3 Encounters With Jesus (Pastor Jeff Shipley)

Total Depravity and the Human Problem

Now I want you to pay attention it wasn't anything in Israel wasn't their military.

We're gonna be in Acts chapters 8 9 and 10 now. Don't get scared. I ain't doing every verse. Oh wait a minute I need my glasses. I ain't doing every verse of these but I wanted to talk to you about this, and I thought this was Apropos what we're going to talk about is the reality of Total depravity now.

Let me explain to you Doctrinally what total depravity is it means this that a hundred percent of mankind is a hundred percent. Depraved. Okay a hundred percent of mankind is a hundred this percent. Thank you.

What I'm saying is this there is nothing in you That can move you one inch closer to God. I know there's so many people even today. I was talking to a young man. He's a police officer and some godless County.

And he was sitting. I said if I shot you in the head right now would you go to heaven. He said yeah? I am a good person. I Am a good person. I'm like you a cop all you do is violate people's rights. You ain't no good person.

You know what I'm saying. There's a piggy right there. Guys what we've got to understand. Please and listen to me on this because you people are lied to every day. You people are lied to every day and some of you kids eat it up.

You're taught it in schools. Do you realize that you're taught? Darwinism. Do you understand that Darwinism is the most racist thing in the entire world? Black people are Subhuman according to science and Darwinism you're lied to all the time.

Guys how many races of people are there? There's only one Pastor. How can you say that well? It's called truth common sense and the Word of God. Let's look at this. I want you to understand that we all come from different backgrounds.

I say you know wait a minute I'm done messed up. Where's my little thingamajigger again? Oh there it is all right, so if you look at Genesis chapter 10 Noah Noah got off the ark his three sons. They did their thing and they all went in three separate ways, and they repopulated this region.

Which was Pangea at the time and that from those three family groups? We get all the different nationalities in the earth you have a guy named ham. I always thought that he should be the Jewish guy, but you know just for Giggles, but you had the son named ham and ham was over here all of you folks with African descent.

You're from a cat named ham. Sorry and then the Middle Eastern folks. They are the smallest people groups. They're Semitic. Have you ever heard of Semitic? That's not just Jew. That's also Arabs. They're part of that Semitic, but anyways so you have Japheth sham and ham now.

Here's the thing those are three different people groups right you can have a German Shepherd. You can have a poodle, but they both are dogs right you have three different people and from the natural Progression in those different environments their facial features and skin features change.

But they all can come back, and if you don't believe me go look up the original scientific DNA holder they all trace Ancestry of all peoples back to a singular DNA strand and by the way guess what science named it Adam the Adam strand.

How is it God you just can't make this stuff up.

Now.

They all came from those three sons, but here's the thing even though we have different backgrounds We all have the same problem because all of us come from Adam now. Let me explain you see I and this is on your little paper there now.

This is not the sermon for today, but if you actually want to study the theology of Imputation it's a doctrine. It's not theology. It's the doctrine of imputation it basically states this. I Was born in sin out.

Where's Jensen? Where's Jensen? Where's Mercedes? Okay, stand up with Jensen. Look at this baby now first of all look at his mama. Right away. She got tattoos used to have blue hair. She has a tackle box pierced in her face.

You know that child is gonna end up in a trailer in Millington, you know that I mean just right away he's probably gonna be sucking Pepsi out of a baby bottle, you know and cheering for NASCAR by the time he's two, but Father forgive me on that one.

Baby Jensen's so cute, isn't he look at that fat little face. I love the little fat feet. They did you know that they're fatter and taller because of the fat than they are longer and wider. It's just I just want to.

They're so cute. That is a totally depraved sinful human being. Totally depraved why? Well, first of all Romans chapter 5 says Romans chapter 3 first Corinthians. It says that our human nature is Depraved from the word go she will not have to teach that child to be bad.

But she will have to teach it to be good. Why. Because that nature is Rebellion if you ever had a two-year-old, I always love it when people say children are so innocent. I know they don't have children.

Because when you got a two or a three-year-old, they're the most manipulating conniving selfish rebellious Godless heathens that you ever meet. Right except for my daughter all my children were godless heathens.

My daughter was perfect You see because you cannot get perfection.

From.

Corruption you cannot if I had a nice beautiful glass of water and you were thirsty and I went. That's only a small percentage of the total volume of that water, but a little bit corrupts the whole thing I have been imputed with the sin of Adam.

