So I Made an Album

Complete self-promotion podcast. I'm just gonna be straight up with you from the beginning. We're not gonna talk about any politics on this we're gonna talk about music and of course the Musical tracks I've written in the album that I have coming out Tomorrow tomorrow is the launch.

So this is what are we doing this Friday night, right? So it's it's the end of January. February 1st tomorrow is the launch of the album and with me to Listen to some tracks and talk about it is the producer Tim Bushong Who produces all kinds of things at t-bush studios in Syracuse, Indiana?

He is also the pastor of Syracuse Baptist Church, and you can follow him on X. What's your ex-handle t-bush? 1689. So we're talking about my album and stuff obviously, but you know, you have some experience so I'll just say I the reason I wanted to do it with you is because I Figured you know, you you already do the intro track if people don't know people actually someone just asked me two days ago John Who does your intro tracks put me in contact with them?

Because then yeah, yeah.

That.

You know, you you heard me do it on an acoustic guitar. Yeah, and said let me let me do a better version sent it to me and it's been the track on my podcast ever since so I knew you from obviously that but I've come out to the Jesus and politics conference at least three times in your studio set up and You're you know, you were big into Christian music at one time and obviously you still do Christian albums and so forth but you used to be touring and so forth and You know, you know what you're doing.

So. So anyways, I had a good time. I came out there and we spent what two days just yeah. Day and a half laying down some acoustic guitar and some tracks and you know. How did you get into this whole thing of recording because you do all sorts of genres?

Yeah.

Well, I've always been interested in in audio. My dad had a reel-to-reel recorder when I was a kid and so, you know. It's just fun to experiment. Of course. He's recording albums and then playing them back.

Okay, that's fine. But then when you have a microphone and you can speed up and slow down so I would do these long big, you know.

Kelly's Heroes.

Explosions that would just go on and on but when you when you slow it down, it sounds great big and everything. Well, then in high school, you know, I'm gonna be a rock star. So I'm playing guitar and you just learn to record yourself.

And so whatever technology you've got available whether it's a cassette deck. With a mixing board or a couple of mics in the room. You just figure out how to do it and it becomes kind of Enjoyable. So at the end of my touring career that you mentioned.

I.

Decided you know, I've got to prepare for the future. I'm not going to travel my kids are getting too old for me to be on the road. And so I put together this recording studio a lot of the gear that I've had for 25.

You over 25 years now is still excellent. It's not like all technology gets made obsolete so I saw I pung my shingle out 2000 early 2000 and Learned I had to kind of learn how to work work a computer better to get into the music software right off the bat.

That was a bit of a learning curve, but I had a guy come from from Sweetwater. He was a guy who worked there back when they were just a little place. I Said hey, I'll just I'll just hire you. You know directly walk me through some of this help me set up some templates and get used to you know.

Going through it because you know, you want you want to be future-proof technologically speaking. So anyway, I've been doing this now for over 25 years. All kinds of different styles did I play you some of the like the early hardcore and heavy bands that used to come through here and It was it was because they wanted to sound great big and aggressive and you know, everything's on 11.

We're just angry young people, you know and then everything from that to hip-hop to country and then around the time of that I Was kind of a recession in the late 2000s 2008, you know too big to fail.

I started picking up less bands and more singer-songwriters and that's that's you you're a singer-songwriter. You've got a bunch of songs. You've already written. They're arranged and maybe you play guitar.

Maybe you don't and I would have them come in and I would help them kind of realize and in flesh Their musical ideas and make them sound like a record, you know, whether it's like one guy was more more of that.

Oh.

Pop pop rock little loops here and there with a rock band or full-on Country, I got to send you the link to the hankin it up Jones in it down song man. This is. It's just kind of fun fun to see people's response to hey check this out that I recorded this 22 years ago.

You know.

So I really enjoyed doing the country stuff though to be honest. Yeah, so I was going I was going back man this goes back to 0809 where I did two full-length country albums and then then in 2001 I did like this kind of gospel quartet Album with a guy where I was singing bass and all that.

Did you did you say daddy's saying bass? Did you mama's saying dinner? Yeah, I got the the hee-haw honeys in the back there.

But.

Anyway, so that that now is what I primarily do although I do have a kind of a Celtic punk band. Coming in next month. They're just oh dude there if you remember the song I'm a sailor peg and I lost my leg.

