A WOW Moment with Vicki, Iesha and Karena

ahead All right Well, I thought you were scared

No, I'm not scared it's good over. She's the skinny There they come they're popping all my glasses so I can't see

Okay Yeah, I can't see all this

I can't see far away I can't see I wear glasses to protect The other people

When I'm driving Two cars and not just one big blurry car, you know, it's like I wear these for you people.

That's right. I'm here for you Oh This is what this is gonna be

I'm ready. Hi, Brittany Yeah, I said hello to you twice today at work and you did not acknowledge me.

So now I'm shaming you on our live Oh No, wrong

Brittany. I'm just like hey See that was the wrong Brittany. I was shaming

Brittany home. See she's over there just dying You're supposed to call her

Brit she's Brit she's Brit Okay, I'm sorry rewind we love you right

Hey, no need for you to be shamed None at all

Karina's been sharing some stories With us before they started which has been fabulous because I don't think

I she has really gotten to know Karina So it's really Karina's already been a little bit.

She's already broken the water a little bit with aisha. So she's already knows what she's in Broken the ice

Ever Cuz I use the wrong word water breaking that's pregnant.

Yeah. Oh No, no Broke the ice.

Okay, okay You're nervous for me whoo, it's getting hot

Oh my gosh I do this every week I've only missed a few times.

Anyways, good evening everyone and welcome to our Bible study We're having a blast if you can't tell already, it's it's really kind of warm in here and it is a little toasty

I think it may just be Well, she's young this is

There we go, that's why So welcome to our Bible study tonight my wonderful and most precious

Assistant is out of town celebrating her anniversary. So happy anniversary But tonight

I have as my special co -host is miss Aisha Howard which is wonderful incredible and most adorable but our guests tonight is the

Awesome and beautiful and lovely and hilarious and smart and Loving The wonderful miss

Karina Wilson she is Such a joy and Any of you women here at the church if you've not gotten to know miss

Karina, you know when she has a moment Y 'all don't bomb rush or anything

She's spectacular so We have asked her to be our guest.

Yeah, just that's Marty Memo thinks I'm spectacular Memo is spectacular

Memo says I boss her around Memo is spectacular, but Memo needs to be bossed around sometimes.

Yes, she does Um, I miss Memo so much And I love her.

Tell her I love her. Okay, I sent her a card a while back, but I need to send her another one I've been kind of busy

But anyway, so tonight we've asked Karina to join us and she graciously said yes

Which I was so thrilled about I was like, oh my gosh Karina said yes

This is about as good as having Dana on But anyway, so we've asked

Karina to bring a verse that she would like to study with us and She actually read the

Scripture a few minutes ago. I think y 'all are really in for a treat tonight

So if you've got 30 minutes Hang in there If not, if you if because I know a lot of people are in the middle of cooking dinner

So if you're in the middle cooking dinner, you can come back to us. We'll be here You can always catch us when we're done

So anyways, Karina What is this my first is probably tell you

You say your verse and then she'll read it out loud and then we'll discuss it. Oh, yeah We were too busy

Okay, so what was the verse that you chose for us tonight I chose Psalms 32 3 through 5 thank you

Which may catch you a little off -guard So it's fine it's good though, so Aisha will you read

Scripture, please. Sure Psalm 32 3 and verse 4

Oh and 5 I'm sorry 3 4 5 When I kept silent my bones became brittle from my groaning all day long

For day and night your hand hand was heavy on me My strength was strained as in the summer's heat

Then I acknowledged my sin to you and did not conceal my inequity and that could be iniquities

I said, I will confess my transgressions to the Lord and you took away the guilt of my sin

Would you like to explain Says the joy of my forgiveness

Actually This jumped out at me. It was actually part of either brother

Joe for just I don't remember which one it was a Sermon not too long ago, but it was not the main point if I remember correctly, but this jumped out to me personally because of my own experience and also because of Ministering to women and What I have noticed is that a lot of us struggle with being depressed and discouraged and all of that and sometimes as a physical problem of You know chemicals not being right or for my own problems or whatever it is, but also

