Book of Romans, 8:19 - The Glory of the Christian (02/02/2020)

Last time we covered verses 16 through 18 and then actually went on into a couple of other verses, but basically 16 through 18 is where we were. Let me review just a hair and then we'll move on. Let's pray.

Lord, we just thank you for this day, another time to come together and study your word. We thank you for Jesus Christ. We thank you for your Holy Spirit who regenerates us, opens our eyes and introduces us to Jesus in a personal way and applies his blood to our bodies and our minds and hearts individually and equips us with over 33 different things in a moment at the time he saves us.

And Father, we thank you for having the loving heart that made all of this happen and what a wonderful God you are, what a wonderful father you are, and thank you for giving us life, sharing your life with us.

We could not have it in and of ourselves. Lord, bless us in this time of study to learn more about you in Jesus' name, amen. So let's start with Romans 8, 16 and just read through it in case you weren't here last time.

It'll kind of get you the context of where we're going to be. The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit that we are the children of God. Isn't that a wonderful verse? If you're saved, you know you're saved.

The only thing that can be an exception there, I think, is that if you're in a church with really bad doctrine, just terrible doctrine, they may cause you to doubt your salvation. But deep down inside, you'll know.

Humans could cause you to doubt it with bad doctrine, I think, temporarily, but I think this scripture is so strong in verse 16 that the Holy Spirit lets a child of God know that he's God's child. And so that's wonderful.

17 says, and if we're children, then we're heirs. And remember the little word if in the Greek often should be translated since or because of. It doesn't always mean conditional like it does in English.

I believe here it should say since we're children. We are heirs, heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ. And that means everything he owns, we own. That's what joint heir means. If so be that we suffer with him, we'll also be glorified together with him.

Well now that word if I believe means since. It's not like if you suffer, you're going to suffer. If you're a Christian, you will suffer in this life. Even if you're not a Christian, you'll suffer in this world because we live in a cursed world.

And so since or because we suffer with him, we may also be glorified together with him. And that's a wonderful promise, especially when we're going through the suffering is to remember that the glory that we'll have with him is infinitely larger than the negative side of the suffering that we go through.

It seems bad when we're going through it, but it's so much smaller than the glory that we'll have once we get on the other side. And that's what that verse is promising. And then verse eight, for I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not even worthy to be compared with the glory which will be revealed to us in that day.

So that's kind of sets up where we are. Now those three verses had two major points. The first point being that a saved person knows he's saved because the Holy Spirit lets him know that, but he also has symptoms of salvation.

And if you remember last Sunday, what I did was I went all the way back to verse one and all the way through verse 17 right up to this passage where we are, and I showed 10 symptoms of salvation. Now there's over 33, but 10 of them are listed right here in this chapter.

So we covered those last time, won't do it again. So that was the first point. The second point that we see in those three verses we just read is that we will be glorified together with Christ after, and I got that in all caps in my notes, after we suffer.

After we suffer with Christ. Now that is important because it leads into the why behind verse 18. Why did the Holy Spirit choose to tell us verse 18? Because he knew we'd sit there and worry about, we would focus on the suffering part.

Now the scripture focuses on the glory part in our future, doesn't it? But the Holy Spirit knows us and he knows the Father. He knows the God's mind and he knows your mind and he knows we will focus on the negative.

Does he not? We always do first. It doesn't mean that we end up focusing on it, but our first thought is often negative and then the Holy Spirit will come and give us these assurances from scripture that we have in our mind.

He'll pull them out and bring them to our forefront of our mind and ease ourselves. So when we get into a midst of suffering and into a season of suffering, we need to really remember this verse, verse 18, for I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not even worthy to be compared to the glory that we're going to have.

Now where it says, which shall be revealed in us, it's interesting because the word revealed is the same word as apocalypto, which means like the revelation. So it's really a reference to the rapture and we'll see that more as we go through this.

So now as we move into verse 19 is where I really want to start out today. The following description of the glory that shall be revealed in us is greatly misunderstood in Christendom and I really believe it comes into play as the true meaning of John chapter three, verse 16 and you've heard me say before, it's one of the most misunderstood verses in the Bible, John three 16 and it really is because no one wants to read 17 through 18 and 19 and 21.

