The Mark of God On Your Life — Malachi O'Brien

Jacob’s Wrestling and the Mark of God

Genesis 32, I'm gonna take you into really this really perplexing Story. That's actually a foreshadowing of a greater wrestling match. It would take place in a garden with our Savior. This story that we're given just limited details.

So we have to kind of try to piece them some things together, but it really is just this odd story of Jacob. Wrestling with God. I want to talk to you about the mark of God on your life. Because we have a desperate need to be men marked by the presence of God.

I'll tell you this right now. The number one thing we need is not a new book. It's not a new sermon. It's not a it's it's it's not to grow a podcast. It's not to grow a YouTube channel, and I'm for all of those things our greatest need is Jesus Christ.

He is our greatest need. You will forget this message. You'll forget me. There'll be a lot of better more dynamic preachers after me. But I do not want you to ever forget this fact that your greatest need is the manifest presence of God on your life and the only way that will come is If you end up having the same kind of wrestling match that Jacob had with God.

There are no shortcuts to being used by God if you want to be used by Jesus Christ. You have to experience the same thing Jesus Christ experience. He experienced betrayal. He experienced being lied about he experienced even one of his own turning on him.

We want there to be this easy path to greatness, but there is no greatness apart from Jesus Christ. And we are only great the more that we are like our Savior. We're like Satan when we operate in pride and division and attack one of the reasons I'm so passionate about unity and let me just this is a sidebar note.

I don't want to spend too much time on this can only have so much time because Joseph Z's coming and then David Harrison's coming, so I'll get out of their way all right, but here's my thought on unity.

Pastor Greg Jesus prayed for oneness. Unity and oneness are a little different. Unity presupposes we got to find something we can agree on then hold pinkies and hope that the other person Doesn't major on that thing that we don't really like about him.

You know for Baptist. It was normally okay. We'll work with those charismatic, but they better not better not pray in tongues at this citywide gathering. We're doing can you imagine charismatic going hey Baptist?

We're gonna unite with you, but you better not open that Bible. I mean. And so we it's a unity has us. It's this man-made idea of like linking pinkies and just hoping hoping that we can somehow have a photo op of unity.

But oneness that Jesus prayed for Starts from a different point it starts from the idea that we're not separate. We're already one and the thing that we come together around is the person who made us one and.

So we need oneness around Jesus Christ, and when you find people on fire for Jesus I would be their friend. I'd be their best friend if I was you because that's what we need. People that fight against oneness or people that want to be Jesus not let him be Jesus.

Okay, that's what we need so fight and to have this you have to believe the best in other people as far as they're pushing After Jesus Christ. So in this story of Jacob wrestling with God if you know anything about the life of Jacob his entire life was this Wrestling match.

I mean it started in the womb. I mean Esau and Jacob were twins although they came out. They didn't look like twins okay. Esau came out looking like the Rock and Jacob came out looking like Dwight from The Office, okay, and They were two totally different people all right and even and even in the womb Jacob would he grabbed the heel of his brother.

It's why his name literally means the supplanter the the the trickster the the one who is gonna. Who's gonna kind of you know sneak around and get the best of you? And and that was that way and then names have meaning in the Bible and So his entire life's a wrestling match, and then you find early on that he ends up tricking.

It was tricky. He tricks his brother just as he good to see you my brother. I love you. I love you I love you. I must give this guy like a high-five. Cuz I love this guy amen amen. Let me tell you guys this so Jacob again.

He tricks his brother into getting the birthright. I mean he could have just you guys if you guys I'm just I'm presupposing. You know the story, but he could have just given his brother his brother his brother the stew and not taking the birthright.

But that's not how Jacob rolls. Jacob's like ah. He's hungry. He's weak. I'm gonna get what I want cuz Jacob didn't care about his brother. He didn't care about his parents. He just wanted it all for himself.

Now the lesson about Esau is this is don't sell your birthright for a stew of convenience. The enemy will try to steal your birthright by getting you to compromise and little things that make you feel good in the moment.

Don't do that. So then you move on later in his life, and then his mom gets involved and and and his father is going to give the Blessing now all of this is in the providence of God. Okay, so we look at this and go.

This is a weird story, and this would be a weird marriage situation if anyone was like I just don't really find the best pictures of marriage in the book of Genesis exactly. I mean, there's a lot of things.

