Around the World on Faith — John Follette

Fresh Illumination Through Familiar Scripture

Read it inspirationally, that I will have a chance to bring fresh inspiration on an old text that you have read 4 ,928 times. He said, now I have a chance at you to bring a spiritual illumination, spiritual light in teaching, because you have skipped by your perfunctory reading, your traditional reading because you got a certain reaction.

I'll give you a new reaction. How many of you know he can? You can read the same old thing you've read a hundred times and all of a sudden, how many of you know a fresh reaction comes? Well, why is it?

Because you are reading it with him, with his sense of inspiration and he will inspire. Well, here I was reading this wonderful chapter. It is the eleventh chapter of John. Now a certain man was sick named Lazarus of Bethany, the town of Mary and her sister Martha.

It was that Mary which anointed the Lord with ointment and wiped his feet with her hair, whose brother Lazarus was sick. Therefore his sisters sent unto him, saying, Lord, behold, he whom thou lovest is sick.

When Jesus heard that, he said, this sickness is not unto death, but for the glory of God, that in the Son of God might be glorified thereby. Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. When he had heard, therefore, that he was sick, he ran immediately to their home.

Did he run immediately to help them? And he said, oh, I love them so, and they are terribly tired, and I shall make my speed to get to them. He did not. He stayed still for two or three days. I don't blame him.

Isn't it wonderful how daring he can be? And those poor sisters, all upset at death's point, and Jesus says, well, just wait a minute. How many ever had him almost exasperate you with some of his doings, haven't you?

I mean, in the flesh you would be provoked and exasperated and say, Lord, how do you dare to do things like that? I mean, no, he dares. He's dared to slay me several times. I've passed through hell a couple of times.

You wouldn't believe it. I have. You know what I mean? I have. I had to to know something. I had to. And he loves me. He loves me so much he can trust me. And so he loved them tremendously, so he says, I'm going to hold off a couple of days.

He abode two days still in the same place where he was. Then after that he said to his disciples, let's go on to Judea again. And his disciples asked him, now, I'll only read that much for this. He finally decides to go down and see what's the matter.

How many of you can't hurry God? He's never in a hurry. You say, Lord, the whole thing will go to slash you if you don't come in here and intervene. Now don't get excited. How many of you know the Lord takes time?

Oh, he's taking time with me sometimes and I think, Lord, I'll go crazy if you don't do something. He said, no, if you do, I can heal you anyway. Well, that's true. So he says he stays up there, then he goes down to see them.

Reading Lazarus's Story as a Pattern of Faith

Well, as I was reading, the Lord says, now, keep open and I want to show you something in this chapter. So I read it that day. And the next day he gave me the same chapter to read again. And the third, I think I was about a week in this chapter.

Because he was going to show me one of the most beautiful rules in our faith life that I had found. And I discovered it here. We can't take the time for that, but I want you to notice something. In his conversations with these disciples, before he goes, and when he has this conversation with Martha, who is first, Mary, who sits back in the house and doesn't go out, she is interpreted from two angles.

One of them said she's so peeved she wouldn't go out. The other one said, oh, no, she has such sublime faith, she sat still saying, all will be well. Well, now, we don't know. How do you know the interpretations of poor Mary and poor Martha?

We won't go only as far as God gives us life. Martha took the initiative to go out because she's older than Mary. She's the one who manages the home. It says the home of Martha. Mary is the younger sister and Lazarus is the brother.

Martha goes out to meet him. Now, watch the conversation that takes place between Jesus and the people who go to tell him about Lazarus and the conversation when he talks with Martha and then when he repeats it again with Mary.

Now, the whole thing hangs upon the conversation which he had with them. So the Lord said, analyze these conversations and see if you can see something in there which is something you have not noticed.

I said, I will, Lord. So it took me all these days, I don't know, about a week, fussing around with Mary, Martha, and Lazarus to get him out of that tomb. But, you know, people are so interested that they only come to the passage where it says, Lazarus, come forth.

Well, he said, there's an awful buildup before you can get him out of the tomb. You have to get him in the tomb and you have to have him there those three days, too. You have to let him be in there dead and buried before you reach the climax.

So you want the climax without all the antecedents. But you have to have your antecedents. So he says, it all depends upon their conversations. So I got a pencil out in my papers and then I just go at it.

So he says, now look at your conversations and tweak that all the way through. And do you know what I found? I found four so far. In his conversations, every word that he said concerning this Lazarus who was sick and in the tomb and dead and full of faith.