If people would read verse 16 in the context of 16 through 21, they get a whole different picture of what God is saying, but they don't do it. They want to just pull that verse out and read it and say, oh, this means God loves everybody and blah, blah, blah.

Well, if that were all we had, we might think that, but it's not all we had. In fact, God wrote the entire book of Genesis long before he wrote John three 16. So salvation, you got to start in Genesis, which is where the depravity of man was shown and you have to know that to understand what Jesus did for us.

You never understand it and that's what's so sad. The gospel is really not the true gospel anymore that's being preached in this country mostly because it's a John three 16 by itself gospel rather than a whole Bible gospel and that leads to trouble.

But I think as we study these next verses in Romans chapter eight, listen, I guess I finally decided maybe, but I know I'll change my mind is like if I got stuck on a desert island and only had one little part of scripture, what would I want?

Maybe John chapter, I mean, Romans chapter eight, maybe Romans chapter eight. I don't, today I feel that way anyway. So, but look at this stuff, Romans chapter eight, start in verse 19. Let's talk about it a little bit for the earnest expectation of the creation.

Remember that word is not creature. It is creation. It is, uh, it's hard to say for me in, in Texan, but the Greek is teats, it's all right. And it means original formation. It's talking about Genesis one, one where God breathed or spoke everything into existence out of nothingness.

Think about that. That's the creation is talking about. Remember please. I would, I would fix that in your King James. I would put a line through it, put creation there because that is what the word is.

There's no doubt in my mind about it. It's not creature. It's creation. Now in the old English, when they said creature, they meant anything that was created. So to them, that meant creation to us. The word doesn't mean that.

So Satan changes vocabulary. And so you have to make those adjustments. It doesn't mean the Bible is not accurate. It's just, we need to make those adjustments because the devil has changed English since 1611.

All right. So it means creation, both in English and in Greek for the earnest expectation of the creation, all that God created waits for the manifestation of the sons of God. Now this word manifestation is apocalypso or apocalypses is the root word and it means the appearing or the coming.

This is a reference to the second coming. So that's going to come into play in this passage. So now it talked about suffering and then it reished, the Holy Spirit reassured us and said, look, we're going to be talking about suffering here and you are going to suffer in this life, but it has, it's, it's not even worthy to be compared with the glory that's going to be in, in our future with the Lord.

So know that when you go through the suffering, that's a part of this, but now it broadens the topic and starts to talk about what John 3, 16 actually means. For God so loved the cosmos that he gave his only begotten son, cosmos means the orderly creation of God.

It does not mean people. It includes people. It includes trees. It includes waterfalls and oceans and storms and earthquakes and hurricanes and diseases that come from China or wherever. All of that is included in it.

And in John 3, 16, in Jesus Christ died on the cross to put it back into order. He took a universe that man disordered by sinning and by the curse that God put on man and on the universe because of sin, man's choice and man's sin.

And Jesus, when he died on the cross, he, he did what it took to put it back in order. Now that won't happen de facto until the second coming. When he comes again, he will do it. In fact, it's already been done in principle.

And as far as the heavenlies go from that viewpoint, it's already fixed. But from our viewpoint down here, Satan still usurps authority that he does not have because Jesus took it away from him when he rose from that grave.

He no longer has that authority, but he usurps it just like King Saul did for many, many days. He stayed on the throne even when God had kicked him off the throne, didn't he? And he chased David around trying to kill him and David was actually the new king, but Saul didn't accept that.

And that's how Satan is. It's a perfect picture of Satan. And God allows it for his purposes. He allows him to usurp authority that he doesn't even have. And that's a good thing to know as a Christian, because you can always ask Jesus to remind Satan he doesn't have any authority over you when you're going through trouble.

And that's what the Bible means when it says resist him and he'll flee from you. Right. Remind him he has no authority over your house. OK. Anyway, sidetrack there. So the earnest expectation of the entire creation of God waits for the second coming and the rapture, because at that point, when Jesus comes back, very shortly thereafter, he's going to usher in a thousand year millennial kingdom and the earth itself will be restored partially or in a major way towards what it was like in the Garden of Eden.

It won't be totally without sin yet. That won't happen till after the thousand years when it's purged by fire, the earth, that is. But it will be restored with Jesus as king. It's going to be restored to a lot of the glory that the earth had in the Garden of Eden.