I don't understand. You know two wives I mean, I mean my first wife, and I are doing great okay, and I don't intend on having a second wife. I used to call her my former girlfriend, but that's really it's true.

But it makes for an awkward conversation in the car on the ride home, okay, and So there you are the father's gonna give the blessing so is his son. He saw goes out in the field to to go bring some meat for his dad.

The mom gets in say hey. We're gonna play a trick on your dad. Not good, and so she gets him to dress up like like the brother, and he can't talk like the brother. But he dresses like the brother goes in and steals the the inheritance the blessing of the firstborn.

All of his life. He was wrestling to get what he wanted all about him, and then he escapes. He goes away, and then he works for his father-in-law Laban. I'm just gonna fast-forward the story. But even that season of his life was a season of wrestling a season of tricking and being tricked, okay?

Jacob was cunning he was shrewd. He was a trickster. But those were not the greatest wrestling matches that would ever take place in his life there was one that was coming that would forever change his life and his destiny and God and This is the wrestling match that if you want to be used by God.

You yourself are gonna have to enter into you're gonna have to enter into that ring. So we come to this story in Genesis chapter number 32. And I want to just fast-forward the story here, but but Jacob is left his father.

He's going out to meet his brother Esau. And he's terrified because Esau said if you ever show back up here, I'll kill you I'll kill you and so Jacob even though all these things have happened. He is deathly afraid and so he's he's making his way Back home, and he gets a report that his brother's coming with 400 men.

He's like this is not good. I'm sure he pictured like the movie 300 and these Spartans coming for him. He's like this isn't gonna end well. And so Jacob was like okay. What do I do what I do cuz he could always trick his way out of something he could always make a plan and he Kind of tries that here.

He's like okay. Here's what we do. We're gonna divide our we're into two camps, and I'll send the first camp ahead if you get wiped out the rest can escape. How would you have liked to been like the guy says all right?

You're in the first camp and you're in the second camp go, but wait wait a second. I thought you said the first came to kill you know I mean He's trying to make this plan and so then he prays, but he prays a prayer that we pray Oftentimes before we end up having our wrestling match with God and again I'm trying to provoke you into something here the mark of God.

This is what he says here. Then Jake in verse 9 then Jacob said Oh God of my father Abraham and God of my father Isaac the Lord has said to me Return to your country into your family, and I will deal with you.

He goes I'm not worthy of the least of your mercies and the truth you've shown your servant for I crossed over this door with My staff and now I have two companions. Deliver me. I pray from the hand of my brother For Esau for I fear him lest he come and attack me and the mother with the children.

He says for you said I will treat you well and make your descendants as the sand of the sea Which cannot be numbered for the multitude now. This was what he prayed after he devised his plan to go first because Oftentimes we pray, but we have another plan in mind in case the prayer doesn't go through to heaven.

God needs to deliver us from our plans and our strategies. He's like okay God You said this. But I got this other thing going on over here. God will always bring you to the end of your self and your plans and your strength and your wisdom and your Connections and your platforms and everything so he can bring you to him If you want to be used by God.

And I believe every single man in this room wants to be used by God. I believe every man in this room wants their their sons and daughters to be used by God and their Grandsons and their granddaughters to be used by God.

Hear me out young people. There's no other way Than going face to face in the ring with God himself. And so here we go now fast forward down to verse 22. He sends his wife his wives. I don't recommend two wives.

It's for what it's worth 1 verse 22. This again we only get bits and pieces of this. But it says and he arose that night and took his two wives. His female servants his 11 sons and crossed over the river of Jabbok.

He took them and sent them over the brook and here's very clear. He sent over What he had? Then Jacob Was left alone. Here it is. Jacob has come to a point. He is afraid. I mean he is distressed. He cannot sleep.

I mean he is terrified. I mean that the the description of him being distressed is is that it's like he. It's consuming him. It's crushing him, but he got to a point. Okay. I don't have anything. He sends everybody ahead at this point having all this the livestock all the money all the all the goat all the cattle.

That wasn't gonna work for him here having 11 awesome kids wasn't gonna work for him there. He realized that what I have will not get me to where I need to go. But there is one who can get me where I need to go.

There is something that your bank account there's someone your bank account cannot get you to and That your status cannot get you to and what your answered prayers of a month ago cannot get you to. That only God himself can get you to so Jacob is now and the Bible is very clear.

