We've Forgotten How to Blush — David Wilkerson

The Loss of Shame and True Brokenness

We have forgotten how to blush. Jeremiah 6 look at verse 13. Gonna read verse 13 Beginning for from the least of them even unto the greatest of them everyone is given to covetousness and. From the prophet even to the priest everyone deal of falsely.

For they've healed also the hurt of the daughter of my people slightly saying peace peace when there's no peace. Were they ashamed when they had committed abomination. Nay, they were not at all ashamed neither could they blush.

Therefore they shall fall among them that fall at the time when I visit them. They shall be cast down. Say it the Lord. Now in this church allowed to say amen any time during the preaching. Just be careful.

You don't shovel it off on somebody else. Jeremiah in Chapter sees a horrible condition. Condition falling upon God's people. They were living behind a facade of superficial peace and security. They were saying peace peace security, but covetousness and greed had overcome their hearts and they were Camouflaging their hurts by a phony brokenness.

There was no true broken. It's a lot of tears, but no real brokenness that superficial tears superficial repentance superficial healing. God's people had lost their sense of shame and grief for sin. Our sense of a loss of grief for sin in society in the church and in their lives in their homes.

They no longer felt God's hatred or wrath against sin. Sin became just another one of those things just one of those things a weakness. With their shame when they said no, they were not at all ashamed neither could they blush.

Now Holy Ghost blushing is not simply red cheeks. It's not just modesty. You look up the word and it's very powerful. It means to feel wounded to feel ashamed. Devastated grieved and not for self but because the name of Jesus and the honor of the Lord has been trampled.

It's a wounded spirit not because we have been hurt but because God has been hurt. That's what blushing is all about according to the scripture. Now there was a terrible moral breakdown in Israel the house of Judah at this time God's people are turning away from the truth.

Jeremiah's Seared Message and Israel's Rebellion

They sat under a searing message. I want you to go to Jeremiah 5 and I want you to read with me verses 1 to 3. Jeremiah 5 1 to 3. They they heard the searing message and they began to rebel against it.

Run you to and fro through the streets of Jerusalem and see now and know and Seek in the broad places thereof if you can find a man. If there be any that executed judgment that seeketh the truth and I'll pardon it and though they say the Lord liveth surely.

They swear falsely. Oh Lord are not thine eyes upon the truth. Thou hast stricken them. That they've not grieved you consumed them that they've refused to receive correction. They have made their faces harder than a rock they've refused to return.

All right, not only were they beginning to harden themselves under a searing message of truth. The scripture said they in spite of this hard message is coming. They were still committing adultery. They were romping with harlots.

They were named as horses after each other's wives. It's like you can find that in verse 11 chapter 5. It's very clear to the house of Judah. In the house of Judah have dealt very treacherously against me.

For seven how so I pardon thee for this thy children forsaken me sworn by them that are no gods. I fed them to the fool that they committed adultery. That's an I prospered. I blessed them that started committing adultery.

They said under a powerful word in spite of the word coming forth. They still sinned. They assembled themselves by troops at the harlot houses. That's all there in that verse. There was a revolting rebellious spirit rising up in the hearts of Multitudes of God's people and the fear of God that once had began to wane.

Look at verse 23 and 24 in first and chapter 5 verse 23 this people Have in other words developed a revolting rebellious heart that revolting and they're gone. Neither say they in their heart. Let us now fear the Lord our God that giveth rain both to form in the latter in his season.

He reserves under us the appointed weeks of the harvest. Uniquities have turned away these things. Your sins are withholding good things from you. It's all there a revolting spirit. Now believe me folks during the time of these prophecies of Jeremiah.

There was a time of great prosperity. I mean the people were prospering they were being blessed just like in America today. But it became a snare became a trap for them and their very prosperity Caused the spirit of greed and covetousness to overcome them not only in the pew but in the pulpit.

The pulpits were greedy. The scripture Says in fact once you look at verse 27 and 28 It's so much so that the houses became cages of iniquity. The Bible called the prophets said their cages of sin. A house is a cage of iniquity divorce.

Fighting rampant through out Israel at the time. Look at chapter 5 verse 27 beginning to read. As a cage is full of birds. So are the houses full of deceit. Therefore they become great and waxen rich their waxen fat.

They shine when they overpass the deeds of the wicked. They judge not the cause of the fatherless yet. They prosper in the light of the needy. Do they not judge? All right, follow me very closely, please.