Now, when they came and he said, the one whom thou lovest is dead, he didn't say, oh, how sad, how terrifying, how dreadful this is. He did not. Do you know what his first attitude was in his word? This is under the glory of God.

How many of you see some terrific relating or don't you? Can you relate a dead man in a tomb to the glory of God or can't you? The next time God puts one of your Lazarus in a tomb, how many of you know the best thing to do is to relate it?

Don't moan in front of the tomb. Oh, God, Lazarus has died in the tomb. This is my hope and this is what you gave me. Oh. And the Lord will say, put a stone over the tomb. And then he'll put a stone over it.

And then we say, well, dear Lord, he's in the tomb and a stone over the tomb and he's beginning to decay. Oh, Lord. You won't get anywhere. You won't get anywhere. No, you won't. You have to listen to his conversation.

What was his first word? A positive word of faith. This is not death as you see it. It is unto the glory of God. Then he goes on to say, this is not unto death. How many see it as a positive statement of something hopeful?

Do you get the positive approach or don't you? The positive approach. It's not negative. Second, it is unto the glory of God. How many see a positive thing again right away? Life, glory. All right. Verse 11.

He says, he's sleeping and behold, I go to awake him. How many see victory again? He's asleep. I go to awake him. How many see he's saying already something to encourage them? He doesn't bemoan the fact.

Four, this is the good part, is when he gets Martha in a corner, you see, she's the one that starts this argument business. And he says unto her, he says, she, leave again. Oh, yes, she says, I believe you'll live again in the resurrection.

Oh, he says. Listen, Martha, the resurrection is right present, right now. I am the resurrection. Now do you relate it? How many of you had her on the spot? He surely had her right on the spot. It was good.

Best thing he ever said to her. He didn't say, oh, don't cry, Martha. I'll do the best I can. No, no, no, no. That sounds like Sunday school papers and funny religious hymns. I'm so tired of them. I like the realistic side of the thing.

I like him dealing just like this, as he did with them. There are at least four times in here he speaks of the victory, not death, but life. Well, she says, I know we'll come up in the resurrection. Well, the resurrection is right present.

Now do you believe it? Here's the resurrection. Can you relate it? Now, you see, he puts her exactly on the spot where she belongs. Don't get into an argument with the Lord. He always knows what he's doing.

How many know he always has the last word anyway? We put up great defense mechanisms, psychologically speaking, behind which we try to hide. The ego is disturbed and frustrated, and then we build these horrible complexes, and you get into bad, bad business.

Don't do that. You have to get out of it anyway. So he puts her on the spot. Now, I'll skip all of that until he gets them at the tomb. And here's the tomb. And he's sealed in there. And he has already given her at least four lovely words.

The first one, he speaks to the friends which relate them to her when they come down. They say, what did he say? Well, Martha knows what he said. It was to the glory of God. The neighbors have told him already.

What did he say to Martha? I am the resurrection. Your brother will live. Jesus had given her all these words of hope and encouragement, which are positive. There's nothing negative in it. This is a positive thing.

Keep her around the positive side if you possibly can. Now they're at the tomb. And he has to have permission, of course, for them to move the stones. So they ask Martha. Well, she said, we can't. He smells for this time.

He's been there four days. Behold, he's dead. He's dead. What did Jesus say? Said I not unto you that if you would believe, you would see the glory of God? Now remember. Said I not unto thee that if thou wouldst believe, thou shalt see the glory of God?

The Word of God and the Rule of Believing

So the Lord stopped me like that. He said, do you see that? I said, sure, Lord. I've read that hundreds and hundreds of times. I said, I'll give you a little secret. This is one of the rules of faith in your new realm where you are.

It begins with the word of God. The word which He speaks. Not the word you find in the Bible. It may be in the Bible. But you can't just go to the Bible and pick out a lot of verses because He said them.

The word that I speak is life. People are stumbled like that today because they say, well the promise is right there in the Bible. And I got the promise. I said, I know. That's where you got it. Get your leading and your word from God who is the author of the word.

And who knows the significance of the word. Well, I never heard such preaching as that. Aren't you Pentecostal? I said, I sure am. But I'm not under the variety that most of them are. How many know I'm not?

How many know I am Pentecostal? I don't belong to certain breeds because I don't believe in their traditions. Their traditions are not wholesome nor are they scriptural. They are purely religious traditions.

