I Said Yes When I Should Have Said No — Jim Logan

Jeff, as vice president there, Ellen George, who was president, had a fabulous prayer life. I mean, just a man of prayer. I just thought, oh, it's so neat. You know, just touch me. It was so neat being around this guy and praying with him.

And then when they booted me out of there and Mark and Pitty took me into ICBC, we met with Mark once a week praying. And if you haven't ever prayed with Mark, I mean, Harry's praying psalms back to God with his Bible closed, tears running down his cheeks, and it's like, God's in this room someplace.

I know he must be over there in the shadows, but God is in this room when you pray with Mark Bubeck. So I've had all of this for years in my life, and I'm going, why? Why is it taking me so long? I liked what Marcus said, because Marcus stole my thunder, although he never heard me say it, never heard him say it.

But I'm reading the Bible through again in a new Bible, and I was reading Genesis about where God told Adam to yada Eve, and then God wants us to have that yada relationship, that intimate relationship, and how Adam and Eve walked in the garden with the voice of God.

And then Marcus picked up on that, and I thought, man, that's so great, because we were agreeing with him. You know, when you have the same message, you always agree with the speaker. He's really sharp, smart, and intelligent.

And I was reading all these, you know, so-and-so lived so long, so-and-so where he did that. But just before that, where the kid's son, I forget whose son it was, Enos or whatever son, Sam or somebody's son, began to worship God.

Then you read all these people, and then all of a sudden out of that list, Marcus pulled out again, and I saw it, Enoch walked with God and was not. Between Enoch and Adam, all these people did the religious stuff.

You know, the sacrifices, they did the religious stuff, but every now and then again, God calls somebody to walk with Him. And I got my call late night. I'm a doer. I'll do. You pray, okay? You know, I mean, I'm just real hyper-whatever, probably drove everybody nuts.

My parents and the juvenile delinquents society in LA and everything else, I just always been wound up tight. And so doing, and you pray. You know, I'm the Martha, and not a whole lot of Mary in me. And all of a sudden, you know, I'm working up to Potter.

He's in here. Don't get out and leave if I'm embarrassing you, but Aaron's in here. And I got Aaron's book, and I had to ask my question, and all my counselees, why don't I pray? Why pray? You know, now I lay me and bless the food in almost an accident, you know, the sky lobs and those kinds of things.

But why didn't I have an intimate, deep walk with God personally when I've sought all around me? And I realized that I had, I didn't know God by name. And I began to get to know the, remember that's the third thing in warfare, a distorted view of God.

I didn't have a distorted view of God. I had no view of God. Well, I could pass the names. I mean, after all, you know, I've taught in Bible colleges, so I could go, oh yeah, Jehovah. But what did that mean?

Say, what did those names mean? Well, he does this in this book. And there's, I only found three good books on the names of God. And we have one at our office because I know that most of my counselees, they're not in sexual bondage.

They're not in a mess if they have a walk with God. Sorry, they just don't. And if I don't get them walking with God when they leave there, all I did is remove some of the stuff, but they're going to be the dog back to his stuff, right?

You know, what's pearls before the swine or all that stuff. But anyway, this book is there, and Aaron did a phenomenal job on the names of God and explaining what they mean. Say what book do we have? The other book, two books.

This is all free beer to get into our stuff. But this is part of the stuff. What do you do after someone's delivered? Well, if we have teenagers that don't have a, we have them go through and we sell the book there, Lord, I Want to Know You by Kay Arthur.

Because you interact in that book with the names of God. The other one is My Father's Name by Elmer Townes. And I've got all the names of God books that there were there. Now you have some books now praying God's names, excellent books, that the whole book is how to pray the names of God, using the names of God in your prayer time.

But these others were getting to know who he is. So that was very important. I want to, so Aaron is here. His stuff is good. And I recommend it very, very highly. And I was really blessed by Aaron's stuff.

Please buy this book. He has a wife and desolate children. Show them the hole in the bottom of your foot, Aaron, and the shoe, show them, show them. Okay. I, when I, when I fly, which I don't like flying, I'm not a white knuckler.

I just don't, I got long legs and they made the seats closer together and all this stuff. So I, I take one of the new books. I got, I think I got 27 or 37 books waiting for me to read. And but, so I picked up this one.

And I thought spiritual formation as if the church mattered and how to have formation in a group. That's interesting. This is a real emphasis of the school that I run is that every fellow would have an intimate relationship with God in the three years and giving them tools and that they can develop that.

