Inspirational Story of River Grace

Through the work of the people that were serving out at the mill was through them and through Jesus Christ that I decided that I was meant to be a mother, specifically her mother. This is River Grace and my name is Grace.

She is six months old. She's so gentle and sweet. I actually call her a Jesus baby. She just has the most gentle spirit ever. She's just perfect. I mean, I really can't explain what a good baby she is.

She doesn't cry and she's not really fussy or anything and she's patient with me and it's like God knit her perfectly together for me like we're a team, you know. When I got pregnant I thought that it was not the right time.

I didn't have a job. I was living with my dad. Was not in a relationship with the father of the child. I had several people that had been proponents of having an abortion. I battled a lot with searching for love and some self-esteem issues and things like that.

When I went to the abortion mill I felt like it wasn't the right time to have a child and that's what led me there is I felt like the circumstances in my life weren't right. Other people in my life said that, you know, very cut and dry things like just get it done, just do it, get it over with and you can move on with your life kind of thing.

What I knew in my heart God wanted me to do was to ultimately have her. I knew that she was special and I knew that I was meant to be a mother. I kept going back but each time I went, you know, there were deterrents and I started to get to know the people that were working out there and I may not be where I'm at today.

I needed them there to be able to show me that there was an alternative to show me that there was hope and there was mercy and grace and help and resources and it wasn't just superficial, they truly cared about me.

You know, we built a friendship, they knew we exchanged phone numbers, you know, they knew my car like I said, they knew me, they knew what I look like and they encouraged me daily, you know, when I went probably the the third time and I laid on the table and I said they did the ultrasound and typically they don't let you look at it and so I asked, I said, is there a baby and she said, yeah, it's about the size of the fingernail and so I broke down in tears and, you know, I knew that it was something I couldn't do and I knew that regardless of if I had an abortion, I would always be a mother.

She was a baby, she had a beating heart, I struggled with going back and forth if it was a girl or a boy, things, questions I would never be able to answer had I had an abortion. I wouldn't in a million year change my mind.

I feel like I tell people that I gave birth to her, I gave life to her, but ultimately she gave life to me, that she saved my life. I would say to moms that are considering going into an abortion mill to really listen to what the people have to say that are serving there, for one.

I watched tons of videos online, you know, I wanted to know what it would be like. I wanted to make something feel right that I knew wasn't right and searching for those videos really helped me to see people that had chosen life.