I'm enough the top sale. It's the Man from Boston but these guys are kind of like that where they're they have penny whistle and flute and mandolin and Marshall stacks and rock band and it's all put these guys are so fun to work with.

But the majority of my work is doing stuff like we just did with you guy comes in. Here's my idea.

Okay.

Sometimes I'm just working with pure scratch tracks and I I do everything. What's nice about your record and well, here's some of this. Is that you were able to play an awful lot almost all the acoustic guitar parts.

In fact on the record are you and you were able to play along with a click track? Well that way I've got a reference point. So later on when I add bass guitar. Drums, you know, maybe some electric some background vocals.

There's this reference point that we can all play together with right? So that's that's primarily, you know, I I passed her full-time. I also still tune pianos on the side. But I really do enjoy Making music and producing music and it's probably you know, to be honest.

It's it's my bailiwick my wheelhouse.

Yeah, well you were in obviously you talked about like some of the Influences and so forth like hard rock punk rock or have metal I guess. Yeah. Yes, we're in love war. You were in the channel surfers, yeah, I think you can still find that if you're looking for it.

Yeah, we're we're we're on Spotify people on Spotify.

But you know, you live in the middle of a cornfield. I'm just gonna point that out. So forget the woods. Yeah, I don't. People are sensitive from Indiana. I don't want to.

Yeah.

You ignorant Hoosiers your hair's too long you're lazy and your music stinks and we're like, hey don't be knocking my music now.

Yeah, well anyone from outside the Midwest though, you know that we think the whole Midwest is one big cornfield, I suppose. Yeah, yeah, there's obviously a lot of country influence in that area I'm sure that you know, if you walk into a grocery store or yeah, there's gonna be a lot of country music and so forth.

I just went down to the Walmart. And what do you think was playing outside? It was off the country station, so, you know, I and I know you understood that kind of thing and I.

You know, I grew up on my parents I I think would say that they're eclectic but Reality the the their eclectic Ness is anything from like, you know 70s pop to like, you know 80s 90s Christian contemporary, right?

Classic country, right? That's that eclectic. That's the span I think of course, you know, they both enjoyed a classical music to some extent. Yeah, but. But you know my mom, you know where they had point of agreements I found this with my wife too.

Like that's what your kids end up knowing right is what what mom and dad will both allow themselves to play cars. Yeah, like so that's that was like John Denver Glen Campbell, you know, my dad had some like really old like sons of the Pioneer stuff and oh, I love those guys.

Yes.

And try to think what else like what was what was the act they did they they they would bring out a Horse skull that was duct-taped and he goes and he's like ladies and gentlemen I present you with two of the most famous horses in the Western film tradition the top half is trigger and the bottom half is None other than the Lone Rangers horse from this, you know.

Oh.

Hilarious wagon shows or something. Yeah, you know like yeah, there's a whole tradition there, which I guess we don't have time to talk about with. You know like cowboy poetry and rodeo clowns. They have there's this Comedic feature even to their poetry and yes it comes to like even the newer kind of Western bands like trying to think of Who is the one that did like those Toy Story movies?

There was like that that they they sound like the Sons of the Pioneers, but they yeah. Yeah, this whole comedy routine that they do as well. Yeah, so it's a little tongue-in-cheek.

And I was just literally thinking about this the difference between Love War and the Channel Surfers is that love where we were more serious. Apologetic minded CS Lewis and Schaefer and the music was kind of like progressive metal.

The Channel Surfers was much more playful. Little a little more tongue-in-cheek even though we're dealing with some serious subject matter. It was genuinely like hey. You know. We're all in on this so let's enjoy the ride and you know that kind of thing.

Yeah, but it was. There's definitely a difference between the two. Well one of the things that I think we were able to do.

We because you do have such a broad Taste and I mean you're able to be very versatile with your guitar as well with different styles but I could tell you things that I knew only someone in your Of your generation would be able to understand like one of the songs.

We'll play it in a moment. But yeah, it was like gentle on my mind guitar or drum brushes, you know. Yeah, yeah, exactly gamble gentle on mine, but I was like, you know, no. Yeah, then we'll know then we'll know anyway.

All right, let's uh, let's talk about or you want to do your video first?