It can be that for whatever reason we are slow to go to the

Lord when It says when I kept silent my bones became brittle from my groaning all day long when you are

Struggling with sin and What I personally have noticed is that sometimes it is

Sin like that you actually the Bible is clear. This is wrong your you choose to do it anyway and you decide that You're going to waller in that sin here for a little bit and You become miserable

Because The Holy Spirit is convicting you of that sin and that sin is stealing from you

You know Like the saying goes, you know sins gonna take you further than you want to go

Keep you longer than you want to stay and cost you more than you want to pay and that's how sin is and so why in the world do we fight the process and And Not go right to God with it.

I do not know But I know that it is true. And then the other thing is that sometimes it is not even true sin that we're we're reacting this same way because we're putting on ourselves an

Expectation that God has not put on us to be a certain way or whether it is

Because somebody else has said well this you know, if you if you love

God Then you will do this or you know Or you're supposed to read your

Bible every single day You're supposed to you know Whatever it is where it is not something that the

Bible that God in his word has put on you But you have put that expectation on you

So you feel like you are failing by not meeting that expectation and when you feel like you're failing

Instead of you turning and running to a loving forgiving God You do this you walk around and you're heavy laden and you're miserable as all get out and Your bones become brittle and you're you know

You're it's heavy. The hand is heavy on you and you're miserable, but then it says when

I acknowledge my sin or In the other case when you acknowledge that that's not even sin, you know

Why aren't we going to God's Word and finding out what really is sin and what isn't sin? You know, that's why the

Bible says that word has I hidden in my heart so that I will not sin against you We need to know you know, what he says and not what man says that he says

Then it says I Confess my transgressions to the

Lord and he took away the guilt of my sin and that is available to us whether You have never done that in your life and You're lost and you not have a relationship with God in your feeling the conviction and the burden of your sin

You can go to him and he offers that to you but also as Christians, I think that we oftentimes feel like when when we were saved and we repented of all of that and you know this

Enormous weight was lifted off of our shoulders and we're a new creation in Christ and we're so excited about it and all of that In my mind,

I felt like well, I'm not ever going back. You know, I'm not going to do that That is not a problem anymore because you know,

God gives you the Holy Spirit He gives you a new way to look at sin. You suddenly see it differently

You you do not see it as desirable You know as it as it was before because you see what it did to you what it costs you

Your eyes are open so in my mind I felt like I'm not gonna struggle with that anymore.

Well, that's not true. No Or, you know for anyone that is not true but Instead of Because when when we're saved we feel like well we're not going to mess up then when we do we tend to be even harder on ourselves and Not run right to God and and confess that and run to him as a loving father and One thing that I noticed because you know

Vicki told me asked her do you want to know what first I'm doing? You know and she said no

Karina You can just tell me

Thursday night because we do not study it ahead of time because this is a Bible study and right then and I'm just One thing that I noticed

Psalm 32 is written by David and One commentary that I read said

Okay in Psalm 51 Psalm 51 is the song that David wrote

As after his sin with Bathsheba was brought to his mind and he was broken over his sin

And that is the song that he wrote this song 51 in that song. He makes a promise

Psalm 51 13 if you want to read it since that's your job Verse 13

Then I will teach the rebellious your ways and sinners will return to you

So David made that promise and some people say that Psalm 32 is the fulfillment of that promise

That he is teaching the rebellious God's ways so that they will return to you to him and So When I read that, you know when you're studying the

Bible you end up on a lot of rabbit trails gosh Yes, and so the first thing that popped into my mind when

I read that if David was gone back and taken his experience of being

Broken hearted over his sin and going to God with that sin and he said

I'm going to teach others I'm gonna teach the rebellious then

That goes right along with how when Peter when Jesus told Peter that he was going to deny him and Peter was like No, I would never do that.

I'm ready to die right now. No. Yes Ready I love you so much and I I would never do that right and that's what we do

I wouldn't do that. No, I wouldn't do that. I can't believe she would do that. I would never do that.