And that's then the whole creation is waiting and groaning for that to happen, as we'll see here in a minute. So look at. Well, so let's see. Sons of God there, by the way, where it says the manifestation of sons of God, it is literally the Greek word for a boy or girl child.

So it just means a son or a child. The children of God is what it means. So now look at verse 20 for the creation was made subject to vanity, not willingly, but by reason of him who had subjected the same to hope in hope.

Now I covered that last week. So I'm just going to briefly say this. The creation was made subject to vanity. Vanity means in utility, which means in God to God, it's useless, doesn't help God at all.

The fallen, the fallen cursed world is not impressed. God doesn't help God. Secondly, it's transient this, which means it comes into being quickly and then goes out of being quickly. And then thirdly, it means depravity, which means useless, unusable, ineffectual and depraved means corrupt, evil and perverted.

And so that is the state the world is in because of the curse. And that man is born into this world in that state because of the curse on Adam and Eve, their parents, their physical parents. And so the create, all of creation was made subject to this type of vanity, this depravity, this transientness, this, this, this, uh, in utility, it's sort of useless.

It's chaos, ladies and gentlemen. And that's the state that we're in, but humans think it's just wonderful. Humanists think it's wonderful and man can fix everything and boy, are they ever going to find out that's wrong?

So we find that the universe is in that state, but it's interesting that it was made subject to that state unwillingly. And what that means is the universe and even humans, even Adam and Eve, even though they wanted to eat the fruit and disobey God, they did not want the result.

They weren't desiring to be cursed. So that was unwilling on their part. In fact, Eve didn't willingly eat the fruit. She was deceived and thought she was doing God a favor. Adam did it on purpose, knowing what he was doing though.

And that's why you'll notice in scripture, it wasn't until Adam ate it when the fall happened and the curse happened. So because he knew what he was doing and he sinned anyway. But willingly, that part means he didn't want to be thrust into the curse.

He just wanted knowledge and Satan promised it and it was pride and so forth and he fell. But the universe certainly didn't willingly want to be placed under a curse, right? But look what it says. It was, by reason of him who subjected the same in hope.

Who is that? That's God. So it was God who subjected the world into this fall. It was God's will that it happened and some few people understand that. They think it surprised God when Adam and Eve sinned.

It was designed. There's only one plan and it's perfect and it was part of God's perfect plan. And last time I answered it with this, in case you're visiting this time or weren't here last time, I should say, listen, there's no way that God could have demonstrated his love if the fall hadn't happened.

Because he demonstrated it on the cross and you wouldn't need a cross if we didn't fall. So all of it was planned and as someone pointed out, John might have been you, I don't remember, you said, well, you know, Jesus was slain before the beginning of the world.

So obviously this was all planned. Now, verse 21, let's look at that because the creature itself also shall be delivered. Now that's creation again. The creation itself also shall be delivered from the bondage of corruption into the glorious liberty of the children of God.

You might want to place in your margin in your Bible by verse 21, the little words, John 3, 16, because this passage sheds so much light on what John 3, 16 means. God so loved the cosmos, the orderly creation that he had created because the creation itself also shall be delivered from the bondage of corruption into the glorious liberty of the children of God.

So the whole creation is going to be set free from the bondage that the people, we who are now God's children, we actually brought the world into this because of our forefathers. The curse happened because of us, because of humans and because of our sin.

And yet the whole creation fell into that curse unwillingly. And yet the whole creation is going to be delivered together with us. So when we come back with Christ in the rapture or we're raptured first and we come back with him at the second coming and he sets everything back in order, he not only sets it in order for us, his children, but for the whole creation, the whole universe.

So Jesus died for the whole, for everything in creation to put everything back in order from the curse. So the creation itself shall be delivered from the bondage of the corruption that came because of the fall into the glorious liberty of the children of God.

Look at verse 22. For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now. And they will up until the time Jesus comes back. There will be groaning. I mean, you're going to have earthquakes.

The whole earth itself is groaning under the curse. The stars, the universe, all of these, I just went blank, what are the things that hit the earth? Asteroids. Yeah, all these asteroids and things that the book of, totally went blank, the book of Revelation talks about will happen during the tribulation period.