And then we'll I just want I want people to see that we have there. We have evidence of Me recording. Okay. Yeah, and this is actually tracking. I ain't apologizing. Oh.

Yeah. Yeah, that's the first song on the so you can see the little.

At the at the right of the cursor there. We're being we're recording literally. Oh. It just picked up a sample rate. Dude Erdeney do daring this beheaded. Yeah, that's how it is. Yeah, it's just yeah.

That's how the whole thing starts, which there's not a whole band there. It's just me and a guitar, right? All right, I have had I've been in bands like I had garage band days with buddies and I do Music ministry at my church and so forth.

Yeah, but to get everyone to Indiana into the right location. One. I mean that you're talking a lot of money and yeah, yeah, I mean I was already going there for the conference so I just said hey could we lay down this acoustic guitar and voice track and then Bring in the other stuff from a distance and I was impressed with that because my brother plays on this.

There's a flute player from my church. Yeah, the there's a pianist from my church Liz and I just you know with my computer. Recorded their parts sent it to you and it just all flowed.

I'll tell you what that the the advances in technology I mean we just take it for granted that you're gonna upload Upload the track to a drive account and I'll grab it and put it where it needs to be.

Well back in the I remember in the late 90s being amazed that the Steve Miller band was recording across The different coasts with each other by FedExing a dat tapes to each other literally physical You know property, but it would take a day to get there and they're paying Exorbitant fee to overnight it but it's still cheaper than flying everybody out to a big expensive studio so even then even then with With the oh the da88 machines and all that stuff It still made sense to have some kind of little home studio that you could do a lot of work in and that's where you Guys you guys did great.

I mean David's track your brother David background vocals mandolin Your extra stuff the flute the piano we got we we got that all to fit in and sound really nice Within the parameter plus then we had the violin player come One afternoon.

He just nailed it nailed it. Yeah. Oh, yeah, that's just.

Beautiful stuff. It was it was kind of the missing piece actually in a way. It really brought in. I mean, I like pedal steel guitar too, but who play yeah, so. You know if you can't they're they're they're not the same but there's similarities obviously between a fiddle and a pedal steel and.

And he just kind of filled it in. But alright, so let's get into it. But if people just really if people want to record with you, I want to give you the plug. How should they contact you?

First deposit. Let's see, no in my PayPal account and then I'll respond to you. No, you can. You can find me on X. Find me on Facebook Tim Bouchon. Tim Bouchon music is a Facebook. So I'm easy to get a hold of you know, all right.

Sounds good. All right. Well, like I got several things queued up here. All right, so the first track I Ain't apologize and obviously did a music video. And that was because of William Wolfe who said you need to release this before Trump.

For the election before the election and so we put a rush on it and you did it in like I mean I literally went in there with my acoustic guitar on like Friday and Monday. I think we had a version. Yeah, yeah, and I did a music video which you can find online, but there's just a lyric video.

And I'll play. How about I play your solo part? Maybe that's a good, you know, were you if I can't that was it?

That was a that's kind of a banging country. Country solo. I will just don't go along.

So they want to take our children and teach them how to hate The families they grew up in and how to love the state. Where could it be heading when doctors can't do their jobs? Monuments keep falling.

Police surrender to the mob. And parents can't trust teachers. And teachers can't trust kids. And kids can't tell their parents what bathroom they went in. I ain't Apologizing. But what I didn't do wrong.

The Bible on my dashboard. Like out on my lawn.

You can bet I'll take my boots in cuz my daddy didn't raise no son. To disrespect his country or turn his tail and run.

Right right there that's your solo there. You know that that doesn't sound like a metal guy. Doesn't sound like metal does it? No. No, that sounds like you know, like a Brad Paisley or. Oh, thank you.

Yeah, or I mean Brad Paisley probably would put actually more notes. He's like busy on when he does.

You know with with Brad he's such a tasty player and such a good overall musician, you know, it's there's the old adage of serve the song and You know any studio musician if you're doing a session, you're not there for you.

You're there for the producer and the songwriter and I've had I've had the great Privilege of playing on some on some big Productions that were recorded in big studios along with you know, the the a a list Nashville guys and Everybody understands you're you are a band.

You've never you've never met that guy. You've never met the drummer and look right next to you is Bonnie rates guitarist. And he's a big rock star and he's just a goofball. But you both you both got to play off each other.