Do you really think God says? Oh, look at those Baptists. Look at those Pentecostals. Look at those black people. Look at those white people. No, there's only two distinctions in God's Word the lost and the saved.

That's it.

Skippy and we're gonna leave this world and go into heaven and if you are relying on your culture your Identity or anything else to get you to heaven you are going to be smoking a turd in hell. Believe it.

Believe it. Now some of you are sitting there going. I'll pastor. I was brought up in church. I'm a member of Bellevue. I'm a member of Witten. I'm a member, you know, listen to this. What's the key word in all of that?

I.

I.

Asked for 12. For there was no other name given under among men by where we must be saved at the name of Jesus. And there's exclusivity in that name. But at the name of Jesus every knee will bow and every tongue will confess.

Jesus is Lord.

The question is are you going to do it here and now or are you going to do it in fear and damnation later? So we all come from the same place. We all have the same problem. But we also all have the same hope and I'm gonna give you three guys today in Acts 8 9 and 10 Hunter that's Acts chapter 8 chapter 9 and chapter 10.

We're gonna look at these three guys in their encounter with Jesus. Isn't that a cool map? I took me an hour to draw that Father forgive me for that line. All right, let's look at Acts chapter 8. We're gonna look at the brother first hit a black dude in a Bible, by the way.

The Ethiopian Eunuch and the Gospel of Jesus Christ

Y 'all know there ain't no white people in the Bible. Isn't that amazing? But it's a white man's religion. I've never understood that but anyways Acts chapter 8 starting in verse 27 now there was a deacon his name was Philip and he had chicks.

Little girls who grew up in the daughters and they became prophets for you Wednesday night crew. That should mean something to you. He had women who were Prophets of God, but anyways this cat Philip he's out and he's preaching the gospel of Jesus Christ and God says hey.

You see that Ethiopian and that chariot over there go talk to him. So let's read here in verse 27 of chapter 8. It says this and he rose and went and there was an Ethiopian a eunuch a court official of Candace Queen of the Ethiopians who was in charge of all her treasure.

He had come to Jerusalem to worship and was returning. Seating in the chariot and he was reading the prophet Isaiah. And the Spirit said to Philip go over and join this chariot. So Philip ran to him and he heard him reading Isaiah the prophet and asked do you understand what you were reading?

And he said how can I unless someone guides me and he invited Philip to come up and sit with him in the chariot? And you can keep reading later. Let's look at this guy. First of all This guy was an Ethiopian.

He was of the tribe of Ham and Philip was of the tribe of Shem. Do you see any of that denoted or annunciate or anything in Scripture? It had to make that distinction. No, it don't matter. The eunuch is sitting there and it says he was in charge of the entire Treasury of this woman Candace by the way, she is a historical figure.

You can read that later. He was wealthy. He was rich. He had a chariot. That's like a Maserati back then everybody back. Then either walked or rode mules in this part of the world. This cat had a chariot and he's sitting there and he's reading the Word of God.

You see he had just come from Jerusalem. He was of Jewish. We know that the Jewish faith was strong in Ethiopia from all the way back to the time of Solomon. Here he was reading the book of Isaiah. He had just come from worship now.

Listen to me some of y 'all out there. You are this guy you are hearing the Word of God. You want to believe you want to be changed and you're trying but you know that there is something Missing you see you got religion.

You want to have that? Understanding what you're searching for is peace in your life, and you've tried so many different things. Well, the Baptist Church didn't work. Let's go be Pentecostal or this church will do this or this pastor it forget all that garbage.

The pastor of the church is not what's important. It's who they worship and who they follow who is.

See.

Yeah.

There's something missing in your life. And you can't quite figure out what it is. And you think if you go to enough Bible studies or enough church Services if the music was just like this if I felt just like this then things would change.

But it never does does it. You just keep spinning right round baby right round like a record player.

Right.

And you still don't get it. You see the problem is you're searching for religion instead of the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. You have no might know scripture. I know God you ever want to know. People who know the Bible go to jail.

Man you talking about jailhouse religion. Them dudes up in there. Homeless people. They have heard the gospel 832 ,000 times. Friday night we were up giving out blankets and sleeping bags to the homeless people.