God warned Israel and Judah to heed the instructions of the word that was coming forth. Said no matter how searing no matter how hard. God says you must eat it or I'll depart from you. There's a strong word here.

Jeremiah 6 verse 8. Be thou instructed O Jerusalem. Lest my soul depart from thee lest I make thee desolate a land not inhabited. What God is saying? I'm speaking clearly. Nobody can doubt what I'm saying.

It's coming forth with anointing. It's coming forth with power. It's coming forth with holiness. But who's listening? Who is obeying the truth? Look at verse 10. Chapter 8 or chapter 6 verse 10. To whom shall I speak and give warning that they may hear.

They hold their ears uncircumcised. That means they're closing their ears that they cannot hearken. Behold the word of the Lord is unto them a reproach. They have no delight in it. Now look this way, please.

In Hebrew, it means they have become weary of rebuke. They are tired of being exposed and stripped by the searing word of God. Hey people who once sat under the prophets and saying I delight in the word.

It's honey to my mouth. It's strength to my soul. They rejoiced in it they wept over it and now they don't want to hear it anymore. They won't eat it. They won't listen and the scripture makes it very clear.

They have no delight in it anymore. What a read to you don't turn it but only met Nehemiah 9 25 and 26. So they did eat and were filled. Just like in this house the Word of God goes forth and their multitudes that eat to the full.

They eat the Word of God. They become fat. And delight themselves in the great goodness of God. Nevertheless, they're disobedient rebelled against the Oh God. They cast them all behind their backs and they slay their prophets which testify against them to turn them to thee.

And they ring about great provocation. You know, we're still killing the prophets today and we'll show you how in just a moment. We kill them with gossip. We try to take away their soul by demeaning what they say.

I've never admitted to being a prophet. I'm one of his many watchman. So are these gentlemen that minister with us here in this pulpit? We're watchman sat on the wall by the Holy Ghost. Why did they turn away from these hard warnings of the watchman?

It's because they watchman were touching a nerve. They were exposing secret sin idolatry greed covetousness materialism. Fought from the least of them even under the greatest of them. Everyone is given to covetousness from the prophet even to the priest.

Prophet the pew swept away by a spirit of covetousness and then they begin to excuse and justify it. There was nobody that had shame over there was no blessing in the house of blood. There was no blessing in the pulpit.

Folks we don't have the blessing against him in the pulpit anymore. And that's why preachers don't preach against sin. A majority of them do not preach against him because they don't know how. Because there's no blush.

There's no grief of God. God's people turn from the warnings of their prophets and their watchmen and they begin to walk in the imagination of their own heart. Also, I've sent watchmen over you saying hearken to the sound of their trumpet that they said we will not hearken.

Korah's Rebellion Against Moses

Now why would a people who fully understood that God had appointed these watchmen and prophets? They acknowledge God's hand on them. They never once doubted. They never once doubted that God sent them.

But they did not heed. They began to turn away from their prophets and walk in the old world. I heard from God. Well, let me tell you why that how that happens. There's something in common with everyone who turns away from the word of the prophets sent by God.

There's a very clear word in number. Don't guess. New turn to number 16. Go to number 16 with me, please. I'm going to show you something profound frightening. 16th chapter. I Want to show you why people in America today are refusing the word of their watchmen.

Beloved. I'm gonna tell you something the more I prophesy. The more I sense the isolation the more God tells me to prophesy these others prophesy. The more we realize even some of God's people that come to this church will not come back again.

Because they rise up against it. They don't want to hear it. Thank God for you. That's good delight in it. Hallelujah numbers of 16th chapter. Gonna read. I'll start verse 1 now. Korah Kohath and son of Korah Dathan Abiram and on these are four Principal men of the congregation and they rose up.

Verse 2. They rose up before Moses with certain of the children of Israel 250 princes of the assembly famous in the congregation men of renown and they gathered themselves together against Moses. Now the Bible calls Moses a prophet very clearly a prophet and Against Aaron and said unto them.

You take too much upon you. Saying all the congregation are holy every one of them that the Lord is among them. Wherefore then do you lift up yourselves above the congregation of the Lord. And when Moses heard it he fell upon his face.

Now look at me, please. This is the spirit behind all rebellion and rejection of the true prophet warnings of men sent by God. And it's this that rises up in the heart. Wait a minute. And this is said among people in their little gatherings.

It's said in little cliques. It's said publicly. It's. You're not the only one that God speaks to. We also hear from God. We do our holy people. We get God's mind for ourselves, too. You take too much upon yourself you intrude into our lives.