So it's not the Tim show or the the George Marinelli show, you know, so. But but back to your back to your thing. I grew up in I was born in 60. So lots of musical influences and you know, I didn't cut my teeth on Black Sabbath or whatever.

I cut my teeth to hee-haw and Watching George Jones and Buck Owens do their thing and Roy Roy Clark great musicians. Glenn Campbell. Oh my stars. These guys are monsters. One of the biggest monster players of the 70s was Jerry Reed, you know.

He's all he's known for acting with Burt Reynolds in the you know, those fun Firebird movies, you know. So guys, huh? Smoky and the bandit smoking the bandit. Yeah with Jackie Gleason. He is a killer player.

Oh, yeah way beyond his. He's just insanely good. So that that would have been when I was a kid and learn, you know going from bass guitar. That's where I started to guitar. So I want to learn those licks.

Then in high school, you know, it's all AC DC and Montrose and rush and it's got to be heavy. But but you never you never lose that Affinity for the for the country licks and how much cool skill is involved in playing that music.

Like what you were playing there with the bends, I love the bendy guitar and the chicken picks and stuff. I mean, I remember yeah, I took guitar lessons from this older hippie guy and. You know, he knew he had played with Pete Seeger.

Pete Seeger's big in my own lived in Beacon, New York. Which is only like 25 minutes for me, you know. Pete Seeger's, you know big in the folk music. He's man. Yeah, well Woodstock's only like, you know, and after in 15 for me.

I mean, it's it's all over this area and. So he loved all these folk singers and he'd always give me when I was beginning to learn all these folk songs that I was supposed to learn and I just wanted to play what you know, kind of what you just played and right.

Do I have to go through the the long slog of of Pete?

Whatever it's funny though his concept of country because I was like I just I want to learn to play some some country music and. And he sort of like you had in the 70s, I guess. You know that phase or he says, oh, you know real men play electric rock and roll guitar.

And so. So he was giving me like, you know, George Harris and stuff and and I was like, I want to play country guitar. So he's given me, you know for country guitar. I can't even remember what the artist but you know, I keep thinking his mind Bob Dylan was like country guitar.

Right. All right. This isn't what I was thinking.

You're thinking you were like I want to play like those honky-tonk guys. The the outlaw country guys that you know that really really attacked the music with a little more Manly aggression and he's like, oh no, we need to go back to Greenwich Village with all the folk artists.

Yeah, I mean, I I mean I like some. But I mean, I like obviously, you know, John Denver was part of how I grew up and Glen Campbell and stuff. But I I did like I did like Lynyrd Skynyrd. I did kind of like Some of the more modern country guys.

I liked entered man. Obviously like Brad Paisley's guitar work. I thought he was amazing monster.

And.

Yeah, I mean trying to think like, you know Garth Brooks stuff. George. I love George straight stuff and they would have little solos kind of like what you just played. Yeah.

Anyway, is that called chicken pick? What's that called? Well, okay, so about 75 of the way in where I go. Where it's real kind of staccato. Yeah, that's that's more chicken pick, but I'm just doing it with a pick.

Usually the really good guys will hold the pick in you know between there. Well, let's have a pick. I have a couple here for chicken picking the hold the pick but they'll also use their other three fingers and.

That's a that's a whole nother art so I kind of fake my way into chicken picking with just a pick yeah.

So.

Yeah, I actually if we had more time I think. There was you know a few solos. I would have wanted to do on these but you nailed it. I was like that's that's pretty. I couldn't change that if it even if I wanted to.

That's how I want it to sound.

But that right there, that's that that's worth the humongous Investment you made in your record. Yeah, well, no, but that's what you want. You went. Okay. I'm hearing this in my head. I think it's like this and if the guy can see I've heard trust me as a working with singer-songwriters.

More than a couple guys have come from big studios saying this cost me a thousand bucks. And I'm I never was happy with the guitar work, but and I'll play it and I'm like, what was he thinking? It's all weird phasey distorted and I'll just pick up a guitar and you mean you want more like this.

Well, it's cuz the other guy was trying to put his stamp on it. Really referencing. Okay, who is this guy? What is he about? Right? What's he saying? And let that be the communicating device rather than yeah.

Oh, I've got this new piece of gear over here.

They'll love it and and the point it. Let's play another verse here. Yeah flavor.

