The Omnipresence of God — Roy Daniel

So, let's start the sermon this morning. And this morning I'm going to look at something that's really exciting to me. It's a topic that has led through the ages to many people being radically saved, to Christians have been coming on fire for God, and in general to lives being saved because it's God-centered.

It's of the attributes of God. I'm going to look at three different attributes of God that are very biblically, intrinsically connected to each other and how this applies to some of our life. This topic that I'm going to speak on this morning, you could preach ten sermons on it and you wouldn't have touched the tip of the iceberg of what God is trying to say.

And it's life-changing application. And so I'd like to look at these three attributes that are so connected to each other. But before I do, and before I pray, I'd like to mention a little story about one of my many cousins.

And this cousin had a father who was in special forces in South Africa in the old days, one of those army guys, and he was very strict. Now, I don't know about you, perhaps some of you remember the days I did this when I was a child.

I used to get a little scared in my room in the dark and wonder if there was somebody under my bed. Not always, but it happened. And I generally was too scared to get out of the bed to go to my dad in case the guy under my bed would grab him by the legs.

But there are many people who have admitted to this, if they're honest, that there was a stage as a little child that they wondered, is there somebody under my bed? Now, in South Africa, that can be a reality.

We have a high crime rate, highest rape rate per thousand people of any country in the world. I have many times had people in the house I was staying, sometimes with hatchets, guns. I've been involved in shootouts, I just didn't have a gun.

The people were shooting each other in a house where they came to kill us. And it's something that you experience in South Africa from time to time. But my cousin was sitting on his bed and he was suspicious that there was somebody under his bed in the dark.

So he got off his bed and he walked to his dad's room, he knocked on the door, went in, and he's sleeping. Daddy had to wake up and he said, Daddy, I think there's somebody under my bed. And his dad was stripped.

He said, Son, you get back to bed right now. So his son went back to bed, but a little later, his son came to the door again, knocked on the door, came in, and said, Daddy, I think there's somebody under my bed.

And his dad said, Get back to bed. And then a third time or so, he came there and he knocked on the door, he came in his father's room, he went to his father, who was a very strong, strapping, soldier type guy who could beat people up pretty easily.

And he said to his father, Father, I really think there's somebody under my bed. And his father said, Listen, I'm coming with you, but if there's nobody under your bed, you will get the spanking of your lifetime.

And so he came there, and he came to the bed, and he looked underneath, and lo and behold, there was somebody under his bed, a very scared thief. He dragged him out and basically took him outside. So when your son comes to you and says, I think there might be someone under your bed, his bed, sometimes you should go and check it out.

But you know what's very sad? In the darkness of Christians and people's lives, unsaved, unsaved people's lives, you will find, often, so many things you'd never expect. And with that, let's go over to prayer.

Dear Father, I thank you so much for thy word and what thou art, the attributes of God that thou art holy, that thou art loved, that thou art kind, that thou never changes, that you are just and equal.

God's Omnipresence, Omniscience, and Vision

Now, in preparation for this sermon, it was a few months back, I was sitting down, and a guy came up to me, and he said, Roy, I'm sick. I need you to preach. And so I started preparing a sermon, and this is the sermon that I prepared.

Basically, I've changed it a little bit. And he suddenly came out of his sickness, and he preached. So you guys are going to hear what I basically would have preached at that church. And it's on my heart for this meeting.

But the three attributes I mentioned is simply this, that God is everywhere, that God sees everything, and that God knows everything. God is everywhere, God sees everything, and God knows everything. You'll find this, of course, in the Bible, the word of God.

Psalm 139, verse 8, we read concerning God being everywhere, these words, if I ascend up into heaven, thou art there. If I make my bed in hell, thou art there. Now before we go on, I'd just like to, because this is a wonderful topic, but I'd just like to perhaps clear up or mention something concerning error in the church and in Eastern religion such as Hinduism.

And when we say that God is everywhere, we don't mean that everything is God. Hinduism basically comes out of the idea in Eastern religions that there was one supreme God who basically split into two, and they had a relationship like a husband and wife would have with each other, and all different, everything came out of that.

And so every single one of us and everything out there, everything that's living, is God. It's a part of God, the original blob that was God. And therefore, that's why we can find God through a tree, and we can experience God through a tree.

And that's why Hinduism believes that the answer to karma, which is reincarnation, where you get punished for the wrong things you've done and come back as a Baptist preacher if you were Methodist, and basically the answer to that is that you live a very good life and you do rituals and you come to the point where you realize, I am God.