So they said, I got it in the Bible. That's a very dangerous thing to do. Why? He has to speak the word. When He speaks the word, it has two characteristics. He spoke it to me. He says, my word is creative and it holds the kernel of faith for its execution.

And I said, I believe it. How many of you can go back in your life to some of the impossible things that when God has spoken, He has given you a kernel of faith with it in life? How many know that? Sure.

But how many know you can claim a promise and get nowhere? Why? Because it is not spoken by Him. His word is life. Always remember that. That's why I have to go and help these people out who just work on promises.

Get your promise from the Lord. Said I not unto thee? I gave you the word that if you would believe what? What's in the Bible? No! Believe what I said to you and you shall see. Why, I said, Lord, that's terrific.

Said I not? One. Two. That if you will believe what I said. Three. You shall see the glory of God. How many get it now? How many see a logical rule in there? And it is real to me as two times two make four.

It won't make six. It can't! Two times two make four. You cannot make it otherwise. You get the word from God. It carries with it a kernel of faith and it is creative. And he can... I've had to do this because I've lived all these days and lived my life in this kind of teaching.

Faith for a Worldwide Calling

He gave me that verse to go around the world on one time. Just that one verse. Just one verse. And I went around the world. Took me a year to get around. Left San Francisco on the 28th of October. And a year from that 28th of October I landed in New York.

And I had girdled the globe and visited countries from New Zealand all over Australia. India and all these places. And got back again. How did I go? I went on one verse. One verse. And I didn't wear it out.

I didn't wear it out. That is the verse he gave me that carried me 19 ,000 miles on ships. And I'm a poor sailor. And didn't I dread it. Oh, I said, Lord, you're calling me to go to Australia. I don't know a soul in Australia anymore.

And I could go to the moon. How could I ever go to Australia? You are to go to Australia and carry the message I put on your heart to the saints there. They have no teaching. And I want you to go. But, Lord, it takes money to go.

And I don't know anybody there. I can't go up to somebody's door and say, I have come. I said, I'm not a lunatic. He said, you're going. I'm calling you. Now, you have to believe what I say. Well, I have to have money.

This is not mine. My business is to say, thank you, Lord, and go and make arrangements. I've had to learn that. And I've proved it for 58 years. I have lived absolutely by faith. He called me out of all professional work.

He never allowed me to make a contact or work for a salary. Bible school work in places where I've taught. I said, I'm a very peculiar creature. But you don't have to have any stated salaries or contracts with me.

If you want to give me something for teaching in the college here, I'll take it. If you don't, it's just the same to me. He said, he's crazy anyway, so let's take him. And they've taken me. And I've gone and done all my work here for 58 years.

Around the world, all over Europe, down in Africa, back two, three times. And never a backing. Never. I've never gone out on any border and invited. The Lord said, go. And I said, thank you. And then I go.

You have to believe what the Lord says. Well, I'd rather believe the Lord than some funny baloney stuff. I don't have much stock in it. I believe what he says. So he showed me this. He said, you see, this is a rule.

You get your word from me. And you dare to believe what I give you as your word. And you cannot help but see the glory of God. How many know that's absolutely true? I couldn't preach it if I didn't believe it.

Here I was. I didn't know anybody in Australia. You don't have to when God's doing the thing. You know, I have a guard backing me. And some advanced agent telling me this. And, pfft, fiddle-diddle. Don't bother with such stuff.

What do you do? Well, I said, all right. I don't know about anybody in Australia. Get ready to go. How many of you'd like to try it? Sir Flett has such a wonderful life. How many of you know I do have a wonderful life?

But I wouldn't wish it on a cat. You wouldn't take it. I don't believe you could take it. You're so used to the security of everything that you wouldn't know what under the heavens it would be to stand on a street corner with a whip and five dollars in your pocket and going around God knows where you're going or what's ever going to become of you.

Would you like to try it? It's very thrilling. And every bit of your background wiped out from under you. Every bit of it. Completely washed out from under you. I was invited to dinner up here in Oakland.

Divine Provision for Ministry in Australia

I remember Bernice Lee. How many of you remember Bernice Lee? A missionary of India years back. I was in Bernice Lee's home. And I remember Molly Ayers. Used to come. Well, Molly was there. And I was having dinner with them.

I don't care. Gosh, they didn't know anything what was going on in my heart than a pussycat. I never tell anyone. I don't say I'm walking by faith. Hallelujah. Absolutely by faith. How many of you know that technique?