He's all alone. Your greatest encounters with God himself will come when you are all alone. All alone, you have nothing else. You have no other plans. You have no other strategies. Everything else is gone.

There is plan a because there is no plan B. The boats have been burned and that's where he is right now. He's all alone. He's terrified. And we're just giving snapshots of this story, but I just picture Jacob there it's nighttime.

Thinking about his brother. Yeah, I shouldn't have stole the birthright bad move. I Shouldn't have shouldn't stole the blessing from dad. That was those bad. I'm dead. But he prayed a prayer. You might forget.

Some of the prayers that you have prayed in the past, but I promise you God has not. And there comes moments that those seeds take root and they begin to flourish and God's like, all right. All right, boy, you prayed now.

I'm gonna answer and I can just picture Jacob there that night sitting by the river. And all of a sudden he sees this person approaching him. I wonder if he's thinking. I wonder if that's Esau. No Esau.

He was the rock. He was much bigger. Okay. It's not Esau. Who is this and I can picture as this person gets closer. He can see something in this person's eyes. The Bible just tells us this person's called the man.

Like that's a wrestling name the man. But if you look in your Bibles, it's a capital M and later on the Old Testament. It'll tell us that Jacob wrestled with God himself. So here comes the man. Coming towards Jacob something's happening and all of a sudden we don't get much context.

But I guarantee you Jacob threw down his staff this guy I just picture my mind begins to run towards Jacob and Jacob gets up and adrenaline starts to rush and they Grapple with each other and the wrestling match that would forever change Jacob's life began.

The wrestling match that would forever change the nation of Israel began. Can a nation be born in a day. Yes, it can be because it was born that night and The same thing that birthed the nation is the same thing that birthed the church and that was a prayer meeting nights alone with God.

If you never have a night alone with God where it's you and God and God and you and you have nothing else. You'll never be used by God. Here's the Bible says and Jacob was left alone and a man the man wrestled with him until the breaking of day.

I mean This Greco Roman. I mean the idea. There's only two times the word this wrestling word is used in the in the Old Testament. I mean, this is a odd illustration to make a point that there is there's a level of prayer That goes beyond.

You know our routine prayers or oh god, thank you for this day. We think of this food. Amen. You know pass the tea through the gut stomach watch you watch out especially for the gums watch out stomach here.

You guys know that I? Don't know if you ever grew up in a church where they'd invite certain people to pray and you're like I know exactly what they're gonna pray cuz every time they pray they pray the same exact thing.

When God brings you to an end of yourself your prayer Will be beyond your devotional prayer. It'll be warfare prayer warfare prayer. War that realizes there is a battle that can only be won in this moment because you're not wrestling against Satan.

You're wrestling against God. He's wrestling. Now I kind of picture. I don't know how this went. I just know that they wrestled and I'll you guys know the story and I'll unpack it. I don't know if it.

I don't know if Jacob got up and you know yelled out to the man and said watch out here. Comes the people's elbow. I don't know if that happened. I don't think I'm the turnbuckle and did some macho man Randy Savage thing.

I don't know if he did the diamond cutter. I don't know what he did. Probably none of those things. But I know That he wrestled with God all night long in Solitude by himself. Verse 25 says this now when he saw they did not prevail against him.

He touched the socket of his hip and the socket of Jacob's hip was out of joint as he wrestled with him. Every person who wants to be used by God will wrestle with God and if you prevail you'll forever be marked by God.

The crushing that God wants to put you through Will have a permanent mark on your life. You will leave different. You won't be the same. So Jacob's wrestling here. With God by himself, I Mean, I I just picture 1 a .m. Passing their wrestling and 2 a .m. Wrestling, but Jacob's not letting go.

Because something is happening to Jacob on the inside. He began that night with his greatest fear being Esau and he would end that night as A man who trusted God with everything. We've come to a point where the little boys in the room need to sit down.

The little boy preachers need to sit down the little boy puppets need to sit down and the men of God need to arise. Forever the same forever different for never the same. I'm inviting you into a journey to a life of prayer.

History is shaped by the intercessors. The nations are changed by those who will pray all night long. Who will wrestle with God and not let God go until God fulfills what God promised to do. He was marked.

Refusing to Let Go in Prayer

I picture as he's wrestling there. Pastor Greg likes to bike. I like to run. I'll get to that in a second. But uh, I picture I picture God that's who he was wrestling with. Okay, he touches Jacob's hip now, that's.