May you start witnessing to them. You Don't quote the scripture better than you. But there's something missing because they've never applied it and they've never surrendered their own. Will you say we all have the same problem.

But we also have the same solution. Read along with me here and in verse 35. In verse 35. Then Philip opened his mouth and beginning with the scripture. The guy was reading. He told him the good news about Jesus.

You know why we're here today. You people say well, we're here to worship God. We're here to do this. We're here to learn. Yeah, all that's true. What we're really here to do is to love and minister to each other.

And this is how I want to minister to you today. I want to tell you about a man named Jesus who changed my.

Life I.

Ain't talking about religion. I don't care about stupid religion. They're all stupid but man 34 years ago, I Surrendered my life for the first time and I stopped doing crack. I stopped doing coke. My mindset something got inside of me guys and it freaked me out from the inside out.

The way I thought the way I talked what I felt was important all of that Totally changed. The things that used to matter me didn't matter anymore. Because 2nd Corinthians 5 17 says this if any man be in Christ, he is a new.

Things have passed away behold all have become new. Has that ever described a time in your life. Has that ever described a time you like some of you said well, no, I've walked down the aisle when I was 12.

But ain't nothing changed guys. You're gonna walk on now and you're gonna end up in hell. Well, I pray Jesus into my heart. Jesus ain't no Labrador retriever. Okay, you don't go come here jump in my heart.

I ain't how it works. You submit to him and Peter I mean and Philip explained the name of Jesus to this man and this man got saved. Second thing. Acts chapter 9. Let's talk about this guy. His name was Saul if you look at Acts chapter 9 in verse 1 It says this but Stahl still breathing threats and murder against the disciples of the Lord.

Went to the high priest and asked him for letters to the synagogue at Damascus. So that if he found any belonging to the way which was the name of Christians back then men or women He might bring them bound to Jerusalem.

So let me explain what's going on. Jesus has ascended into heaven. The Holy Spirit has fell and all of a sudden everybody keeps saying all these Christian people will die out. Because Jesus is dead. The only problem is a spear or a cross.

Couldn't kill him in the grave couldn't hold him. He came out and people started getting saved left and right then the Holy Spirit of God Fell on God's people and they didn't want to just sit around and congregate in a church and drink coffee and eat doughnuts.

They wanted to go out and obey Christ by sharing the gospel with a lost and dying world. And that's what they did and they didn't do it by EE or the four laws or the Roman Road. They did it with their own experience to the Holy Spirit of God.

Speaking through them the Word of God says don't worry about what you're gonna say to them people. Open your mouth in obedience and God's Spirit will speak through you.

Yeah.

Every single time Paul could not stand it. Here's another type of person they hate.

Saul's Conversion and Conviction on the Damascus Road

Change.

Hate it and here's why you are such a control freak. You have ruined your marriage. You've ruined your children and yes. Usually I'm talking to women at this point because your husband is passive and not been the leader you supposed to be.

Your insecurities have led you to become a control freak in your family. You can't figure out why your kids are buckwild and in a rebellion. Well Skippy there is a plan a on how God said the family should run any Deviation from that don't mean you won't eventually make it.

But the scar tissue that you and your children will have along the way is more than what it needed to be.

Saul hated it.

He hated it and I'm gonna tell you another thing and I've seen this in churches for the last 30 years of my ministry. There are people who would rather rule the ruins than actually change and see the gospel of Jesus Christ preached.

This person's got to look like me. This person's got to act like me. They got to think like me. They got to be like me. I'm up here in my what is this vest? No cut. I don't know all the lingo. I'm not that cool yet.

I Love this thing man. I like what it stands for and I like who stands with me. By the way, if y 'all want to join up, you don't have to like, you know, kill two people with a prison shank or something.

Just go talk to brother David or any of the other dorks. There's there's John any of the dorks look like this. Yeah, brother David so happy. He just got a brand new 600 Honda and he's like so pumped up about riding it, you know.

He's like we. I get a real bike now. Saul was that kind of guy and he hated people. Because he was threatened by change. And so his idea was this.

Let's kill him.

Let's just kill him. Do you know Christianity is the only? Belief system that has been under 2 ,000 years. You have to remember the world's bigger than Bartlett guys. His 2 ,000 years has been under persecution and grown and Thrived right.