I'm walking by faith. How many of you know the handshake? Oh, that's another trick. Well, I don't play all those funny things. If he gives me anything, I take it. If he doesn't, it's just the same. Doesn't matter to me one bean.

I sat at the table. And Molly is an Australian, you know, by rights. So Molly, she said, John, Brother John, when are you going to Australia? I thought, what on earth would she say that for? She doesn't know anything about me or Australia or anything else.

Well, I said, what do you mean? Oh, she said, I just have a feeling some way you should go to Australia and give those ministers a feast. She said, they don't, anyone go down there to teach them or even the evangelists go.

Well, she says, they need you. Well, I said, Molly, I don't know a soul in Australia. What in the heavens would I go there? Go to somebody's door and say, I'm Paulette. I'm from America. The Lord said to me to come.

They said, well, put him in the silo until we wire home his loose. I said, I won't do that. Now, she said, John, forget it. So the next day I came down in Bernice, and she came down to Bernice again. She said, here, sit down.

I want to talk to you. She said, I'm in Australia. I know all the places in Australia, the cities. I've been born there. I know all the works. I know the churches and the preachers. And nothing would suit me better than to write a letter of introduction that you're going to be let loose over there.

Here's your list. There was my list of all my appointments for four months, all written down on a piece of paper. From way up there, Geebung, up, you know, in Queensland, right on down, Sydney, Brisbane, way on down.

Then I took a plane to Melbourne, right on way over to Perth. The whole work, she said, here's your list. Now, I'm going to write ahead, and you write too. And we're going to start in Sydney. How do you see the Lord?

Now, I didn't know anything about such a business, but it was nice to go to lunch, wasn't it? It was wonderful how God had that woman there. And had one from Australia who knew all the ins and outs. And I started writing letters, and I got the loveliest letters in reply, Welcome, welcome.

We would long to have you to come and minister to us. We would long to have you. I went over there and spent I don't know how many months all over Australia. Well, it was wonderful. Now, shall I tell you how I got started?

Provision for India and the Rule of Three

This is really funny too. This isn't funny, but it's rather ghastly. A year to go, and I remember Bob Cummings from India. Well, Bob was there at one time too. We were having lunch. And he leaned over and said, Brother John, when are you coming to India?

Oh, Bob, I said, I don't know. You know how I live. I walk with the Lord. If he goes to India, I go, and if he goes to the North Pole, then I go there. I don't know where I'm going or anything about it.

I just run around like a child. He said, I'll tell you something. I feel to do it. We're going to put on a district convention in Bangalore next year in India, and I want you to be the speaker for it.

He said, I'll meet you in India, and you'll have a wonderful time. You'll be the speaker for the convention for the district. And it came true. The Lord says, you have to get ready now to go. Well, I said, Lord, it's nice for you to tell me these things, and you are shaping the thing up, but I have to have some money and something to work on.

I can't go to somebody and they say, I'm going by faith that I can't do funny things like that. I mean, no, he doesn't want us to do strange things like that at all. He says, I just want you to believe me.

Then he brought this rule. He said, do you remember what I gave you in the raising of Lazarus? I said, yes. He says, take this rule of three. It'll take you not only here to Australia to India, and it'll take you farther.

And I went on this rule of three around the world. I said, well, how will I do? And they said, you do your part and I'll do my part. I'll furnish it, but you have to have the faith to believe. Do you believe what I'm telling you?

I said, yes, Lord, you never lied to me. Well, he said, do you believe what I tell you? Now, he said, you are to go. Will you believe me for your offerings, for your tickets? I said, yes. I haven't anything.

I guess I had maybe $20 or $25. I don't have a lot of money. He said, that's all right. Will you believe me? I said, yes, Jesus. You've never let me down. You've never forsaken me. We've lived together all this time and you won't let me down.

I believe you'll do it. Although I haven't any money, I believe you'll do it. He said, if you do, make your plans. Whew. Then I had to go. What to do? Write to Washington, get your passport ready, get your letters of introduction, get all that.

Well, I said, my heavens, yes. On what? On rule three. Didn't I say it? Yes. Well, then do it. I tried the first few weeks and the offerings weren't worth 10 cents to get to India or any other place. Oh, Lord.

I said, this is terrible. And he never let me tell anybody. Nobody knew I was doing this. None of their business. This is faith. You don't tell it to people. Tell afterwards to give God the glory of what he can do.