And then all the tools are secondary because I've taught in two other Bible colleges and And we saw a lot of guys graduated, you know, what it's summa cum laude or whatever it is. And their lives are summa cum lousy.

And there was somehow a breakdown between all this up here and down here. And I didn't want our guys to leave the school with lousy lives. Man, I don't care if they can't do the Greek. If they can walk with God and hear God's voice and be directed by God, hey, that's unique.

But let me, I read this. Dallas Willard is one of my favorites. He and Neil Foster and that whole crowd, the formational crowd. And that just means becoming Christ-like, how to become more like the Lord, the stuff they write.

This is what he wrote. Dallas Willard reminds us, your system is perfectly designed to produce the results you're getting. That is a phenomenal, phenomenal statement. Your system of counseling is perfectly designed to produce the results you're getting.

Do you like the results? Then maybe you better look at what? What you're doing. And we're always looking. How can we make it better? Are we missing something? We better pray. Father, thank you for this time.

And I just pray that you would help me to share. And Lord, we know there are so many families that are hurting because of enemy activity and just crazy sexual stuff. And so I just pray, Father, what I share here may be a real help to those that are here.

In Christ's name we pray, amen. Yesterday, when I mentioned the young people that I had to deal with, you know, that were sexually addicted, one of the people in here, who is pretty well-known, said his three-year-old granddaughter is sexually addicted.

And you know, I mean, some are like, oh, really, that can't be so. I mean, you got a guy right here that most of you would know if he stood up that talked to me yesterday and said, yes, what do we do?

I'm sure you would know if I asked you, what would you do if someone is, you know, between one and two, two and three, you know, four and five, in that age group that are sexually addicted, in a conservative family, no television, not putting kids in the church nursery because they've heard so many horrible stories, and never had babysitters?

Though you can rule out a lot of that stuff. So what would have to be the obvious explanation for these kids being sexually addicted that have never seen anything? This one little girl would take a doll, she was three, take a doll and imitate the sexual love act with a doll, and reach up in church and grab men in their sexual parts, three years old.

I mean, the folks are crying, you know, where did she get this stuff? Where in the world? This is sick. Okay. Anybody? Pardon me? No, it wasn't hospital. Basically, what would you look for in something like this when little kids are sexually addicted?

What? Generational stuff. My book has generational stuff in it, others talk about generational stuff. Remember the iniquities of the father visit to three and four generations, and that can start again.

You know, a grandfather, I don't know how many monkeys are up our tree. My wife grew up on welfare. My wife grew up in inner city type situation where her family was all evil and wicked. Her sisters had babies, I don't know if they knew who the husbands were, and my wife was a virgin.

My wife witnessed at school about the Lord, and Jim, when he found out my wife grew up in welfare, could not believe it. Your wife was not in welfare. I said, yes, she was, Jim. You know, brother in prison, terrible hell hole of a family, I mean, just, you couldn't be in more of a cesspool, but God can lay his hand on someone there and keep them safe and sweet.

My wife is sweet and safe, and godly, if you ever met her, you'd say, what a godly woman. She just looks godly. She had to be. You know why. I said, do you ever wish you had said I don't? So the generational thing, and it's interesting, the first time, and we won't go there, because my things are not generational, someone did, but the first time the Ten Commandments are given, it says God visits the iniquity.

The second time the Ten Commandments are given, it says, God says, sin, transgressions, and iniquity. And out of that list, he says, the iniquity of the fathers will be visited to children of those that hate me.

And people say, well, I don't hate God, so obviously it's not going to affect my kids. I don't hate God, I'm a Christian. But we got the wrong definition of hate. There was a verse, I hope you brought your Bibles, because this is going to be out of the Bible.

I'm sorry, I counsel out of the Bible, and I teach out of the Bible, because I feel opinions are like noses, and everybody's got at least one. And so what God says is far more important than any opinion I give you.

I want you to go to, I can't remember where, it's Mark, Luke, or someplace in the Gospels. It's on top of the page. But when I was a counselor, not only did I teach in the Bible college, and was teaching the counseling courses and so on, I also counseled all the kids, and we had 600 kids.

And it was, you know, I told you what I said to them. They come in, because I, you mean 600, how do you get through 600 in a semester? And I just say, is there anything you thought about not telling me?

Something you don't want us to talk about? I said, start there. You know, instead of, well, let's work, and how do you feel? We haven't got time, dump it, you know? And then I'm real good. I have handouts, you can't believe, handouts.