That's a sneaky move. I Mean, it's God. Now again, God could have like touched him and I mean he would he could obliterate ashes. I mean could a lot we could have lit on fire. I don't know what could have happened to him, you know, but his hips out of joint and I'm sure in that moment He screams in pain.

I mean, I'm sure he crumbles to the ground, but he won't let God go. God wants to get you to a point that no matter how bad it hurts. No matter how hard it is No matter how alone you are. There's a there's a lion on the inside of you.

This says I won't let God go. I won't let God go. I won't let him go. I won't let him go. I will let him go till my kids come back to Jesus. I will let him go till America comes back to Jesus. I will let him go till the till God revives the church.

I won't let him go. And I don't care how long it takes one night two nights three nights one year two year ten years. I won't let the God of heaven go. Something began to happen when Jacob began to wrestle with the man he realized who this man was realized.

This is it. This is it. His entire existence was changed in a moment because he made a decision not to let God go. You're one decision away Of everything in your life forever changing. And that one decision I want to put before you is to be a man who says I will not let God go.

So good people will misunderstand you. People will judge you. They'll say things like man. You're just like you're you're you're a little radical. You think? You're taking this a little too far, I hope so.

You're a little extreme not extreme enough. Become that kind of man. Become the kind of person that says my life is not about what I can accumulate. Not about how many awards I can get on the wall. No matter how many people know my name or comment on my social media.

My life is about a different person's life and that is the God of heaven there. God may God deliver us from ourselves. And our thoughts that everything should be easy and and painless. But there's no resurrection without a cross.

Right. There's no resurrection power unless you are crucified and you die. And i'm looking for the men in this room that are like spiritual navy seals. They say i'm not ringing that bell. I'm not ringing that bell.

Okay David Goggins, I'll carry the boats. I'll carry the logs. I'll do it. God's looking for those kind of men and you know what. That's got to be something birthed on the inside of you that says I need God.

I need God. Now let's go into the story here because I got I got some unique points. I want to make. God wants to make. Don't you love the bible? Amen. Okay, that that's for three of you. Wow, it's great.

Don't you love the word of God? Amen. Amen. That's good and Jesus. And he says and it says verse 26 and he said let me go for the day breaks. You broke my hip. I am not letting you go. Okay, what's the breaking of day?

But he said I will not let you go until You bless me. When Jacob ran from his father's house, he had a prayer meeting. He put a rock down heaven's ladders to heaven opened up. But he made this agreement with God if you do this, then I will do this.

But this is a different prayer meeting. He was at different stages journey of no longer. If you do this I will do this now. It's I'm not gonna let you go till you bless me pretty much. This is it. And I want you guys to see this in the text.

He said I want to let you bless me. I believe this is my opinion. I'm often wrong, but I'm seldom in doubt. I do not think in this moment. He was simply thinking about surviving Esau. I think he had such a revelation with God.

In the encounter in the middle of the night that now he saw his blessing was God on his life. His destiny his name the promises were all coming true. And I believe in that moment he saw I mean just let me just go with this.

He he saw what God was going to do. Descendants is the multitude of the sea. The nation of israel bringing forth the messiah something within him in a moment. Saw his entire life and the life of his descendants go before his eyes.

And he realized my wrestling with God now is not just for me. It's for others. God may want you to wrestle in the place of prayer alone. Not just for you, but for others. And i'm asking God to raise up some of you to volunteer to give your life to the secret place.

To give your life to not have to be known by men. The greatest men and women in history are not the ones you see on youtube. They're the ones that are still in the prayer closets. They're the ones that you'll never know their name and they've never written a book.

But they're the ones that know how to move heaven and move God's heart. I want you to get a vision for your life not to be on a platform. I mean life is not better when you get four feet higher like a terrible life.

Great life sad life amazing life like standing behind this and standing on this means nothing. What means everything is the crushing that comes from God when in the middle of the night he crushes you and real oil that lights.

Real fire will come through you. For the nations for the nations. And young people if the men in this room won't do it I'm praying that God will raise up some young men that you don't want to be famous.

You want to be a young man who has God on your life? And that your greatest vision is not to be behind a platform. But to be in a prayer closet and learn to get a hold of God and have God upon you like nothing else ever before.

Jacob wrestled all night long and this is kind of old school. But there used to be a day that churches and preachers would would would grab the horns of the altar. They used to say and they would press through the night.