You can tell your testimony, but you don't tell what the process is. So I went days and days and not a letter. The offerings were just as little. Not a thing to encourage me. And I said, well, dear Lord, the time is getting short.

Then I was kind of weak. Do you ever have weak spells in your feet? Never. Don't you ever? Well, I kind of got weak knees. Then I said, Lord, I don't want to be bad. Somebody could only give me, say, five dollars who didn't know anything about what business we're doing.

Not know a thing about it. But somebody could give me five dollars. Lord, it would encourage my faith. But you don't have to do it. But I kind of would like you to do it, Lord. But I didn't hold the bondage.

I didn't make it a contract. If you do this, I'll do that. I didn't make it a business at all. How many of you know you can do that? He knew my heart anyway. You can't tell funny things to the Lord. So I said, Lord, that's the way I feel.

If I could get five dollars from somebody who didn't know anything about any of this, I could take it as a real omen from you. And you'll help me. So I went on offering that they didn't get me anywhere.

I said, Lord, I've got to have some money. But I wouldn't. I'd get up and preach about the Lord. Hallelujah. And how wonderful He is. He is wonderful. And I'd go home and say, well, Lord, where are you?

And He'd say, yes. How many want to walk by faith? Oh, dear child. The people have asked me to write a book of my life. It's too fantastic. You wouldn't believe what I wrote. It is. It's really too fantastic.

The things that God has done with me and for me, they are completely out of this world. They're just fantastic. So I was getting quite concerned. And I had a meeting in a nice church, a good congregation of people.

An Altar Call and Unexpected Provision

And it was a teaching meeting. Four or five nights. Teaching. Teaching. Teaching. I'm not an evangelist. He gives me souls, though. But I'm not an evangelist with their techniques. Do I see another soul?

Do I play the organ gently, dear? Do I see another? I can't go through all that, save my soul. I just say, anybody wants to get saved, come on down and we'll get saved. I'm blunt like that. I can... And somebody goes...

I can't do it at all. I just can't. Not in me. I just can't do that. The Lord knows it. He never lets me do that. I had this week's meeting and the congregation were fine. They had good meetings. Came Friday night and I only had Sunday left.

And Friday night I was preaching, speaking, just as usual. Teaching. And the Lord began to speak to me right inside. Right when I'm talking out here. How many of you know you can have two things going on at once?

Well, I do. I have sometimes three things going on at once. Kind of complicated, but it works. I was laying out the truth and I was hearing the Lord say give an altar call. Give an altar call. Give an altar call.

I said, dear Lord, I couldn't do that. I don't know anything about this. Come forward. Do I see a hand? Lord, I came. Give an altar call. You give an altar call. I'll be with you. You give an altar call.

There are souls here who need God. You didn't know if I was preaching or arguing with the Lord or what was the matter. But the meeting went on and at the close I said to them, I said, here's a good big congregation.

Three, four hundred people. Could be churchful. I said, I'm having a rather strange experience and perhaps you can help me with it. I don't know. I said, I'm not an evangelist and I'm not used to giving altar calls and doing all these things that other people do.

But while I've been ministering here I have sensed God dealing with souls. And you've come out night after night after night. And God says there are people in here tonight who should make certain decisions.

So without any fanfare or organ playing or anything else I stepped out of the pulpit and went down to the altar and I said, there are people here tonight who need to meet God. You've heard truth. I don't know what you're going to do with it.

But you have to make a decision. Are you going to receive the truth? Are you going to let that come into your heart? Are you going to let it revolutionize your ways of thinking? Let it come into your prayer patterns?

Let them do these strange things? Are you willing for that? Are you willing to meet God? Whoever wants that you just come here and we'll pray. We will know there was such a move of the Spirit that altar was filled in no time at all.

They were clambering down out of the gallery coming down. You don't have to do you don't have to do those funny tricks at all. How do you know when God works He works? You don't have to go have any kind of a technique about it at all.

I just stood there like that and I said, come to Jesus. Jesus is here tonight and He wants to meet you and He wants to talk to you. He told me so and I believe Him. And if you want Him you come here and we'll pray with you.

Altar was full. Down the aisle came a man very well groomed perfect gentleman. I'd never seen him in the world before. I didn't know who in the world it would be. I said, do you want prayer? Oh, he said, God knows I need the prayer but I'll give Him comfort.