You are lifting yourselves up above the congregation. That was what they said. And Moses fell on his face. Grieved he was not grieved because his authority over them was being questioned because this was a meek man.

He could care less who lived in fact. God had to Absolutely capture and corral him to get him to leave this people. The first didn't even want to go but there was when he went he knew he knew in his heart God placed him.

He had nothing on his heart, but to bring this people into the land of inheritance. And that's the heart of any true watchman or shepherd of God not to seek Submission from people. I don't want authority over anybody's life in this church.

I Don't want you to submit to me. Our pastors are not wanting you to submit to them. We can care less about authority not trying to frighten anybody to die to bring them down under 30. Some you've been in churches where you were about beaten with that kind of thing.

We're not even talking about that that's not even in the same ballpark. We're talking about something deeper in the spirit. Moses fell on his face. They began to grieve. Because he knew that it was not his authority being questioned.

He knew that they had come and gathered themselves against God himself. Because he knew he had that sense of destiny. God put me here. God sent me. I've walked in covenant with him. These people know I have not touched anything of theirs.

I've not heard one. In fact, he said I've not taken anything from this people. Oh God, I've not heard one of them. Verse 15. Moses could say Oh God, these are not my people. This is your church. I have not done any of these works of my own mind.

I've not once stood before this people and just spoken my mind. Every time I stood before these people I've heard from you. I've been chatting with you. I touched the glory I was on the mountain. I came from your presence.

I spoke your mind. They are all gathered as a company together against the Lord. Look at it in verse 11 read it. For which cause both thou and the company are gathered together against the Lord against the Lord.

Heeding the Word of God and the Danger of Rejection

Now look at me please right in the eye. I Don't think the church of Jesus Christ realizes the danger the absolute Danger of not heeding the word of God that comes forth. I Speak against television for example in those who want to go on with the Lord all the way.

And there are people walk out and say well, that's not the final word. That's that's not the word. I received from God. I Don't want to tell you something. It's not even judge you see hearing the word of God from the true prophet or true watchman.

It's not going home and praying and getting your word and then coming to the house of God and compare it to the prophet. Compare it to the priesthood by the Holy Ghost and say how that lines up with what I heard.

I don't receive if it doesn't line up. I don't receive it. That'll send you to hell quicker than any kind of adultery. Because God sets his men in their place first. I didn't want to come to New York City.

I despise the thought of coming back to this city. God had to break my heart again down at 42nd Street. I don't begin to pray. Brother God and brother Bob were working with us and some other missions projects and things that administer conferences.

Bob got his burden on the street. Don broke his heart on these streets. God set us together as a team and said go to New York. We didn't just get together and dream this up folks. The Holy Ghost birthed it.

The Holy Ghost put it all together. That wasn't a soul that wasn't a person that wasn't a church. That wasn't a dollar that was nothing. But we had a few dollars that we would been saving on another project that we put towards this project.

But God sent us his watchman. To a body of believers. He's going to raise up in this house. So I set watchman over you saying hearken to the sound of the trumpet that they said we were not hearken. You know God always stands before his God or David thought that always on his nose he sets on the wall.

He'll stand against the whole world with his shepherds who stand in holiness. But proclaim his true word though everything come against it. The whole congregation came stood against Moses there. 250 of the renowned men along with these four princes came and stood the whole congregation Stood before Moses.

And there was a holy anger rose up in his heart. Then God said get away from there. I'm going to wipe them all out. I'm going to kill them all right now and Moses said God no, and he said Moses get your sensor quick.

Stand between them and God the earth opened up and swallowed faith in the barren. Swallowed that whole company fire fell from heaven and 250 of these who stood against Moses were suddenly consumed by the fire of God.

And Moses falls on his face and said God Mary is real Lord, this is not a matter of my authority. This is a matter of your honor. It's a matter of getting a people into a promised land. Folks, we're here to bring you into holiness.

We're here to see Jesus formed in your heart and nothing else. We've not preached our own mind. We've not taken anything from this people. We've not hurt anyone. We know that God sent us in this place.

I'll tell you something when I hear pastor Don preach like I heard Tuesday. I sit there and tremble when I hear pastor Bob preach. I sit there and tremble because I'm. I'm under the prophets of the watchmen and the shepherds.

I know their lives and I hear a sound from heaven and it touches my heart and I hear it and I obey the living Word of God. Because I'm under authority. I Don't measure what they say by what I have heard.