It's all out of whack. It's all out of order and it's just chaos and it's going to rain in on the earth during the tribulation period and we're going to see the worst of it at that time period. But Jesus, when he comes back, he's going to put it all in order.

All that will be over for a thousand years. And so the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now. And not only they, not only the universe, but ourselves also. So even we as born again Christians, saved as saved can be, we still groan, why?

Because our body is not saved yet. Our body is still part of the created universe that's fallen and cursed and under the curse and it creates problems for us, doesn't it? In so many ways, either health problems or sin problems or whatever, not getting along with each other problems.

You can never name all the problems that we have because of this body that we live in. And our new man doesn't even like it, doesn't even agree with it and really should learn to control it better and better as we get stronger as Christians.

So we ourselves also, which have the first fruits of the spirit. Now look at, we don't want to go too fast through this, of course I never do. But look here now, we find ourselves as part of the created universe that was thrust into sin and curse and chaos by Adam and Eve, our parents, right?

We're born into the same sin nature they had, into the same cursed world that they created because they chose to and they will answer for it and have answered for it. Fortunately, God saved them by shedding blood and clothed them in the coats and so forth and pictured Jesus coming to die for them too, right?

But they're thrust into this and we also find ourselves thrust into it. But look what it says right, little nugget, right in the middle of this chaos is it says we have the first fruits of the spirit.

Now ladies and gentlemen, let's think about that a minute. That is a promise of God that one of the 33 things God did for you, the second the Holy Spirit regenerated you before you did anything, before you believed, before you repented, before you got baptized, before you did anything, he saved you and regenerated you.

So it's all of God, it's not of man, humanism can't have any part in it. It's all of God, it's not of man and you wake up and now you find yourself saved just like a baby finds himself born and had nothing to do with his own birth.

It's like being born again and there you find yourself, oh wow, I'm different now, I'm saved. There's a new me but the old me is still there and that's the groaning part, that's the part that's never ever going to be right until Jesus comes back.

You can't fix it. All you can do is put it down. You put it down, you kill it, you recrucify it in your mind all the time and you put it down like Paul said, I put my body down, I don't let it have a victory, I don't let it get what it wants all the time.

You see what I'm saying? I mean, think how that helps us. He said all things are lawful for me but not all things are expedient, they're not all good for me and he said this, I won't be controlled by any of it.

That's a great Christian, Paul was a strong Christian, wasn't he? I won't be controlled by any of it. My old man is still under this curse, I'm not going to let him tell me what I'm going to eat, drink or where I go or what I do or what I think.

If he pops a thought in my mind, I'm going to put it down, I'm going to put it under subjection of the mind of Jesus Christ, he said. That's where we got to learn from Paul how to live this life because we are still in a curse but we have the first fruits of our salvation.

The first fruits means the indwelling Holy Spirit. One of the things he did to us when he regenerated is when he put himself in us and sealed him in us until Jesus comes back, until the day of redemption.

Now don't you find it interesting that there's teaching in the Bible that says we're already redeemed but there's also teaching in the Bible that says until the day we are redeemed. So there's a past, present and future tense of redemption for us and another interesting thing is sometimes that word redemption, if you look carefully at the Greek, it is a different word and it could more properly be translated ransomed.

So, Jesus paid the price to buy us out of the slavery that our body was in and our mind was in and so we're not really slaves anymore. But the body loves to go back and put the chains back on if we let it.

But it's not rightly so and no one has authority to put us under those chains. So only we can decide to do it, which is foolish. It would be like a slave crawling back to his master and saying put the chains back on me, I don't like this freedom that Abraham Lincoln gave me, I want to just serve you.

That would make no sense once you've been set free but that's what we do when we let our bodies take control. So that part of us is still groaning, the old man. And since we're one, now isn't it true we're three but we're one just like God.

Like we are three, we're a body, soul and a spirit and the spirit should run everything from the top down and when it does we're in good control, everything works great, we're happy with each other, we're friendly, we're kind, we're everything like that, we're like Christ.

But when it comes from the bottom up, from the ground up, we get in trouble. And so it always helps to remember that that's how it's working. The curse still has a hold on part of us. But just as true as it is that we're a body, a soul and a spirit, it's also true we're one.

We are one person. So we're three but we're one, just like God is. So think about this. Because it's true that we're one, it is difficult for us to separate between the flesh and the spiritual walk that we have.