Now you can't just say, I'm God. You have to realize it spiritually, and that's why they do rituals and everything, because they're hoping one day to either come back as something better, but ultimately to be enlightened, to be set free from reincarnation, and to come to the point where they know that they know that I am God.

And so one of the first things you have to explain to a Hindu, if you want to bring the gospel to them, and explain to them the difference between Christianity and Hinduism, is simply that God sustains all things, and we find this in Colossians 1, verse 16 and 17, everything spiritually.

God is not everywhere spiritually. He sustains everything physically, but He's not in the heart of man spiritually. They think we are God. God is so there that we are God. We understand from Isaiah 59, verse 1 and 2, that God is sustaining my life, He's everywhere, He can see my heart, He can see all things, that there's a separation between us spiritually and God.

It says, the Lord's hand is not shortened that you cannot save. Now God's not short, He can get everywhere, He is everywhere, but your iniquities have separated between you and your God. So the first point we have is that God is everywhere, but not spiritually in the heart of man, although you can see that.

God Sees Everything

Okay, Isaiah, then the second thing is God sees everything. That's beautiful. Hebrews 4, verse 13, a famous verse in the Bible, says these words, neither is there any creature that is not manifest in His sight, but all things are naked and open unto the eyes of Him with whom we have to do.

Do you know what's very interesting? I said these attributes of God are connected, and we find this in the Bible, it's not just something that I say. Jeremiah 23, verse 24, says, can any hide himself in secret places that I shall not see him?

And then God gives a reason why. He said, do not I fill the heaven and earth, saith the Lord. And so what God's saying is, because I'm everywhere, you can't hide from me. I see everything because I'm everywhere.

Three attributes of God that are very much connected. God is everywhere, God sees everything, and then God knows everything. 1 John 3, verse 20, God who is greater than our heart knoweth all things. God knows all things.

Some people actually try to prove that Jesus Christ is not God, because they say that Jesus did not know all things. Jesus said in Mark 13, verse 32, that only the Father knew the time of His second coming.

And so they use that as an argument against God. Muslims and Jehovah's Witnesses will use the argument that Jesus Christ said that His Father is greater than Him to say that, look, He's not equal with God.

And the answer to that and to the fact that Jesus said He didn't know the time of His second coming is very simple. It's found in Hebrews 2, verse 7 -9. We see that He became lower than the angels so that He could suffer death for a little time.

And we see in Philippians that He thought it not robbery to be equal with God, but became obedient even unto death. In other words, He was equal to God, but He came for a short time in submission to His Father.

And in a sense, He was less than His Father, but totally and utterly God at that time, and that He was in submission to His Father. So, with that in mind, the fact that God is everywhere, sees everything, and knows everything, let's just ponder the fact that God ponders our hearts.

Proverbs 5, verse 21, and 21, verse 2 says, For the ways of man are before the eyes of the Lord, and He pondereth all his goings. Everything that you ever do in your heart and deeds, God is thinking about.

And we read in verse 2, every way of a man is right in his own eyes, but the Lord pondereth the hearts. God thinks about your heart. And there's a stupid question that evil people ask. We find this in the Bible, in Psalm 73, verse 11.

And they say, How doth God know? And is their knowledge in the Most High? They talk this of their evil deeds, which they do in the dark. They say, Does God know? I mean, we know the answer to that question.

But people actually ask that question, a very stupid, stupid question, in light of who God is, the fact that He's everywhere, that He sees all things, and that He knows all things, not only spatially across the world and in our hearts, but from the beginning of time and into the future.

God knows everything. You know, my granny was very clever. I was a little boy, and my wife tells me I still have this problem, that when I do something wrong, I look guilty. And supposedly, when I was a little kid, I looked very guilty.

Now, I didn't know this. And I remember doing something wrong. I cannot remember what that wrong thing was. But as a little boy, I was at my granny's and grandpa's farm, and I was running down that long passage, and suddenly my granny stopped me, and she looked at me.

Now, I knew I'd done something wrong, and I hoped she wouldn't find out. But I had nothing on me to show that to her. And she looked down at me, and she said, Roy, what have you done? And I looked up at her, and I remember, I'll never forget this.

I thought, How did you know? And obviously, I was looking something like this. But I was very impressed with my granny at that stage. I could not believe it. I blurted out and confessed and said, Granny, yeah, I did this or that.