Well, that notebook we give you at the prayer retreat, I invite all of you to the prayer retreat, not women, but men, 673-page notebook out of seven three-ring notebooks that I have full of notes on prayer.

So I have seven three-ring notebooks, and out of that, we took 600 and some pages to give you. I could write a book on praying the Lord's Prayer with about 20 different ways of praying the Lord's Prayer, or maybe more than that.

And I love the prayer retreat, and that's really good for our guys to get alone with God. And you're only taught in the morning, then all afternoon, you're in the most gorgeous place, thousands of acres, lakes, paved roads, and nobody.

You ever been to upper Michigan in the pine trees, and all of that, and the retreat center is absolutely classy, classy, classy, with an airstrip a mile behind it if you want to fly your private plane in and tax it in under the whatever?

Yeah, I'll tell you, it's Wolf Lake right in front of the place, acres and acres and acres of lake, and you can go in the woods and meet God. We teach you how to have solitude and silence and how to connect with Him.

Because someone said this, without silence, there's no knowing. Be still and what? And know, and if there's no stillness, there's no knowing. And it was very hard for me to get still, so I can teach you how to get still, because none of you are as nervous and jumpy around as I am.

But this verse is what these lousy kids in Bible school would give me. And I just hated it, and I knew it had to be a King James air or something. I think maybe his wife wanted it in there, anyway. And that is Luke 14, 26.

And I read it wrong, the same way I read about hating God and that the Ten Commandments and iniquities aren't going to affect my families, no matter what the family iniquities are, because I don't hate God.

Okay, in Luke 14, 26, if any man come after me and hate not his father, amen, I hated my dad, I can come. I didn't quite hate my mother, and I really didn't hate my wife. At times, my kids drove me nuts, but I don't think I ever hated them.

Some of the brethren in the church I pastored maybe fell in the hate category, I could still be spiritual, and sisters, and yea, his own life also cannot be my disciple. I've heard people preach this thing away.

You know, Dr. McGee was my pastor for a number of years, best expositor of the Bible as far as I'm concerned, you know, that has been on planet earth since I've been around. And he explained it away. And then when I looked up the word hate in the Greek, I'm going, why did I start there?

You know, Paul to make a living, because we don't pay him, we don't have the money, so he works at Olive Garden. You know, it's a place that they press olives or something in the garden. I don't know what Paul does there, but anyway, he works at Olive Garden at night, so he can straighten me out in the daytime.

So anyway, this thing here at the Olive Garden, when you go in, the girl gives you something. Sometimes the waitress brings out the table with your water, but what do they give you when you come in? They give you a menu.

And I look in the menu, and I look at the Olive Garden menu, and I've got to make a choice. Well, anything with broccoli is real easy. What isn't broccoli here, you know? But when I choose one, I'm choosing against all the other options.

And hate means to what? Choose against. If I choose any of these things over him, then it's as if I would hate him with ten commandments. How does it start? Love him with all my heart. Remember, first, God first, and all these other things, and so when I put something in the place of God, it's as though I hate him.

I'm choosing against him. That's why God is a jealous God. What is jealousy? Jealousy is the fear of being displaced in the heart of someone you love. That's why he's jealous, and his jealousy is right.

Okay, now, in our dealing with all the sexual addictive stuff, so the first thing we want to do is pray against generational stuff. You know, you just, because I've never had a man in bondage that it didn't start at five years of age.

I've already talked to some guys here that remember it was a five. Five years of age, they begin to have these sexual feelings, they begin to act out on this stuff, and begin to struggle. Even teenagers that we get, and you look at the thing, we had a ton of teenagers in sexual bondages this year already, and then some on the phone that call me and ask if I can just maybe give them some help on the phone.

We'll start at five or four years old when they become sexually aware when they shouldn't. There's no reason for a kid in a godly home, you know, to have all of this, that are careful about what they're watching and trying to, you know, they just can't watch anything, begin to have all of these strange feelings.

Feelings that, that they wish they weren't male. I mean, a five-year-old boy wishing he wasn't a male, there's something not right there, right? You know, or in all kinds of weird stuff they're acting out.

And so when you know it started at five, and it just begins to unfold year after year, and they add, and they begin to experiment, and they begin to get deeper and deeper in all kinds of stuff, well you know that at five years old they had to be generational.

Now I have a different spin on generational, I'm not saying I'm right, but I just have to do with what I believe. I believe that the generational thing stops being a problem after a kid's eight or nine.