Founding fathers would think if they could see us here. Fighting wars a world away while our own borders disappear. Well, I bet they'd have opinions and I bet they'd state their case. Which would likely get them canceled in today's United States.

What I didn't do wrong. All my dad's.

Alright so basically I this might be the only song in the album where it's you and me and that's it. Yeah, that's just my voice. That's my acoustic guitar and then you you put in a little the electric the bass the drums or the percussion.

And don't forget Matt Boris did play that on that. Yeah, there's no. Yep. Now. Here's the thing. We were on such a limited time right and so we I just wanted that bedrock of piano. Okay, just having piano in the song with chords.

So he was kind of playing a doodad. Whatever I went in and added some of that that run that goes between the the last the the second to the last course the last going ding ding ding ding ding. I'm just like I want to hear that and so I'm a producer.

I can do whatever I want. So I just put that in there. I've done that tons of times, you know where you want.

Conference and literally we're in your kitchen and I you know, I said Matt's coming early or you said that and I said, yeah He plays piano and you looked at me and I'm like, oh so we got him in the studio To work as soon as he showed up and He played for this one and one other song, but you know the point of this song and I think the style.

I Love it when the words and the style flow together. And I think this is an example of that like perfectly because the whole point of the song is that we're. We've lost our way in the United States where we don't remember who we are.

We're ripping down elements of our heritage we're canceling people who are just telling the truth about things and You know, we lived through this in 2020. I don't need to expand on that. I have friends who were hurt by that but yeah, yeah, but the point is to get back to this traditional kind of patriotic.

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Regional pro-american pro-local. Pro-christian spirit. And yeah, yeah, and I mean country music says that best. I think that's what you know, it's heartland. It's it's the kind of thing that you know, all members of the family can kind of gather around.

Anyway, you have a video here of Matt or well, it's just it's just a picture of Matt. I mean this poor guy I gave him a you know, a cheaper Casio doesn't even have weighted keys plop the cords in front of him and My goodness, why didn't he execute, you know under under extreme pressure here I'm trying to get him to play, you know, New Orleans style jelly rolls and he's like Sergeant shooting bullets above his head and he still played he still played.

Hey, you know kudos to Matt by goodness.

All right. Yeah. All right next song. All right. So this is the title song. I actually changed it I think I originally told you it's gonna be Oh grace how great your story and then I change it. Because you know, I was thinking originally of doing like a whole worship music kind of.

And I just I Write as many songs as I wanted to write in the time frame. I realize you know what it's fine I'm gonna this is basically who I am. There's a little sample of all these different experiences and feelings and so forth and and so I thought the the thing that really brings the whole album together if you wanted to make one theme is you know this this is.

This is getting back to it's a recovery of the things that made Christian and specifically Christian American civilization what it was. Every song just about has an element of that whether in the music or in the lyrics or both I want to communicate that there's something in the past that's worth retaining and not giving up and whether that's the wisdom of Proverbs for your your children or whether that's The fidelity between a man and his wife or whether that's right country.

These are all things that I think used to mark us that don't anymore as much and it's it's good to remember and recover those.

Yeah.

So anyway this song I I just thought this really is the theme song and it's called driving down a mountain road I'll say this briefly. I don't know if I told you this Tim. I wrote this right after Driving around the Catskill Mountains.

I was a furniture repairman and yeah, some days they put me in Westchester County. Some days I'd be in Connecticut some days I'd be like in Yonkers some days I'd be in I just you know I in these more urban or suburban settings.

But I loved it when I could be in a rural area in the Catskill Mountains. Going to someone's home and their driveway is about a mile long and you get to the end and it's just a family that loves their country.

Dad's probably a vet from Iraq or Afghanistan and You know you go inside and and they're they're usually very practical about their furniture, you know. People in Westchester County just I don't like the light when it looks on at that, you know, right, right.

They're very practical. They're like the frame of my couch is broken and I can't sit on it. I need a need rather than a want, you know more it's more practical. It's more efficient and I don't know Tangible they're into not the appearance, but it's for their family.

That's why they have furniture. Anyway, I was just thinking about you know, these beautiful areas Where there's mountain creatures the turkey obviously, you know their turkey crossed in front of me I'm sure I'm more than one occasion.

They hunt fish, you know. And these guys just seem to be friendlier and happier and have a love for their family that I don't see as reflected in urban Areas, you know about that in Indiana where you are.