And it was like, wow, how did you know? But she just had those eyes in the back of her head, according to my little heart. You all know the story or the stories or the illustration of the little boy who's told by his mother and father, you cannot eat the cookie.

And then the little child looks and puts his hand over his eyes, and he takes a cookie. And he eats it. And the whole point is, he thinks if I can't see people, then they can't see me. Pretty stupid. But you'll be amazed at how many people do that, what a little child thought would work.

In Africa, and this is a pandemic, epidemic, whatever you want to call it, millions of people are taught this principle by their parents, that if nobody saw you, then you didn't do it. It's the African culture to a great degree in many different countries.

You can be a missionary for many years and not know this because they'll never tell you until you dig very deep and find out what they do. They'll often, not always, put a little child at a table. And they'll starve that child for three days.

And then after starving that child for three days, they'll put food in front of that little hungry child. And they'll look away from the child. And if the child at that stage eats, it's fine. But if they start turning their head and look and they see the child eating, they smack the child in the face.

And then they look away again. And so that child has to learn that when I'm not looking, you can do it. But when I am looking, you can't do it. And they teach so many children this. It's a very big problem.

In stores in South Africa, you'll see some Africans, well, Africans, not all of them, but they'll basically, I suppose you see this in America too, but you'll have the owner of the store looking and this man will be standing next to something he wants to steal.

And so he looks and he sees the people looking and he'll stand still. But as the people look away, his hand starts to go out. And as the people look back, his hand starts to go towards himself. And you can actually look like a robot going back and forth because they've been taught this.

And you'll only take it when he thinks that you're not looking. At school, some guys got expelled when I was at public school in South Africa, some Africans. And they had rich parents. And they'd stolen a whole lot of stuff.

They didn't need to steal it because they were rich. But it turned out, when they caught the kids and they took them before the teachers and they were talking to them about it, that the same cultural thing among many Africans in South Africa was the problem.

They honestly thought they'd never done anything because nobody saw them. They don't remember anybody seeing them. And so even as rich kids, they had this cultural thing. One missionary had read Ray Comfort's Hell's Best Kept Secret.

And the fact that you have to use the Ten Commandments, which, of course, is very effective because it's in the Bible. But at the end of the day, he was so excited. He had been a druggie before he got saved.

And he was walking down the street, going from door to door, asking people if they were saved. And I suddenly got a phone call. And it was from my friend. And he said, Roy, come. He was in a state. He said, I don't know what to do.

I really don't know what to do. This woman is terrifying that I'm trying to witness to. So he told me where he was. I walked down the street. I eventually came to the house that he was in. I came into the house.

And there was this African lady sitting. And my friend looked at me. And he said, Roy, I've been through all of the Ten Commandments. And I've been through all the hearts application of it. And this lady hasn't broken one of them.

And she was dead on it. And so what we had to explain to her is that just because nobody saw you doing it, especially us, doesn't mean you didn't do it. And that was a revelation to her. Of course, an irritating revelation.

God’s Knowledge Leads People to Salvation

Otto Koenig, how many of you know the Pineapple Story? I'm sure most of you do. Remember something that he said that was so interesting in Papua New Guinea? He said that one of the biggest or most probably the most important thing that could be revealed by God through truth to those natives was the fact that God sees in the dark.

He said, when they realized that, when they said, your God is big, He sees. And that when we're in the dark, and Otto Koenig says, most of the most evil sin out there gets done in the dark. He said this was a huge revelation to them.

And it's very helpful in people coming to a saving knowledge of Jesus Christ and recognizing God as God is the fact that God sees, God knows, and that God is everywhere. And we find this in Scripture.

We find people getting saved because God knows. We find it in many portions of Scripture. And I'd like to give a few to you this morning. One would be Nathanael. In John 1, verse 45 to 50, we see that Philip went to Nathanael and talked to him about the one that Moses spoke about in the law and the prophets, Jesus of Nazareth.

And he was a bit skeptical as he sat there and he said, can any good thing come out of Nazareth? And Philip said, come and see. And so he'd never obviously heard of this Jesus. And he came or met this Jesus and he came and he met Jesus and Jesus said something absolutely amazing.

Behold an Israelite indeed in whom is no guile. And Nathanael was surprised. You know why? Because Jesus was acting as if he knew him. And he'd never met Jesus before in his entire life. And so he asked the question, whence knowest thou me?