I measured by the word that they preach. Why are we here? Why this church at this time in this place? We're here to find a body who wants to go on is a holy remnant into the image of Jesus. We're here to tear down all your idols.

We're here to see if there's any fusion in the world with you and we're there to tear that fusion apart. For the sake of your own soul. We're here to weep over you. We're here to guard your soul to call you out of this wicked world.

We're here to uphold the dignity of the cross of Jesus Christ if there's any place where that dignity is not being honored. It's our purpose. It's our job before God. It's our calling to stand up and cry aloud.

No, there's no dignity to it. And that has to do with walking and sin. That has to do with the things of this world. It has to do with every place you touch death. There's a dignity to holiness. There's a dignity to righteousness.

There's a dignity men and women who walk with God separated from the world. You can see it in their walk. You can see it when they talk. There's a dignity to it. You can't produce it. The Holy Ghost emanates it.

Ezra's Shame and the Call to Separate from the World

Wants you to go with me to Ezra the ninth chapter, please Ezra. If you get to Chronicles keep going right. Ezra the ninth chapter. All right. You may think I've gotten off my message busting, but I'm not.

What you know, I'm trying to say listen to me now, please hear it good. You can't blush against sin and tell you're willing to hear a message against it and receive it in delight in it. Receiving that word puts the blush in your heart.

Right the ninth chapter. Beloved, we're not going to make it what's coming to this earth. The judge would think oh, we're not going to make it unless we blush over sin. We're not going to make it. There's got to be some changes.

It's the duty of the watchman to expose all the hideousness of sin and try to bring forth a blush in the Church of Jesus Christ a Holy blush for sin. Ezra had that kind of ministry. I want you to go to the ninth chapter and I want you to read with me verses 5 and 6.

Ezra the ninth chapter and at the evening sacrifice I rose up from my heaviness and having read retort my garment and my mantle I fell upon my knees. I spread up my hands unto the Lord my God and I said, oh my god I'm ashamed and blush.

Now a new American standard says embarrassed, but the same thing. I'm ashamed and I'm embarrassed. I'm ashamed and King Jesus and I blush to lift up my face to be my God. For our iniquities are increased over our head and our trespass is growing up into the heaven.

Why is this watchman so devastated that he falls on his face and he can't even look up at God. What's devastated this prophet? Tell you what, he was overcome with a sin that was creeping in to the only one that God had left on earth.

Now remember they've been in captivity. They came out of captivity. Remember there was almost three million Jews that came out of captivity and now only a remnant is left to go back. In fact, the scripture said there were only forty two thousand three hundred and thirty seven of them and with children.

No more probably than fifty thousand which represents less than two percent of those that came out of Egypt. A small Remnant has gone back to establish the testimony. That little remnant of under fifty thousand represents God's testimony on earth and God's light and that light is being thwarted that that testimony is being attacked by the devil and there's a sin creeping into the remnant.

Now even the remnant and The reason this man is on his face. Israel the remnant had gone back. And they had began to mix with the world. They began to intermingle with the heathen. They married strange wives in the scriptures.

Strange wives represent anything that can take your heart away from God. A strange wife means anything that has the potential to seduce you away from holiness and They they had intermingled the holy seed had been mixed.

This man had just received a report. In fact, if you look at verse verse 1 now when these things were done. The princes came to me saying the people of Israel the priest the Levites have not separated themselves from the people of the land.

I want you to look at verse 2 where they've taken of their daughters from themselves and their sons. So that the holy seed of mingled themselves with the people of those lands. You wonder why we preach holiness.

But look me in the eye. We stand here without fear and we love you and we we we call this Congregation but God has told us to preach separation of the world without fearing the consequences. Don't fear the conscious preach my word.

And this man saw the intermingling with the world. Look at verse 3 when I heard this thing. I tore my garment my matter. I plucked off the hair of my head and of my beard and I sat down and spotted. These people had no blessing.

Everybody was doing it. It was just one of those things. There's no sense of sin. There was no sense of the wrath of God no judgment against him. No preaching against him. Suddenly a man appears a prophet of God appears in their midst and he doesn't even preach.

He hears this message and he sits in front of the house of God in that wreck. And he begins to weep. He begins to moan. He tears his clothes and he starts plucking out his hair. He starts plucking out his beard.

I Believe you can't do that without a bleeding. What a bloody sight. He said this has become so wicked we cannot stand before God because of these sins. Brother sisters, we're going to stand before God in these last days.