Okay, so it's funny, Charlotte and I are coming back from the wedding, or maybe it was when we were going, I don't know. But I mean, I just, I'm bad when it comes to, like I don't like traffic, I don't like waiting in lines, I'm an only child, okay.

So that doesn't go away when you get born again. I don't like to wait in line, I don't like traffic. We'll walk into a restaurant and it's one of these kind where you line up and get your food and I say, no, get back in the car, we're going to go one where we get served by a waiter because I don't want to wait in line for my food.

And I'm bad. And Charlotte thinks, well, he doesn't even want to be at the wedding. Well, that is not true. I enjoyed, I wanted to go to the wedding with you. But my attitude can get me in trouble because, like, I'm just one person.

And at one point I said, look, honey, I'm a spiritual man. She said, most of the time. I'm going, what? Did you just say woman? If I had an eject button to hit in that car, I'd have hit it. There she went.

But, but it's true. It's true. And she hates it that I'm using this example, but it's perfect because I'm one man. It's all mixed together and so are you, except some of you are women, which is a scary thing because I don't know how they act.

I observe, but I don't know how it works on the inside, but y 'all are different creatures, but you have, you have this oneness and this threeness and we, we just have that walk. So you see, we grown because we're still part of this, but Jesus is, what's the, what's the first thing that happens when he comes back?

Your loved ones that have already gone before us will rise first. Then those of us who remain shall be, what, changed, changed in the air and you'll stop groaning immediately. You will feel, who knows what, for one thing, we'll be floating or flying and you, like you will, the weight will just come off.

I think the first thing you'll feel is a weightlessness of the weight of sin, the weight of this old man, this old woman, this thing that gotten you in trouble when you didn't even want to be in trouble.

It'll be gone in a flash of a second. Now imagine that. That's what this passage is talking about. You wouldn't think this is a rapture package, passage, would you? You don't study it as a rapture passage, but it is.

And we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now all the way up till this time. And not only they, the creation, but ourselves also, which have the first fruits of the spirit.

If we didn't have that, we would be totally lost. We would just be totally frightened all the time and in fear and drudgery and burden. But we know we're saved. The whole passage started with verse 16, the section where it said the Holy Spirit witnesses with our spirit that we are the sons of God.

We got the first fruits. Now in a legal case, when you put down earnest money for a real estate property, you've bought an option. You paid for an option to buy the property. And when you buy the house, you now have arrived at the place you started out.

But the earnest money ensured that you would get the house if you want it, right? Now in this case, that's used as an example to show us that the indwelling of the Holy Spirit is not the whole deal. It's the first fruits.

It's the earnest money. So listen, we're one person with an old nature and a new nature living in this body as one person and we say, I'm saved all the time, but we ain't saved yet. Not in the true sense of the word, because there is a sense in which salvation itself, in fact, there's a usage of the phrase born again.

If you look it up in scripture, it's a reference to the rapture and it says at that moment, you're born again. Look that up. If you hadn't thought about it, why does it say that? We already say we're born again.

Well, in fact, we are in position. We are spiritually, we are already God's children and our new man certainly has been created out of nothing. It's like Genesis 1, 1 to a person. When the Holy Spirit regenerated you, he created something new in you that did not exist before.

He did not take your old self and make it better. If he could have done that, well, you wouldn't need the cross, but he regenerated you, gave you a new you that was never there before. That's the real you now.

The other one has been crucified, right? But listen, this is nothing like what it's going to be like when we're truly the sons of God are born again. When the rapture happens, it's just going to be so magnificent.

It's going to be so amazing. So much of this references this future event, but it does mention the first fruits that we already have. We are saved. We are born again. We have the Holy Spirit living in us and without that, we would be totally lost.

So we have the first fruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves, even though we have the filling of the Spirit and the indwelling of the Spirit, we still groan within ourselves. Why? Because there's a battle going on all the time.

And it gets burdensome and tiring, don't you think? I have to think as we get older, I love talking with my 90-year-old mom. She doesn't love the world anymore. She never did much. She never was into that stuff much.

My dad was. How many of you knew Fred Mitchell? He, like when you first met him, is kind of how he had been his whole life, like a baby, baby Christian who really was impressed with the world, Rolls Royces and pipe organs and all kinds of stuff.