I want to talk to you. Will you speak to me? I said, yes. He said, I was saved in my room about three weeks ago and I gave my heart to the Lord and I knew He wanted me. He's called me. But I have no knowledge of these things and I have come to these meetings for a week.

I don't belong in this church at all. This is not my place at all but I have come because somebody gave me a little ticket that said a teacher was going to be here and I wanted teaching. I had asked the Lord I said, Lord, can you send me somebody that can teach me?

And the woman gave me that ticket with that name and I've come here. I have listened to this for a week. I can never tell you what it's done for me. He says, you have revolutionized my whole thinking processes.

Have you any literature? Well, I said, I have some tracts at home but I don't bring books and tracts with me. He says, I'd like them if I give them a name. I said, well, you give me your name and address and when I get home I would be very happy to send you some of my tracts and literature that might help you.

He said, I'll be glad to do it. So he went over here and wrote it and put it on a paper and I put it in my pocket. I went home after the meeting and I was undressing getting ready for bed and I thought, oh dear, that order for tracts, I better put it somewhere where I can keep it.

And I opened it and there was a check for $500. Well, I said, well, Lord, I said, Lord, I don't know who he is. Where did he come from? Well, he said, I know all of that. Said I not unto thee that if thou wouldst believe thou wouldst see the glory?

He brought me this old thing. I said, I do. I only thought maybe $5. Well, he says, I can give you $500. That's the money in the world is mine and you're mine as a child. If you'd like to have a big father like that, I can give you $500.

That's all right. I said, Lord, I don't know who he is. I didn't thank him because I thought it was an order for tracts. So Sunday night, I went back and I preached and the Lord said, Give another altar call.

There's unfinished work Friday. Finish this work Sunday night. There are people here tonight who are not here. I want them to come to God. You give the call. And I stepped down and you know that place was filled again on Sunday night.

Just filled. Here in the world praying, seeking God, looking to God and this gentleman came down the aisle, you know, and I said, Oh, mister, I said, I don't know what to say to you. I don't know you.

I've never seen you before, but I appreciate what you have given me. Now, that's all right. He says, that's all right. But I said, I want the address so I can send you these tracts. So he went and wrote his address and I went home and I undressed and when I went to undress, there was another check for $500.

I said, Well, Lord, the Lord says, said I not unto thee that if thou wilt to believe, thou shall see? I said, Yes, Lord, I think I see. Well, how many see miracles like that? And like a little miracle, he threw in.

All for nothing. I said, Lord, I don't yet know who under heavens he is. Where did he come from? He says, He's one of my children. You don't have to know all about that. Now, he says, You go on. Well, how many know I got started?

Faith, Surrender, and Protection on the Journey

Well, that's one little illustration. I could stand here the rest of the night and give you illustrations and some of them are really miracles that God has wrought because he keeps his word. He says, You must have faith.

I'm not conscious of having anything. I'm just conscious that I have God and He's big and plentiful. Would you have a technique and a certain thrill and a courage? I said, I haven't anything. I've just got God and God says, We'll get along just fine.

And there we go. Let me tell you this. I'm a poor sailor. I've been sick on the Atlantic two times enough to... How many have ever been seasick? Isn't that terrible? Oh, I think he wanted to die and can't.

I said, Lord, I'm willing to die if you only let me die. But he wouldn't. He just kept me... And I've been sick like that two times on the Atlantic. I thought I would really die. And here was this trip ahead of me and I said, Lord, you sure got me in a mess.

You know I'm no sailor. I get deathly sick and now you're asking me to cross the Pacific Ocean. I said, Lord, let's pray about this. I want to pray. So I got down before the Lord and I said, Lord, I don't know.

You know that I get terribly seasick. But if you want me to get seasick and go on this trip by your grace, I'll get sick then and do it if you want that. How do you know what I mean? I surrendered to it.

I said, maybe you have that as a method to reach some... Maybe the porter or the man in the ship. Maybe you have some contacts you want me to have by being sick. Maybe you have somebody bring me a drink of water and I'll win them to Jesus or some kind of a thing.

Like folks have these funny things. And I thought maybe I was going to have one of them. But I said, anyway, Lord, I surrender. And I really meant it. I said, you've suffered for me. Why couldn't I suffer seasickness if that's what you want?

And if you want me to be sick for your glory that you're going to get something out of this thing, I'm the victim and you can have me. And I meant it from the bottom of my heart. I meant it just as much as I know I'm saved.