If we're going to have what God has for us, they're gonna have to be some changes made. In all of us in me, especially. I'm not preaching damage. I'm preaching at my heart at your heart, too. I want to talk about some of these changes.

Intensity, Burden, and Spiritual Discipline

Stick with me, please. First of all, we're going to have to get much more serious about the things of God than we have been in the past. We're gonna have to get serious about the things about folks. God means business.

We've been too complacent in America and the church too nonchalant too easygoing. We become spiritually lazy. But I'll tell you something. God begins to do a work when he determines he's going to raise up a remnant to represent this testimony.

In his ultimate purpose on the earth. He raises up the people the sense of intensity and That word intensity means full of heat and passion to feel deeply and seriously about the work and the walk of God.

God is raising up people these last days who hate sin people who trembled at his word. They hear from the holy prophets and watchmen and they don't vacillate. They don't grow lukewarm. They grow more and more intense as the day of the Lord approaches.

Consider this intensity. His passion it gets hurting God his utter hatred for this mixing with the world. Verse four. Then were assembled unto me everyone that trembled at the words of the God of Israel until you saw me somebody who brushes Against and you saw me somebody on the face before God and it'll track every other praying person around them.

It will bring in there's a magnetic pole. Look at in verse four. They then were assembled unto me everyone that trembled at the words of the God of Israel. Because of the transgression of those that have been carried away and I said astonished until the evening sacrifice what a sight.

There's a man. He suddenly appeared in their scene. I've spoken over sin pulling his beard and pulling his hand saying we've seen and we've not been ashamed. They've been no shame for sin and Everybody that had been secret believers everyone who had felt the pain inside their heart and had been silent.

They come out of the closet and they gather around one two three. I can see them sitting in the circle grow some standing and another starts weeping and another starts weeping and they see what she cried About and others say what's the weeping?

And it is said. The word came forth now. Oh God, what should we say? But we've forsaken your commandments. You've commanded your servants by the prophet saying that you go to possess the land. It's an unclean filthy place.

There's abomination everywhere. Filled the one end to another with uncleanness. Therefore do not give your daughters under their sons. Don't give your daughters under their sons neither seek the peace of their wealth that you may be strongly to good of the land.

But for all of this Since we have trespassed. Seeing that our God has punished us less with our iniquities less than we deserve. He's trying to bring deliverance that that's what the word was spread. He's trying to bring good.

We've broken the law. Here's what God said and we're not doing it. Here's what the law said here's what the prophets of preach. Here's what the watchmen have been saying and we're not gonna bang. And they began to weep and it began to spread in the house of God.

I'll tell you what. These are the blessing believers now We have a sense of danger. Whole households of God were cozying up to the world. Strange wives are now standing before the altar. Nobody's blinking an eye about it.

And this man of God knew that the devil's trying to assimilate. Listen, if you're going to cozy to the world be sure the devil gonna sit. He'll assimilate you. He'll swallow you up. The Bible calls it here carried away.

You think you're strong enough you're going to go and be a testimony. No, the Bible said you'll be assimilated. That's why the prophet tore out his hair. What I've seen. Because of the transgression of those who've been carried away.

Look at chapter 10 Verse 1 now when Ezra had prayed when he confessed weeping and castling himself down before the house of God. They assembled him out of Israel. A very great congregation of men and women and children for the people wept very Sore, you know, that's what drew many of you to this church.

Let me back up. To begin to weep and cover sin the Bible said a whole congregation gathered all over Israel.

This is the end of side one. You may now turn the tape over to side two.

Nehemiah, Daniel, and the Birth of a Burden

It's just a year and three quarters now. God is going hundreds and hundreds of people. That's why some of you came. There was a grief in your heart. God put it there. You wanted to walk in holiness and you wanted to hear it you wanted to hear a message.

It was straight. You didn't want to compromise the man. You heard enough of that. That's why you came to this church. You wanted to share God's grief for sin. Turn to turn right to Nehemiah. I'll show you his intensity.

Here's a man who learned to blush. His intensity is found. Nehemiah one. Look at first. Verse four. It came to pass when I heard these words that I sat down and wept and I mourn certain days. Nehemiah 1 verse 4.

I heard these words I sat down and wept and mourn certain days and fasted and prayed before the God of heaven and I Said I beseech the O Lord God of heaven the great terrible God to keep us covenant mercy for them that love him and observe his Commandments.

Let your ear now be attentive in thine ears eyes open that thou mayest hear the prayer of thy servant. Which I prayed before thee now Day and night for the children of Israel thy servants and confess the sins of the children of Israel.