Paul said let's kill him. And so he got letters of Authority to go to the synagogue in Damascus Syria. And so he starts marching up there with a bunch of police officers to go arrest all the Christians.

And while he's walking he strutting he bad. He know he bad. He walking up there and all of a sudden Jesus meets him on the road and immediately he's blinded and It's funny. You can read I don't have time to read it all but it's funny how Paul's attitude changes.

I Hate them stinking Jesus people.

Yes, Lord.

Some of y 'all have been putting check. You've been putting check. You know what I'm talking about. You had it all together. You might have gotten a long face from the doctor or you might have had a financial.

God has tapped you on the forehead and said hey forehead. You're being stupid. You need to change. And some of you have run to the church or tried to morally change your life and don't work. Does it? You see because Paul didn't even know it but Jesus Christ was already working in him.

And when Jesus walks up to Paul. Paul sitting there going. I can't see. Jesus said this. I think it's so powerful. He said Paul, why do you kick against the pricks? Some of your Bible will say goads. Here's what Paul was fighting against.

You see the Holy Spirit of God was going. Hey a Goat was a sharpened stick used to get animals moving, right? Do you know what the word conviction means? Any of you in here? Christians are you deaf or dumb?

Do you know what conviction is? Yeah. Oh, yeah. Oh, man, I do and listen you can resist it. You can resist it. Oh you can.

For a while and.

Then it will just take you out.

Paul.

The more he hated Jesus the reason it was is because God was working in his life. Convicting him of the sin and the falsehoods that he was spreading. You sitting out there today. What is the sin you're so in love with that?

You're willing to rebel against God and the conviction of the Holy Spirit trying to get you to do, right? What is it name that sin in your mind? That is keeping you from the peace of God that you so desperately want and need.

How precious is it man? How precious is it? Paul's blinded and this is what Jesus said. I'll read it to you. Jesus sat there. And it says to him. Start in verse 10 start in verse 10 now. There was a disciple at Damascus named Ananias the Lord had said to him in a vision and Ananias.

And he said what's up Lord and said in verse 11 and the Lord said to him rise and go to the street called Straight by the way, you little internet warriors that picture on your little paper. That is the that is that Street as it looks today.

It's been there the whole time, right? I think that's so cool in the house of Judas and look for a man from Tarsus named Saul. Behold he is praying and he has seen a vision a man named Ananias. Come in laying hands on him that he regained his sight now look at verse 13, but Ananias said Lord I've heard of this cat.

He is arresting people like me and you want me to go see him? Okay, I'll go. And so Ananias shows up and he comes to a place and he lays hands on verse 17. And laying hands on him. He said brother Saul man.

That's what I love about this. This cat was coming to arrest him and put him in jail. The Holy Spirit of God. Changes. Saul changes Ananias and now he's his brother in Christ. It don't matter what he used to do.

It doesn't matter what he looked like. What was the most important is the same God that's in me is the same God. That's in you and that's what makes us brothers the Lord Jesus who appeared to you on the road by what you came.

Has sent me that you may regain your sight and be filled with the Holy Spirit. Let me just ask you this this morning. How many y 'all are filled with the Holy Spirit now Christians before you raise your little Baptist hand.

Let me let me let me help you for a second. Being filled with the Holy Spirit is measured in the litmus of your submission and obedience to Christ. I know some of you grew up. Thinking that it's a really cool feeling.

Okay.

I'm gonna explain something to you about feelings. Feelings are always the desert that comes after. Everything else if you are relying on your feelings on how close you are to God. You are going to constantly be miserable.

You're gonna be as high or as low as the song you're listening to or the sermon you're hearing or your attendance to a local congregation. But that obedience to God if some of you doubt your salvation or doubt your call of God I promise you we can look at where your obedience to God's Word is and we will find what is the original problem?

You see there is no greater Sanctification or no greater calling than what our Lord said in the garden of Gethsemane. Lord not my will but I will be done huh. And Ananias. Did what God wanted him to do last one Cornelius?

Cornelius, a Gentile Believer, and the Call to Humility

Let's talk about the white boy. Well. He wasn't really white. He was Italian, but Italians are the best race. I'm sorry. You know it's just the way it is. Acts chapter 10 verse 1. At Caesarea there was a man named Cornelius a Syrian of what was known as the Italian cohort by the way.