And Jesus answered and said, before that Philip called thee, when thou wast under the fig tree, I saw you. And when Nathanael realized this man knows me even from afar, he said, Rabbi, thou art the Son of God.

What led to this? What went from skepticism saying as a person who had never met Jesus, well, you know what good thing can come out of Nazareth to the next moment saying, you are the Son of God. I'll tell you it was one thing that Jesus showed him.

I know you. That was it. There was a woman at a well in John chapter 4 and she thought that Jesus was a Jew. A little later she thought he was a prophet. And a little later after that she realized that he was the Messiah.

What changed? How did she go from believing Jesus was a Jew to a prophet to the Messiah? Well, because he asked her a question as if he didn't know. Go call thy husband and come hither. She said, I don't have a husband.

He said, thou said, well, my own words. You've had five husbands and the one you have now is not your husband. And suddenly she realized, this guy knows me. And do you know what she said when she went back to her village?

She said, come and see a man which told me all things that ever I did. Do you know what led to her salvation? Jesus showed her. I know you. Zacchaeus. Luke 19 verse 5. And when Jesus came to the place, he looked up and saw him and said unto him, Zacchaeus, make haste and come down, for today I must abide at thy house.

There was a little man climbing up a tree, looking over the people, trying to see Jesus. Just a number, hoping to see this man as he walked past. And as Jesus walked past, one word changed his life forever.

The word Zacchaeus. Because suddenly he realized that he was not just a number to God, but that this man walking past him knew him by name. And very soon after that, he utterly repented, followed God and made right concerning his sins.

You know, our kids love the story of Jonah, mostly because that's the story my wife tells them over and over again when we don't do other Bible stories. And we remind the children so often, and one day they'll get it.

You can't run away from God. He's everywhere. You want to go to Tarsus? He's out there on the sea. He's pretty powerful too. You can do stuff that you can't believe while you're trying to run away from him.

He's underneath the sea. He's above the sea. He's in the heaven of heavens. He's in the depths of hell. He is everywhere. He knows, he sees, and he's everywhere. I'm not going to go this morning because I don't have time into how you can use this in evangelism.

That would be more for a Christian sermon on this topic. It is a wonderful thing to use in evangelism. You can. You can't walk up to people and say, by the way, I happen to know that you've had five husbands and the person you're with right now is not your husband.

But you can actually show Muslims that God knows them. You can show religious people and atheists that God knows them. And there are ways to do that. And I've seen in applying this to people's lives and just the general person out there, how you can show them and prove to them that God knows them.

I've seen people getting radically saved which is a blessing, but I don't have time for that this morning, so let's carry on with this sermon. Man can fool man but God is no man's fool. Little Glenn, my little son, we went to an Indian family this year and Glenn was playing with some of the toys.

Now Glenn, little boy, obviously, came out of the house, got into our car and I noticed something very strange about Glenn. His chest was like a muscle builder. It was sticking out. And what he'd done is he liked the toys he was playing with and he knew that he wasn't allowed to take it for some reason and he basically had stuffed it into his shirt hoping that nobody would notice as he smiled in the car that he was stealing.

You know, he thought that he could fool people but unfortunately his chest was a lot different to what it was before, so we had to take it out and deal with that situation. Glenn was once, and I love little Glenn, but I gave him an apple and I said, we're at this place where there's lots of animals and stuff and a nice little holiday home and there's this big house and lots of grass around it and I said, Glenn, go give this to Ruth.

I don't know where she is. She might be at the back of the house and so he took it and he was very excited to get it to Ruth and he ran around the house but something happened on the way around. He didn't find Ruth, but he got hungry and he ran in that very short time, about 30 -40 seconds as he was running around that house he came around the other side and he said, Ruth's not there, but I looked down at the apple and there was this big bite like, you know, Apple iPhones.

And he thought, because I couldn't see him, that I wouldn't know but there was some evidence. It was a bit obvious. You know, I was once sitting in my car in South Africa, my old car, and I remember sitting, we'd just been shopping, it was late at night, it was dark, and there was a car next to us and they were laughing, they had bad music and they opened up their windows and they called me and I opened up my windows and I said, hi, and they laughed at me and they said, you've got the most wonderful car, and it was a 30-something year old car, but they said, it's absolutely amazing and we love your hubcaps.

Now I didn't know they'd stolen my hubcaps. Now this is brazenness. After stealing the hubcaps you speak to the person about it in a joke. So I had no idea, being Roy Daniels, they were saying you know, your hubcaps are amazing and I said, yeah, they are and they said, we'd like to buy them, can we buy them?