When's the last time? You did something for the first time. And you prayed through the night. You see the significance you seek in your life comes through the struggle the struggle the hardship. I promise you you're capable of so much more and the blessing.

You think your greatest need is five thousand more dollars in your bank account, that's not your greatest need. Your greatest need is is not for you know. Whatever you put that to be. Your blessing is God himself.

Jesus is your reward. He is your inheritance. The blessing is not that you get out to your truck when this service is over and you go to that mcdonald's bag. Man, I hope there's five more fries in the bottom of this bag.

God you love me. I've been faithful. Give me five more. You'll never get that with chick-fil-a. Don't judge me we've all done it. And then you you leave hoping God supernaturally made three more fries up here.

And I don't know why it is but mcdonald's fries always taste good. Sonic fries will never taste good. That's not the blessing. The blessing is more of God. So then it says here. And he said to him let me go for the day break says I will not let you go unless you bless me.

So he said to him What is your name? In the wrestling God's gonna bring you to a realization of your weakness. Because I think as soon as jacob said what he said the match was over. He said jacob the supplanter.

The trickster the deceiver. The one always weaseling out of things. The one always with the plan. That's who I am. Okay. That's all I have. This is who I am. If god can get us to see who we are. And what he can do.

And people like us. History can be changed. Because right after this god says it's all I was waiting for you to see who you really were. Because now i'm going to give You a new name. I'm gonna give you new destiny.

We need to come to the point where we see. That our greatest battle Is not simply lust. It's that we lust after the wrong things. And our greatest battle is not just anger. It's that we're angry for the against the wrong things.

And then we realize who we are that there's no righteousness of ourself. But there is one who is found worthy the lion of the tribe of judah. Jesus christ the man in that passage. God's Greatest gift to you and me is to have times of struggle where we have nothing else to prove.

And nothing else to lose. A dangerous man is someone who has nothing to lose. Maybe the problem is and let me just diverge to a side point in the sermon. We're under challenged as men. We're under challenged.

So pastor greg likes to bike and pastor jesse. And I don't know joseph z does maybe like free free climbs walls. I don't know, you know, um. But some of you men the most godly thing you could do. Um, this is a total diversion.

It's not in the text. So don't call me heretic. Maybe the godliest thing you could do after this conference is go get healthy. I'm, just saying i'm just saying. Your spiritual life is directly connected to your physical and emotional health.

And you will not be spiritually vibrant. I'm, not judging you heaven knows me. If you're eating but if you're eating mcdonald's three times a day because you think you're going to make a documentary, which you're not.

Uh, you know, I saw it. It supersized me. Yeah, the guys not good. Okay, not good. Not good. Your spiritual life is connected to your physical health. You like man, I got to get rid of this demon of anxiety.

No, you got to stop drinking so much caffeine. So, you know, man, I I just i'm so tired in the middle of the day. What did you eat for lunch? Oh, you carb loaded. No, duh, you're tired men. You were made to sweat and to toil.

And to work and to do hard things. So pastor greg and jesse ride Bikes and and it's insanity what they do. But I promise you you'll never feel more alive when you push your physical body. You'll never feel more spiritually alive.

Some of you need to you know, like I don't have time. Yeah. Yeah you do you have 24 hours in a day so. This last year I did it. I did a thing. I felt like the lord called me to it where I ran a marathon.

Some of you know this some of you may not know this. All right. I ran a marathon distance 26 .2 miles every single day. For 153 days straight. Thank you I'll take that. Thank you I know that struggle.

And and i'm telling you it was one of the most transformative Spiritual experiences of my entire life. Because I attempted something that everybody said was impossibly good. Did you go to your doctor?

No. No doctor's gonna go. Oh, that's a great idea. Let's yeah. Sure. Just no. No, I didn't I just i'm gonna bother with that one. And there were literally there were days where like I I was one day I was 102 degree fever.

I was I had I had stuff coming out both sides of the body. That's the best way I could say it, you know pg version. Okay. And I will I had I. That's sick. I'm nauseous. I feel terrible and it took me nine and a half hours that day to cover that distance.

But god was doing something in me, yeah I had one day I was in woodland park, colorado. It was december 23rd. And I don't know if you guys were i'm from the midwest. We had this winter bomb come in. It was minus 20 degrees below zero.