This is the fifth Legion and we have documentation of where this Legion was and it was there at this year. Hey nerds the Bible is not a joke a Devout man who feared God with all of his household games alms.

Generously to the people and prayed continually to God about the ninth hour of the day. He saw clearly in a vision an angel of God come in to him and say Cornelius. Let's stop right there guys. Let's talk about Cornelius.

We first had a black dude, then we had a Jew eating a bagel on a chariot now all of a sudden. Yeah, that was the first guy. Second guy was Saul who was going to kill Christians now. We have a son of Jephthah.

We have a guy from Italy. We had a guy from Italy and he's sitting in his house one day and some Tortellini and he's sitting there and a spirit of God comes to him says hey, there's a guy named Peter coming to see you.

He is my chosen vessel. Cornelius is like, okay. Now. Let's look at Cornelius. It said he was already a believer Christian so I'm talking to you right now. He was already a believer. He was a devout man.

He was in ministry giving alms. He was giving money to help other peoples. Yeah, he was in the business of praying and ministering and even though he was a Roman Centurion who was there to guard and to police the population of the defeated Jews.

The Jews loved and respected him. You know, it's funny. When I was a mechanic, I was a hydraulics mechanic. And I remember when I first got there. No one liked me.

I don't see how.

But they didn't like me and I'm gonna tell you why because the deacon of my church was the foreman there and he hired me. And they thought I just got the job because I knew him. Which was true. They had me starting sweeping floors and may not sweep down floors man.

And then they had me be a case cleaner. I don't know some of y 'all know what that is. My job was with a caustic tank and a pressure washer cleaning cases and I did that quick fast. I was like going to mechanics man.

Hey blah blah blah and they started showing me stuff. They started showing me stuff and I started learning. And it was funny all those guys hated me. But eventually they started coming up my desk going.

Hey mother. What is it? Oh, man. I'm sorry. I forgot. You ever had someone do that tell you you're a Christian they cuss around you and then they go, oh, I'm sorry Dude, you ain't offending me, but there is a cat you might be offended and you might need to talk to him about a year later.

I'm a full-blown mechanic now and I'm leading Bible studies. During lunch hour in the lunchroom. Like 18 people just like listening. Cornelius was like that. Even though he worked for the man, even though he worked for the oppressing Roman Empire his character spoke volumes.

Christian you want to have a witness with your mouth first have one with your life. You can't just sit there and go. I ask people all the time when I are you a Christian? Yeah, I'm a Christian. Of course you are you're white and you live in the south or black.

You live in the Mid-South you're white you're black, of course, you're a Christian, right? All right, and then I ask him. Are you real Christian? Are you just a church person? Some of them like no, man.

I'm for real a Christian. Okay. Is there enough evidence of your public life to convict you of being a Christian? Think about it for a second. Are you the cat with all the other dudes? Talking about, you know the blonde chick at the water fountain.

Are you the are you the guy forwarding those emails? You know, are you Michael Scott forwarding bad pictures? Are you that guy? Or are you really the guy that people know and they know you're a believer?

Because it ain't what comes out of your mouth of what comes out of your life first. Cornelius was that guy. But he still had some things to learn. Peter shows up. And it says here in verse 25 when Peter entered the room Cornelius met him and fell down at his feet and Worshipped him but Peter lifted him up saying stand up.

I too am a man guys. Let me tell you something real quick some of us in the Christian world are more devoted and loyal to our Denomination preachers or favorite teachers than we are to the Word of God.

I always love talking to Christians and they say well Votie Bachmann says or Andy Stanley says or Adrian, right? I ain't nobody caring what they say. What's the Word of God? Why do you memorize man's word and you paraphrase God's Word?

It don't care what pastor Jeff says what matters is what does the Word of God say?

Yeah.

Cornelius hadn't figured that out yet. He had heard of Peter. Dude. This is Peter. Oh my god. The rooster the three-time. Oh, you're that you're the Fisher dude in the hundred and fifty. Oh my gosh. Will you sign my Peters like dude, man, I'm just a guy Christians, especially you visitors in there.

I know That my physical appearance is awe-inspiring. I Get that I get that every man's dream every woman's desire, you know, I get it. Huh? I know That I'm the best pastor in preacher in the whole world.