I said, well, unfortunately they're not for sale and they laughed and they drove off and I looked out and all my hubcaps were gone. Let me just know that you can fool me, but you can't fool God. Deal.

Sin in the Dark and the False Appearance of Righteousness

Moody was once asked, what is character? Moody replied, character is what a man is in the dark. There was a preacher that talked of a boy, and this is a pretty famous illustration. I've spoken to a few people here and they can't remember it, but I remember one preacher preaching this once and he talked about how he came to a house and there was this boy and as I remember the story, I couldn't find the sermon to fact check, but as best as I can remember, the boy, the mother started talking about this child and saying how wonderful he is.

He dresses conservatively, he only listens to hymns, he reads his bible for hours and when he's got his earphones on it's just these hymns, all these CDs stacked up that are so wonderful, listening to those old hymns and sermons and the preacher was saying, yes, yes and that's interesting and after the woman walked out, he went into the boy's room and he came to where the earphones were and he saw that there was a wire and it went behind the bed to where the rock music was and he found magazines with evil stuff in it and he realized this child is lying to its parents and lying to its church and being a wonderful conservative Christian, but in the dark it's a sinner.

I remember coming to a church in South Africa, I won't mention the town and I remember going in front of this father and this father was a minister and he was so proud of his son, not in a bad sense, he loved the fact that his son loved God and that he read his bible and he witnessed and I'd just seen his son smoking behind his back with the rebels of the church.

I remember you get people who have drunken parties, you know where people love to have drunken parties is where there's an old man who's deaf on their property. You can fool old men, you can't fool God.

I remember one Chinese person years back, I'd saved up a few years and when I called my life savings every few years he stole it he fooled me you know what I told him on the phone I said, you can't fool God.

He got angry, he swore at me he said, don't bring God into it Tyndall, this led to somebody dying, Henry Phillips I think it was pretended to be a Christian, you know the bible says we're in peril among false brethren not because they're going to infiltrate the church and they're going to bring worldliness into the church, not only that but because they will even lead to your death.

Tyndall believed, a godly man believed that a person who called himself a Christian, who acted as a Christian was saved and it led to him being betrayed and dying. You can fool an old man, you can fool me you can fool your parents, you can fool preachers, but you cannot, you cannot you will not fool God.

B .H. Shadook wrote in the judgment mourning hymn, and oh, what a weeping and wailing, when the lost were told of their fate, they cried for the rocks and the mountains they cried but their prayers were too late.

Hebrews 4 verse 13 mentioned already, neither is there any creature that does not manifest in his sight, but all things are naked and open unto the eyes of him with whom we have to do. You can't fool God on the judgment day, trust me on the judgment day you will stand before God and you will try to lie and it won't work because he you can lie to me, I've had people that I found out later they were lying to me, they had such a nice little face, twinkly eyes saying Roy, this is what happened, and I believe them, being Roy Daniel, but you can't do that to God it's not going to work, and I'd like to be honest this morning, I'd like to talk about my secret life before I was saved, there's nothing terrible, I was never on drugs, I never slept around, I never did anything extremely evil enough to go to hell, but I would like to tell you a little bit about myself, because it does help occasionally to be honest does that make sense?

One preacher I was with recently said, Roy, it's so easy to talk about stuff 12 years back but what about a few days back that's much harder. Well, I'm going to speak about things many years back, and other sermons I speak about things a few months back that wasn't as bad obviously as when I was unsaved.

I was saved right about at the age of 19 years old, and I'd like you to notice something in the Bible, it says, train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not depart from it, my dad and my mom read us Bible every evening they spanked us they disciplined us, they trained us, they taught us the Bible and to the best of their ability through the grace of God, they lived Christ they won our heart.

My mother was my tooth mouse my dad used to give me ice cream and sing me to sleep but I'd like you to notice something before you're saved even if you're trained up by godly parents you have a sinful heart.

Ezekiel 36 verse 26 says these words a new heart also will I give you. I'll take out the heart of stone and I'll give you a heart of flesh, now no matter how much your parents train you, if you have a sinful heart, and I know this cries against what many churches preach it will show itself sometimes until you're saved your parents through no matter what training they give to you cannot change that heart though they can keep it in tow it will show at times.