So so I wrote that's what the songs about and I don't think I changed much but I Wrote that like 15 years ago. So here's a little Sam. Wow. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah some of these songs. I wrote a long time ago.

Mountain road block of turkeys in front of me. I'm cleansed. Air on a weary soul. Best thing God made to breathe. Suddenly it occurs to me the truth I see today things. I'm truly grateful. Husbands and wives stick together.

Smiling children shoot each other. Recipes come from the kitchen. It's a life. That's worth. Ever since I can remember when I was young.

Yeah.

You haven't seen this yet. Have you know so all the footage from this was one day a few weeks ago I went deep into the Catskill Mountains for a winter hike. Oh, yeah, and so I my phone you know filming the road and Put a little effect on it and I thought well this would make a great lyric video because this is the area that I wrote It about.

Sure. Yeah, I mean you can see how stunning it is. And I mean, I think it's beautiful maybe.

Dude this is you know, Washington Irving country here. Oh, yeah.

Yes, this is from the Western Catskills actually and 17 corridor, but You know, I yeah, this was a little more complicated. There's a key change in it and a bridge later on but.

Well, let's let's tell everybody that go for the technical. Hurdle we had was that we spent about 45 minutes getting that initial guitar track. Because it there's a lot to it. Oh, we're doing finger picking and all that.

Well come to find out. It was about three half steps too high for the key change vocal. And you were just I'm like, oh boy, that's not working. So I put a pitch shifter on it. It worked. Okay, but it's never quite perfect and So you ended up retracking your acoustic guitar where you are.

In the right key. I said just play along with it and I was able to you know. There's little idiosyncrasies here and there with guitar playing and I was able to get it all worked in there. And at first I put them both together.

I'm like, well, that's kind of cool big stereo. No, I didn't need that and I had added some left right acoustic Capo it up. So it wasn't stepping on any of your you know chord voicings for the choruses.

You know when it comes in it kind of blossoms a little bit like that. So we were able to use the re-recorded guitar track that you sent me from your house.

Well, I think that's kind of cool that all you used. I actually don't know this was or did you still keep the old note?

No, no good got rid of that. So all all that is is is the the re-recorded Sitting yeah, all right in front of the it's a look these. These microphones, you know that everyone has the road and and other ones.

Those are just the same Capsule as any other Studio mic like like this, you know, this one plugs through my system and I sing through it and blah blah blah. But these are the it's the same technology only it's connecting via just straight USB so yeah, it's.

Yeah, um, well, maybe I can find that area where there's the key change. Let's see.

And if I asked the Lord above to tell me about the way a Man can live a happy life. I bet that he would say.

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Family's that pray before their supper. When enemies love one another. Sacrificing for your brother when he's down. Sunset sky as grandpa singing on the front porch. As we're swinging when a sinner starts.

It's not all We carry on. Since I was young Driving down a mountain road flock of turkeys in front of me.

Well, I made up new lyrics. Driving down a mountain road. Stupid deer ran into me.

Fair enough you could have the other grandma got run over by. Yeah, once your song has parodies of it that's when you know, you've made it you've made it.

That's right people get a call from weird out man. Take it.

He's the key to success. He's the key yeah, I forgot what I was gonna say, but it's beautiful scenery and I Yeah, I wrote this I actually did this at my church years ago it's like 15 years ago or more and I remember I remember thinking after I did it I was like I'm not gonna do that again because You know, I was stepping out on a limb a little bit.

We you know at church you're so used to worship songs and so forth. And so I wrote two songs one of them is not on the album. Maybe a future project if right. Yeah, I did this whole thing on Psalm one.

I think it was and you know, I and and so, you know. People came up to me. I love that Psalm one. I love that Psalm one thing you did and and this one like, you know, just crickets and you know, I I think it's because It's I don't know like you're just not used to hearing it's it's not a Christian song like it's not a worship song.

It's not as congregational song. It's it definitely flows though from a Christian ethos. That's right.

Well the same the same principle would be. Like, oh I I painted this lovely Landscape. I'd better tack a Bible verse down in the corner or people won't think it's Christian, right?

That's just goofy come on, yeah, and that's the thing like I don't want any of the songs and and I I don't purposely have To think about. I just write what I feel who I am. I don't force Stuff into it.