It becomes his choices now. You see, I can't, well I can't help it, you know, I had a weird grandfather, you know, he was sort of an ape in the tree. No, that may have been there, because I believe that what happens when there's inequities coming down generationally, that it gives the enemy a right to bring destructive temptation in the area in which the adult, you know, grandfather, great-grandfather, open their lives up to the control of the enemy.

So it can pass down, and so it doesn't mean the person has to do this, but what does a five-year-old do? The confusion in a five-year-old with all this stuff going on, it's very, very difficult. And what is really good is when kids will talk, I was trying to think, if I do the big seminar stuff, and I don't know how many I've been in, maybe 300 ,000 in some of the big stuff we've been in.

I tell them this, and I get all kinds of phone calls. Why don't you at some time ask your kids at the proper moment, do you ever hear anything no one else hears? Or do you ever see anything no one else sees?

And you would be amazed at the phone calls I get of parents crying, because they didn't know the kids were hearing stuff. Never had any idea, because they never asked them, or that they were seeing things.

And it's a good question to ask, and sometimes a young kid, you begin to sense there's something telling him to do evil, or this kind of thing, and he's struggling with what's going on here. And kids just think everything up there is themselves, right?

A lot of adults do, too, that everything going on up there is just me, but not necessarily me. Okay, I want to go on. So we're looking at that. The sexual stuff can be iniquities coming onto the family, to the third and fourth generation, and so they're struggling under all this sexual stuff, sexual thoughts, acting out, all this kind of stuff.

But in dealing with the sexual, if you only deal with the sexual, they will not have freedom. Now, we're not talking about DID. I don't even like talking about DID, because I'm always nervous I'm going to hurt them, or say something wrong.

The more I go to these classes, the less confidence I have. Am I going to set them back 10 years? Because we don't, Dan deals with them, I don't, basically because I only see people from out of state or out of the country.

So you don't deal with a DID in a week, and I don't want to do some damage there in my week with them if they pop up. But Daryl and Vicki are very good. They're really close. They're in Colorado Springs, only one dial away.

And if you have a DID that is absolutely, extremely difficult, and you don't know what to do, call Daryl, or call Vicki. And they have been a real godsend for me with some really difficult, difficult, unbelievable evil, evil, evil stuff.

You know, not just a little disassociation, but really wicked, evil stuff done to them up through college age by their parents. It's hard to believe that a college kid could be so triggered, brilliant guy, triggered with unbelievable, I wouldn't even tell you, it's not even fit for men's ears, let alone women's ears, of what this family did to their son, sick, sick stuff.

And so I'm thankful that Daryl and them could deal with this. I call the guy every Monday, I'm mentoring him, I'm there for him, I love him, I want him to know I care, but I'm not going to get in Daryl's road.

I try not to, you know, and I'm so thankful there are people that are experts. And sometimes these real fractured people need an expert, not someone playing with them. You know what I'm saying? Just, well, let's try this, or try this, or try this, if they're super fractured.

Okay, so we found that just dealing in the beginning, but the first thing we did was call up a demon, what's your name, sexual, or homosexuality, rather, and we cast him out and told him, go home, God bless you, everything's going to be fine.

Got the demon out, they're going to go back and be fine. Well, we didn't ever call him on the phone to see what really was happening. We just hoped everything was fine. And you know, so I looked at my method, and I said, we better do something more now, begin to work, because we found that casting a sexual demon out of someone's life was not even the beginning of the end, because there's a deeper problem.

And that's what I want to share with you. I want to share the thing, if you talk to anybody who went through our counseling that was sexually addicted, they will tell you that when we dealt with the sexual stuff on Thursday for three hours, their sexual stuff, was not the thing that gave freedom.

The freedom came on Wednesday. Even though they hadn't prayed about the sexual stuff, it was still there. And I want to share Wednesday with you. Because if you can get this, I know, I just tell you, this is one of the keys of the success of our office, is Wednesday.

And I stumbled on this over a period of years, you know, it isn't like, boom. I want you to go back, and I'm just going to take you through as if you were there for counseling. I want you to go to Isaiah, Isaiah 14.

If I'm counseling teenagers, I'll go to Ezekiel 28. But if I'm not, I'll just go to Isaiah 14. Because the question is, what did Satan do that God booted him out of heaven? You know, what was it? Was it some sexual thing?

Did he look at magazines? Was he listening to bad music? You know, was he doing drugs? What was he doing? So verse 12, and it's a good question. And if they have an NIV or that, it's really hard because people read Lucifer, it's translated Morning Star, and they read it as a shooting star.