And as he met Brother Otis, which Charlotte and I and my mom had prayed for years that God would bring a man he would respect and listen to, and it was Otis. For 10 years, he started growing. And by the time he died, he didn't care about any of that stuff.

And as we get older, we're more that way, I think. We care about the things of the world less and less and less and less and less, and that's a good thing. And yet, there is the groaning, still there, because that old man is still there until the Lord comes back for us.

So we groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption. Now, don't you think that's interesting, because isn't there a sense in which we're already adopted? Weren't you adopted at the moment? When were you adopted?

There's a good question. There you go. Don't you think? All right. He didn't even hesitate. All right, Adam, I'm going to go with you there. So why does this say, when we will get adopted? Isn't it interesting?

Waiting for the adoption, because this is a reference to the whole fulfillment of the first fruit and the earnest money. It's like the house, you're living in it now. You now own the house, which means your flesh in the bad sense has fallen off.

Nothing about you pulls against God at all, or against what you want to do for him, or what you can do for him. It's all gone. And so now you have the full adoption. You have the full born againness. You have everything that the earnest money bought for you.

It's now possessed at the rapture. Isn't that wonderful? To wit, the redemption of your body. Now, I happen to know later on in this study, but I'll go ahead and tell you. That word redemption there, the exact translation is the ransom.

I love that because Jesus bought us out of slavery when he died. And that was the ransom payment that set us free. And it will come to full fruition at the rapture. So long before John 3 .16 was written, God taught us the prerequisite of understanding salvation as it is described in John 3 .16.

He had long before taught us the prerequisite, and that is that we understand the depravity of man. Look with me for a moment at Genesis 2 .16 in your phone or your Bible, whichever you prefer. Let's take a look at that together.

I'll give you a second to find it. In Genesis 2 .16, it says, And the Lord God commanded the man, saying, Of every tree of the garden thou mayest freely eat, but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil thou shalt not eat of it.

For in the day that you eat thereof, you shall surely die. Then jumping to Genesis 3 .3, For of the fruit of the tree which is in the midst of the garden, God hath said, You shall not eat of it, neither shall you touch it, lest you die.

Satan kind of changed it. He didn't say don't touch it, but Satan added that. And the serpent said unto the woman, Ye shall not surely die. Actually, the woman said that to the serpent. Eve is the one that changed it.

But the serpent comes back and says, You won't really die. Now there is your devil. You don't have to obey God. There's no consequences. Don't worry about it. God's really a God of love. He loves everybody, and He wants you to know everything He has and everything.

By the way, He made you that way, so don't worry about it. Feels good to do it, right? Wasn't that from the 60s? Yeah. Still today, isn't it? Look at verse 5. For God doth know that in the day that you eat thereof, then your eyes will be open, and you shall be as...

And I want you to pencil this in for sure. It is not God's. It is God. That's a bad English translation. It is Elohim, which is plural and can be translated God's, but everywhere else in the context of this passage, Elohim is translated God Almighty.

It's the one true God. So now, you need to know that because it makes a big difference in the meaning. So think about it when you read it this way. Please pencil in and put God with a capital G right there.

For God, see how it has a capital G, the second word in verse 5? It's the same Hebrew word as the one God, so why change it? You see what I'm saying? It's not a good translation into the English. The Hebrew is the same word.

It's God Almighty. So for God does know that in the day that you eat the fruit thereof, Satan is talking here to Adam and Eve. He says, then your eyes shall be open, and you shall be God. Tell me that doesn't change the meaning.

Isn't that what we are before we get saved? We're God of our life? I remember when I got saved, I didn't know how to say it right. I was in my car driving along the road, and the Holy Spirit quickened me, and the first response I had was, Lord, I want you to be my boss instead of me being my boss because I'm not a very good one.

I knew that it meant that I was giving up Godship of my life and letting God be God of my life. I knew that somehow. I'd heard the gospel enough, I guess, to know. I yielded that, but I was already saved when I prayed that prayer.

I used to think that prayer is what saved me, but now I know better. You know what I'm saying? That prayer was a response. The Holy Spirit had already quickened me. I didn't know what hit me. I went home that day and told Charlotte when I got back from Mahea.