Which we have sinned against thee. Both I and my father's house have sinned. All the intensity of this at these men. Listen, look at me, please. Where did he get that burden. Where did he get that broken heart.

It must be so God came down and dumped it like a bomb. It wasn't Nehemiah just doing his duty and saying I'm going to be faithful to you God. If there's anything you want me to do you show me. No, I'll tell you where he got that burden.

He asked for it. He asked for it Nehemiah. Look at verse chapter 1 verse 2 and had an eye one of my brethren. Came he and certain men of Judah and I asked them. I asked them concerning the Jews that escaped which were left in the captivity and concerning Jerusalem.

He said I asked. And that thing that he asked about so gripped his heart. I tell you what. There are some people that believe that burdens of the Lord burdens for Jews. Burden for college students. Burden for cities.

Burden for a church. A burden for a family. Burden for lost people is something God has to somehow drop down just because you're good. Just because you walk in holiness. No, these were all holy godly men pious walking in covenant.

But not one of them got the burden without nurturing it. You don't get a burden unless you birth it and nurture it. I want to prove it to you go to go to Daniel. You still with me? Do you want a burden from God.

Daniel the ninth chapter. Ninth chapter of Daniel now. You know that Daniel comes right after Ezekiel. Daniel the ninth chapter. Where did Daniel get? His burden. Look at verse 3 9 verse 3 and I set my face unto the Lord God to seek by prayer and supplication.

With fasting and sackcloth and ashes. And I prayed unto the Lord my God and I made my confession said Oh Lord the great dreadful God keeping count of mercy to them that love him to them that keep his commandments.

Now listen closely, please. Let's go to chapter 10 and we'll show it to you. Beginner eat verse 2 in those days. I Daniel was mourning three full weeks. I ate no pleasant bread neither came fresh no wine to my mouth.

Neither did I know it myself at all till three whole weeks were fulfilled. Three whole weeks were fulfilled. Look at verse 8. Therefore I was left alone. And saw this great vision there remained no strength in me for my comeliness was turned in me into corruption.

I retained no strength the beloved. Look at verse 12. Then said he unto me fear not Daniel. For from the first day that God did set their heart to understand and to chasten thyself. Look at that word chastened thyself.

God didn't chase him if he chastened himself. You know what? That means that we're chasing into the context you see I'd probably myself. That's what it means in Hebrew. I'd probably my body boss and I bring my body under subjection.

He said my body didn't want to do this. There was no burden. I would have received look what it says. I chastened myself. You chastened yourself before that God thy words were heard and I'm come for thy words.

Well here, please look this way. God's been showing me David you're never going to get a burden if you're just going to wait for God to drop it in your heart. You're not going to see here in New York.

Not going to see what God wants to do. Until there's a certain kind of chastening, there's a certain kind of discipline. What you shut yourself out. And you say I don't care how my body feels. I don't care who calls.

I'm going into the closet. I'm going to stand. He went into the closet. Nehemiah asked. And he subjected himself. He submitted himself. We begin to weep and mourn all of these men. They saw something of the spirit of God.

They saw something in the burden of the Lord. But every one of them birthed it. Everyone I'm going to tell you what you want God to use. You start weeping. Start praying. Start seeking God. Ezra start weeping.

God sent him to Jerusalem. Nehemiah start weeping. God sent him to be the answer to his prayer. Daniel started weeping. The word of the Lord came to him years ago. I saw a magazine article seven boys indicted for murder.

I wept over the picture. I had an experience like these men. I wept for days. I wept at the store. I said Oh God. What's going on in New York? 26 boys have been murdered by gang fights. 300 gangs in the city 1958.

And I'm a little country preach and I began to weep. I'd fall in my face and crawl under the bed. I couldn't even preach in my church. I'd break down and cry. I wrote in my eyes in the church. You said well Holy Ghost dropped it there.

Oh, he gave me the first tears. But I began to nurture it. I began to pray break my heart. God break my heart. And it was that brokenness that God sent me to the city. You talk about intensity and blessing and mourning.

He mourned three whole weeks. We become like little children with short attention spans now. We're so spoiled we chafe under the burden of intensity. We're always backsliding into old ways of indulgence and spiritual laziness.

You consider Noah. Can you imagine a man living a hundred and twenty years on the intensity of a burden of judgment when the whole world is laughing? At him for 120 years. He has to stand against the whole world with this burning fire in him.