Don't say that. I'm not Unwise right

Yes, yes, but Jesus said to him Yeah, because he just ignored all of that yeah

And bless it You really believe that bless your little baby heart right so he said but when you turn back strengthen your brothers and That is what we're supposed to do with all of our struggles and all the things

So why in the world do we spend time walking around with the weight of our sin?

When God is so willing to restore us to right relationship and Then to send us on our way to strengthen our brothers and sisters

Yes In our case really more our sisters yes, because we're sister but Peter was a brother.

Yeah But he might have strengthened the sisters. Well, we don't know But this really isn't about that we're making assumptions, but the point is that Why do we do that why are we the reason that I came up with when

I just studied this alone I Think a lot of it is because of our view of God's character is

That we struggle with and we have an enemy a real enemy and we have all these lies that come through our head

About what God's character is what he's what his reaction to us going to him is going to be

What he is thinking about our little loser selves. He's already told us a hundred times about this

Yeah, or whatever and my brain works in analogies and So one thing that popped in my head about this as I was thinking about God's character and especially today when

I hear When you just kind of listen to and you see on Facebook People's view of what they when they give their opinion of what

God is like but it's not based necessarily on any biblical truth

It's just kind of what people's overall opinion is or maybe they're basing it on like God is love

And that is biblical however, how we define love in The world how the world defines love is not

Exactly the same right and so a lot of times

To love somebody you have to agree with them and that that is not really love

But the analogy that came into my head with that is that as I was thinking about that Is we either there's two different ways that people often view

God's character They say he's either he's a loving God and so in their mind

They say things like well, God knows my heart You know, yes,

I realize that the Bible says and I'm not supposed to do that, but I'm going to do it anyway Because God knows my heart and he knows that I love him and he knows, you know, and all that Now just stick with me on this analogy here for a minute because it is probably gonna catch your car, but it's fine it's fine

God does not have bettered women's syndrome and It is almost like we think that God has bettered women's syndrome

Because I don't know how much you know about bettered women's syndrome But and I don't know why but I do know that almost every woman that I have ever heard or have ever seen anything on who has it what they typically say about their abuser is that They love me

They don't really mean to do that they It's not all bad

There's a lot of good times and then it's you know, everything that they do is not bad

It's just sometimes and sometimes that's because of things that I do and Yes, well that is oftentimes how

We are viewing God like we can like he has bettered women's syndrome and he can be

Manipulated and he He has gone to love us

No matter how we treat him and there's going to be no Accountability, there's going to be you know

You follow what I'm saying? I'm picking up what you're saying Interesting You know

God doesn't have bettered women's syndrome and he does not

His his love for us is not a codependent Relationship where he needs our approval

No he He loves us

Unconditionally that is true but for us to be in right relationship with him and for us to Be treating him properly there are expectations and He is all he is loving but he is also just and when they say the other the other thing sometimes they seem as all loving like he has better women's syndrome or they see him as all just as a

God who is Just taking pleasure and throwing people into hell and he is just standing up there

Tapping his foot looking at us waiting to smite somebody, you know, and he's he's angry and Biblically neither one of those are accurate neither is accurate

Neither one of those is accurate accurate There is some truth.

It is true that God is loving and it is true that God is just but God's love is a sacrificial love paid the ultimate sacrifice for us but he also loves us enough to hold us accountable and He made a way for our sin and he is there waiting on us to confess our sin

But he does not just say oh, it's fine. You don't have to you know, you don't have to repent

You can just say that I know your heart What You Have such a way of explaining things

The battered women's syndrome is spot -on spot -on and You're exactly right.

