So, that it's not so much about going out and looking for these great experiences, and I have a confession. You know, when I look back eight, nine years ago, it was right before, and as I look back, the timing was pretty funny, but it was right before I went to work and in the job that turned into Mediagratia, was thinking that I was headed into seminary full time, had felt called into ministry, didn't know if it was the ministry or some sort of ministry, but I took a cabin in a state park here up in North Mississippi and went and spent the weekend by myself and just, you know, took the scriptures, but I went out and spent a lot of time just by myself on a rock, you know, no Bible, praying, but was really bothered that after the time of prayer was clearly done, there was a sense of where I was really crying out to the Lord for some kind of, you know, to meet with me and to make it clear what I needed to do next in life and to, you know, give me what I need to be able to do that and that Bible, even though I read it some, it was pretty neglected on that trip and I remember driving home thinking, well, you know, I guess I was expecting the sky to open up and for, you know, something to happen and I don't know that it did.