center going on now. I say, Dr. Pratt gets to bleeding. They don't take me. So they get to pray certain hours a day. And they've been listed out.

Certain people pray for. Well, four of them are caught. They've given my name to pray for. Four of my precious people I know very well. I worship. But they did tell me that these dear four people pray for me.

So I looked back. Oh, I said, praise God. I told them, pray me out of error, will you? Please tell me what the error is. I said, I told them, please pray me out of my error. Please tell me what the error is.

Not one answer. They dance. That's why they don't have me. They dance have me. They get blown up. They dance have me. Seriously, this is my own. And my precious work, I tell you. I know all the mystical fathers.

They sold out for Jesus. They don't, no salary. No, no. They can sell. No salary. They're nothing. They're living with Jesus. Selling their lives out in Africa for Jesus. Yet they don't know this. They don't know this.

They fight it. It's true. They and Jesus. They and Jesus. Jesus. Jesus. That's a death. The death of God died. They have to die. The death of Jesus died. You might say. And so you see, you don't find death until you are desperate about yourself.

Until you can't make, as a redeemed self now. As a church member, not unpaid. Until you're desperate as a redeemed self. It didn't work. What I was just working with, with the research, you know that.

You've been saved. You've been spiritually healed. You've had the gifts. It hasn't quite worked there. It hasn't yet quite worked. Something is missing. Something is missing. It would be easier. If you had the abiding life, it would be Christ abiding you.

Something is missing. Because it's not the abiding Christ. It's abiding you is the problem. That's the problem. But you did. But you are a beautiful self. So made that you express God. But you're only an expression.

The whole universe is only an expression. And because you're only acting by negativity, you have to have the wrong expression first. Then only. I have to express the heavenly power of God. And activate Himself.

Satan. Satan is human. Jesus is human. It's how it is. And you have to realize that all that self has to be Satan as you. And you live in the air. It's not a me. It's not the Satan in you. It's Satan as you.

Now when you're Satan as you, you need to take Christ as you when you look up. And when you know there's other aspects to come, to the body. Then you've made sin. You've made like God. Sin is expression.

Sin is human expression. It's Satan's sin. And Jesus has made that. Not for us. It's not for us. You say you've made sin. So God will take it in. God will take it in. You died as made sin. Outweigh that sin.

And Christ's great death. Outgoes the spiritual body. Into His own sin. That sin. So it's the body of death. Because it was Christ. It was Satan as us. Christ as us. To the body of death of Jesus Christ.

So we're back on the cross. And in that cross, you're involved in the bottom. You can't do it because you're in your own church. But you are. Same in Japan. Because you'll find they'll do something to you.

As I say. All my whole being is in my work. I've spent 60 years in my work. After Africa, I live. I live in these places. Because I've lived my life. After Africa. I live in those places. Talk to me. Never ask me.

I've spent hours talking about Japan. And West Africa. And this. I'm so interested. They've never danced. And what about you? They know they dance. There's something there. We should catch them. So they live nicely with me.

And share about my work with me. I long to hear. I eat up all I can about what is Africa. It's my life. And India. And Indonesia. It's my life. They never talk about me. They dance. Because I'm an outsider.

Lost the camp. Damned the people. So I love to bring our demons into the end. Why is that happening? And to a point, they do happen. But only on that level. Except for just one of them. This is his level.