You know, the star shot out of heaven, and it's not a shooting star. How art thou fallen from heaven, oh, I'm sorry, 14 .12. How have I fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning? How art thou cut down to the ground to weaken the nations?

My counselees do all the reading. I mean, they're counseled for three hours straight with no break unless someone has to use the restroom. So we have 15 hours, but with three hours a day straight, they do all the reading.

If they're home-teached, I like the kid, oh, you're one of the home-teach kids? Yeah. Can you read? Okay, get your Bible. Let's go. You know, and they all laugh, home-teach. Sure, I can read. What do you think?

For thou hast said in thine heart, I will ascend unto heaven, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God, I will sit upon the mount of the congregation of the sides of the north, I will ascend above the heights of the clouds, I will be like the Most High.

The first question I asked my counselee after he read that, who did Satan say the five I wills to? And almost 90 of them will say God. That's not what it says. Where did he say it? In his heart. The most important conversations you have, you have with yourself.

As a man speaks in his heart, what did Jesus say? So is he. If I could get your self-talk, I'd know exactly where you are spiritually, you know? I went to the Bible, and I always, when I read the Bible through, I'm always looking for things.

The last thing I look for, when a guy, I read his book, he said, the most important word in the Bible is hear. Well, I went through this Bible and marked every verse on listening. Not hear, but listening.

What does God say about listening or what a man says inside of himself? And I was amazed at how many times what a person says in the heart, that exact phrase is used over and over and over again in Scripture.

It says a wicked man says certain things in his heart. It says a fool says certain things in his heart. It says a righteous man says certain things in his heart. You can stop an activity by obedience, right?

God said don't. That's the beginning. You know how you know the end is when you don't think like that anymore? When this has changed. I was saved when I was almost 20 by the Navigators. Thank God for the Navigators.

Best organization in the world outside of ICBC. Wonderful group. They discipled me. Three months later, I'm in the army. No Christian background, nothing. And they gave me a little packet of verses to memorize.

I didn't know I had learning disabilities and it was taking me forever to memorize 1 Corinthians 10 .13. You know, there's no temptation taking you, but such as common man and so on, if you've been through the Nav stuff.

And so I was putting together a Quad 50 machine gun under a blanket. I didn't have it right. The thing came back, smashed my thumb. I pulled it out. I mean, you can, you know, it's a wonder I had a thumb there.

It could take your thumb off. I pulled my thumb out, stuck it in my mouth and sucked it. I said, praise God. And the guy next to me said, what are you praising God about? I said, I smashed my thumb. He said, why are you praising God?

I said, I didn't even think of swearing. Something had happened. I mean, I grew up in a family, we had a real good vocabulary, literally taught us all kinds of words. You know what I mean? Or we maybe just picked them up, you know.

And I knew something had happened. Why? No, no. You know, I didn't even say it. I didn't even think it because I was biting my tongue before. That's a change. You understand? That's a biblical change.

You hear me? A biblical change is when I don't think like that anymore. But it's a process. I have to keep what? Washing my mind, renewing my mind and so on. Okay. Now, it's the last I will that fits our study.

He said, I will be like the Most High. Satan did not ex, I mean, pardon me, Satan did not ex out God. He didn't say God could be God. That's not what he did. He said, I want to be what? Like God. Now, this is where you need Aaron's book.

What does Most High mean? Did he want to be like Jehovah-Jireh, provide a sacrifice? Did he want to be like Jehovah-Raphae and heal people? No. So, if we know what this name means, we know exactly what's, see how important the names are?

We know exactly what Satan wanted. Satan wanted to be like El Elyon. El Elyon is the one who rules sovereignly in the heavens and on the earth. What was Satan saying? He said, God, you can rule heaven and you can rule earth, but you can't rule me.

The final authority in my life is going to be what? Me. When are you most like Satan? When you are running your own life. Fred Dickinson, my mentor, taught me warfare counseling at Moody's, said this.

Satan became creature-centered, and Satan is selling his creature-centered philosophy to mankind. And if you buy into that, he'll rule over your life. Anybody that is being defeated with enemy stuff, what do you know?

You know just from this one thing. They're creature-centered. What's the final authority in your life? Me. So, if I cast demons out of them and send them out creature-centered, what's going to happen?

Well, me is going to take over again. We may get the demons clear in the parking lot, or maybe even across the street. But they're going to be right back to their stuff, because the problem was what? Me.

And what do we mean, me? See someone said this. I like this. I don't know who said it. But anything profound just really grabs you. I read somewhere. You know, I am not a real original profound person, but this is profound.