I get it. I'm not. I'm a horrible preacher. I'm a good pastor, but I'm not a great preacher. I'm not a great teacher. That's not what I do. That's not what I do, but you know what I am. I'm someone who believes the same Spirit of God is in me.

It's the same Spirit of God. It's in little Brittany. Same Spirit of God. It's in Vicki same Spirit of God since God same. I Love you, Seth. It's the same Spirit of God. He's not elect. It's okay. Don't worry about it.

We're the same. I listen to me. I am NOT special. I'm not. This isn't ministry the choir nerds, they're not ministry you see. I'm just a man. Trying to show you what changed my life. I'm just taking God's Word and trying to explain it to you in a way that your life will be changed.

I'm I didn't graduate high school guys. I'm an idiot. I'm nothing. Don't worship me or your denomination or your past or your background or any of that other garbage. Don't worship your culture or your identity.

Don't worship anything of this world. Worship God. And it'll change your life. Peters like get up man. You're embarrassing yourself. But see Peter had to make a change to watch this even though he was teaching he was learning Christian.

Let me say that again, even though he was teaching he was still learning. Look at verse 27 as he talked to them with him. He went and found many persons gathered together. And he said to them you yourselves know how unlawful it is for a Jew to associate With or to visit any one of another nation.

But God has shown me that I should not call any person common or unclean. This church was founded in 1948 1948 and a man named mr. Whitten was a farmer who owned all this land. He owned all this land.

Right, and he gave this five acres to a little group of people and they called themselves Whitten Memorial.

Baptist Church on.

Two conditions. Number one and that's why I do not call this place Memorial. I hate that name. I think it's detestable because it's a memorial to mr. Whitten. Like how idolatrous can you get? But that's another subject.

For another time. He said the church has always got to be named. You can have the land Without money, but the church has always got to be named after me and no black people can come in. You know what I'm saying?

Like.

We you got to keep the race pure man, you know white people's Zieg Heil well, I don't call it with Memorial Baptist Church no more. And Dang, you can't swing a dead cat in here without hitting a Korean black white Mexican Chinese Mexican ease whatever.

We even got cripples in here, you know, you know. There can a lot can be said about that, but I really don't need to but what I can say is this. If you are a believer and you are stuck in a mentality of divisions based on something other than saved not saved.

You still have some things to learn.

And black folk.

You just as guilty as the white folks. Don't start all that bullcrap about Institutional racism. All the other bullcrap lies that the media is feeding you and Mexicans. Come on man. Best thing about you is your food.

Other than that and you can do the yard work. But other than that, you're right out of there guys. Quit worrying about what church they go to. Quit worrying about what they look like. Quit worrying about all that crap.

Some of you still have things to learn. I know that there are one or two ladies in here that are stressed out because I'm not wearing a suit and tie.

Love just grow up.

Mature in Christ. I beg you mature in Christ if you are a Christian and You got it all down. You are the godless heathen making the job of witnessing so much harder for the rest of us. Be humble. Be humble.

Some of y 'all are so worried about.

Being.

You're only known for what you're against. I hate them. I hate them. I hate those. Oh, I hate them. I don't like them. Oh, we need to not play with them. Oh, they're horrible people. Oh, they're godless pigs.

They're gay. Okay, but I ain't got to hate you man, I'll tell you you're wrong. I don't. I just don't hate you. The people I have to work on loving are the most I'll be honest with you our fellow Christians.

I'm just being honest man. I go into pastors conferences and it's just like There's just something in it because they all show up. They're all wearing the little you know, and they look so in their hairs just right and it's just I'm like Hey, man, how you doing?

Yeah. No, God bless you. Yes. We did baptisms this year. No, I don't care. I don't keep up with how many we run in Sunday school and all the other little stupid pastor questions where they're trying to gauge Whether you're real or not.

They drive me crazy. I'd rather be with a bunch of thugs Than a lot of modern Christians today. Yeah, right. I mean good stead, right?

Guys.

Grow up and mature. We'll close with this hunter. Do you think God?

Said.

For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God. How many of you in here have ever been to prison raise your hand? Wow, we got chicks who have been to prison. Hardcore man, right. How many of y 'all have ever done illegal drugs?

Good God y 'all dope heads, man. How many of y 'all Have ever Fornicated. The rest you didn't raise your hand. You're a liar. I get it. You are you have. Oh, no I have it. Oh, yeah, you just don't know what it is.