God knew this, but man did not always know this of me before I got saved. I try to remember back, what is the first thing, I'm sure there was things before this, but as far as my little memory goes, what is the first thing I could remember that I did, that I didn't want my loved ones to know about that would embarrass me because it was behind people's backs, and the first thing I can remember is about age 7 when I stole my first tractor, and I didn't really steal it.

I just got in a tractor with some African workers and we drived out, and of course we were going to bring it back up into the hills and I was the driver. I think I crashed my first tractor at age 6 or 7 too, that was pretty cool but I remember driving up into the hills, and I loved my grandfather, and it was his tractor and we turned around and we started going down this long hill in the wild, there was no farms nearby, it was where all the wild stuff was, and we're driving driving driving with my Africans behind me, and yeah, I am and this what do you call in America, a pickup truck thing, comes towards us and it's my grandfather and I got a big problem there's nowhere to go.

I'm driving on a tractor slowly towards him he's driving slowly towards me and there's no place to turn, it's a single lane and I felt my heart go cold, I remember till this day as a 7 year old, I didn't know what to do I knew I'd been caught and there was just no getting out of it, and it was this slow process, it wasn't like we were speeding towards each other, God, I've got a spanking, it's over it was slowly looking at him coming towards me, his eyes, his face oh, it was very bad.

One thing I remember about my grandfather apart from his godly life, was his amazing spankings. I as a young person, I tried to get saved at age 7, didn't get saved there was a ticket to heaven basically that I wanted, and not to go to hell, but I read my bible, I gave out tracts, I tried to stand up as a Christian, but I remember going to school, public school, and one of the things you had to do is you had to sign and these all sound like simple things we're going to get to worse stuff later sorry but you had to have your homework signed, in other words that your parents had to sign that you did your homework, and I forgot that so often, I'd go home have fun, try to do my homework come back to school, and I just forgot to ask my parents to sign it, and you get into big trouble at those public schools they used to spank you with canes and cricket bats and whatever you didn't want to at that, not like American schools nowadays where the children rule the roost and I remember often not knowing what to do, so I used to lie and say, teacher, I need the bathroom, and then I'd go, and I'd go to the bathroom with my homework under my chest, and I'd take a pen with it, and I'd fake my parents signature, and I'd come back, and I'd take it out, and I'd say, yes, my parents signed my homework, now my teacher was not stupid.

I was about 8, 9 years old and she noticed that I went awfully a lot to the bathroom about that time of day, and so she followed me once and I remember sitting there, and I locked the door and I stood on the toilet and she was going there, trying the doors, and my door didn't open, now how stupid, I mean, why would a door not open and the kid's just been there, and he's nowhere to be found but eventually, she obviously seen the humorous side of it.

She called me up and she said, Roy, did you sign this? And I said, no and I felt very very embarrassed and I was in trouble. I remember before I left that particular school, I once there was a suitcase that I had somehow taken somebody else's suitcase I got very embarrassed about it, because they're extremely strict, you don't do stuff like that, I thought they'd think I'm a thief, and so I put the suitcase, and I hid it under a tree, and I went home and I came back to school the next day and they called me, and they said, somebody's found your suitcase and they actually took your suitcase and do you know where that guy's suitcase is?

And I felt so embarrassed this was the last day that I had at that school and I lied and I said, well, you know I took it to lost property and they said ok, come with us, show us where you put it in lost property, and this particular teacher had huge respect for me.

I loved this teacher, it was the worst person, according to my conscience, to lie to because I felt so bad, but what do you do, you've started a lie, what does that lead to? More lies and so I went there, and I didn't have I'd never taken it to lost property, but I went through and I couldn't see, and I said, I put it there and he said, that's strange.

I said, ok, it should pop up sometime and I felt so so down now in high school it gets a bit worse we don't have, we didn't have cell phones like nowadays where you can just look at pornography and stuff, but I started to look at stuff I shouldn't look at.

I found magazines that I shouldn't look at that had clothing adverts, and it wasn't the worst pornography, once or twice I got to see that at school but mostly I used to try at times, I started to look at magazines that I shouldn't look at of women and of course you do this in the dark and I hated myself for doing this, but the first time you do it it's all fun, and then the next time, you don't want to do it but you just have to do it because it's affected your heart, it's like sin corrupts you it actually changes you so that it has a hold on you, and you want to be set free, but you can't set yourself free and you feel you're having freedom to do fun, but you're actually bringing yourself into bondage because that's what sin does and I was not saved.