Satan desired to be like God in control, but not character. Character. Now, I want you to go to Proverbs. We'll try to run through it barefoot. What time am I through? Does anybody know? I got... We got some time?

I got time? Okay. Okay. Well, we may put some running shoes on and go through Proverbs. Okay, Proverbs, when we're building life around ourselves, what we call that is pride. And the word has I in the middle, you know, I.

When life revolves around me is really what pride is all about. And let's just look at verses on pride in your Bible, in Proverbs. And you're not going to find a good one. And it can really make me say, I better deal with this.

I mean, what God is saying is going to happen if I don't deal with this, I'm in trouble. There are six things, verse 16. There are six things the Lord hates, yea, seven are an abomination unto him. The word abomination is the worst word in the Old Testament, six, 16.

So abomination, there's no... It's worse than hate. It's way down there. Like, I hate broccoli, and it's almost abomination, but I really can't put it in that classification because it's the worst there is.

And what's the first thing on God's list? A proud look. Pride on the kisser. God hates that. Okay, go to Proverbs 8, 13. The fear of the Lord is to hate evil. Pride and arrogancy, God says, and the evil way and the forward mouth do I hate.

What's an evil way, an evil lifestyle? God said, I hate pride and arrogancy as much as any evil lifestyle you would choose. Why? Because pride and arrogancy will lead you into an evil lifestyle. When you're the final authority, where it's going to take you?

When you're a Christian, you know the enemy wants you out there. Okay, what's the difference between pride and arrogancy? In English, I knew, but I didn't know in Hebrew. You know, I really had to rest.

I'm not a Hebrew person, although one of our students is super in Hebrew, who's teaching at our school. It's nice when your students leave and come back and teach Hebrew and stuff, but he's teaching Hebrew.

And pride and arrogancy is the same in Hebrew as it is in English. And that is you here can be very prideful, but it's not obvious. See, it's private. But when someone's arrogant, what do you say? Oh, that person's so prideful.

Look, they're so arrogant. It's pride, what? All over the place. It's displayed and you can just pick up and you say, oh, that person's so sickening. They're so set on themselves or, you know, whatever, whatever.

But anyway, God says, I hate both of them, whether your pride is private or whether it's obvious, because it will lead you to an evil lifestyle. You'll keep choosing to an evil lifestyle. Proverbs 11, 2.

Only by pride comes contention. We hate those verses. It should be usually. You know, you ever been in a church squabble over the color of the rug or what have you? You know, the new chandelier or what have you.

They want the one from, what was it, Phantom of the Opera. They really wanted that one in the church, you know. So if the pastor wasn't really good, it could come swinging down towards the pulpit, you know, and let them know time's up or what have you.

But, you know, churches squabble. You just get so sick of it. I can't imagine why a new Christian would even want to go to most churches. Are they through fighting? I'll go. And they go there and whose side are you on?

What side? I'm on God's side. No, that's not enough. I mean, you know, are you standing with these deacons or these, you know what I'm saying? It's, well, who's behind all of that? It's an enemy thing.

He says only by pride comes contention. You see contention, what do you know? You're not being critical. You're just discerning. There's pride issues here. When my wife disagrees with me, I want to be a godly husband and point out, you have a point of pride, Marguerite.

No I don't. My wife's sweet, but maybe not that sweet. I want to know why am I getting upset with the wife of my youth? Why am I standing up in the inside? What's the pride issue here in me, right? It's in me.

That's what we're worried about, not them, me. What is a pride issue? God, show me. Because you're going to see pride is the most devastating thing that you could ever, ever be involved in. We're going to see that because you're going to end up a disaster.

Look at Proverbs 15, 25. This is a strong one. The Lord will destroy the house of the proud. Guys, if you will not deal with your pride, it will take your family down. God promises. That's a promise in the word of God.

That's not a promise we like to claim. You'll never get anybody claiming any pride promise at a promise meeting. Give your favorite verse. Oh, pride takes a family down. Hallelujah. No. So I got to realize I'm in big trouble.

And the worst verse in pride in all the Old Testament is the very next one, the strongest verse on pride. And that is Proverbs 16, 5. Everyone, not some, everyone that is proud in the heart is an abomination to God.

When do I become an abomination to God as a child of God? When I stand with Satan. Do you see what's going on here? That's what he is. And I stand with him, I become an abomination to God at that point.

It says if I even regard iniquity in my heart, God won't hear my prayers. Imagine if you're an abomination standing with the enemy. Though hand join in hand, they'll not go unpunished. Some of the modern translations really help.