He's not And that really makes me feel hurt in my heart to think that I would treat

God like that that I would yes Yes, but it makes It really puts a lot of things in perspective for me

Because really this verse is very comforting and it's very it didn't sound like it at first It is our choice

It is our choice. It was his choice to walk around carrying that sin

Just like Jesus said come to me all who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest

The question is are you tired yet? You know He said take my yoke upon me and learn from me for my yoke is easy and my burden is light

What David was worn out? Yes, cuz I'm gonna tell you in 31 10

He says indeed my life is consumed with grief in my years with groaning my strength is failed

Because of my sinfulness and my bones waste away Yes, have you been there?

Have you ever been to that point in your life where you're holding on Completely to the sin and you're just completely broken because you are trying

Your best to pull yourself up by your bootstraps and to that you're you're gonna do this and you're gonna do it on your own and It's a pride thing in a lot of ways.

You're not willing to humble yourself You're not willing to admit that. Hey, I do not have this together yes, you're not willing to admit any of that and then there you are and it's miserable, but it says

That Then he decided he would confess his sin to the

Lord and the Lord Took his guilt away The real picture of God God is just sitting there waiting on you to quit being a stubborn little brat a man, oh

My gosh, can you repeat that for me, please? We've all we have seen those children where they are miserable and You're right there and you are willing to restore them to right relationship.

Yeah, you know, there's very different Look, we were talking about before this started about people's attitudes are different about Correction and all that kind of thing and some people are slower, you know to To welcome his discipline.

Yes, and in Proverbs, you know, he says if you will turn to my discipline,

I will teach you my words he makes promises to us and You know, it's kind of we can do this easy way or the hard way

Thing I remember when Dalton was little and there's nine years between Kendall and Dalton and Dalton's personality he can have some similarities, but they also have some differences and There was a time.

I don't remember any of the details of it, but I was disciplining Dalton for something and Afterwards He turned around and hugged me and I was hugging on him and all that and I remember

Kendall Saying what in the world is wrong with him? You know and she she said

I Don't want to be hugging on you after you just got on here. She would work it got me in trouble

I want to be hugging on you and But Dalton wanted to be back in right relationship, right, you know

And that is kind of the difference in us We can look at it and be angry with God because of the discipline that we just had to go through where he says you know a loving father will discipline their child and That he is a good father and then he disciplines those he loves and so We can look at that as a

Good thing of okay. Lord. I see I see what you're teaching me. I see the

Danger of this in I confessed to you I you know when David in Psalm 51 when he's confessing his sin he says

I send against you and no one but you and And that is really the bottom line is that even though there was

Bathsheba there was her husband There were all the people that he had actually send against but ultimately our sin

Is between us and the Lord and it is against him now there there are People we need to make things right with don't get me wrong

But exactly but you are sending directly against God And to go to him and to confess and to know he is a loving

God who is just waiting For y 'all to be back in my relationship And you're just sitting there with your arms crossed

Going I want to hug you I'll hug you now

Now we're talking about that bratty kids the brat on the floor Mm -hmm. Yeah, like another time when

Kendall was little she's gonna love them She said

She was mad at me about something and I said well Kendall, you know When we're angry with somebody we do not quit loving them

You know, we're angry with them, but we haven't quit loving them. And she said I don't love like that.

Oh Snap So that's condo, you know when

I pictures us there with our arms crossed and you know

I'm not giving this. I'm not giving this to you. I'm gonna hold on to you. Well, you're miserable.

Have you noticed that you're miserable? Yeah, because you could move on Any minute whenever you feel froggy and ready to jump

Anytime you're ready we could start every day Like that his mercies are new every morning.

Why in the world do we walk around for days? Dodging his mercy when he is so willing.

Oh That's my transgressions to the Lord and you you capital

Mm -hmm Took away the guilt of my sin man

Korea. That's really deep and you guys You explained it so well

First John 1 verse 9 it says if we confess our sins he is faithful and righteous to forgive us

Our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness If we say we do we don't have any sin we make him a liar and his word is not in us

There you go, so he says

That if you confess your sin, he is faithful and just forgive you of your sin and to cleanse you from all unrighteousness

So why it's that simple so why in the world do we walk around with this description of us being so accurate where we feel like our bones are brittle and we're miserable and we're

We're unhappy and we're like literally it makes you physically sick

Yes, it does and you can you start thinking I'm I'm suffering from clinical depression

Well in that case you're not suffering, I mean, I guess technically you probably are but it's as it's because You are holding on to that sin

With all your might trying to deal with it on your own And you cannot do that.