Like if you go outside for too long you will get frostbit. And so I put on like 10 layers of clothes and then blessing is god. It was snow on the ground. And then I got a face mask on. I can't wear my glasses, which I am blind without these things.

Because if I wear them they fog up and it was I mean, it was just bad. Anyway, so now i'm running. I'm freezing. And I can't see the struggle. And what I learned In doing something that everybody says is impossible is there's nothing impossible.

Most of us in this room are only doing what david goggin says 40 of what we're capable of. And what I learned is it's never the external excuses you give yourself why you can't do something. It won't be because of time or money or i'm this age.

Or I got this sickness or that sickness or a new knee or an old knee or 10 knees or new hip or 10 hips. It's never the external things That stop a person. It's always the internal lies you tell yourself.

It'll not the the way yeah, it's too hot. No. Because it won't be hot then one day it'll be too cold. It'll always be the internal excuse. And you know what we do we go. Well, i'll start tomorrow. No, that's the worst time to start.

The best time to start is right now right now right now. Some of you guys make I want to fast. I'm going to start after the conference. And i've been there before i'm like what does that mean it means i'm gonna eat everything I possibly can humanly eat.

Okay, and then some. And i've been there that day go man lunch is here. I don't think god's speaking anymore. I'm gonna eat. What am I trying to tell you. Don't do hard things. Do very hard things? Because in the very hard things.

Your life can change. And if you want to change your life take massive action now. Now that's why I talk about 40 days of fasting. And what i'm going to tell you about right now is nights of prayer. Do something no one think is impossible.

Sometimes your inconvenience is really good for you to go deeper in your faith. Jacob struggled the bible says it was a struggle. It was not easy. If it was easy. The strong man esau would have done it.

But god wasn't looking for the man that was strong on the outside. He was looking for the man that he knew was really strong on the inside. That knew I will not let god go. I don't care. Anyone says I don't care if my church runs a hundred or a hundred thousand.

I won't let god go. I'll never let him go. I'll believe his promises. I'll remind him day and night god, but you said god, but you said god but you said God. For 10 years and 20 years and 30 years I will be that person who wakes up in the middle of the night and gets on my face before god.

The greatest thing about leonard ravenhill was not his preaching. It was his prayer life. And leonard ravenhill was known there's rumors how much he prayed but literally hours upon hours every day. I want you to do some extreme things so tonight.

After the evening service for anyone that wants to stay tonight I'm going to say as long as I humanly can. And then then some. At least two or three in the morning. Maybe they'll daybreak and wrestle with god in this tent for what god's going to do in the deliverance conference.

And I just wonder I just wonder. If there's any of you that'll give an hour two hours. Three hours, let's have some worship music going. I'll let the prayer team of global vision lead. You know, what are you gonna do?

I'm gonna shout so I don't go to sleep. I'm gonna walk so I don't go to sleep. I'm gonna do jericho walks around the tent. I'm gonna ask i'm gonna touch every chair. And believe god's gonna do something great because sometime god wants you to only fast food.

He wants you to fast sleep. So I hope you'll join me. Now here's another opportunity then i'll get to the final part of this text. Are we okay? Okay, you've got joseph z coming. And then you've got david harrison coming.

So let me tell you about something really awesome and creative now. I've greg has volunteered on the phone. So I hope he's still volunteered. I'm pretty sure he is so. You know my life's been changed by doing weird things like 75 hard did that four days of fasting did that.

Um super juice me 28 days drinking celery. That's terrible. I did that. Okay. Just just give me something weird. I want to do that like i'm really i'm really perplexed that supposedly oral roberts prayed fasted for seven months before he got used by god like.

My wife would say no. So, um, so anyway seven months is not in the cards right now. But I want to do this crazy insane challenge. I want to call it the global vision initiative or challenge. Did you know the circumference of the earth?

Of course, you knew this is about 24 ,901 miles give or take. I thought what I wonder if I could run that many miles. Consecutive so by running so I thought what hell I want to tell you if I ran a half marathon every single day that comes out to five years.

Just five years now for greg and pastor jesse. I don't know which one of them to do it first. Whoever probably loves jesus more. We'll get it done first. Oh shots fired and uh, and so. But I wonder. So you say are you gonna do that?

Oh, yeah, i'm doing that. I want to start october the 7th. Because that's the anniversary date. I want to start those marathons. And you say how do you how do you focus? I don't focus about the next day.