There's only one way. There's only one person and he says

Come on to me all who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest And he says confess your sin and I'm faithful and just to forgive you

Cleanse you from all unrighteousness It's really easy

Vicki So, I don't know why you're making it so complicated No, I can do it myself

Have you been doing it I Can't do nothing

Not without him It's seven. Oh boy. Oh my bass

It takes no time Okay Get any more stories on I Can think of Well, tell you what tell you what

If you think of one on your way home and you want to share you can always go live on our women's page and tell

The story. Oh, yeah, really. I've never thought of doing that you can Anytime you want to share anything you can go

Okay Okay If anybody

If any y 'all know Karina, you know, she's got good stories And they're always meaning behind them.

You learn something from every story. She tells Eventually Gwynn is liking what

I'm saying You can see that I saw the little thumbs and I saw her little head My friend

Jane is supposed to be on here and she's in Florida. So say hi to her. Hi I'll be having a good time and Janine at work is supposed to be on here.

Hey, Janine That's Jennifer. Hi, Janine. Hi Jennifer. Hi everybody.

I don't know if miss Claudine and Daphne are watching but hey Do y 'all too? Yeah, if they watch I Will Karina.

Thank you a million times one I got a lot of notes out of this.

That's good And I love it when

I don't really know my notes because I don't spell, right? She is the corrector of the speller,

I wouldn't correct you She will oh

I Would want you to yes

Yeah That wasn't a practice shirt thing. Yeah, so see

I was saving you from having the shirt printed out With them. All right, right the one that I made for Kate Ava Yeah, so they so now they don't say

Witten Medina ministry That's what numbers and letters all the time, okay, see so I'm here for you.

Thank you You're welcome the Lord placed you in my life for a reason. Yes, not just to give you welcome.

It's not obnoxious awesome and incredible and Excellent advice that you've given me in the many years past Well, I'm really blessed like I was telling you before we started

I'm so blessed just to be here So and to be a part of this whole women's ministry that we have it's incredible.

It's awesome It's it's something that I've never experienced before in my life. And I think that If Anybody has a ministry in their church and that they're not active in it.

I think they should be If your women's ministry is not real active then get in it and get it active

Or if you're in Memphis and you do not have a church home, we would love to have you

Yeah, I meet our women because we're great. We are We really are we are well

Karina is no we are So it's Vicki, they're all just fantastic But also we're not perfect no

No Right, right, we don't dress up no like you don't have to worry about that either just come on come as you are

This is what I wore to work today. That's why I look like this when I go to church. I have on a t -shirt I look like this pretty much

Do not wear dresses ever right now, I mean unless I'm forced to Like a rare occasion.

It's very rare Well, anyways, thanks you guys for coming tonight, I hope that you've enjoyed this

I've had a blast I knew I would I was so Excited you had fun, too I Told I said,

I think you're like Karina Karina's pretty lovable. She's so sweet.

So yes, I'll come back So we'll have her again

But anyways, I hope you all have gotten something from this study if you and if you have ever

Looked at the scripture. We went over if you've not I hope that you've gotten a better understanding or maybe you've looked at it or you've read it

But you've never understood it in the way that it was presented tonight. I hope that it has helped you in some way or the other

I always pray that the Holy Spirit takes over this time and uses it for however, he sees fit and so That's my intention just about every day of my life now, so I Hope that you all have a wonderful evening and My advice tonight is if you have paper plates eat off those so you don't have to do dishes

Fair enough. You like that one? Yes Good solid advice. You think so?

Yes. Okay. Okay. I got it. Well, you know what? Actually, why don't you because my legs asleep

My foot went to sleep That would not be pretty so y 'all don't want to see me doing it. So thanks guys.